Saturday, 9 july 2005 > 2.30pm
Hello. No I'm not back from the dead. I'm just taking a little break from this sorry life. Makes you wonder how many 'breaks' I've actually taken since last december huh? Midyears blew over as quickly as the miserable june holidays did, and now's the time for me to accept my upcoming fate with as much enthusiasm as I could possibly harness from my pessimistic heart. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't completely disappointed with my math grades already.. now i'm being governed by letters instead of numbers?! -grumbles- I'ts so true how time shows no mercy; don't you find that you're somehow always short of it when you need it most?
I've found the inspiration to blog again, after reading a number of well written journals. They wrote of their daily lives; no matter how mundane some of them turned out to be, yet with such amazing English that it just keeps you scrolling down, wanting to read more. It read like music on a score sheet. It felt so intelectually challenging (not in the way fmaths just kills your brain after reading the question). It made me think, how long did they take to type one entry? They seemed like well-crafted pieces of art that took ages to refine. Maybe this all sounds like crapshit to you but it was real to me. Perhaps it was after reading numerous 'common' blogs that it didn't seem as easy to write with excellent English than it was to add a 'lah' at the end of almost every sentence (no offence to anyone here 'cause I am guilty as well). For effotrlessly writing that way, they deserve much praise. I envy them. Whether it was intentional, or unintentional, I hope they will continue :)
Okay back to my life, This is pretty back dated news but I'll write it anyway. Got a new haircut and a pair of specs (much to the delight of a friend who was irritated by the worn out, rusty-looking old one that i had since p6) It enhances my nerdy image, you see, Then maybe teachers will be less prone to asking me questions in class (even though I did badly for the midyears), Some claim I had permed my hair -__-'' (oh for crying out loud, I woudn't do that unless someone threatened to take my life for it.) (On second thought, just take it. You'll be doing me a favour,) Again I shall blame it on my genes, like everything else.
On to more recent happenings. My pw group went round my housing estate to carry out our survey (it wasn't my idea really). Four hours in and we only managed twenty replies. Sadness. Though there were a few nice aunties who offerred us drinks (we must;ve looked like we were about to die in the bloody heat), At least not everybody shoo-ed us off. Uncaring IDIOTS. Maybe the school should think of changing the material of the uniform more than changing a 'word' in the school song cause I don't think many of us thought it was sexist in any way.
That's all for now :) till maybe another six months later? I might decide to set a new record. Hahaha.
Monday, 20 December 2004 > 4.28pm
What a coincidence. Exactly one month to my last entry.
So yesterday I followed my family around the adelphi, sim lim square, and sim lim tower. Each floor I reached, I was greeted with pamphlets being shoved in my face. Terribly annoyed. Shoppers were holding thick booklets of advertisements -__-‘’. And all this cause of my dad’s search for a spare speaker part. I don’t see what’s so great of having huge speakers blast music till your ear drums burst. I’ll take it as a major mid-life crisis. Sigh.
Ocean’s twelve’s more of a movie for intellects. Hence I didn’t quite piece the parts together :P. For all those who haven’t watched it, listen to the conversations closely. They’re crucial. Fortunately for me, I’ve had it all cleared up thanks to my dad. Hah. To me it’s still a good movie nonetheless. Though Ocean’s eleven had more action in it. This one’s basically thieves having a go at each others’ wits. Pretty interesting plot. National Treasure’s a must see.. (that’s when I finally went out with c1 and michelle) there’s just something about finding ancient relics that’s intruiging :)
Yes, if I must say. I’m back here, again. Can’t blame me for being lazy to update. Apologies to regular visitors. If there’s one thing you should know, my procrastination gets me no where. Two piles of unwanted books still lie on the floor; others scattered around. And I still haven’t touched my files >_< Okay I need to get cracking. No, I haven’t been rotting at home. I’m quite amazed at how I kept myself occupied, actually. If you did wanna know ‘bout my aussie trip, here’s an insight : sleeping in the back seat, nice scenery, huge weather changes, aunt’s small house with creepy spiders, several angry moments, pies, little shopping (don’t ask), pelicans at the wharf, cool breezes, crazy uncle who stuffs you fat once you’re his guest (but he has an awfully nice house with a great view of the river), more pies, fish and chips, and a lousy flight back. Voila. That’s backdated news for you.
Braces will be on tomorrow. Wish me luck! Will be off to k.l Christmas weekend. So Merry Christmas in advance!! Wish I could stay home instead. By the way, "more me" link has been taken down for construction.
His inconsiderate, insensitive, incorrigible manner has taken my tolerance very much for granted. Or rather, our tolerances. There was never room for negotiation; if any was actually taken, it would’ve been mediocre. Showing signs of unwillingness would deem you as anti-social, for in this house resistance in unacceptable. Reform! That’s what’s needed, but sadly a simple “land peace and bread!” wouldn’t get us anywhere. Call us weaklings, for being so helpless. They say blood’s thicker than water – that’s the only thing that’s keeping this delicate balance in tact. We shout in vain, for he who sits on the pedestal – has everything twined round his little finger. What every one else sees, is only the shiny, polished surface.
But amongst us is one, who endures the most – yet is the power of my strength.
If this were all a show on stage, we’d have won an award for best script. But no, we shouldn’t be commended for creating characters that disgust you to the bone.
Maybe we just can’t have it all.
Monday, 20 November 2004 > 9.45pm
Hellooo. One week after the Os. Life is good, I guess. No more study stress, at least. Almost everyone's been job hunting, or some may already be working.. Somehow I have loadsa stuff to do at home :S Haven't quite finished clearing out the junk in my room.. haven't packed those books away. Mostly boring chores.. but they're still considered things to do yeah. I've been staying at home mostly since I've been plagued by the flu (dammit. what a time. now?!). Something always has to go wrong.. somehow. And I'm leaving for australia like, tomorrow. As michelle says, they're gonna blame me if a flu epidemic starts over there and war will break out. Sue me.
Lucky for me, I did some shopping with my parents over the first few days of the holiday :) Since tze wan has already announced it for me I shall just type it here too. So I bought my 'new' phone.. and some clothes. And there's a wrap up of my retail life. Other than that, nothing much else happened. Spent one day completing the tigger and roo puzzle I received for my birthday :) Now it's all glued up and ready to be framed. Yay.
