hey guys im here.... i won't be adding more for awhile... if i can help it. why? i need to get more stuff so instead of adding one at a time and you having to vist this place more often, (poor child) you can just look at a whole buncha new ones. adds a bit more purpose to coming here, at least. well that is all. ~Cyn
alrighty, i had more to add but i can't find them. i just wrote one of these five minutes ago...well tis all. laterr
well, i can proudly report these to be weird. expecting anything less from me would be kinda crazy. ^^ welll i don't know what brings these weird things on, but i like weirdness.
Hide me my face behind a curtain of which you have never yet sewn
Into the stitches you feel your life bleed in its colors and set
Hide your face in those colors hurt that needle dig into you
Did an autopsy on your old life they say you’re okay now
But can you really believe what they say?
Had you died like you did then there might not have been as much
Sinking involved in those waves as your skin snags the rocks
Starve yourself long enough and you die
Don’t be afraid to stop swallowing the truth
Someday it might be what sets you free
Release me the voice had you heard the morning of your defeat
Falling on the ground breathing labored on the field
Sitting on that field did you feel the blood you spilled in those minutes
And hear it pounding in your head as you glimpse of what you never saw before
How long would it take for you to realize
Pain is all relative isn’t it with what causes and what starts
People can hurt you waiting long enough until they did
Cause and effect it all brings you down in the end when you can’t breath anymore
But if you’re not afraid of what you carried in your arms that night
That blood straightening your veins and bursting them apart
Pry apart that crack in your heart
Take a chance with those scissors carry them with you tomorrow
You just might need them when you mess up like you did before
Don’t talk to me talk to the person you hurt with it
Those scissors are yours now use them
Hear glass shatter put the blame on you
I could see that you were afraid as I moved
It was then I saw my reflection in your face
I wasn’t afraid of you anymore now that it was done carrying
Never bothered to ask you why we’d become a team
You broke her arm put her cries out the door
Lied them flat out on the ground like a rug
Slapped a face on the closet door and decided against it
Defense was your only last word to say to my face
You’ll live in a hard world and when it is over you rejoice
But I heard her screams as you did not, I heard his tears and held them
They were mine for the keeping we bullied them both
I held onto their love but I had to ask you why I was not
Why couldn’t I love you after I found out they loved you more
Useless questions to ask when you died all my fault
I carried your burden and my own for the rest of our lives
Telling myself that you and her deserved to smile as my back broke
After hearing your screaming I locked myself up behind that door
Hid my face in the pillows needed to lie by myself
How long had god turned his eyes away from the face of his betrayal?
I’m sorry god for killing your children wiping the blood off your floor
Take out that stuff and don’t try to swallow as you stare back at him from the wall
How could you see both yourself and them staring at you through it
They wouldn’t want me to carry any more
How long does it take for this life to pass by the minute of twelve?
Paint the clock with that cloth....Midnight…
Tears are slow to fall when your in true pain
Help is only a lonely sound in your mind when your scared
Murder yourself before lonliness takes charge
Scream while you can you blasted sleepwalker
Fall asleep at the wheel if your still afraid of the consequences
Shoot a bullet through the head and you might slightly hurt
But taking the easy way out is always the same
Sleeping take the stuff and drink it down with your own sweat
Are you so sure you have the time to keep living?
Seconds last so much longer than the day's you've faced before
Answer the phone leave a message on the dial tone to not pick up
Don't talk to me anymore you blasted
I don't want to hear your scream as it takes you to realize
It hurts, it hurts so much
Hang up our voices at the end of our screams
Cut us off from the very thing that keeps us alive
Murder that last string hanging at the tip of your shoe
Sheath it with scissors and leave it a exposed part of you
Bleeding I see you fall, the sky is bleeding
Break the time in half leave it where it lies
Through the broken frame of my door sneaking peeks at your face
Crystal tears falling for your loss in the end of the day
Sit down, rest, bring to sleep your awful death.
I’ll put you to sleep like a dog
Rest your head on my arms, hold on to you forever
Because as you leave I see it fall,
Bleeding I see you fall, the sky is bleeding for you
Keep your blood for us to live
Take your tears pack them on to some place else where they’re needed
Peel back your fears into your eyes where they’ll blind you
Bleeding I see you fall, bleed for me my sky.
Shutter-to all those yearbook loving fools--
We were young and innocent then
Smiles plastered on our faces
Maniquins staged in the darkness of its shadow
Shutter clicks leaves evidence of something that was and never will be
Hide from the camera to preserve memories as they weren't
The way we would all rather remember them as
Preserve their memories that should have never been
Quick lies the shutter closes in on them
Hide the evidence of what happened since then
In our plastic smiles
We were too young and innocent then
But they'll comment on the things they seem to know
Sad faced, sad eyes, challange on what memories we buried
Was there a time i remembered with your smile
Veins throb painful in your head just ignore it
ignoring a past that hasn't been
We were just too young and innocent then...
just... too...young.
