you don't have to go to college
12.14.2006_10:41 am
so i'm finally through with finals. i had to wake up really early today and take a final at 8 am. the reason i never took 8 am classes besides once when i had to was because i like to sleep. and now i am very sleepy. on the bright side, i got a's on both my term papers that i had due. it's nice to see my art history professor write "this is a wonderful paper" and "this is the best essay i've read from the entire class".
i don't know when everyone will be home from finals. i think natalie is coming home this weekend and natasha won't be finished for a little while. i'm going to houston on the 22nd for this religious conference that my little sister is dying to go to. i've been before, so i didn't care if i went or not as long as i didn't have to pay. the good news is that it's at the hilton, so the rooms should be nice and all. i'll be back on the 26th, so hopefully i can see everyone before i go or when i come back.
i keep hearing about this band the knife on every site i read and how much everyone loves them. i've listened to some songs, and i have to say that they're not so bad, but i don't love them. i do really like one song, heartbeats. there are different versions of the music video online, but this one is pretty neat: sony commercial video for heartbeats.
ps. i deleted frankie's myspace profile cause i never log in to check it, and i'm working on getting mine deleted too.
bro's
12.11.2006_4:22 pm
i am listening to this track from the new panda bear album. it is pretty good and fun and it actually sounds more like animal collective. you can listen here if you want: panda bear - bro's.
finals are this week and i can say that i am glad to be almost finished with school and finally seeing the fsfs soon! i am expecting one or two or three a's if i am lucky but i suppose we will see what i get.
this is my schedule for next semester:
M 10:00AM - 11:50AM - BIOL 1441 BIOLOGY I LAB
MW 1:00PM - 2:20PM - PSYC 2444 RESEARCH & DESIGN STATS
MW 3:30PM - 4:50PM - ART 2300 STUDYING ART HIST
W 5:30PM - 7:20PM - PSYC 2444 RESEARCH & DESIGN STATS LAB
TTH 9:30AM - 10:50AM - BIOL 1441 BIOLOGY I
TTH 11:00AM - 12:20PM - ART 1309 ART OF WEST I
i have to say that i haven't started studying for my finals and i have one tomorrow that is mainly comprised of essays and he gave us the essay questions, but i haven't even read the plays. they were discussed in class, so i guess that helps. i checked both the school bookstore and the other used textbook store, but they seem to be doing inventory and/or they've already put up the books for the spring and no longer carry the ones from the fall. this means i'll probably have to buy the books from barnes and noble, which is lame. i hope i do well on my finals and i hope everyone else does, too.
some days are good and some days are really bad. at home, that is. the same things that always bother me come up, and it is hard to deal with it all by myself. especially when all my friends are far away and the supposed friends i have here are too busy for me. i don't like burdening other people with my problems, but sometimes it is just too much for one person to handle. and i have had trouble making friends at school and especially now, with everything that has happened the past six months, i have trust issues. i miss the people i used to talk to or hang out with. even if it was just once every couple of weeks. hopefully things will change for the better soon.
you can't trust your dreams
11.29.2006_3:10 pm
do you ever have those dreams where when you wake up, you can't tell if the dream was real or not? last week i had this dream that i had rejoined tae kwon do and when we got a break, i went out to smoke a cigarette. and people were shocked that i was smoking. really i had kept the fact that i was smoking a secret from my family, and when i did smoke, it was only one cigarette and probably only one or two a week. i also had hidden half a pack of cigarettes somewhere in my house. now the part about joining tae kwon do was of course a dream, but when i woke up, i couldn't figure out whether i had ever smoked or not. it actually took me a few hours to conclude that i hadn't and that it was all a dream. but it just seemed so real. last night i had a dream that my parents took me overseas and i had forgotten my phone charger, so i couldn't talk to any of my friends and all i had packed were sweaters and it wasn't even the weather for sweaters. in another part, i had bought another turtle and was having a v tough time keeping the tank clean with two turtles. that dream was less real to me than the first dream, but i was pretty worried all throughout.