A piece of good news from tze wan today =) Hopefully we both make it to victoria hahaha. The pae was crap. Thought it through.. then my dad said my sequence of school choices are funny -____-'' Oh wells. Just pray I get into either the first two. -crosses fingers-
Because I'm away.. I'll miss singapore idol. Crap again. After reaching down under I"ll still have to take a two hour bus ride to my aunt's place -____-''. By that time it'll be around 10pm there. Boring. By the time results for sg idol are out here it'll be 2am there. Sian. This time it'll be only with my parents since my brother couldn't take leave. (Is there another not so vulgar word to use here) Hope I don't spend the time swatting flies.
Off I go. Till one week's time.
Sunday, 26 September 2004 > 2.21pm
Released, at last. Weeks of cramming have finally come to a temporary end, though currently I don't want to think about what comes after. I can officially slack with no worries. How great is that! Life seems so wonderful with excessive sleep, long hours of watching television and more junk food. Hehe. People have started going online again. Yay. Before I deal with my marks on wednesday I shall make full use of my short 'holiday'.
So yesterday evening my dad invited his friends held a small party in the house. I don't even want to talk about how much preparation was put into that small event. The whole family was sucked into this big tornado. Curses. Shan't spill all my grievances here, thankfullyI was able to use my room as my hideaway while the aunties gossiped (much to my irritation) about their children and yadayadayada. You know the rest. The men weren't any better with them bursting out laughing every other minute. Sheesh. It was my original intention to stay up till the guests left to help with the clearing but it lasted until about two in the morning. (they had that much to talk about eh) So I went to sleep and my parents didn't bother to wake me up. Oh well. Now we're left with tons of leftovers which probably would last us a month. Crap.
Got to see tzewan's house on thursday! Wayyy cool. Nice and quiet. I liked the pathway leading to it.. oh and their neighbour's dogs have weird names. Happy and Unhappy. Now I know where that busy woman works! Hahaha. Left, leaving a shuttlecock stuck on the awning :P
Monday, 9 August 2004 > 5.24pm
My brain cannot process relative velocity (nor physics for that matter). I spent yesterday night gruelling over a few questions and my brain battery has officially gone flat. Sigh. My apologies to jonathan who tried in vain to make me understand the simplicities to those questions; the wiring in my brain has already gone haywire. Well that was ever since physics timed practice last saturday. So till I fix my brain, there goes my sanity.
Piling at my neighbour's going-to-be semi-detatched house started two weeks ago. And I love the rhythm.. reminds me of indian music. Oh how nice. The whole house's vibrating and so I've gotten my free source of foot reflexology. Recently a bird creating irritating calls has returned to live in this area; last time it only made sounds in the morning. Now it's all day >.< Damn bird. And it refuses to show itself. Where's my binoculars?! Cowardly creature.
PE this week was terrible. For one, certain teachers can be so selfish. Fancy 'booking' two courts just for one of your miserable classes, later being unwilling to share part of your 'possessions'. Two, even our teacher didn't bother lifting a finger to fight for our rightful space. For once he didn't complain about us doing absolutely nothing during his period. We shouldn't even have been thinking about sharing a court with another class, larger than ours, already cramped up onto the elevated court. I ended up playing some pathetic badminton outside the hall since even the hall was locked.
Will not be updating in another long while.. two weeks to prelims. Crap.
Wednesday, 7 July 2004 > 8.10pm
Time's really passing me by. I've been so tired each day that I go into slumber after I reach home everyday. I don't know what's dragging me down.. All those moments of anxiety and worriedness for the geography time practice and english oral seemed to have worn off me already, yet I still feel weak. The stress build up from six weeks of time practice is probably gonna become such a routine that I wouldn't even muse about it in the long run. Or maybe I still would.
Sometimes ignorance is a bliss. People change; they change so much that I've turned immune to it all. Sometimes not knowing is better, then you wouldn't brood over it at all. I'm too tired to bother, for the solution is neither within my reach. But there's someone who's suffering, and that's what I can't see go on.
Sunday, 27 June 2004 > 7.43pm
A new chapter is about to begin, one where I’ll start stressing myself out with serious mugging. Somehow the school felt that we weren’t pressurized enough – and so they’ve decided to give us a treat with another dose of horror pills before our prelims. And the prescription would go by an ever-so-friendly name, “time practice”. I’m guessing if the teachers would start preaching about how we didn’t spend the holidays ‘correctly’ tomorrow, and then we’d be given those depressing ‘you must start studying now or it’s too late’ talks again. I’ve heard enough.
I had a root canal done at the start of the holidays, (I’ve been wanting to write about it just that I was lazy =) and yes, there were two injections. Crap. I learnt that teeth can die! Apparently I had killed mine last year so taking out the nerves didn’t cause me much pain (but I wasn’t given any mercy when I was ‘killing’ that tooth and there was a hell of a lot of pain). The dentist advised that I should get braces to straighten my teeth before I kill any other teeth (it’s a complicated thing). So. I’ll be making them at the end of the year. Shit. Imagine that. I’ll have to sacrifice four good teeth!!! Stupid genes.
After a whole week of listening to screeching cranes, breaking tiles and breathing dusty air, my neighbour’s house is gone. Yep, they’re rebuilding the house. This totally stinks because I’ll have to put up with piling and drilling next. It’s a mere three meters away, and my dad’s guess is that they’ll be building a three storey bungalow. Go figure. Once again my life’s peace is ruined. This is hell. I couldn’t take the noise from the reconstruction of my parents’ bathroom. What more this.
Wonderful holiday it has been. Other than the part that I’ve been deprived of my time and the fact that I’ve indulged in no shopping, it was as it should have been. The homework and revision clamped themselves onto my ankles like a hundred kg weight. (like those on prisoners in movies) And I finally gave up trying to play badminton. So there.
Today’s my mom’s birthday.. Happy birthday mom~ Too bad it’s on the last of my anti-depressant days.
Sunday, 23 May 2004 > 9.00pm
Treasurer, no longer. The day that I was looking forward to so much since last year actually made me feel sad about leaving. All that angst and frustration amounted up to something worth remembering. I can’t believe why I’m feeling this way; I was supposed to be happy about passing down! Come to think of it, I’m glad that I did rush down to tampines mall (with much help from chen yan, thanks man!) to buy the gifts for our juniors, though we did waste much time contemplating what to get as usual. And we did bump into many dunmanians, it being a Friday. Somehow it was something like, my last contribution as a comm. member. Wonder if the rest of the comm. members felt the same way. Art club never really made such a great impact on me, since I detested it quite bad and we didn’t have much of an activity anyhow. It must be worse for the other ccas, seeing how they bond together (like superglue) over the three, short years. Quite envious of their close relationships, frankly. Now I understand why others found it weird not to have activities on Saturday. Looking back on the times I used to say ‘when are we gonna pass down already?!’, now I regret the moment.
