02.19.2006_6:38 pm--björk_storm
i should be studying and being productive, but i am bad at both those things. lately i have been very good at job working and house working, but when it comes to school work, i am the biggest slacker. i just can't get in the mood to study.
i was going home one night and there were firefighters behind me most of the way and then people would slow down but i couldn't figure out where they were going. i let them get ahead of me cause i figure they need to get somewhere, and finally they stop close to the I-20 exit. there was only one car between me and the firefighters. it was really annoying cause there are only three lanes and they were in the middle lane and the guy on the right could pass, but i guess they weren't letting people pass. so we stopped there for like 15 minutes waiting until they finally decided to let the cars go. it was more slippery further down and everyone was driving annoyingly slow. i guess i'm just a speeder. or maybe i'm just impatient.
i didn't really mail out valentine's this year. i didn't get around to finishing the mix i made and i kind of hate making mixes lately cause everyone already knows all the songs i could use. the whole music process is so fast paced now, it's crazy. we listen to albums before they're even released and hate the bands before normal people have gotten a chance to listen. haha. back to the drawing board i guess.
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_11:04 pm--will higgins_notyrparty
i just added pictures from the fsfs' macaroni grill outing before everyone went back to school. if you want to look.
02.08.2006_2:57 pm--danielson_did i step on your trumpet?
this song has been stuck in my head for the past few days but i keep listening to it. i used to be better at updating, but between school, a new job and my mom and grandma overseas, it is hard to keep up! as far as school goes, i think it is okay. my studio professor is actually nice! and she explains things. this is probably the first time i have had one like this. and i hear the other classes are dying so i am glad i have her! there is still a lot of work though. in the psych department, it seems that psych of women is most interesting, behavior and motivation is second place and developmental dies in last place. that class is so boring! i have to motivate myself to actually go to it especially since there is a 30 minute break between it and the previous one. i've skipped it twice so far! :((
my new job is at the mosque in irving. i'm their financial analyst. it's fancy for collecting pledges and donations, and putting them in the database, and charging credit card and bank accounts and making deposits. so far so good. i think we are getting cubicles, and i have my own phone line, email and voicebox. there is this one annoying guy, though, who is on the school board and he refuses to let me handle the school's deposits. it's starting to bug me, so i think i'm going to have to lay down the law.
the good news is that my mom and grandma should be coming home monday or thursday depending on if they get the standby flight or not. my grandma is supposedly doing better after her stroke, and i think she'll have to continue speech therapy here to regain control of her speech. i didn't realize until now how difficult it is having my family as a family. especially with my dad and sister. they make messes in the kitchen and don't clean up after themselves. they don't wash their dishes or put them up. i even have to water the plants and take the trash out cause my dad forgets. my little sister refuses to listen to me when i ask her to do something and then gets all pissy when i remind her of it. it took a whole week for her to vacuum upstairs for me. i have a pretty big house and i can't do everything by myself! so it will be a relief to have my mom home.
i only got two hours of sleep last night, so now i feel like passing out, but i have to buy food and study and go to class later. that is life.
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01.02.2006_2:55 pm--freezepop_i am not your gameboy
happy new year! this year i resolve to get down to business. i will study hard, not chicken out and drop classes or procrastinate. i will save up money and be productive. my future (ie. the next two years) depend on this!
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12.18.2005_8:42 am--frog eyes_the fox speaks to his wife who is not quite sure
so lately i've been working full-time at the office. monday through thursday from 8 am to 6/7 pm. and saturday 8 am to 3 pm. it's draining really. plus all the driving in traffic. we finally hired someone and she should be starting monday so hopefully things will get better until i leave at the end of the month. i fell asleep yesterday after i got home at like 5 pm and just woke up and i'm still tired.
uhh mostly i am just anxious about grades and classes. i want to know but i also don't want to know in case it is bad news. i am really hoping i passed architecture history seeing as how i don't know what i got on two of the tests. i'm trying to get into a film/video class, but since i'm not an art major it's really complicated to get in. well. basically i have to get the professor to sign off on it, which seems easy..if only i could get ahold of him. i left him a message on his voicemail and sent an email already..otherwise i'm going to have to find some random class to take. also the studio i dropped last semester has been completely full since the first day i could register, so i am hoping some people failed their last studio and have to drop so i can get in. and get into a class that isn't boswell's cause he sucks. it will take a lot of work to graduate in 2007 for me because of all the schedule screw-ups that have happened. i really need to get into this studio this coming semester or else my plans will be thrown off course and i may not finish my BS till 2008. i don't even know about grad school. :((
i am happy, however, that all of the fsfs will be home [besides the ones that are already here] soon.