maybe they're supposed to reflect on what i am feeling now or something. a few days ago, my parents discussed marriage with me again. i said fine and whatever just so i wouldn't have to talk to them any longer, and mentioned that i wouldn't talk to these 'potential husbands' on the phone or online if i hadn't met them. honestly i planned on rejecting every person they sent my way. but then one morning my dad is bringing the phone to me asking me to say hello to this guy i've never met or talked to and don't even know what he looks like, and i refuse and he follows me around the house with the phone until i lock myself in my room and refuse to talk to anyone. i sat there and looked my bedroom door and went into the restroom and locked that door and went into the closet in the restroom and sat there for a couple of hours crying and feeling very crazy. most of me wishes that part was the dream. or nightmare, rather.
on another note, it seems i can't go for more than a few months without getting food poisoning. on monday morning, i went to school feeling fine, but by the end of my first class my whole body was aching. i went home and took my temperature and it was only one degree above normal. one degree. how can that make you feel so crappy? i took some tylenol which brought my fever down enough for me to go back for my next class, but then yesterday it got even worse. nausea, vomitting, etc. all day until i took like 3 pills to make it stop. i hate being sick. i feel fine today, except i've been thirsty all day. and no matter how much i drink, i am still thirsty. luckily, food poisoning only lasts for a couple of days, and i'm not really sick.
look for it in the sky
11.20.2006_2:23 pm
i recently helped my little cousin lina with a diorama for her science class. we made a forest ecosystem. i posted pictures of it in the artworks section of this page. animals that i made include the bear, deer, oversized frog, and some birds. she made the squirrel, rabbit, skunk and fish. my little sister made the turtle. i also made the trees, bushes and pond and painted some grass that she cut from outside. i am by no means an expert at clay-making so this is the best i could do.
speaking of helping people with things, it seems that everyone in my family comes to me for help with writing papers. my little sister, my 28 yr old brother and my cousin (who asks for help on every single paper). while i don't mind helping people with homework, it kind of sucks when on a monday night, i have two papers to finish for the next day..and i get asked to help other people with their work. i think i'm pretty good at writing papers? but people need to learn how to write. okay so my brother usually writes his own, but proofreading 15-page papers takes a long time.
luckily this is going to be a short week with the last day of classes on wednesday. then natalie and natasha will be home and with brittany already here, things will be great!
currently
11.09.2006_11:10 am
i'm in the library skipping my greek tragedy class because i haven't bought the book that we're reading yet. :shock:
today i have to talk to my psychology advisor so that she will let me register for classes. after spending about three years doing architecture related things, it seems like i probably won't even be 
minoring in it. the classes that i need to take to minor in it are not even offered most semesters. actually, only one or two classes out of the 20 they have listed are offered. and the last time the others were given was the fall of 2005. since i don't want to stay in school forever waiting for them to offer the classes i need, i've decided that i should just minor in art history since i already have 9 hours of it. plus it probably won't be as difficult.
in other news, brittany will be home next friday and then we will be able to party down. i miss my fsfs and feel kind of bad that i suck at contacting people..
i bought this journal when i went to the trammel crow museum with brittany, but have yet to write in it. i am afraid of writing dumb things on the pretty pages. :/
is it time?
10.26.2006_4:49 pm
the more i try the worse it gets
the more i try to forget
you don't know the half of it
perhaps it's time now
to see a shrink
a kiss with tongues
a kiss with tongues [twitching and salivating like with myxomatosis]
believe me you would run
if i were
to spill the beans
sometimes i lay on my bed and just stare at the clock. watching the second hand tick. tick. tick.
there's a study where experimenters put these people in rooms. no outside light. no outside time. no sense of night and day. they were supposed to carry out their everyday activities without knowing what time it was.
eventually their biological clocks determined what they would do and when. their days were a little over 24 hours long. maybe 25 hours.
i wonder what it would be like without time. time is everything. without time would there be speed? probably not.
time and i don't get along very well. maybe it's my biological clock struggling to get in that extra hour that it's supposed to have. i don't like having to do things now, later, in an hour, by 9:30 am. this has been sitting for 3 days now, why didn't you do it? this only takes x amount of time to do. time makes me late to class. time makes my parents yell at me. time steals my chances of having the life i want. wanted. it's in the past now. i guess it's 'time' to move on.
well
10.23.2006_4:41 pm
everyone is talking about global warming. thom, khaela, al gore. i have to say that i dislike the cold, but i don't want to kill the planet either. what to do?
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10.11.2006_2:27 pm
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