You should’ve seen our reluctance to leave the art room yesterday, when we’d be dying to get out of there on normal Saturdays. Ironic, huh. I wrote my last statement of accounts in the green book after ordering the pizzas for the sec3s, and left the art fund with about 90 dollars. Not bad a sum. I remember my senior handed down a pathetic 20 dollars or so to me. Sheesh. Anyway, I spent the wee hours of Saturday morning writing a long card for the next treasurer containing the tasks she’ll have to undertake. Hope she keeps up the good name of ‘treasurer’. –laughs- The rest said I gave her pressure through that long ‘essay’. Bwahaha. Well treasurers don’t really slack =) Anyhow. It was so nice of the sec3s to give us seniors a nice, cute, fuzzy hand phone stand! I wasn’t expecting that. Though I wonder if they actually knew I liked pigs. Or did they think I looked like one? Maybe. Hmm something to ponder over.
I can’t collect funds anymore. I’ve lost the right to enjoy screaming at those irritating juniors for money. I don’t want to leave! I can’t bare to go. I’ll miss the times complaining over four hours of activity every Saturday. Now I know why you don’t know something till you’ve lost it, really. This has been totally unbelievable.
Update on my life. The
days have been fairly good, I guess. Managed to cook up a thai dish for dinner
sometime back, and it was a success! Amazing. My mom cleaned her plate. Felt
thoroughly accomplished! (since I don’t cook well, and didn’t
do well in home econs either) Maybe I’ll make a few people be my guinea
pigs for future recipes. Hope they don’t fall ill =) Start praying.
I saw a monkey holding a packet drink and drinking from the straw, and it
was enough to make me go berserk. I was yelling. It’s so smart!!! I’ve
never seen anything like that before. The things I watch on television. My
mother said I was officially mad. Lalala. I love the ‘kitty stare’
of puss in boots in Shrek 2. Saw it in the trailers. Need to go watch it soon!!
Sunday, 11 April 2004 > 10.43 pm
It’s Easter Sunday (not that I know its significance) but, it’s a special day cause I made my very first Easter egg! Yes, laugh all you want; I find it rather amusing myself that I’m doing this at my age. But it was fun =) and I found out that it takes hell of an effort to get the yolk and egg white out of a tiny hole. Mind you, water follows the same rule. How stupid did I look shaking the egg up and down for almost a full twenty minutes? Very. Just that I was ‘determined’ enough to continue in my conquest to get the damn yolk out of that shell. I guess mom was laughing at my childishness; she was more concerned about me messing up her kitchen. And she refused to get a white egg for this little ‘project’ cause she claimed it was “far too expensive”. Drats. I only knew today (after mom told me) there was such a product called ‘black chicken white egg’, sold at giant. White eggs made by black chickens? I don’t know. Anyway, after painting it for an hour (I must’ve lost my mind) it turned out pretty good, and has found its place in a flower vase! -cheers- I’m so proud of it.
The Friday off this week was great. It gave me a chance not to cram all my work in one day. I managed to steal a few hours of afternoon naps.. much needed sleep indeed. Anyhow. Went to raffles city on Saturday while my dad and brother (about his parade. It rained and got cancelled. Boo hoo.) stuck themselves in the gramophone cd chop. I found some really interesting cups in cards and such, one has wordings like this, “men have feelings too. But who really cares?” They were meant to be office mugs. Really cool. “Coffee is my only real friend”. Haha.
Been pretty angry about certain people this week.
Just an update on my tetras. Fish count: three. From ten. Actually some died previously and my mom bought a few more. Anyway it stands at three now. - turns to look at fish bowl – They look bored.
My brother’s going back to camp tomorrow. He’s dealing with bio-terror. (think of gas mask) ohh.
Sunday, 21 March 2004 > 7.20 pm
It has been a while since I've said anything here.. The past week or two hasn't given me much pleasure in doing so anyhow. Maybe I prefer not to vent my frustrations by forming sentences, because that way I'll still have to use my head to type rationally. As far as I know, I'm squandering the very last few hours of this pathetically short, one week march holiday (or so they call it) on typing here and later, on the televsion.
I have hardly had any relaxation within the week, that is unless you classify a class barbeque as one. I shall say it as such; it wasn't the most eventful thing that could happen within one's holidy schedule. I lugged twenty kebab sticks to waterside, walked a long footpath and got there, pretty much to find the guys cooking over-salted chicken wings with a shortage of drinking cups. In a nutshell, I gulped down root beer and coke, ate a few things, met lee jyun's mom, talked a bit and ended up counting the stars alone. Then I went home. Simple enough, huh. The place was nice, with a pond, huts and everything, though I wonder if any of the fish died of shock when a soccer ball came plunging into their home. I'd have learnt tennis a long time ago if I had a tennis court like the one available there.. sigh.
The big project that art club's finally having, comes when I'm in sec4. Great timing. Plus all the other activities and competitions, why do they all have to come, only now? Well I made my way back from nanyang polytechnic at clementi just to attend an entreperneurship course there, in preparation for the competition to be held somewhere at the esplanade, where we set up a stall to sell stuff. Hope we get the much needed support!! The only spoiler is that we are made to sell some items from the home econs and technical department. Eeek. They better look good. See, we don't even know what the items we're supposed to sell looks like. There's logic in this.
I don't get why certain people take ages to get things done. Excuses, excuses; I've heard them all. I was put off very much since yesterday afternoon till this morning, a little warning: the cows don't come home, so don't bloody wait. Or rather, don't make ME wait. My brother had me waiting for him because of some convention and if you'd like to know the details as to what happened next, ask my mother. I can't take the torture. AHH. If it weren't involving me, frankly I couldn't care less. But since it is, you BETTER cooperate.
My brother's passing out next week. Whee. If only I could see his parade.
