3rd December 2006
hi everyone, damn, i know i haven't updated in *looks at date of last entry*... a long time. As you guys already know, i started Uni in September, and i was updating on a regular basis, and as you guys probably noticed, those regular updates started to decline and eventually stopped. This was because i had tonnes of work to do, and a week ago, i finally handed in all my work.
It's been tough, and i'm not even going to lie, this website was always on my mind. i've had a lot of time to think about it, and i really want to revamp this site. i was going to just carry on with it the way it is, but i'm not satisfied with the site in general. i think the site name sucks and has no relevance to the content of the website, i;ve neglected my affiliates, the number of visitors to my website has plummeted BIG TIME. I don't think there'd be any point in me trying to get the website views up again when i've still go this rustbucket of a site running.
So... what i'm going to do is if i have the time and energy, i'll continue to update this site but only here as a blog. i am going to be working on a new layout and a new website, i've got a new domain name, but i can't register it because i can't sign onto paypal until i turn 18 which is in 20DAYS TIME, (so i'll be expecting some e-presents ya hear?)
i also need photoshop-so if someone wants to hook me up-be my guest. i can't/wont use limewire because its overridden with viruses, and my computer doesn't take to it anyways. feel free to email me about any queries you may have, i know some of you have, and i just haven't had the time to email back.
i'll let everyone know, and my affiliates when the new site is up, which will probably be in the new year,so, if i don't update again , then happy holidays, merry christmas, and a happy new year...
Ella xxx
21st October 2006
i just thought i'd let everyone know that i've updated. i tried to do it last week, but the site was done and it just weren't possible.
8th October 2006
I need a man...
...there you go-i've said it. I've confessed. For a long time now i've been telling my self that singgle life is fun, and that i don't need a boyfriend-why by when you can just try. But, today killed me, everyone was loved up today-and i mean EVERYONE. It was like i had the word 'SINGLETON' plastered across my forehead and everyone decided to rub it in my face. I was at the tube staion waiting for my bus after church and this couple come and stand right next to me and start hugging and kissing. Thei PDA didn't really bother, but then suddenly another couple came and stood on the other side of me eating each other's faces off. As if looking like a lonely twat wasn't bad enough, a third couple decide to start smooching infront of me. At this point i'm really pissed off, so i walked up a little closer to were the tourists were standing. At least they weren't sucking off each other's faces-they were too busy trying to figure out where they were.***
I need to get my hair done (that's probably why i'm single FFS). I mean, i'm looking like Buckwheat right now
and i know that ain't cute. A friend of the family offered to hook me up for 20pounds which is really cheap. i just hope that i get more then i paid for and leave her house looking like Sasha (i was trying to avoid the name Beyonce), rather than leaving her house and getting what i paid for looking like i'm wearing one of Trina's wigs.
Speaking of Trina,
How come everyone's "Jamaican" all of a sudden? i thought this died out years ago when i was in year 7. I remember people who quite obviously were not from the Carribean claimed to be Jamaican. Like there was this one boy at school, who i shall name 'T' and spare him the embarrasment, Lied to everyone that he was half Jamaican, even though he had the most obvious African name, and was as Nigerian as the Naija family living on the floor below me. Well, one of the Nigerian teachers at school found out that he was denying his roots and called him out your nationality people! No matter how jacked up the nation is. I'm English and i'm proud (the english have so much pride, just look at the world cup), and my parents are Sierra Leonean, so i'll represent both countries with pride.
I wanna say R.I.P to Tamara Dobson, most famous for playing Cleopatra Jones in the blaxploitation film of the same name. This woman was Fierce to the tenth power in each and every way, and she is one of my Hair inspiration (yeah i'm still trying to grow out my 'fro). My thoughts go out to her family.
***yes, i am bitter, and i don't care-i'm allowed to be right. I wouldn't mind if you could hook me up with some that looks like Josh Holloway (sawyer from Lost), Rodrigo Santoro (carl the Brazilian in Love actually, and of Lost season 3) and Will Demps all rolled in to one, Merci. Now, i'm going to go to bed now. The things i do for this website, deprive myself of beauty sleep and i know i'll wake up tomorrow looking like a black Uncle Fester.
30th September 2006
i'm sorry i haven't updated in a while. starting uni is weird for me, and i'm still trying to work out how i'm going to divide up my time between uni and this website. It's not like i spend lots of time at uni, but by the time i get home i'm exhausted, and i have to dedicate mself o research and work. But don't worry, i'm in the process of working out a new schedule so that i can update this site.