Your draggled lies press knife to skin
Cold steel rubs against the bare of your flesh
So quiet, so proud
It glows in your eyes reflection
Of what this mirage has come to be
Of what zombie has cared to dream
He pulls out his pen to his paper
presses the knife to his skin
Asks you what you have done when there is nothing to say
How long it would last in your flesh, in your blood
How long it would pump through your veins
The heartbeat like the tick of the clock
Angry and red like blood.
Like it is, like it was.
Angry as you are, your reflection, all of you, reflect me in your mirage
Silence, the young ones have taken out their pens to paint their flesh.
So do not speak while you betray the existence of yourself
If you had told him now.
Hide me in your whisper of dead words
Only they can conceal what I've become.
They lie when they tell you what can't be said
Wasn't who helped you see your in far above your head
Wrap around take your feelingless fingers wrap us around
Take your time clock ticks when it must
Numb you listen to the deathening sounds of your day as they strangle themselves
you see them lying on the ground, take their blood off your hands and it'll be ok
We have no guilt
We have no guilt in telling you this
See the toys lying on the ground
Not worth for playing, there is nothing found
He took children lost in their sleep
Remember her voice taken from your dreams?
Just little bits of inconsistencies
Above her casket you see the freshness of the grave
Where is the sense in this mirage?
He had no guilt
God has no guilt
Look their hands raised far above their starving faces
Could they have died they would have no traces
They hold their hearts in their hand up to you in hope for exchange for food
Take them from my hand
Take my blood from my hands
You can have no guilt
You have no guilt
Slowly trickles your words to my ear
Out side the world is humming breaking, go death, go blind, stay near.
Do not turn to the face of your lover when her face was not what took you to her
Drink of her stories in the pot of coffee soon served
If you heard what it was clearly saying wake you up
You might have lasted that one night before those words would spill out
Tell no more lies, I've forgotten your touch and your love
I'd rather it just stay in the hell where it belonged
No use in trading spaces with that which lay far beneath the ground.
<unfinished... if it ever gets finished, I might inform you. I just started this and im not in the mood to finish>
Slowly your words stalk pray to my ear
Forgiving the rest of your lies
Turn away my blank stare turn away from the cries of
Your life
Cry all you want to, my dearest companion
Photograph hidden in the bottom of my drawer
Hide from me the rest of my life
Lye to the fear in your eye in your mind
Slowly runs the tear to cheek
The floorboard moan for the touch of my feet
Photograph hide from my touch
Memory dodge the blow to my mind
Come to me soon, your words won’t lie…
(this one i wrote last night, telling myself mrs pedan would pass it for a personification poem)
The voice on the screen plagerizes voice on the phone
Ringing tuneless hunts to your demise
Cold steel Caught on with white frosty glare
Silence, be quiet child no need to despair
Sleeping in a bed full of corpses
Fear sleeps in with the suns hidden face
The petrified glaze of wings clutched in mid-air
Silence, be quiet child no need to despair
Use gentle words and gentle motions when you are near
Keep out of eye and out of mind, out of voice and out of ear
Push of the fist and yank of the hair
Silence, be quiet child, no need to despair.
Murder of cold embryo so develops the night
Through the skinning of both moon and breath
Stars skimmed the evening and ate of her fear
Silence, be quiet child, death is near.
( i originally had rhyming probs, but then i decided to add a twist, so the last line is diff then the rest. ^^)
You ended your life with words written on paper
You stole from the screams and boy did you cry
When I told you you were dead, I heard your pain
Wordless syllables that cut deep in your mouth
Have you lost your mind or am I just crazy?
You laughed so hard in your anger I almost thought twice
But you ended your life with those words to catch up to you
Nothing is there now that your gone
When did your life dry away from the tears
You lost your life with those words
lost your life with your pain
Turn away my sweet voice would you do it again
If you had the choice to take a breath
Would you, could you do it again
Between the walls that you've created with anger
What were the words you chose to build them with?
So slow now c'mon taken your breath
Ignore your own words feel them paper cut your mind free
How could I get through to you?
Keep listening through the cracks of your floor
Keep hearing the continued knocks on your door
Take you to the doctor to get your head checked
Nothing wrong here I can hear your voice crying
I have to say all keep it up!
You tears slur your words your loneliness kills them
Stay locked in your mouth where they must belong
Caught between your teeth little lies little fears
You know you want to die
See the shine of it at the edge of your bed
Waiting for its kiss stay crying in your pillow
Don't take it now its getting too late
shoulda saved you when I had the time
Pushed away your words in fear of more
Its just so hard to listen
When your dead
It was then that I saw the tears in your eyes
The blood on your lips and the fears in your cries
I couldn't have helped you had I thought of the time
Go ignored your voice in the bitter end of your life
Don't try so hard to talk in your sleep
You've gotten me afraid with the silence you leave
Please don't try to speak
Will I forever hide behind the safety of my door
Behind me my life, my lies, my fears
Would you fear in the making of another life?
If you could kill yourself now, would you do it?
Between the swaying of autumn and summer
If you had the knife now, would you use it?
They say they don't want to live, but do you want to die?