Wednesday, 25 Februrary 2004 > 7.24pm
So the week hasn't exactly started off great for me, well not as if it ever did. On monday, I dropped my discman. On tuesday, I killed my calculator. The screen cracked and I had to fork out money again to buy a new one. Did it ever occur to anyone that I've been buying new calculators each year because of stupid reasons? Through this, I have never failed to hear my mother say multiple times, "Your brother's calculator lasted since he was in sec one". It must be fated. Yes, that's the only explanation. I refuse to accept my mother's theory of it being pure carelessness. I previously had my calculators spoilt and lost. So there. I was on the verge of screaming when the incident happened during chemistry class, but had I decided to be more civil. I yelled when I got home.
It being one of the rarest occassions of having a whole week being test-free was almost pure bliss; may I stress on the 'almost'. Quietly the workload has increased, well to me anyway. Yesterday was worse when we had to attend the career workshop up till 6pm, after which I got home and slogged till midnight. Lack of sleep alert! Don't blame me if I was very lethargic this morning. About the workshop; it was enriching. Though everytime I attend these courses I admire the speakers giving them, not only because of their sense of humour but also their diction and clarity. That's something I'm very particular about =)
Loved today's free triple english periods, and not to forget yesterday's double chinese. Hated that chinese essay, but that's not unusual for me to say anyhow; maybe people still don't know I can't write chinese. Spent english doing maths --and I detest classwork. I don't understand the purpose of having more classwork than assignment questions. Later in the day we had cme, kiw asked us to make coloured cards to 'show' our consent or disapproval to his ramblings, again a lousy idea with his failing attempts to make the lesson more 'interactive'. Wish teachers would quit trying to be innovative, because it's not getting them anywhere.
Listening to the monotonous drone of rap singers on the radio is quite nice actually. I'm off to entertain hell once more. Why does this life drain so easily.
Saturday, 14 February 2004 > 9.35pm
I am feeling crabby. Or is it crappy? I really don't know. Maybe it's because it's that time of the month. My neighbour's having a party and the pesky kids are making hell of a noise, while a certain adult's vocals have gone berserk along with the karaoke machine. Their stupid lights are 'beaming' into my room and I hate it. Though I must say the setting of the buffet looked very welcoming; the tables were laid with red cloth and they provided china plates for the guests. Must've been costly, but I suppose they could afford it. They have a (darn) pond which gives me a free view of koi. Spend more, neighbours!
My brother's back from field camp yesterday, seven days without bathing, and living off rations. Mom treated him with today's dinner at a japanese restaurant, with my reccomendations, of course. He stuffed down almost everything and still had space to eat ice cream and waffle for dessert. Goodness. Anyway earlier in the day, I received a valentine's day present from my junior! That was so nice of her, and I've decided to give her something on monday =)
Yesterday's episode of survivor made me really sad. I've been reflecting on how I don't know what's in front of me, and very much take things for granted. Satisfying those sudden desires only gave me temporary happiness, when what was more important were the things I already have. I don't know what I'd do without family, and I've never given this a second thought before. It's easier said than done, but I'll try -- not to wait for tomorrow to cherish what I've got.
Thursday, 5 February 2004 > 9.36 pm
Another mishap came my way last week, when my locker's lock was thrown into the rubbish, with courtesy of a few jerks, whom unfortunately, I had known. Stuck my arm right down into the bin, and there it was, sitting right at the bottom. Well maybe my head was too muddled up to think of how dirty the bin was or what lay within at that instant, but all I had cared about was retrieving the lock. To hell with those inconsiderate people who are just plain idiots, whoever's up there would deal with them naturally. I have had my fair shair of screaming already, the people up there are able to take better action without having to be sent straight to jail. If there's someone who controls the weather, a little suggestion -- use lightning. It is effective.
The incontrolable surges to make miss yee shut up in class still continues. An essay, which is downright not compulsory, can surely send one's blood boiling. Dry, boring and part of the school's plan to brainwash us with propaganda, was the topic on total defence. Not that I even cared a tiny fraction more about it after writing the essay anyhow. In fact, it made me feel more sick about national education, so too bad the government made the wrong decision to employ miss yee. Paid to make me show faces at her while she teaches with her eyes closed? Maybe they should reconsider.
Visiting the newater plant was not boring, but extremely boring. All I remembered from it was the sitting downs and getting ups to move from one point to another like little kids on a school excursion. I must admit, it has been a long time since I've heard that word 'excursion', much less see people carrying water bottles with slings on them, wearing them around their necks. Really funny. Then we had to walk quite far out to the bus stop, unless you were one of the few lucky ones who managed to squeeze into the shuttle. In a way, it was good, because I missed tuition scheduled after that.
Doubt I'd be alive and kicking over the weekend. I'm currently debilitated from staying back to scringe for a chinese essay, a not-so-welcoming amaths test, and five rounds of the school field. My butt shall be glued onto my computer chair, downloading music from a recently discovered, very-legal site. Wonderful.
Monday, 26 January 2004 > 1.50pm
Had a long, hot shower, because I spent some time chewing over something. And, I have come to a conclusion. It is, purely, detest. Yes, it is detest. Things have come to a point where I can no longer withold that menacing hatred within. That stain she has left behind -- I wish I could burn it away. Could I please, strangle her?
Happy lunar new year, to all who haven't been struck by the same fate as me. Four days of holidaying, thankful I didn't do much visiting this year, then I could stay home to slack on the couch. Today's school concert was as of usual standard. Games didn't pull through, and most of all, the peach became a monkey's butt. Maybe it was inspiring. I really take my hat off to desmond, who oh-so-willingly dressed up as the class mascot; funny how he impromptu-ed on stage.
My head's gone empty. Inspire-less.
Tuesday, 20 January 2004 > 5.35pm
Time to update. Yes, I know it has taken long enough. But I was lazy.
Today. Had chemistry practical, and I didn't know how to answer the questions in the report, so I kept pestering chen yan on how to answer them. Hope she's feeling better (from whatever that seems to be bothering her). Obviously I wasn't of any help to the problem, but I hope she's alright. The emaths test was.. moderately bad. -sulk- Stupid area of triangle. I should've used my brain! After the ordeal of being lied to by evil mrs ho, who told us that there were structured questions for her test (when there was none actually), I suppose I'll get over maths. Soon.
