You Found Me...Now what?
Greetings! If you've stumbled upon this page, you're probably a member of Weight Watchers, a new runner, or just a crackpot web surfer.
I've been a member of WW since June of 2005; I lost 90 lbs the first year, maintained a 85-91 lb. loss from May 06 - Jan 07, and finally lost the last 15-20 by Spring of 2007. I hit Lifetime right on schedule, 6 weeks after hitting Goal. I drove to DC, and made QUITE A STIR with my Ducks at Melvin's May 19th 2007 Saturday 8:45 meeting. Thank you to you, my wonderful leader and support system, it was fantastic! (See photos on my DC Ducks page - I'm in the "0" balloon. BJ brought me GIANT balloons to celebrate my 105 lb. loss.)
Flash Forward to July 2008. Since I quit my well-paying job and sold my house in the DC area where I had lived for 20 years, I moved to Ohio to start a new business with no support system to maintain my weight loss. In the past year I've regained 25 lbs. I don't go to meetings (except when I'm in DC because I haven't ever found another one that I could "stomach"). I've always struggled with not feeling that I fit in with people/meetings at WW, but in Ohio, it's just painfully obvious. Anyway, I always tell people that I can either eat to support a 150lb body, or a 250 lbs body, and obviously in the past year I've been eating to support a 175 lb. body - plain and simple. I don't journal because every day I go -20 points over and I'm just sick of seeing it, day after day. It doesn't stop me, it just stops me from writing it down.
I still get regular exercise, but the weight gain has impacted every part of my life. My running ability, my self-esteem, my wardrobe choices, my day to day life.
I need structure. I need support. I need to be needed. All of that is gone now and despite my attempts to recreate it in my new home, I've failed to maintain the discipline it takes to re-build a life. I'm hanging on by a thread, and have started a new daily thread on the WW maintenance board to find a place to vent/celebrate/share.
I HAVE NOT GIVEN UP.
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