I really hate taking the tube with passion, people really know how to tick you off at 8:45 in the morning. Take for example thursday morning, the carriage was ram out with people, and i was shoved underneath some guys nasty armpits. I find it difficult to understand how hard it can be to buy some deodorant or a roll on even. I mean, your going to work every morning, and i know that you're at least getting paid once a month-and judging by that suit, you have enough to buy a can of deodorant. Even if times are hard, there's always the 99pence store-so you have no excuse. Another guy that made me wanna fly kick him on to the railway line was some fool that stepped on my red ballet pumps THREE TIMES and then LOOKED ME IN THE EYE before LOOKING AT MY SHOES before carrying on with his business. when i checked my shoes later on, i noticed that the idiot had scraped the red off of my shoe till the front part was white. I'm making it clear now, if someone tries anything like that again, i WILL make some serious noise on london underground.
23rd September 2006
I was going to write a full report on the MOBO's, but i can't be bothered now; one because other blogs and sites have done it, and two because it was so sh*t. I wasted two hours of my life watching that nonsense 2 HOURS OF MY LIFE THAT I'LL NEVER GET BACK! I really wanted to see Cassie perform because i was feeling like some comedy that night. fortunatley for her, my ears and the audience, she didn't perform but she presented instead. Rihanna's performance was quite good, but you could tell she was trying way too hard to come off as a real singer. If i'm honest, Letoya's performance weren't all that. I was looking at her back up dancers 80% of the time, and the 20% of the time i spent looking at her bewildered when she hit a funky note. Jamelia's performance was another ok performance. Her music isn't Music Of Black Origin, it is pop boderline rock-but whatever. However, Lemar's performance was EXCELLENT i was never really a BIG lemar fan, and i weren't really feeling his new track 'it ain't that easy' but after hearing it live i definatley have to buy that album.
The audience booed because they gave Beyonce three awards and she didn't even turn up. i think they had every right to do so, and it serves both the producers and Beyonce right. Beyonce was NOT busy that night, but she decided to shun it for whatever reason that was. Rumour has it that she was trying to avoid Letoya, which doesn't make no sense to me, but if that is true, she ended up looking worse because she more or less got booed. What really took the piss was that she turned up at Arrmani's party the very next night. Now, i ain't gonna lie, i was dying to go to that party, and the MOBO's are very rubbish, but when you're nominated for 4 and you know you're very likely to win all of them, the least you could do is turn up, and if not-try not to get photographed the next day at another event.
20th September 2006
So i've finally started uni, i started on monday but i was so tired i only just found the energy to update today. My first day was alright, apart from the fact that i was nearly late. I took the 177, got off at Deptford and waited for the 453 to take me to oxford circus. when the 453 did come, it said "Picadilly Circus" on the front, so i just assumed that it was going to oxford circus as well... but how wrong was i?! The bus just abandoned me in Picadilly so i had to find another bus that would take me to Oxford circus. Luckily enough for me, i arrrived with 10 mins to spare. i had like a two hour break, so me and some girl went window shopping in Topshop, and we saw the girl from Britain's next top model... she's much prettier in real life-i can see now what the judges were saying (btw, she goes to my uni as well).
Yesterday i was late. I was actually on time until it came to finding the room, then i ended up being a bit late-but that was okay compared to today. I was on time until a coach decided to break down in the bus lane which messed up my morning big time! you don't know how embarassing it is to walk into a lecture hall full of students...
16th September 2006
I've got 1 more day of freedom until i go back to education. Tomorrow, i plan on doing as little as possible; just watching t'v and eating, because i know i wont be able to do them as much as i used to. This staying at home is not good for me i tell ya! The upper half of my body has gone up a size which i'm not to pleased about. i used to be a size 12 at the top and at the bottom (that's UK size 12 which is probably a size 8 in the states-before you guys start thinking i'm obese), but now i tried on a top today that were a twelve and the buttons were popping off.
