you should hear the wind in my window
03.26.2007_ 2.50 pm
i tried to post this march stuff up last week, but freewebs was being dumb, so sorry for the delays. (not that my life is super interesting). my dad still hasn't turned on the air condition, so i have had my window open for the past week so that i don't suffocate. too bad it's raining now. i bet my carpet is getting soaked.
tomorrow i have this biology exam that i am not the least bit excited about. actually, i'm kind of scared because i have a C in the class currently, and i would really like to get a B (or if by some miracle, an A). i am really bad at studying though, so i've only gone over one of the five chapters i need to know. plus, i have been reading this book that will let me borrow (the wind-up-bird chronicle), and i am addicted even though i started off hating it. procrastination kills. i would have done much better on the lab report if i had turned it in on time. the TA said mine was one of the best ones in the class, but since it was late i got a 20% deduction. boo. maybe i am just lazy.
but being lazy is a really bad thing as i have found out. looking into graduate programs, i've realized that it's actually very much harder to get into them than i expected. the only schools around here who have the program i am looking for are uta, unt and a&m. i would really like to get into my own school first. if that doesn't happen, then i don't know how i would possibly get into the other two because unt's requirements are just as strict as uta's and a&m seems impossible. average gpa's for people getting into the program at a&m are like 3.5 and above (their data sheet said 3.8 actually) and gre scores are 1200 and above. my current gpa is like a 2.98!!!!! this is what i mean by impossible. my gpa for last semester was a 3.6 so maybe there is hope?
in other bad news, everyone is dying. two distant relatives died, and my chiropractor's mom died. one relative just had a surgery and so did my chiropractor's mom. as for her mom, the doctor forgot to give her some drug that prevents clotting, so one minute she was perfectly fine and the next she just died. my grandmother is having a hip replacement surgery this thursday. every time it is mentioned, my mom's face turns completely dark. to make things worse, my grandmother decided to write her will (she didn't have one before). i almost cried when my mom told me this. my grandma thinks she is going to die. and so do most people when they find out she is having surgery. honestly, i thought she was going to be perfectly okay. the doctors already approved of her to have the surgery in the first place, and if she doesn't do it, the pain that she is having from her hip will put too much pressure on her heart and she'll suffer from that instead. but with all the worry, it is hard for me not to get scared as well. and if she is going to into that surgery thinking she is going to die, it could affect her chances of survival. i really hope everyone is wrong though. i really hope things work out.
march madness
03.20.2007_ 11.00 pm
march is the month of midterms and madness. this week alone i have three tests, two drafts, and one final research paper due. talk about stress!
on the bright side, spring break just ended and it was a really great week. firstly, natasha was in town and we hung out for what little time she was actually here.
also, will came to visit and it was the best thing ever. our adventures can be seen in the pictures section. i refused to work during my spring break so we had plenty of time to go out and do things, even though there are still plenty of things left to do the next time he visits.
the modern had one of the best exhibits i've seen in a long time. it's called pretty baby and it is quite possibly the cutest thing ever. there were these fantastic japanese works that i really loved, a bunch of photographs that i swear i have seen somewhere before, a miranda july piece, and a bunch of other neat stuff. i didn't even know there was going to be an exhibition, so i was really pleased with it.
we also went to the trammell crow, and i always enjoy the pieces they have there. they had all these awesome paper cranes hanging from the ceiling that kids made (possibly in china?), but they looked really neat and i kind of want to do that to my room now if it is possible. it would probably take a lot of time.
will's visit was perfect timing because he was here for his birthday, where i got him a cupcakecake and we made sushis. probably the best thing about the visit, though, is how i feel about our relationship now. if i wasn't sure about how i felt before, i am definitely sure now. i am really happy with him and secure and that probably makes me a little more happy and secure in general.
