Val's Space

personal poetry

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1. The Return.

2. creative Juices.

3. Restlessness.

4. Night Out.

5. Passing The News.

6. People watching.

7. Leopard Spots.

8. Flawed.

9. Faded Collection.

10.Awaking.

11.No One's Home

12. The Gardener. (The Year Was 1958)

13. Sensing You.

The Return.

The sweet being

That once was

Has disappeared

 

Consumed by the metastases

That chew

At his vitals

 

The face that used to

Reflect the sun

Is now overcast 

 

Death hides carelessly

Behind the light in his eyes

 

Yet, it’s presence

Taints his breath

And paints his skin sallow

 

He knows the earth awaits him

 

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VMM

2004

Creative Juices

and so…

 

She dipped her toes in the water;

it felt good,

addictive even.

 

Sometimes

it covered her feet;

less often

it lapped around her ankles.

 

One glorious time

it rose above her knees…

 

Inspiring

a flow

of creativity

 

Yet, she knew

she would die

before she drowned…

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VMM

2004

Restlessness.

The tip of your finger

Tickles my upturned palm;

I wake, a momentary amnesiac.

 

The morning stamps

Through my head

Kicking my brain into remembrance.

 

Your features fall into place,

And a groan escapes my mouth

Before I can restrain it.

 

I stretch my lips into

A caricature of a smile

And mime ‘good morning’

 

Dropping my eyelids

Over my disillusion

Before you even notice it’s there.

 

I love you, you feel secure,

So you should be…

It’s not your fault, I need more

 

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VMM 2004

 

 

 

Night Out.

Thumb and forefinger

Caress my arm

Tingling pleasantly at first,

 

A whispered “ what would you like to drink?”

“just a slimline tonic please” I answer.

 

Thumb and forefinger

Become a vice

Nipping at my flesh in a bruising pinch

Bringing tears to my eyes.

 

“Bitch, bloody sanctimonious bitch

Trust you to spoil a good night out.”

 

The drink is slammed down in front of me

And the scent of juniper rises

The look on his face dares me to argue.

 

I don’t…

 

My spirit is as bruised as my flesh,

Words of protest freeze on my lips

And unshed tears clog my throat.

 

Comically a treacherous dewdrop

Hangs from my nose and I dash it away angrily,

 

From the other side of the table comes

A triumphant laugh…

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VMM

2004

 

 

Passing The News.

Rheumy eyed

She hears the news

 

Peaceful in his sleep

She said.

Another of their contemporaries

Gone from their world.

 

Dead.

 

She sits and listens

To her neighbour

Struggling to draw breath

So she can finish off the story

Of their friends recent death.

 

Her companion's

emphysema ridden lungs rattle,

 

Echoing in her throat

Each utterance a battle

 

Breathy words dissipate

Between blue lips, they float

Others left unspoken

Half formed and remote…

 

Alone once more, she weeps

And wonders in vain

When her time will come

Wistfully

She wishes her youth back again.

 

The silly wish is smothered

As quickly as it came

Reality takes over

Life is no game

 

Life is for living

Each moment should tell,

There should never be regrets

For a life lived well.

 

She is content with her memories,

 

When her life force is extinguished

Her body will die

So she lives for the moment

And wipes a tear from her eye.

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VMM

2004

 

 

 

 

 

People Watching

This one is a strange one

 

I notice him because

he is cramming a whole pork-pie

into his mouth.

 

I watch him furtively

smiling inside,

he is so funny…

 

He is wearing designer sunglasses

and a Joe Bloggs cap.

 

Another pork-pie vanishes,

then another,

until four have disappeared.

 

Two family sized packets of crisps

are devoured between great gulps of coke-a-cola;

 

I look away guiltily

as we make eye contact,

but not before I glimpse a blush begin.

 

The train is a slow one,

stopping at all stations

between Norwich and Sherringham.

 

My glance inevitably slides back.

 

A crisp blue check cotton shirt,

short sleeved,

a brown suede waistcoat??

 

Grief!! Chocolate biscuits

already half consumed.

 

Green gabardine trousers,

black loafers…

 

A bottle of orangeade

is made short work of

followed swiftly by the rest of the biscuits.

 

Oh lord, please let the train

reach West Runton

before the explosion…

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VMM

2004

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Leopard Spots

Then, life was simple.

We were just cubs you and I;

our spots still pale and unformed

our paws playful

our night vision full of each other;

all stealth, all delightful, all exciting.

You must have been the first to notice

my spots defining,

my claws showing.

Your vision sharpened

wandered further afield

marked out new territory

sought out more exotic prey,

Whilst your star still sparkled.

The veil took longer

to fall from my love locked eyes

softening and blurring the edges

of your now experienced and well polished spots.

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2005

Flawed

I think I had spotted

the flaw in your character

long before it manifested itself.

Looking back

it was like seeing

something from the corner of my eye.

It left me uneasy

never quite trusting your

easy foxy ways;

always anxious for the chicks.

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2005

Faded Collection

 

When I was a child
I collected spiders webs
from the hedgerows in a forked stick,
dripping morning dew, sparkling
like diamonds in the sunlight.

As I grew into a teenager
I slept in my room cocooned
by walls filled with Elvis eyes
adoring me;

and as a young mother,
I would hoard
the smiles and sticky kisses
of my children with pride.

Later in middle age
love became rare and elusive
difficult to hold on to.
Harsh words and heartache
were collected all too easily.

Now in old age I catch
faded memories in a cleft stick
and blow away the dust
from the dried out cobwebs
to see more clearly
the collected storms and teacups,
and I smile wistfully at life’s irony.

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2005

Awaking

Some mornings

When I awake I think

It is you who lies beside me.

 

My heart lurches

At the thought;

 

Just as I shake off the last

Vestige of sleep

I feel you.

 

Then reality dawns

And I remember you are dead;

 

Your essence fades

As though you had never existed

 

I find myself wishing you back

Then, there is a stirring

From the other side of the bed

 

And I think, “what is this treachery“

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2004

No Ones Home

Where have you gone?

Your eyes are dull,

empty.

Your body sits in the chair

but you're not there.

Your bony hands

once were strong,

you stare at them

as if they don't belong.

Someone makes a noise...

Your head rears up,

for an instant

our eyes touch...

then yours slide away,

without saying much.

I was always

your friend

You have forgotten,

No longer

comprehend.

I stroke your hand

you snatch it back

as if it burns.

The silence stretches on....

The friend

I once had, has gone.

 

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VMM

2003

The Gardener (The Year Was 1958)

 

Golden muscled arms

glistened with sweat

in the heat of the late morning sun,

they rippled with raw strength

and made his task look effortless.

Perspiration soaked and darkened

his blonde curls

flattening them to his handsome head.

He knew he was being watched

of course

and performed accordingly,

stretching and bending

his supple body, then

arms akimbo, lightly touching

snake hips;

feet planted firmly apart,

eyes staring enigmatically

off into some forbidden zone

making him seem mysterious,

he knew he was being admired.

What a pity his brain

didn’t match his magnificent body.

How funny it was to see the roller

carry on as he stopped;

how hilarious to hear his howl of pain

as it flattened his plimsolled foot.

 

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Sensing You

Sometimes just

the slightest draught

caresses my skin,

or perhaps a familiar scent

tickles my nose.

Another time I think

I hear you laugh.

A light tinkling...

So my heart lifts,

content, to believe

the spirit goes

forever, into eternity.

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VMM

2004