Somehow I've been encountering mr kiw quite often. Not that it's a problem, but he just seems scary. I keep thinking that he'll say something about my attire or hair (which does touch the collar). I'll be cutting it soon anyway, 'cause my mom wants to cut it before chinese new year. And, yay! We'll miss his cme class tomorrow, which saves me from sitting stiffly in my seat, or having to frantically align the tables to his fancy. Ugh. Anyway. My brother has dug out his rubiks cube from his 'choot' to my request, but I got impatient and fed up with the thing trying to 'infer' from the chinese manual. Chinese. The damn manual is in chinese. I cannot read chinese. Though I did manage to do the first few steps by looking at the diagrams on the paper. Thanks yee siang for completing the cube for me today.. I did it! Literally.
Now, on to miss yee. My horrible english teacher, who and which I shall repeat again, tecahes with her eyes closed. The oral presentation was quite okay, I guess, other than her comment about my 'reading from the script'. I can't object to that, but at least it's better than having your eyes shut all the while. I can't believe she actually 'chose' the essays of 'pupils who are better at english' to send in for the competition, when she didn't even know who were good, and practially based her 'choice' on jeremy's words. Boy, is she irresponsible. How could she do that? It would be so unfair to the other students who slogged all night just to complete that damn essay for her. And I don't even think it's graded. ?!@#% Wasted my time!
Went to bugis with tze wan and michelle to -- take the dreaded neoprints. Now I no longer hold the wonderful record of not taking any, ever. Grunt. Any followers? Make yourself known. I don't think I'll live to see the light of the day when they put the pictures up. The next thing you'll see, would be me banging my head against the wall.
Saturday, 10 January 2004 > 9.49pm
For a start, I rammed my head into the cupboard door yesterday afternoon. The whole thing was stupid. I left it open while I was sitting down on the floor, got up, then wham. Immediate reaction -- squated down and went 'oowwww'. It was pain. And it still is now. My mom said there was no cut or bruise on my head, but I'm still paranoid thinking it might have led to an internal injury.. It may not be visible. Ahh. Maybe I'll become stupid. But my stuffed toy giraffe says I won't. Really. It did. I just hope the pain goes away.
The maid employed really received her 'five thousand dollar worth' -- of scoldings from my dad. I don't know what to say about her, maybe just plain tired of living. Anybody, and I mean, anybody, knows my dad's not the kind of person to play games with. Once it's settled, you're going home, and that's end of story. Your time's up. There's absolutely no point trying to plead your way into anything else. Do we have to put it that blatantly across before you could understand? I think it does. All that testimonial crap ain't going to help because it's a load of rubbish.
First week of school.. stinks. Most irritating teacher would be -- miss yee. I have yet to see how long she can close her eyes while teaching, and she gave a 1200 word essay for us to write, when mrs vora's classes have it optional. Also, there's not only 'sharing' for english, but for combined humanities too. (link? i'm register one.) What else? In front of me sits yang sheng. (actually this ain't much of a problem, but I'll just put it down anyway) Then there's my dreaded pe lesson with p.t. And I'm down with the flu. Curses. I don't want to end up in misery during chinese new year. Of course, there are the tests, and you know what happens next. (imagine me being electrocuted with my hair standing up)
Wednesday, 31 December 2003 > 5.00pm
Eager anticipation of the mailman who came deliver the mail everyday, only left me in low spririts right after. It's a sad thing. It seems as though every year I'll be receiving a decreasing number of christmas cards. -big sigh- I've already given up on waiting since it's going to be new year tomorrow. Thank you to all the people who had sent greetings, whether via snail or email. I don't feel one bit happy about the new year.
December 25 was nothing special this year. Not that it was last year anyhow. My mom had managed to get another box of lights for the christmas tree in time though. And at the same time, we bought a few other ornaments from some discount shop. The tree had fell when she was trying to do something and broke one or two of the ball decorations. Blah. She's dismantled it already. If only the mango tree outside the window was lit up with christmas lights, then I could have a great view. My brother has been going back and forth to tekong and he's been telling a lot of stories. He's still at home now 'cause it's new year's eve. Seems the food given to them isn't that bad.
One of the tetras had 'mysteriously' disappeared today. My mom thinks I had thrown it away accidentally when I was cleaning the bowl. (of course this isn't true) I think his (or isit a her?) fish pals had eaten it up. Some 'pals' huh. Oh whatever. Now there's eight of them left. From ten? or was it fifteen. I can't remember. Anyway. I am dreading everything that's going to happen in two days time. And the bad thing is that I can do nothing about it.
I've been getting bitten my mosquitoes all day. Though I feel extremely accomplished because I killed one the day before and yesterday. I could've gotten my chance today actually, but it was resting on my christmas sock (yes, i do have one. and i hang it up on my cupboard knob. i stole it from a hotel room a few years back during christmas. hahaha) And so I couldn't bring myself to squash the damned insect on my sock. I had to let it off. Arh. I'll get it another time! Damn mosquitoe.
Saturday, 20 December 2003 > 7.23pm
I just found out that playing 'carnival of terror' on neopets allows me to vent my anger in a more civilised manner. I get to bust every single part of those puny clowns, from head, to body, to feet and to arms. And all I've got to do is imagine that every single one of them represents that idiotic, inconsiderate jerk. The more I destroy, I triumph over it, and also get a high score, which gives me more neopoints to deposit into that wonderful bank. Fantastic.
My parents have been granted a visit to my brother at pulau tekong tomorrow, and my mother has gotten all ga-ga over it. She's bringing almost a whole truckload of stuff for him, -this may be a little exaggerated- yet she claims that those are the things he had asked for. Then what about that can of pringles? With courtesy of my dad. He even wanted to bring along a bar of snickers for him. Sadly I didn't heed he yuan's advice of not interrupting my mother when she's on the phone with, guess who? Her beloved son. I don't see how she could possibly get so excited at just a phone call. One measley little call. Bah.
I have been thoroughly pissed off at a certain jerk's inconsiderate behavior. One, do not make me run errands for you as though I was supposed to, and after that I receive no word of thanks. Even if you did, it wouldn't be sincere at all. Two, do not make me run errands for you in the rain where I get drenched all over, and you get to stay all clean and dry. Three, do not talk to me plainly for the sake of saying something, because nothing of it means anything to me, and also irritates the hell out of me. So I'd rather you keep your mouth shut. Just in case you didn't know either, never create any form of interruption whatsoever when I am watching tv. Never. Try and you'll see. He, has already gotten a taste of it. Want to try? It's awfully sour.