If oyu had your life in your hands to look over
Would ya hesitate or hide behind your door of dead emotions
Would you listen for the muttered last words of your day
Would you kill my fire with a bucket-full of smoke?
No, that feeling, this feeling last forever... live...
They've always said change was for the better
But they've never seen change as I have
Knives dancing on nights hissing frail hunger
Change is what murdered the man and took away lives
Its what ate away what little my soul had to offer....
But they lie only in dreams
Forever are the changes that made place in our lives
They only hunger for more fear
They leave only the dusty fragments of yesterday intact where it dies
Like ashen evidence of the dream that once took place there
Its comes forever it last forever its gone forever...
Never did stay too long in the trash left behind by yesterdays dump
But that was never meant to last anyway
It was built to move forward
How could you forget?
But ah, memories come and go with the setting of your sun
Never can be too sure if they're there for real
if only we could have the inner voice whisper the blood secrets of the past
but the only voices on the streets the honking of cars and the smell of gasoline
Tell only of today's heaps of lies that lye baking in the presses
Only those without dreams can take on the days
Without pity without mercy eithout love
For all that had lived and prospered yesterday, they believe only in the words of today
That come spilling secrets from the grave of celebrities and other such fools
living breathing creatures they're just like you only better
Liar.
Darkness mouths the words that were better off unspoken—
Days taken down lying in the dust crying for redemption
Just forgiveness that is all we ask—
Did it ever come to your mind
So much asked for is not in your delieverance
Forgiveness drained your face and took your blood
Now you’re just begging for more
Your night has come through the drought of thoughts
The lack of enthusiasm has bled through your eye
Now all you can do is lay down and scream for mercy
Mercy was such a petty thing lain out before your time—
Words left for the better end of tomorrow
Just forgiveness is all we ask
You abuse your words and leave them begging mercy at your feet
Your words are just strong enought to break
um... title please? heck, who needs it...
faces idolized collected only in the newsprint of yesterday
The lonely ghosts that roam the tears of dew the morning
Shadows collecting in the streets, sterilizes the moons peaceful rest
The hand that left you so many years ago
The curtain of day that you just can't draw back
Till the day is ended and passes away forever...
My shadow grows weak in memory of the night
Days caught in the web of death
A spiral of never-ending
My voice is weak a sound caught in my breath
Which the wind blows away with sweet breath and sweet sorrow
The night is dead the morning is all that’s here
I must take it farther must take on my next tomorrow
You can't redo you can't forget you can not believe
What is lost spills over the perception
Of what could be your last dream among
The lifeless living, all your friends have checked in here
The lonely glaze upon ones eye
A pool of memories dissolved in blood
And suddenly the day begins drawing near
Shadows take the lives with knives
Their blood stains last forever
Upon the sky night wreaks it wrath
The innocent have lost their chance
The sky is forever lost to the grave
whoo! first of all, most of my nonrhyming poems are recent, and most of my rhyming ones are not. first comes the nonrhyming.
The warning of the dead
The murderous words
Scribbled out of your mouth
The deadly tone
At The end of the phone line
Warning signs of death
Warning signs of the dead
The creak of the rope swinging
The quiet murmer of the last breath
The last breath
The humming satisfaction of the tv screen
As it is the only wisp of life left
The murderous words
Scribbled out of your mouth
The last minutes
The lost time
Warning signs of death
Warnings signs of the dead
The blood you held so dear and close
Held shattered on the floor
The world screaming your defeat
Tell you can take no more
Darkness sweeps you off your feet
Tell of a day before
Memories murmer in your ear
Of what was said and left undone
So close were those times
Signs of death
Signs of the dead.
Hurry, hurry
Or you lose
Hurry, hurry, or you lose
The warnings signs of death
The warning signs of the dead
Slapped Out of it
It was a slap
An uncalled move
A slip that the shadows mimicked
And we could not have hoped
This is what could happen
This is all we’ve done
Our self destruction has cost us dearly
And we will cry forevermore
But we be still slapped
Tears leaking from the depths of pain
A bloody smear on a shiny pin
We have to ask
Can we start again?
But we have been slapped
And it will forever burn on our cheek
And in our hearts
We are no more than shadows now
A mere reflection of what is to be
We were slapped out of it
And we haven’t paid our fee
Bodies lie lifeless around your ring of blind fury
Their blood is on your hands
What are we to do now?
Can’t we start again please?
Your friend that was there
Has been slain by your hand
You cannot cry over
You cannot refrain
Our tears have dried
Yours remain
Did it ease your suffering?
Did you forget?
We are slapped out of pain and yet you bring more?
Did you hurt inside?
Don’t you?!
You’ve felt the sting
And you’ve spread the word
Now you must kill
In order to be heard
To touch in any way
The pain that is rotting you inside
Blinding you with hate
Spilling over the brim
We are hurting
Your soul has been withered by your fury
And you do not see the tears
But you slap each person
As if they were an abused child
You too slap yourself
And it Burns
You rot in your anger
Until you are slapped out of it
By your own pain
And then you too will see
There isn't much left
Unless you learn you that must let go...