I've had the best two days ever, i had a shopping spree TWO DAYS IN A ROW. I'm telling you, Primark has become my best friend, i found a tank top in there for 1 pound , can you believe it??? And don't get me started on the panties either, 1pound for a thong, 2 pounds for french knickers, my oh my. I even got leopard print ballet pumps for 8 pounds, and i also got a pair of white boots for 12 pounds. I'll take a picture of them when i get my digital camera (i'm praying that it will come next week). I also got a button up tank top like the one Gabrielle Union wears in Busta Rhymes' video 'i love my chick'.
i have been searching everywhere for a pair of gold Bamboo hoops, and i weren't really feeling having to order them off the internet. My mum owned a pair, but she took them to the pawn brokers a couple of years ago, because she hadn't worn gold in a while, and she thought they looked too 80's... just my luck. I was about to step down a level and phone my step aunt in the states and beg her to buy me a pair, when i found a pair in Sherperd's Bush market (which is good thing, because anyone who knows me knows i don't do begging unless i'm desperate). However, the pair in Sheperd's Bush were waaaaay to small, around the size of a 10pence coin - and i don't do small earrings, plus they were charging 55 POUNDS! Luckily for me yesterday, i found a big pair-like the ones above, in Lewisham more or less on my doorstep. they're around 90pounds, so that's 3 weeks worth of EMA that'll have to save up... but then again, my birthday is coming up, and christmas follows straight afterwards so i better let people know that if i don't see a pair of these earrings by the end of 2006, there'll be trouble!
11th September 2006
I can't believe it has been five years since 9/11. I remember it like it was yesterday-i know exactly what i was doing when i heard and the feeling i had in my stomach whilst watching it unfold. My heart still goes out to all the families that lost loved ones. I know the pain of losing a family member/someone you love, and even though those that have died i weren't close to(as in they lived in different parts of the world or/and i never got to know them well enough), it's still painful, so i can't even begin to imagine what it must be like for them.
God must jamming up there in heaven just laughing at me i tell ya! Sometimes i worry myself waaaay too much, but then everything runs real smoothly. Today i had to enroll at college/uni, and on my letter it said to be there at 10:30 PROMPT. i wanted to leave at 9'o' clock, but my mum (who practically begged me to let her come with me) was still getting ready at 9:15. Now, i'm not your stereotypical black girl. I don't run on BPT (black people's time), i run on GMT (greenwich mean time) and i HATE being late with such passion. I wanted to leave at 9 because i know what central London's like in the morning, and i really didn't want to be late... but of course, i had to be late. On a normal day, the bus 188 would only take 20mins to take me from Greenwich to Elephant and Castle, and it would whizz past every freakin' bus stop. But not today! Oh no, it had to stop at every darn stop, and at each stop there was about 10 people there waiting (and you know how slow people walk).I wanted to cry. I was sitting there praying to God that i'd be on time, but i was late. However, when i got there, i wasn't like an appointment that i would have missed, you literrally just rolled in and signed up. So i was worrying for nothing.
I'm actually very scared about starting on Monday. I don't know why, i mean, i should be used to it by now. I've been to 5 different primary schools, 1 secondary, and a college, and i'm about to start another. I'm also very scared about the work load. i was looking the student hand guide which basically breaks down the course for you, and i know i'll be doing a lot of work this year. This means i'm gonna need more space in my room, and i'm begging my mum for an extreme makeover home edition. i'm thinking about getting rid of the computer and buying a laptop; buying a table so i can use that for my sewing maching and the rest of my work; and getting rid of my double bed for a single (never thought i'd hear my self say that).
Right, i'm off to bed now. I don't when next i'll update, probably when i find something interesting on the web. i have a dilemma though, my sating headscarf is smelling kinda musky, and i need to wrap my hair tonight. What should i use?
10th September 2006
Time to go natural?
I think i'm gonna go natural.. as you can see from the pictures above, i don't mean nude, i mean afro-back to my roots (no pun intended). I've been contemplating whether or not i should for the past couple of weeks now, weighing up the pro's and con's, and i'm slowly swinging to the natural side. Here are my reason's for going natural and reason's not to...
REASON'S FOR going natural:
everytime i put some jacked up fire cream (i.e. relaxer or texturizer) something wack will happen to my hair-and i never get the results i want.
those chemical's are going to do some crazy damage to my hair AND scalp when i get older, and i don't ever think i'll be feeling the 'bald look'.
i'm already experiencing thinning and hair loss at the side of my head
you can do so much more with a fro
if i want a straight look the flat irons aren't that far away
Afro's are mad cute!
when your hair's relaxed, it's open to all kinds of damage
God gave me afro-just like he gave me black skin, so shouldn't i embrace it
REASON'S NOT TO go natural
water is not your friend when you've got a fro-unless you're washing your hair... one word-SHRINKAGE
if you want to wear your hair straight, it's much easier when it's relaxed/texturized
you've been relaxing/texturizing on/off for years-why break the habit?