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11.25.2005_6:51 pm--andrew bird_a nervous tic motion of the head to the left
i haven't really updated much lately. probably cause my goornal is taking away all my updating needs.
i uhh..went to the dma. the exhibition was really awesome. the lecture was alright, but the lady said um a little too much. oh well, she did write rauschenberg's book so i get she gets privileges. i couldn't get pictures of any of the really cool stuff cause there was security all around, but i got some of the ones in the other room. here's one of them:
so something really crazy happened. paul got a tattoo of one of my drawings. it's kind of weird..i mean..that's my drawing. on him. forever!
uhhh. other news is that there is not really any news. i helped my brother move into their townhouse on thanksgiving. i took frankie to the vet again and got a haircut. i have papers to write and only two weeks left of school and i can't wait till it's over and everyone is home. speaking of which, i'm about to go out with the fsfs minus brittany :(( cause they are in town for spanksgiving warhar.
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11.18.2005_8:52 am--rza_wicked society
it's so cold and we haven't turned the heater on yet so i have to use millions of blankets to stay warm. prepare for my allergies to start acting up and dry skin and colds. hello winter. :((
tonight i am going to the DMA cause there's a marcel duchamp/jasper johns/robert rauschenberg exhibtion and then the lady who wrote this book on rauschenberg is giving a lecture at 7 pm. seeing as how my art history paper is about him, it'd be good if i went. plus it'd be cool to see these things that i keep reading about in person. i will probably take pictures. exciting!
i have been having trouble sleeping the past three nights. possibly because i am cold and possibly because i can't stop thinking about work and school and work. i am so ready for it to be over.
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11.12.2005_12:04 am--wolf parade_"wish i had a 9-volt battery" (live)
my mom came up to me and said that she didn't think i seemed very happy. and that she was upset that i wasn't dressing well in front of people and also that it didn't matter to me whether or not i socialized with them. i just really hate talking to people about nothing. she also said that she thought me and my sisters were less religious. it's not like my beliefs are lessening but i'm just..not..doing anything. i'm not putting any effort into anything except things that won't show results. not school or work. i feel like i'm doing nothing. my diet is sucking. and sleeping habits. i am going to end up a fat, lazy, computer chair potato. :((
i am missing deerhoof and that really sucks. especially after people offered to let me go with them.
i did get to go to the nasher sculpture gallery in dallas the other day with my modern art class which was really awesome. there was even something going on at the dma which included johns and rauschenberg work and i should have gone! maybe i will get to go some other time. anyway, i was afraid to take pictures in case i would get yelled at but i couldn't leave without getting this [walking to the sky by jonathan borofsky]:
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10.31.2005_8:58 am--cloud cult_light at the end of the tunnel
the fearsome foursome minus brittany was in town for the weekend. weekends go by too fast. i probably only saw them for two hours total which sucks. we need a longer break. but i'm glad for the little time we had. anyway, we were talking about our poor social skills. how hard it is to just go up to people and talk to them. and then i found this piece of advice by a six-year old boy on how to function in the world as a human being. it's always interesting to see how kids think. do you want to go back?
i finished up my halloween mix pretty quickly so i could give natalie a copy for her birthday. but then i found a couple of other songs that could also work. i never put zombie attack on there which i should have but i have to rip the wwwm? cd onto my computer. too late now.. oh and happy hallowe'en.
DO THEY KNOW IT'S HALLOWE'EN?