Slapped out of it count. (2) seperate poem...
It was a slap
And you fell
You lie broken, shattered and torn
On your bruised knees
You sit ashamed and crying
As the whip digs into your flesh
Feirce and angry slaps
Your tears burn into the ground
Dying the earth red and swollen
You lie exposed on the floor
A victim of lifes anger
You are banished, rejected by the earth
And it spits you out cold and alone
Broken, yet solid
You are still in one piece
A whole in itself, you have fallen apart
With the feirce winds
Your words have worn thin
And your voice become a whisper among the pale green leaves
You are lost between the frothy waves
And have been slapped out of it.
Is it Impossible to believe in faith
When faith has done you wrong?
There’s only one life to live
One that I have never seen
It just repeats on day by day
There just isn’t any life
Left in my own
Life keeps goin day by day
But to me it’s far gone,
Just way too far gone
Maybe there’s a way that I can
Beat it through the storm
But the rain it’s cold and the thunder it leaps at me
This life is too far gone
Just too far gone
I’ve always been told
If you look inside of yourself you’ll see whats never seen
I’ve always had a wish that I can hide
But I could never hide
No, you can never hide.
There must be some secret inside of us
It dreams what’s to be dreamed
This secret can find a way so I can’t hide
No, I don’t have to hide
No you don’t have to hide.
I’m still alive
Still alive
That secret inside of each of us
Teaches to survive
Theres still something left in life
That human eyes have never seen
There’s something in this world that’s alive
Something I must find
There’ll always be something worth fighting for
Something to believe
So when times are hard and it seems all has gone wrong
Please don’t cry
Hold fast, Hold strong
There is always someone there to help you
When and if you fall
There’s always someone behind the scenes
Making sure its time
Stay strong
I’m still in here
I’m still in here
You know when I am gone
I’ve been gone
But I’m still in here…
Aren’t I?
Please tell me
I’m still here
I’m still me
I have seen those gone
God, please don’t let me become like them
Staring blankly at the wall
They are dead inside
Dead.
Gone.
Please tell me I’m still here…
still living…
You can see it
In their mind
Fiery intelligence burning through their souls
They can’t stop it
I will not die like this…
No, not like this.
Please!
You can see it in their minds…
Their friends are laughing inside of them.
Laughing as the funeral goes on…
Laughing.
They are dying.
Please tell me I’m not dead.
Not gone.
Tell me I’m still here
Because I am not sure anymore
Not sure.
I won’t die like this.
No, not like this.
You won’t let me die.
You can’t.
I won’t die.
No… no.
I am sure of it now.
I’ll save you.
You are saving me.
I won’t die.
No, not like this…
Shiver my Child****
Beneath the skin
It sends a shiver
You feel
But you may not.
You think.
Or do you just feel?
You’re only human.
But humans are animals too.
Yes, you shiver.
Why do you shiver?
Are you fearful, creature?
Of course…
What is courage to you, beast?
You shiver at my sight, yet I bare not a fang against you.
Did it ever occur to you creature,
That you may not be the creature of the bold?
To what force be there a crown in the end?
You or me
Him or her
Them and they?
So do you shiver?
What is that on your cheek?
A tear?
We bear not the watering of the eye
Tell me human, thing, it,
What is it for do you cry?
You are afraid…
Of me?
Ah yes. You are the only thing that cries.
You cry not for sadness.
You cry for you.
Yet we know not of why you shed the bitter tear.
Perhaps you thirst?
But alas, we know you thirst.
To kill. To kill me.
Your eye tells it all.
You lay there, such a small calf lone on the empty plain.
I could kill you now, you know it.
Perfect prey.
Would be a pitiful move to let you go, you little morsel.
But go ahead.
I’ll give you a head start.
We do not bear a single tear.
But we feel the stillness.
And I shiver.
Time
Lost are the times of defence
Forward the days go on
Even in light the shadiws flicker
Flames of dust at the side of the walk
Graves lingering on the trees warm moccasins
Stars fading as the silent moon
Cries her self to sleep beads of dew
Darkness moves on to relive
Memories of days gone by
Lonely is the moon in her lost mourning
Losing itself within
But they day passes by
A new life
Shadows tear at the sides
Flowers dance in the stream of silver
The memories of days long gone.
Nearby the brook lets out a sigh
The moon all alone
Is weeping’
The moon all alone watched them die
The flowers sit like children
Never ready knowing why
Clouds fold in the distance
Only the darkness see what is happening
Only darkness holds witness to
The death of the light
That held on for so long
The failing night only wants
To know why
And so the dawn is whispered
Into the dated minutes of dusk
Time awakens the sun
And the Moon begins to die
Lost are the times of freedom
The night pulls in by the tides of time
Lost are the lives that freed them
Their minds are locked to a halt
Few are the ones that lived in freedom
But those still free never die.
I lie on pieces on the floor
A darker shadow amongst the thorns
A sullen world of fire
Burning
Screams echoing emptily
Against the thorns that surround them
But they are gone before they reach them
Their fingers reaching up
But the thorns are made for one purpose
To keep you in
And lock the intruders out
Adrift
Where are you now?