I've put up a christmas tree in the living room. The lights have fused this evening. The decorations really suck. So much for the shopping done for those stuff. I'm going to eat kit kat. Now.
Friday, 12 December 2003 > 4.18pm
My forecast of having a bad day yesterday was correct. Yesterday was horrible. In the morning, some contractor had come because my mom wanted to fix the front door, together with two others which were warping. That stupid man had to lose his balance over some newspapers which I was cutting on the floor and he stepped on them. He could just go die. In the afternoon I went for my dental appointment, where I find out the reason behind my aching tooth was because it was clashing with the one below and that my teeth aren't 'alined' properly. And the only way to solve it, is for me to wear braces. Ah?! The dentist says if I don't put them on now, it could lead to other complications when I grow older. Great. I don't want to wear braces. I don't want those metal things sticking to my teeth. Noooo..
About the concert yesterday. One, I had to take a cab because it was raining heavily. Two, the old hag working at the cafe in victoria concert hall deserves to be k.o-ed of this planet. He doesn't provide customer service, and he could jolly well wipe his table with his face for all I care. Three, michelle and I got semi-drenched when we left and my poor shoes were soaked. She wore slippers so her feet were wet. And about the performance.. it was nice. I guess. Please feel free to blame me for not being able to appreciate classical music. Saw koon yan and jonathan there, jonathan dao-ed. ?!?! He'll pay for that. I was made to carry a sunflower, with thanks to michelle, back home. A small girl on the train kept looking at it, saying 'sunflower! sunflower!' all the way and was pointing her finger right at it. I don't think I would ever be fascinated with flowers. Ever. To be honest, I don't like carrying flowers. And I sprained my ankle down the steps at the station. Yay. Now I can limp. All day.
With my wonderful ankle. I was made to stay at home today. To make things better, I had a stomach ache. And I wanted cotton candy. (after having tried some yesterday) But got none. My bball's out of air and I don't know where to pump it.
Wednesday, 10 December 2003 > 8.06pm
I am thoroughly bored. Maybe it's because everybody's out and I'm cooping myself at home. I've been trying out this new game on neopets (yes, i still go on it. sometimes) and finished all twenty levels. Boring. My room's a mess and I'm too lazy to do anything about it. Arh. My brother's going into the army tomorrow morning and he has been depressed the whole week, and his mood has already affected my whole family. He's lost his appetite, refuses to go out, acts grumpy, and sticks to his computer all day. Major depression. I wouldn't really be able to understand what's going on in his head, but he's got to get over it already. And pronto.
One of my tetras seems to be acting oddly. It's darting around in the water, 'attacking' the other inhabitants of the bowl. Virtually poking the other tetra's bodies with its head. Aggressive. Maybe it's mental? Oh whatever. My life's been really dry. My brother's going and I'll be the total centre of attention in the house. This is horrid. The whole place will be silenced even further than it already is. Hope I can find solace in the newly opened basketball court near my house. Yay. (yah i don't sound really enthusiastic. cause i feel sick) I've been irritated by the fact that I always have to accompany my mom and dad to do their grocery shopping with them. Well not exactly my mom, it's more of my dad. He refuses to leave me alone. It'll be even worse when now my brother doesn't join me in this family crap. Bah.
Nobody's online. My brother's locked himself up in his room, sleeping. And I've got a stupid problem of tomorrow at hand. Don't ask about it.
Friday, 28 November 2003 > 11.19am
Shall not elaborate much about what happened on tuesday when I went to orchard with michelle, but otherwise it's, erm, just plain 'interesting'. Apart from the fact that she had humiliated me with her pink (and hard) rip curl bag at the toilet when I had to wait for her, and attatched to it was a pink balloon (sadly) which I was made to carry. I didn't bring much money, so naturally didn't buy much stuff either. Though I was given the opportunity to tell two guys right in their faces to get lost and scram. That was the best amusement. Bwahaha.
Went to bugis yesterday. Didn't get anything except for a christmas present for my mom from the body shop. Walked around, came home, and that was it. I'll be going to bangkok tomorrow, so I'm kind of witholding my shopping till then. Hopefully the map michelle drew up of the place would be of good use (along with my lousy sense of direction) Then I'd be able to bring back some goodies for you people. (this is not reliable. do not believe. so don't say i didn't warn you) So bye..
Tuesday, 24 November 2003 > 2.16pm
I was thinking about a lot of stuff. Once I ever asked myself this question, whether or not to believe and trust in everyone I knew. Seems simple enough an answer, and at that time, mine was a 'yes'. Yet now, things are different. It isn't that simple anymore, it isn't so easy anymore, and it wasn't what I expected things to be. I am confused.
So, anyhOw. Spent almost an hour in a stupid cd shop yesterday with my family. Of course, this would be the cause of my dad and brother's doing. It was hell. One, the place was crammy. Two, I can't spend that long a time in a cd shop. Three, there was this madman yelling in and out of the shop, with his wife trying to pacify him. Get the picture? Mom and I decided to walk around the other shops there, which turned out to be of no help because they were terrible.
Lunch, erm, well, was 'okay lah' standard. Nothing special. Worst thing was that the desert section was pathetic. Or maybe worse than pathetic. So I skipped that section. Came home and my dad started a movie marathon. He's nuts. First, he watched gangs of new york. (which was quite violent) The volume was turned up so high that the whole house was ringing to whatever that was on the television. That was about three hours or more. Then he watched another movie, with my mom and brother this time. And all the while I was suffering in my room. Trying to shut out the noise. Then came the headache.
Yoke pei's link is up! check it out.
Friday, 21 November 2003 > 4.39pm
I am so sick of parkway. Went there this morning, most of the shops were closed, and it was freezing cold. Sigh, all because of some stupid 'thing' which I had to pass to tze wan. As compensation, I got to eat mac for breakfast. Yay! (yes, i know. it isn't such a big deal. but at least it's something) And I just read some ridiculously dumb entry of someone's. I've got nothing to say about it.
My mom finally got her pair of evening shoes. That is, after yesterday's hell of going through bedok. Man. Those stupid salespeople keep dragging me in to buy something from their stupid shops. When I choose something, they have to buzz around me and ask me too many damn questions that just put me off. So much for getting me to be their customer. They just lost one by doing what they are paid to do. Sadly. Because being 'over-friendly' with people like me, doesn't get you anywhere. Too bad for them. Don't they understand that when I want customer service, I'll ask for it? Just when I needed some, there's none. Like, ?!?! Darn people.