I think i'm definatley am going to go natural. The reason why everytime i went natural i'd go and put a relaxer or something on my head was because it takes ages to get the length I want, which is something between the length of Leela James and Erykah Badu in the pics above.
5th September 2006
My oh my does time sure fly, I can't believe it's September already! It feels like yesterday i was wishing everyone a happy new year, and before i know it, i'll be saying it again. Festival season is over now (loooool @ my chemical romance getting bottled and booed at the Leeds and Reading Festival) and it's time to go back to school/college/uni/work. I watched to VMA's and i wasn't impressed at all, i only watch it for performances cause i don't really care too much for the awards, but none performances made me want to rewind it live on Sky+. I always look forward to Beyonce's perfomances, but i was left feeling like "is that it?" when she finished. Missy and Busta's homage to Hype Williams, also left me feeling like i was cheated. It was like it was going somewhere-then it stopped and the preshow was much better for some reason.
i'll be starting Uni in less than two weeks time now, and i'm starting to feel really scared. I've got all sorts of thought running through my head right now; "What's it going to be like?" "Am i going to find it hard?" "How quickly am i going to make friends?" "Is the teacher going to like me?" and "what does the future hold for me?" (well those are just a few of them). Up until this day, i still can't believe i got in (i never used to be this lucky), but it just shows me that everything happens for a reason, and i have to thank God for it. I still don't really know what the course is going to be like because i missed the open day-well i didn't really miss it, i just turned up really late that i missed the whole thing (black people ey?). In the interview, the Head of LCF asked me if i went to the open day-and me like an idiot said yes when i should have said no so she could have explained the course to me. I was going to say "...but i turned late" so she would explain it to me, but luckily i stopped the stupid part of my brain from operating before i landed myself in a huge mess.
In just under 4 months i will be turning 18 hooray. However, i don't feel like it. i feel like i'm a mature 12 year old, and sometimes... well most of the time i feel like i'm being treated like one. I know that it's my mum's house, and at the end of the day there's going to be rules, but i feel like i don't have any freedom or privacy. I love the woman to bits, but sometimes it's just too much for me. Sometimes she does things that are so patronising, but i just grin and bear it. For example (and this is going to sound really stupid and childish), last night she told me to meet her in the kitchen so she can show me how to fill up the water chiller in the fridge. Now, usually i would have said something to her like "mum, i'm 17, i know how to do it" but i've given up now and i just stood there. Luckily for me, the chiller got stuck in the ice at the back of the fridge, and whilst she attacking it with a hot knife, i decided to come to her rescue and show her that i am not useless and i do know stuff. I ended up being the one that defrosted the ice as well as refilling the chilller and putting it back, which left her feeling kind of flabberghasted (i don't know why). Maybe me going to LCF will make her calm down. I mean, it's in west London, and i live in south London, so for all she knows, i could be getting up to anything and she'll just have to trust me.
27th August 2006
I think i'm going to have to start selecting certain days to do certain sections of my blog. i find it so hard to complete the whole site... i mean some areas have been left untouched (e.g. the 'Hot' section) and it's getting really old now. I do have idea's for the hot section, and i'm going to get started on it probably this week comming up, but, i really need to do it ASAP because i'll be starting Uni soon, and i know their gonna work me like a dog.
i would like to tell all Beyonce Stans to sekkle their damn hype. Beyonce don't know who you are, her poo stinks-just like the rest of us, she makes mistakes like the best of us, and she ain't perfect like the rest of us. I got a few emails from these stans, about the rihanna picture that i put... damn y'all are touchy. GET OVER IT, Beyonce sure is. And that picture is gonna stay up until I feel like removing it. capiche?
On a nicer note, i wanna say thanks to all those that having been voting for me on the ovenfresh topsites. I REALLY do appreciate it. Three weeks ago i was on the 97th page, but i checked the other day, and i'm on the third page which is amazing. Remember if you scroll down, you can vote for me at Ovenfresh by clicking the button, and i've added two more topsites, so please, don't hesitate to click it.
18th July 2006
JUST TO LET YOU KNOW...
- If anyone wants to be an affiliate, or wants to be added to my list of sites they should hit me up with an email sierrafinest@gmail.com
- if you do want to become an affiliate, it would be easier for me if you have a button. The button should be sized 88x31 (check in the 'www' section to see what i mean)
- if you don't have a button you may have to wait a bit longer to be added beause as you may or may not have noticed, i am having troubles with linking url's onto my site.
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