When the tide is lowest
And the sea is dead?
You haven’t abandoned me now have you?
When the sun sets its highest,
And my shadow is long
where have you gone?
When I need you most,
To love and stand on?
Where have you gone?
Now I see you’re not here.
Why have you left me?
I need you to hear
You’ve beckoned me forward,
Now left me adrift
In a sea of my own tears
In an ocean of the highest depths
Drowning in my own fears
And now I am stuck.
Why have you left me?
Where are you?
I wish you where here….
Face from the darkness
Free from the chains that had bound her walk
Like a rag doll she hangs,
Lifeless
Breath of hope may give her life
But ah, she already dangles dead before them
Freezing in the burning house
But still there is something left to hope for.
She lives…
Face from the darkness.
I could tell you that the world was pretending
I could tell you that this world isn’t real
I could tell you that this worlds is sleeping
But the world it breathes in you
Sometimes theres no other choice but to have to feel
Though it seems nothin’ can ever be real
Only years left to die
Only weeks left to live
Days worth the mourners sacrifice
The words are swallowed by shadows
We got nothing left to live
The world will breathe in you
There is a time when you gotta stop lying to yourself
It’s hard to face thunder when the other side’s all sunshine and no rain
But sometime you’ll have to face your pain
I have faith in you
Cause the world, it lives through you
The sky will be much brighter there
You can’t go through life
Forgetting worries and cares
You can’t go through life
Numb and dead
You can never hear the blue birds sing
Until you’ve heard their cry
You can’t see the sunshine
Unless you feel the rain
Without the bad times,
You gotta relieze
We’d never appreciate the good times
But I have faith in you
The world is liberation
The world it lives in you
Pretenders
The days are growing distant
The hills more immobile
The sky more gray
Each day is aging fast
And the endless have come to a halt
The world has become weary
A painting fading in the dark
In the lonely attic
The young have grown old
The old have died
The moon has seemed so far away
Faded in the darkness
Bringing with it all it holds
Leaving a black hole torn into the night
The pain
It has gone numb
It is somewhere else, gone.
The thorns
They still pierce
But do not bleed
The pain has left me
The cuts have branded me
Life had stranded me
It is all betrayal
Lies
The wind has stopped blowing
I shall never feel the wind blow again
The world is behind bars
You think you’re free?
You are not free… you never will be
I’m not free
You’re not free
We’re just a bunch of liars…
Pretenders
We’ll fake anything to get out of this mess
This mess we’ve made for ourselves
We’re already dead
We don’t feel
The world has made us this way
Pretenders.
Yeah, it warps everyone soon enough
The world stretches only so far
Beyond the endless horizon
It ends
Yes, it all ends soon.
The world is dead
I can see clearly now
Like looking into the stream
I can finally see there is a bottom
Of the ocean, of the grass, the dirt
Of lives
Yeah, there’s always gotta be a bottom
Of life, of something
There’s something there
We’re all liars
The lives will rise and fall like weeds
These people
I don’t know them anymore
They are supposed to have meaning
Their names
Their faces should hold something
But no longer
Their words are simply words
Holding no meaning
No, not really
I no longer understand what they try to say
These faces
These words
These silent breaths
Pretenders.
Peace Night Composition
War leaves us blind
Our eyes clouded by our hate
Looking at what we’ve become
Bringing anger and pain
What is there to gain?
We lose control
Tears will stain the ground
As we look at what we’ve done
We were swallowed by the darkness
As we were reaching for the sun
A wound exposed to the open fire
A surge of blind rage
We could fall to the ground in sorrow
After seeing what our self destruction has cost us
We’ve all been hurting just the same
Yet we’re unable to see beyond the pain
We must smile through our tears
Forgive those who do harm to you,
Although it may be them you blame
We are all at fault of our sorrow
Though you can cry out for the comfort of the blinding sun
Reach out for it’s bright golden arms
Taste it’s sweet light
No matter how dark the night, morning always comes
We must stand together through the dark
Or we could lie and say it’s all false
But I’m tired of hearing it’ll never happen
And that we cannot forgive and we cannot forget
It’s not over till it’s over
The scars bear cold on our hearts
Like footprints in the sand
Nothing, nothing can be done to stop the shouting
All trying to be heard above the roar
The sun forever blocked by some night we’ve created
All because of war
Hearts are hurting beyond words
Our shattered hearts and broken dreams
How can we forget what we have done?
How can we live in shadow when we need to feel the sun?
You just can’t leave it behind
Just can’t go on as if those who die had never lived
But together united
Together as one
This night, its just a feeling
We need to begin our healing
Let them come.