You know, I think I need sleep. This is making me grouchy.
People are like teabags. You have to put them in hot water to see how strong they are >> I got this from a postcard I saw at a shop.
Wednesday, 19 November 2003 > 1.57pm
This is madness. Fours hours straight of fang.. is enough to make me go crazy. Didn't absorb anything, merely copied blankly. Let me explain, the sequence goes like this, "2-3sin2x... ...sketch... trigo... (someone's name) how do you obtain..." Zzz, then words start flowing into my head again. I'd rather have the lesson broken up into shorter hours, then at least I understand her lesson fully. Sigh. Now I'll have to re-read everything all over again. And try, aimlessly to understand something. Something. (hey, what's that on the transparency? I can't see!! eh..)
The holiday mood's not here. Considering I still slogged yesterday night until about 12am to complete the geography assignment. Ms fang had to give us more homework. Forgotten about my leisure time? Yes.. I don't even want to rant about next year. It'll make everyone (and myself, mostly) depressed. Really. The subject does wonders, huh.
Managed to hop into parkway yesterday, though. My mom wanted to get a pair of evening shoes.. or slippers. Oh, whatever you call them. This is not my department. Maybe I should refer her to michelle. In the end, (well, with not much help from me. though i was her salesperson, trying to get her to get any that's available) she didn't get any. *what a life* Blame me for not being persuasive enough. Anyway, the stuffed toy giraffe that I wanted to get from watsons.. Got returned to the distributor (#@$%^&) Haiz. In the end, I only managed to get a new cd. Which had a long story behind it which I do not wish to elaborate here. This is so not shopping.
Michelle got me a pillowcase from bangkok (yay, thanx!) Tells me that the prices there had gone up. Which is true, along with the sg dollar decreasing in value. So my mom says lah, I'm not so informed about stuff happening around me. Wonder what I should get for her when I go there.. Just know that it'll have to be something pink. Bleah. I'm not exactly looking forward to the trip.. it's always this way.. I don't feel like doing anything now.
Thursday, 13 November 2003 > 9.20pm
Just want to say that I have no regrets going to level camp, well, coz it was totally fun! Despite that little problem that I had. Heck. Everything, from top to bottom, was both interesting and exhilarating~ And I'm sure that all who went had a great time too.
The camp was a success -- everyone worked together, bonded and had loads of fun. Mr Wong (my group's instructor! YAY) and Bobby (from spongebob) left lasting impressions. Well let's not forget the other instructors, like Joshua (me and tze wan called him ah-dai. he looked like one), polar bear and 'handsome' (who took us through the intiative games) and many more. It's thanks to them that everyone had enjoyed themselves! Cracking lame (but funny) jokes, and most of all, being crazy. Mr Wong and Bobby even created the 'star wars light beam' effect after the campfire was put out, using torches. The two were the inseparable pair who made us laugh till our stomachs ached.
Day one started out really slowly. At first I was really 'stoning', but as things picked up all became different. First was the challenge valley, (I got stuck in the tyres but managed to pull myself through), then nature rumble (everyone got muddy but it started to rain, so our group only experiences 'half mud') and the third activity was the saints challenge (where I saw myself falling to the ground when turning round and round with my head low). Bathed and then came the night activity. Everyone was blindfolded and walked around the grounds holding on to one another's shoulders. When it was lights out, some people were talking so loudly that I just felt like killing them. And the floorboard was short. I couldn't stretch out my legs. If I did, it'll be out under the moonlight, feeding myself to the mosquitoes. Just great. So I had to sleep sideways, curled up and that made my sides hurt. Urgh. Tze wan slept almost immediately. In the middle of the night, I was awoken yet again my someone snoring in my tent. With much difficluty, I tried going back to sleep.
Day two had six activities lined up for us. Some obstacle course (grazed myself when jumping off the wall, and got so disappointed when I couldn't complete the monkey bar *argh* I've been doing it since young!!! must go back to it.), Outdoor cooking was a mess, (we made some weird dishes, but I must say, the fried chicken wings were quite good), Initiative games were most fun (the guys did most of the work, and we cheered the most when it came to getting gabriel over the electric wire), then came rock climbing (sigh. I didn't make it very far), team building games (I was practically being suffocated and desperately keeping my head up high to get air, and the stupid guy behind me was squashing me! Darn him. All of us were perspiring like crazy and it was a big sigh of relief when that was over) and lastly the river challenge (if that's what it was called lah, where everybody got into the 'milo pool')
Campfire ROCKED. The insturctors set up speakers and played music. Yay. The only thing was that because it rained, the floor was wet and my shoes, well, you know what happened. The seats too were wet, and so much for my pe shorts. We wanted to give standing ovations to everything (as part of the plan by us (chihuahuas) and spongebob, with thanks to mr wong and bobby) but we were so irritated by the splashing of water that me and tze wan just applauded with our hands up high. M.cs of the night were none other than Mr Wong and Bobby, who wore cowboy hats and afro hairstyle wigs, with a great entrance with break dancing and of course, more lame jokes. They got everyone all psyched up, and also danced later as part of a game. (they did the moonwalk leh!) So anyway, the campfire was the most memorable. Compared to last year's anyhow. Chihuahua did their cheer, with thanks to gabriel, who was to 'trerrify' the instructors each time he came up to lead our group. We had the honours of puting out the campfire and later went to bed. (not to mention the cliche 'speeches' given by june loh and mr tan. I wasn't listening at all)
Last day. It was funny how I felt a tiny bit that I didn't want to go back. Striked our tents down, kept our stuff, said our goodbyes to Mr Wong and Joshua (who both wanted to cry, and mr wong did, faking-ly.) Our dear 'lightning girl', or rather tze wan lah, got ngiao-ed again while doing the survey of the camp. Haha. Went home and plonked myself on the couch, and slept for three hours straight. Now I wished I had asked Mr Wong and Joshua more questions about themselves, and could listen to more lame jokes..
Thursday, 23 October 2003 > 3.20pm
After two days of sitting in a cramp and cold auditorium, while receiving the mental torture of the returning examination scripts, I have lived. Still. Okay so the auditorium was built to hold a whole level of students, yet the space in between seats seemed so tiny that it was so difficult to pick of something from the floor. Speaking of which, I had, in a desperate hope, managed to find my lost eraser. Yay. I couldn't keep track of how many times I had dropped my pencil case, lest chen yan's or her calculator, jacket and file. Freezing, almost everyone had a sweater on. With the exception of me, for a simple reason because I was lazy to carry it to school.
