Hunting for true love

This is where i am going to have songs that remind me of Buffy and Spike...I will also feature poems that i have written myself.

My last day

I sit in a corner
Quiet and still
I know the pain is coming but i still feel the need to hide
He walks into my room as death comes to my door
i sit still for just a little longer as i feel his angry roar
But i know exactly why he's mad
It's me
It's always me
I know what i did today was wrong.
i finally told someone
about the pain about the brusies
yet i never thought that he's find out
now i know i'm gonna get it
and i cant shut him out
he's got this hold upon my soul
and no one can save me now
he sees me in the corner
and looks at me like fox with it's lunch
i gulp and i feel my heart start to race.
not of happiness but out of fear
i know today will be the end
i dont think i'll wake up again.
here he comes he's smiling
god i wish he wouldnt do that
It hurts enough for him to hit me
but to see that smile upon his face
it's just pure punishment
the it comes
quick and hard
i feel my bones begin to break
soon i have no feeling
i am cannot see
i look up to where i can hear him breath
he tells me he loves me
and that i make him this way
if i would just stop maybe the pain would stop
he stops his attack i can tell by his footsteps
then he kicks me on last time
the pain is so unbearable
I know this is the last time i will ever feel this pain.

Lonely: Have you ever thought about how lonely you could get? Going from one guy to the next acting like you care but really you dont You get lonely real fast But for once you meet someone who changes your life and you change But then just as everything is going good you let it all go and the cool part isnt that they did the same thing it's that they were as open as you. But something goes wrong and everything falls down and you dont think you can pick yourself up again you lose your trust and wonder where everything went wrong and only then do you realize you cared that you've for the first time cried about losing someone Time goes on and you change No longer are you that little kid anymore something happened and you grew up But when you see that person again you're the kid all over again But that person is scared and you back away and show that you've changed That being who you are isnt bad anymore So do you know how lonely that is? Because i do

You know it only breaks my heart. To see you standing in the dark alone. Waiting there for me to come back. I'm too afraid to show. If it's coming over you. Like it's coming over me. I'm crashing like a tidal wave. That drags me out to the sea. And I wanna be with you. And you wanna be with me. I'm crashing like a tidal wave. And I don't wanna be Stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded. I can only take so much. These tears are turning me to rust. I know you're waiting there for me to come back. I'm to afraid to show. I miss you, I need you. Without you, I'm stranded. I love you so come back. I'm not afraid to show.

i got your letter and the poetry you sent me postmarked in december of last year i really hope your doing better all your friends close by your side one step closer to recovery i wish there was something i could say to erase each and every page you've been through even though its not my place to save you i appreciate but cant accept this thank you note thats sealed with your last breath and i won't stand aside and listen to you give up if you'll just hold on for one more second just hold on to what you have just hold on/ just hold on if you'll just hold on for one more second just hold on to what you have just hold on/ just hold on these arms remain stretched out to you maybe someday you'll accept them maybe its too late to save a young girls heart that wont stop beating (maybe) wake up wake up you've gotta believe wake up wake up you cant give up time keeps going on without us long after we're dead and gone i wish there was something i could say to erase each and every page you've been through even though its not my place to save you i appreciate but cant accept this thank you note thats sealed with your last breath and i won't stand aside and listen to you give up if you'll just hold on for one more second just hold on to what you have just hold on/ just hold on if you'll just hold on for one more second just hold on to what you have just hold on/ just hold on

when we die we go into the arms of those who remember us we are home now out of our heads out of our minds out of this world out of this time are you drowning or waving? i just want you to save me should we try to get along? just try to get along so we move we change by the speed of the choices that we made and the barrier of ourself made (???) that's so retrograde are you drowning or waving? i just need you to save me should we try to get along? just try to get along i am alive i'm gonna wait 'til the trials of confusion create there are times when i feel the way we're about to break when there's too much to say we are home now out of our heads out of our minds out of this world out of this time out of this time

I am posting Poems written by other people here. if you have a poem you would like posted let me know.

From Inside it Devours by Nicole Lagrant

HEART'S A DEEP HOLE EYES BURNING COLD
TOUCHING A FIRE FREEZES YOU STIFF JUST LIKE EVIL'S FINGERTIPS
A DEMON STUCK IN A HUMANS BODY
READY TO BREAK THROUGH
UNLEASH THE POWER AND DEVOUR YOU
NOT ABLE TO BE TAMED
DRIVING YOU INSANE
HEARING THE TERROR YOU NEVER KNEW
ALL THE ONES YOU KILLED WHISPERING TO YOU
EATING AT YOU
TAKING AWAY YOUR SANITY
CAN'T CONTROL THE PAIN ALTHOUGH YOU SHOULD
PUDDLES OF BLOOD WHERE YOU ONCE STOOD
AND WITH THE OTHERS YOU MUST GO
TO THAT DRAINING PIT TO DWELL BELOW