Whisper of the Heart
The colored leaves
Have turned black and white
I shall never feel the sun
Setting across my face
In all those beautiful arrays
My world is colorless
The wind is fenced in
Lifeless
I shall never feel the wind in my hair again
Nor the stars pale glow
Inside my heart
The leaves have fallen off their branches
The cars taken the life
Clinging to the skeletal branches
There’s always something lost
A second
A year
Love and life
Fall loftily to the ground
And are torn by the child’s laughter
I shall never feel the blush of laughter
I shall never feel another thing
I’ll be forever numbed
Hanging of the edge of the last branch
The last tree left standing
When the storm goes it’s toughest
And lashes out its worst
My heart whispers
I shall never feel the rain again
Every line must meet its end
Mine is only round the corner
Part of something that we’ve all lost
The leaves will forever fall
The winter will always come
The summer will always bring dreams
And spring love
But none of it lasts
The color fades
Like an old photograph
A memory
I shall never see again
A flower preserved, left behind
To be swallowed in answer of a question of some kind
A sweeter taste of bitter lore
A different scene of what lies in store
Music soothes the brocken heart
It’s the sweetness that makes it tart
Darkness brings death upon the land
Time can be taken by just a grain of sand
Hatred can overcome the greatest task
Only the strongest of hearts will last.
Lie apon a bed of stones
Bleed upon a grave of bones
See through the eyes of death and sorrow
Feel the death of the next tomorrow
Feel beyond this droning world
Through the lies and truths it's hurled
Die apon an open fire
With no hope and no desire
Fly upon an ocean wave
Through the sky that you shall pave
Seach within the golden ring
The bitter sweetness such pure things
Shear the tip of an open dagger
Take the poison that makes one stagger
Feel the edge of the broken heart
Awaken a dying soul with start
Lie awakened during the night
The is no hope without a fight
Take the poison that heals us all
Take one last breath before you fall
Peel away all those fears
Wipe away your salty tears
<unfinished... yes thats right... two years and i still haven't finished it. get over it.>
The way of Life
*this was inspired by bambi... last year.... i was watching it... and wrote this
For many they have just been shot
Just to see them fall
To wait until the fire burned
And consumed them all
As a blood red sky and sickly black smoke
Swallows the land in death and ash
I stare into your still, saddened eyes
See you in this trash
I pull you in not knowing why
And lead you away from here
The trees bleeding and your tears well spent
I don't ask you not to cry
I see you limp by my side
Feel your presance in mind
But I have seen you have faded away
Left yourself behind
For many years you've lived here,
this is what you call your home
But now its time to start over
Now you are on your own
Years later i see you lying
Biting on the grass
I see that although its not forgotten,
You have let it pass.
****beneath the surface******
so what's gotcha thinkin I have something to hide?
Why is it the worst things that are hardest to confide?
I don't know what I've been losing
But my heart has held to it tight
We can't lose what we've got
No, not without a fight
We've had a dream for so long
Where is it taking us?
Why is is it the most honest things
That are the hardest to trust?
so what's gotcha thinkin I have something to hide?
Why is it the worst things that are hardest to confide?
There are many days in a year
But so many more in the hour
It's ticking fast
The sweetest things are turning sour
We forget how hard it was to try
When all you received was pain
There was nothing behind us when we fell
There was nothing more to gain
so what's gotcha thinkin I have something to hide?
Why is it the worst things that are hardest to confide?
We ran against the wind
and find we are just as hollow and empty
and sedated as the tides
We were tired but we can't just fall onto our knees
There is nothin more to lose when the tide's at it's lowest
We just gotta step on forward when the goings get tough
We can't stop walking to fall down and cry, we ain't got the time
We just gotta get goin when lives gotten rough
so what's gotcha thinkin I have something to hide?
Why is it the worst things that are hardest to confide?
I think we've lost sight of what we're lookin for
There is no horizon that doesn't meet an end
But I can't stop where I am, I gotta get goin
When the goings get rough, remember I have a friend
There is a time you just gotta let go of all you got
You gotta get focused
You gotta dream for what you sought
You gotta just give it all you got
so what's gotcha thinkin I have something to hide?
Why is it the worst things that are hardest to confide?
There is too much too lose
People will die
We must hold strong
We gotta keep our ties
I will not cry, though it hurts beyond words
You only wish it couldn't be you
You wanted to keep it, you wanted to take it home
You just gotta hold on, don't give in, stay true
so what's gotcha thinkin I have something to hide?
Why is it the worst things that are hardest to confide?
There ain't much to hold onto
Hold on to your dreams, cuz that's all you got
They do not die on you, you die on them
So please don't let them take you, take what you sought
You'll run free as the wind just
Don't let your spirit die
You cannot let yourself go
Oh, just please don't cry
The night steals your soul away
There isn't much use in carring guilt
when you need your load to be light.....
(unfinished)
Like Ships Sailing onto the Sea
Look at the bright sun
For I can no longer see
It for myself
So see it for me
Darkness has blinded me
And silence enclosed around me
Like a cold, itchy blanket that is too small
So please be my key
Sneering, hating faces
All around me making sounds that screech
Beautiful and graceful moon
Like an elixir of life you can never reach
Gentle, warm sunset
Painting the sky I cannot flee
Like a giant canvas
And like ships sailing onto the sea
Swallowed
Have you sunk beneath the waves?
Been devoured by the world’s endless plays?
Have you ever lived my life?