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10.26.2005_9:41 pm--devotchka_you love me
it's probably a rule that tests always have to include the items that i didn't study as well as others. i don't see why our professor emphasized all this stuff about versailles and then it wasn't even on the test! so lame, so lame. i memorized a bunch of stuff that i didn't need to, and the stuff that i needed to memorize, i didn't know very well at all. like the altes museum or the amalienburg pavilion (or whichever one that was because none of these pictures look like that slide!) i have a test tomorrow in psych too. i hope it goes well.
i've almost finished eid shopping i guess. i still need new clothes. eid is in a week! ramadan went by pretty fast. i think i accidentally bought a lion king lamp off of ebay for $50. it was supposed to be $25 but the shipping was also $25 which is lame, but i didn't know until i was checking out. i didn't put in any payment information but for some reason they don't let you change your mind on ebay. i sent a message to the seller saying that i didn't really want to buy it, but i might have to now. :(
will: oh eman! you won't have to pay for the lamp.
ohh man eman: i clicked the commit button. they should have a button that says fickle.
also yesterday i had this bad headache. so bad that i felt like i was going to throw up and my whole brain was going to explode. and it sucks when you get a headache at work and then you just want to close your eyes and sleep, but then you have to drive an hour and a half in rush hour traffic to get home with the sun in your eyes because your kids broke your sunglasses. boo.
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10.23.2005_11:31 pm--hosteau_killing mar softly
mostly, i am excited for eid presents and the fsfs coming home. mostly, this is the first night in a long time that i am up past 11 pm. mostly, my replies on aim start off with yeah. for example:
natly: I was about to say those lines are impressive
ohh man eman: haha yeah i dont think you can make lines like that with water color
jesse: i don't feel like making a new account
jesse: for right now
ohh man eman: yeah i will probably never get evil again
natasha: wow early
ohh man eman: yeah sunrise is at 6:30 so we have to be finished by then
natasha: ohhh yeah
ohh man eman: yeah i am tired of waking up so early though
natasha: you can do it
natasha: go to sleep early!
ohh man eman: yeah i am about to
lala: it looks like she has meth mouth
ohh man eman: yeah wtf. surely she has enough money to fix her teeth?!
mostly, i just noticed this two seconds ago. also i am probably going to make postcards like the one[s] on the drawrings page if i am not lazy. also also the office manager at work got fired so i have been in charge of running things and i hope i am doing everything right.
also also also, i realize that i am repetitive and i don't care.
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10.17.2005_8:35 pm--antony & the johnsons_hope there's someone
yasmine drew a picture of frankie:
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10.16.2005_9:12 pm--pinback_prog
today was super boring. so boring that i cleaned out the entire closet. and the cabinets under the bathroom sinks. i started last week but got bored with it. today i finished. threw out tons of stuff from ages ago. found our old nintendo, but i'm pretty sure the piece that makes it work with the tv is broken or something. oh well.
i don't mind fasting so much as having to get up at 5:30 to eat something. now i'm starting fall asleep at 9:30 pm. i feel like an old geezer. i have no energy. i think i need some exercise. but at least eid is coming up soon. and that means presents.
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10.04.2005_10:05 pm--in the floor_sunflower
my new best friend:
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10.02.2005_5:14 pm--radiohead_everything in it's right place (hybrid remix)
i focus so much on the future that i can barely think about the present. probably nothing will happen that hasn't happened already and i am just wasting my time and energy on nothing.
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09.29.2005_11:23 am--animal collective_winters love
wtf did the seasons change while i was sleeping? in twelve hours it dropped forty degrees. i wish it were seventies instead of sixties. :(( also, i added a tagboard in case i ever get visitors (who want to tell me things).
_1:41 am--the birthday massacre_neverending story
i just woke up after sleeping for seven hours. i think someone told me it was raining. too bad i went to sleep at the wrong time. i think it rained hard, i don't know. i feel nauseous. dreamed a music video. i think that's how it happens. there is some background music..static beat to my dreams. i dreamt about doing things that i will probably be too lazy to do. is it dreamed or dreamt. i think both work. i have a test tomorrow today and i slept instead of studying. i couldn't concentrate if i tried anyway. i need a break. a real one. i need to stop saying that i need one and actually take it. the story of my life.
