What A Girl Eats

"Beauty is an ecstasy; it is as simple as hunger.  There is really nothing to be said about it.  It is like the perfume of a rose: you can smell it and that is all." - William Somerset Maugham

"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst, for they are sticking to their diets" - anonymous

"Wanting something is not enough. You must hunger for it.  Your motivation must be absolutely compelling in order to overcome the obstacles that will invariably come your way." - Les Brown

"What nourishes me also destroys me" - Angelina Jolie

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Silverchair - Ana's Song

please die ana, for as long as you`re here we`re not. you make
the sounds of laughter and sharpened nails seem softer and i
need you now somehow and i need you now somehow...

open fire on my knees designed on my knees for you, open fire on
my knees desires what i need from you


imagine peagant, in my head the flesh`s seem thicker sandpaper
tears corrow the film and i need you now somehow and i need you
now somehow

chorus
open fire...

and you`re my obsession, i love you to the bones and ana wrecks
your life like an anorexia life

Stage - Live Happy, Live Anorexia

Listen to the insects
Prey on the enemy
For when you hunt the loved
You hunt yourself
When the feast is over
You're lying down to feel
You're crazy and so sore
I feel like now to stop
I felt like this once before
Listen to the insects
Prey on the enemy
For when you hunt the loved
You hunt yourself
When the feast is over
The pain begins and holds
Until you have
No more stomach to digest
So live happy, live with anorexia

(I know it isn't about anorexia....but this is exactly how I feel about it)
Nick Lachey - What's Left Of Me

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Yeah...

[Chorus]
Cause I want you,
And I feel you,
Driving underneath my skin
Like a hunger,
Like a burning,
To find a place ive never been
Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,
I'm half the man i thought i would be:
But you can have what's left of me

I've been dying inside,
Little by little,
No where to go,
But going out of my mind
In endless circles,
Running from my self until,
You give me a reason for standing still

[Chorus]

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me: It's all in my head

Take what's left
Of this man
Make me whole
Once again

[Chorus]

I've been dying inside you see
Im going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?

This is my favorite song now.  I nearly cried when I heard it...and I am NOT an emotional person.  This song is on the first video listed on my Videos page.

I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games

I know the right words to say
Like “I don’t feel well”
“I ate before I came”

Then someone tells me how good I look
And for a moment
For a moment I am happy

But when I’m alone
No one hears me cry

CHORUS
I need you to know
I’m not through the night
Some days I’m still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we’ll be ok
Together we can make it through another day

I don’t know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better

There are days when I’m ok
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope

But there are days when I’m not ok
And I need your help
So I’m letting go…

CHORUS

You should know you’re not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don’t know when
But I know now
Together we’ll make it through somehow
Together we’ll make it through somehow…

CHORUS



Behind the Song:
“I think the most powerful way to tell a story is to be completely vulnerable and honest about ourselves. This song isn't preaching a message. It's a true story. I pray people will be touched by it and will be willing to see where they hide their struggles, their pain and then have courage to tell someone. They need people they can let into that secret life and love them through it. We aren't meant to make it through life alone. None of us have it all together.” - Tricia Brock (Superchick

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
UNFOLD me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere else to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
UNFOLD me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
UNFOLD me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

I saw you cry today
The pain may fill you
I saw you shy away
The pain will not kill you

You made me smile today
You spoke with many voices
We travelled miles today
Shared expressions voiceless

It has to end
Living in your head
Without anything to numb you
Living on the edge
Without anything to numb you

It has to end to begin

Began an end today
Gave and got given
You made a friend today
Kindred soul cracked spirit

It has to end to begin

Living in your head
Without anything to numb you
Living on the edge
Without anything to numb you

It had to end to begin

Living in your head
Without anything to numb you
Living on the edge
Without anything to numb you

Living in your head
Without anything to numb you
Living on the edge
Without anything to numb you

it has begun

Here are a some Chinese Letterings I found that made me think of Ana.  I have thought of getting a tattoo of one.  Small and on the underside of my wrist...but I don't know.

Pure

Perfect

Ideal

Genuine

Falling Angel

Fall From Grace

Ed

Born To Be

Beautiful But Fragile

Ana

Acceptance