Living on the edge of a knife?
Do you feel the hate I feel?
See things as I see, not sure if they are real?
Have you ever seen the light
Endless chorus of black and white?
Have you seen the surface-- what lies beneath the lies
Did you stand there waiting as the world slowly dies?
Blue Dust (don't ask, just read)
The branches reach out to comb the hair of the faithful
But what faith is left when even hope is not
Is not much there to stay
Sometimes even the sturdiest foundations must sway
There is a time when the music stops playing
And the words come to a halt echoing emptily against the corners of the world
Lying in the darkest corners of the untold past
Every tomorrow is a replay of today
When the wind sighs and slowly your soul dies
What left there is to lose?
Time is a wastland of forgotten things
It ends and then comes out from itself
The sun rises and falls
Stars fade as if they never were
Every rising sun will eventually set
Another choice is made
Thrashing among the rolling hills
Churning within the frothy mills
Stalking among those who pray
Something we see often a day
Discovering darkness between the light
Finding the difference between day and night
Often chilling while in bloom
In the sullen light within sullen gloom
A dramatic change between warm or cold
Made to assume the leaders mold
Now it’s there, now you see
What isn’t there does not matter to me
Now it’s solid, now it’s home
Engraved during the night of human bone
So even as the darkness fails
You may hear those awful wails
For now it’s done, now you see
T’was true within the prophecy
The Reason
Why the shadows walk the paths of some unknown fate to come
Why the moon walked in his own footprints in the sand man left behind
Yet evr'y path must be walken
To ease the overgrown world
And to slow the beating hearts
The earth spinning madly on it's axis,
The world we call our own
An alien world of fitted strangers
A mounted king upon his throne
A child thrusting himself at unseen bars
A wild world of obscene things
A dream, a world dreamt by the child
Unlived to be perfection
Just beautiful and wild
Nothing can ever be the same....
The shadows speak without words
The people shriek in order to be heard
The pain is overbearing
If you can't do it right you can't do it at all
You hurt in your perfectionism....
I'm not Waving, I'm Drowning
Try to get me to listen
My heartless self exposed
Because of this feeling
My door must remain tight and closed
Because I live in shadows
Don’t deserve to see the light
I must strive to stat in this pit
Remaining shadowed deeply by the night
Here I was remembering
Something that I might
I am going so much deeper
Straying always so far from the light
Rotting in the darkness
Lying in this tomb
Not rendering the good times
Not what or why or whom
The questions that lie unanswered
Were answered long ago
But me I ignored in my wanderings
I would never know
Don’t try to protect me
From the foolish things you’ve done
I already sheided myself
Need for protection I’ll have none.
Shadow cast
Betrayal is slowly becoming real
A thing that lies behind
Something for which you have to feel
Where has my heart gone?
Slower then ever we are losing everything
Feeding like a leech off what we’ve got
I feel forever we’ve been searching
And losing what we sought
I feel I’ve lost it all to a gamble
I barely had a chance
Now I’ll have to stand listening
Captivated in your glance
Can’t you see I’m older,
Not a child anymore?
Why do you stare at me ashen in the face
I need to know what for
Is it because when you look at me you remember her?
Living in her shadow forevermore
Into the light you will not let me stir
I am lost to the darker side of her shadow
Cast into a dying past
I feel you knew me since forever
And I feel something behind you’re eyes
I feel them look away, an emotion inside tremor
I don’t want to go on
Reliving everything
Because her memories are mine too
And I am lost when they come and begin to sing
The time keeps coming and I play along
It’s time the sun cast a ray on me
Time I sing my own song
But you fear me as you loved her
Your face I see it’s pain
The mark that it’s left on you’re heart
Where her dying body had once lain
I share it too
I love you perhaps too much
You’ve always been by side
I was the one who hugged you
I’m the one who knows you cried
You haven’t been disloyal,
To have done what you have done
But please don’t stare at me like I’m not real
I need to feel the sun
Please stop Hurting Me
You can slap me in the face
But still i will stand strong
You cannot hurt me where I am
Although it won't last long
I've already felt the sting
of the whip in your hand
I've already fallen
But still I will stand
Please stop hurting me
I'm just a child who makes mistakes
Please stop hurting me
I don't know how much more I can take
I need some time to breathe
For now I am away from the pain
You cannot bring me back
I am sheltered from your reighn
I am away from the pain of physics
But please stop hurting me
Although I am safe from your blows
Please stop daddy.