Totally awestrucked. My mouth is gaping wide. Just as expected, I had flunked my e-math, with a 62. To answer ms fang's question of "what happened?", I don't know what came over me. Perhaps I panicked. In that time constraint and the skimpy rush to complete the paper, I must've made a number of careless mistakes and couldn't think clearly of how to solve those mind boggling math questions. In the end, I had left a considerable number of questions blank, and didn't even have time to complete a question which I had known how to do. Acceptable answer? I can't think of anything else. A-math then was a different situation altogether. Got an a1. Hurrah. Maybe it's because I had time to practice some questions over the weekend. And I thought A-math was supposed to be more difficult? Whatever. Ridiculous.
My mom didn't say anything about my results. As usual. She never does. It always ends up with me doing all the talking and what I call, 'self-scolding'. Perhaps she finds my 'self-scolding' suffcient. The other two scripts which were bad was physics and combined humanities. Didn't fail, and got a b4 and c5 respectively. Very not-satisfied. Can't come to terms with not completing the social studies paper, failing that in the end. He yuan said it was my time management. And of course, physics, which I had spent a hell of a lot of time revising, yet my efforts didn't pay off. I don't know what to say, it could be just my delusion into thinking I had the concepts right.
The rest of the papers were practically quite alright. Managed to pull through in geography paper one. By luck of choosing between A, B, C or D. Surprisingly did better for chinese compo, well beyond my normal standard, which was usually a borderline pass. A2 for english,with just one more mark to a1. *frustration* Shall not comment about the 'stupid maths and sciences guy'. It is just not healthy. Will be getting our report books soon. Eeek.
Saturday, 18 October 2003 > 4.30pm
Finally gotten rid of that stupid zonkboard. Their horrible people decided to charge the users. This is injustice. Well decided to switch to tagboard instead. Now I've got to put up with a horribly short board. Definitely got to do something about that as well.
Three days of marking days have passed me by. Eeek. And it's going to be school again. Went with tze wan to orchard on thursday.. walked a hell of a lot and ended up at parkway. Amazing, huh? Okay, so anyway it was an eye opener I guess. Since I haven't exactly been there in quite a long time, due to certain circumstances, like for instance, my mom's not exactly a heavy shopper. Walked and walked, though it was rather frustrating looking at too many 'cutesey' stuff and being unable to purchase them because of the horrendous prices. Call me cheapskate, whatever. I don't have money to burn.
Saw this 'shaking head' thingy which I found rather fascinating, don't really know how it worked, all i saw was this sensor-like thing at the base. Got something for my mom, which was gladly appreciated, and I didn't get my water bottle. Looked all over, and everywhere for it, but missed a shop at takashimaya. Just great. Hope I manage to get it soon.
I've come to realise that I only know one language, and that would be english. All that crap about coming from dhs, a chinese whatever type school, is rubbish. The international varsity debate has left me cursing at those people. Couldn't understand a word they were saying. It sounded so foreign that I just switched the channel. Eeek.
Friday, 10 October 2003 > 2.10pm
Rejoice! It's friday and we've just been through a whole week of examinations =) Now we can rest.. No more burning midnight oils.. No more slogging in the afternoons.. No more mental torture. Well that's at least until we get over with A maths next tuesday. And geog paper one. Sigh. For now I'm going to take a rest because my brain needs it.
Actually, apart from E maths which Jonathan said was bad, i.e to us normal folk it was hell, the rest of the papers were quite okay except with leaving a few questions blank here and there, because I wasn't given enough time to think. Hmph. Can't stand it. At least history didn't turn out that bad, or maybe it's just my wishful thinking that I would be, for once, able to answer mrs z's question. Panicked during physics with the 'forces' qustion, couldn't do it in the end. So anyway.. that should be all about the week of hell.
Saw mrs z leaving the school compund today with a caucasian.. wonder who's he?
Monday, 29 September 2003 > 3.20pm
Here's a special entry, because it's going to be devoted mostly to thanking all those people who had made my birthday a very special and happy one for me this year :)
I'll start off with the duck 'door sign' which quacks (it was so popular that everybody wanted to have a go at it during recess on friday), along with the balloon(which practically announced to the whole world that it was my birthday, and of course gave me a little trouble trying to prevent it from knocking into my head), which was given by chen yan, shi han, charlene and ying jie. Seems like you people had a little trouble with both the duck, and the balloon; the duck being lost at a shop and the balloon having a little go at walking the road :P Thanks for all the trouble that you went through! The balloon is kinda deflating already :( I must go pump more helium, and I find that it somehow makes a good indoor kite. Haha. Next was tze wan and grace's bear and flowers, of which the bear was totally 'me' and the flowers, well, uh, really brightened my room :) I had to lag the bear all the way from chemistry practical to geography at the comp lab to pe. And chen yan, not to mention me, kicked the box holding the bear while at the chem lab cause I wanted to keep it out of ms goh's sight :P And it had made it through the tremor. Wonderful! Thank you michelle, who gave a converse wallet, (which I was previously going to buy from her, yet it still ended up with me :P), and the me-to-you key chain which I got today (and she had a little trouble opening the packaging though). Thanks a lot jing yi, who gave me a snoopy light (which was rather nice pressing on and off. haha) Most of all, to yun ling, fiona, fabian, he yuan, jun ying, oon yong, and one other mysterious person who signed in brown on the wonderful me-to-you card, for the card, of course, and a me-to-you bear :D which was so darn cute!! and the bottle ( i think) full of starts. Loved it loads!! Now I have another bear in my 'collection', or rather another one which was given by my aunt in australia. Thanks to pearl ning, mariln and yoke pei, who are going to give me something concerning piglet but marilyn had forgotten to bring it today, so here's an advance thank you from me! Thank you mom, who gave me vcds on pixar animation films (they totally rock!) And last of all, wan ying, tracy, siok ting, jonathan, chay him, koon yan, szu jeng, ms fang, mdm illyana, for the birthday wishes! Hope you people see this, and I just want to say a BIG THANK YOU FOR ALL THE WISHES AND PRESENTS WHICH TOTALLY MADE MY DAY!! ALL THE BEST FOR THE END OF YEAR's, YOU ROCK!