Sunny weather in the rain
You can stand there waiting
Watching all them die
But don’t you show a weakness
Don’t you ever cry
You must stand there strong
No matter how you feel
You don’t even belong
So don’t you ever cry
While you sit there crying
It will not make it stop
But you must keep trying
Don’t you shed a tear
You must not give in, must not relent
You owe nothing of your life
Those people who have died here did not repent
The risked their lives and were unfaithful
So please will you keep praying
As they play death’s song
Do not let your mind be staying
Move it more along
So aren’t we here together
While we’re far apart
We can stretch through the hard times like no others
So don’t you let go of your heart
You must be the glue to hold it together
You must be the people’s strength
We know this glue can weather
But hold it just for now
We’ve seen it’s not worth trying
Not much gain for all we lose
It’s not worth all this dying
But not crying it’s worth the use
The last leaf to Fall
Watch by the sidelines
You see death settling around you
Helplessly frozen
Watching this scene you thought you knew
It may take everything away from you
Make you loved ones fall
But may you always remember
Why it’s here at all
It lives to kill
It may be the killer
But also a victim
Leaving death to hither
You may be the victim
Of any other cause
Although it’s stare is poison
Do not forget the laws
When things start to fall apart
You shall hold things tight
May you not forget it’s new start
You may give up without a fight
Bearing on the endless plains
Another death shall fall
Just another victim
Just another death to show them all
Remember that no death
Can give the relief
In this three have died
No longer the handkerchiefs
This should not have happened
Not written here at all
But still one must die
And two others too will fall
If you in uselessness
When you die in vein
When you try to stop it all
Remember that it is whose land your blood has stained
The last one to be killed
Was the last sacrifice
Made to a greater being
Whose bloodshed and death would suffice
Remember that in wisdom
There comes a great cost
Many lives to see
Many more lives seen then lost
So as you stare at this
Don’t say it isn’t worth it
Anything worth more then cost
Is not ready to forfeit
So as you sat there waiting
Watching the world go round before thee
Knowing what may happen
Knowing what you’ll see
But this was unexpected
Another death you see
Each one volunteering
To die for the same cause and become free
But instead you’ll be the giver
While the volunteer for a life
It’s only temporary
Till another sacrifice
Instead you be the taker
Of many lives you see
Instead you’ll be the killer
You won’t die peacefully
You will be the enemy
The next creature doomed to fall
This is what you volunteered for
The ones you saved are in peril *
But what you never knew
Is not what you have to show
All those who have been there
May well already know *(I say it perall, but it is actually peril)
Emptiness
It lies in a place deep in your mind
A deep hole in a space only you can find
It lies in the crevasse between evil and good
Hiding in shadows and under nights hood
It dies in your hand
Crumbles to sand
it knows all your secrets, truths and lies
And when it is caught it it always must die
The cold has warmed me
Those who lock me in are setting me free
Those who can't learn to fly
Are doomed to die
those of the blind who can actually see
Are of more value than any of thee
Between each droning word
You must hear it once more before pulling the cord.
Feeling your fingers round your neck
Dying a little before cashing the check
Is it really what you dreamed?
was it really as good as it seemed?
So did you hold on before letting it go?
Did it go as you planned or did you go with the flow?
It's talking, lying, playing tricks on your mind
Breaking you alive unlike any other kind
If there was no last minute it wouldn't get done
Now get out of there 'cause you've had your fun
So has it already chosen your card?
From the time you were born to the time you were scarred
Yes. It will kill you, feed on your mind
Noone will know, there'll be no evidence to find
Grave of the fireflies--- I know this much is true
Slowly you are dying
Drifting far away
I am starting to lose you
And I know it hurts to stay
I see you’ve tried reaching out
Though it does not take you far
I haven’t gone and left you,
The way things were and now are
Even sunshine burns if you have too much,
But then why does it seem that it always remains night,
As the world that was begins to fade?
Just hold on as you sleep so cold and silent to the bit of tiny light
This bit of tiny sunshine,
come on hold it close,
The night will take the lives of many
We are no luckier then most
This world, it is always changing
It will never stay the same
To the fireflies that are born to die,
Life is just a game
And the next you look into the sunshine
And see that no ones near
Just close your eyes and remember
For then I’m always here
When your dreams are cold and fearful
Remember I’m right there
No matter what I will protect you
I will always care
From now on and forever
I’ll never leave your side
I will never forget you
So please, forget we cried
When you are lost and afraid
I will come and get you
For we are stronger then all of them
And enemies we have few
You are all that’s left of us
My sister, so small and alone
Don’t worry about the fireflies
Let’s go head home
If you had lived longer…
It’s just a little harder
But this is supposed to make me stronger
So don’t worry
Somewhere through the darkness there is a light
Although I know you can’t hold on to what just isn’t there
Deep in your memory there’s something worth the fight
You’re the only one left of this world I call my own
Each lonely moment you suffer
All the things that try to break you down
They are made to make you tougher
But you have fallen onto the cold ground not remembering how cold it really was
Each summer ahead we will have sweetened
And I will carry you
And we will dance into the sunshine
Because I know this much is true
? --it's not finished--
The pain, it bleeds across the page,
A wound exposed to the open fire
A surge of your blind rage
Yes, you should be ashamed
We have left out tears behind
Followen the virgin paths
All that's left is for us to find
And we will be cold through the night
We have become weary children
Lost in the blind of of our Naiveté
No longer in the age of magic, now just oh so grim
We've sweetend and sugercoated the poisom
You can cry out for the comfort of the blinding sun
Reach out for it's warm bright golden arms
And taste it's sweet light
But you'll get nothing from your charms
I could tell you that the world was blind........