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09.27.2005_7:47 pm--os mutantes_panis et circenses
today is one of those days where i don't really feel like doing anything. i skipped psych even though i have a test on thursday, but i woke up late so i would have been late to class anyway. i went to work and did a bunch of paperwork. insurance stuff. very tedious and not fun. i came home about thirty minutes ago, and no one was here and there was no note left for me and i keep thinking that i heard people walking in or the door opening or someone calling my name, but i'm just paranoid.
i listened to this mix that evita made for us when we were filming could be worse while driving to work, and i think i like it a lot more now than i did back then. my music taste has changed a little. a lot of people at school listen to crap though. whatev.
i'm addicted to this website that will found. it's related to that movie me and you and everyone we know. but the site is called learning to love you more and basically there are these assignments and people submit things to the site and it's neat to see how everyone interprets them. i might do one some day.
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09.24.2005_7:06 pm--casiotone for the painfully alone_cftpa in a green sweater
it's kind of disappointing that there was no rain and only a little wind. there is no excitement here. bad as it may be, i was looking forward to some rain. i hear that water bills are awful. at the same time, i don't want a bunch of people on the coast to be hurt by the storms. oh well.
i have been playing around with this adobe premiere that i got trying to learn all of the editing processes. it is pretty fun. i played around with a ten-second clip of yasmine's ballet recital. [it's a ysi so the link will only work for seven days.] it's nothing fancy and it's only ten seconds, but after i figured out how to do it, i was impressed with how easy it was. and there are so many cool effects and things in this program. it makes me real excited to make a movie. if that ever happens.
my cousin's house alarm went off and it obviously takes the cops quite a while to respond to calls because i was waiting and i never saw them come..after they said that they were coming. unless they responded real quick before i even looked outside. either way, it's kind of scary.
also, i think we are getting our house painted. i hope they don't get paint all over everything.
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09.19.2005_1:57 am--kayne west_hey mama
why do teachers give the easiest assignments on the weekends when we have the most time to work on them where it only ends up taking two hours compared to the ten(+) hours that it takes for other ones? i think they like to see us suffer.
so i have kind of been freaking out because i am dying in architecture, and i don't know if i will make it, but i had better because it's the only thing that i am really interested in. now i am supposed to write 400 words on why i am in it, but i have no idea what to say besides that i like it? i will probably write this in four hours when i wake up.
uhh i have adobe premiere on my computer again but it isn't compatible with dv files so old movie clips can't be used. and i really want to make a movie pls. i saw this thing on the sidewalk at school that said "ever had a movie idea?" and it looks interesting...wtf i think that is the only adjective i know. :((
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09.05.2005_5:37 pm--boat_holding all the globes
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08.24.2005_7:40 pm--sufjan stevens_they are night zombies!! they are neighbors!! they have come back from the dead!!
so school has started and classes have been alright so far. my studio right now is pretty much a review of what we did last fall with figure/ground studies. my professor, boswell, talks a lot. pretty much during the entire class. but at least he's worried about us actually learning instead of just giving random assignments. today i was in the architecture computer lab and i overheard him and quevedo (they were sitting right in front of me) talking about possibly taking students to the rachofsky house, which would be awesome, not just because it's an amazing house architecturally, but because it's now a museum and i bet there is a lot of fancy artwork. i hope they take our classes. but i may have just overheard wrong?
architecture history is as boring as last semester and i have trouble staying awake in class already. at least there is a textbook that i can read if i miss class now.
my modern art teacher knows my name from the photography class i took over the summer. it's interesting except i'm already missing an assignment because i am still waiting for my [expensive] books to come in from ebay/amazon and we already were supposed to turn something in over the reading. :(( this class also seems like its going to be a lot of work because of this huge project that is supposed to end with an exhibition made by us about an artist.
adolescence looks like it will be a lot of lame work but hopefully interesting. maybe i will find out what my little sister's problem is. we have these response pads wtf that we have to use in class to participate.
in other news i have my own room now as my sister has gotten married and moved out and my little sister has taken her room. i painted her room and shampooed the carpet in both of ours, so now i just have to fix the furniture so my room doesn't look so huge and empty. also, i feel like making a halloween mix because "do they know it's hallowe'en?" is the best song ever.
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08.04.2005_7:38 pm--deerhoof_spirit ditties of no tone
i added a favicon to the site. it's a robot head if you can't tell. it automatically shows up in firefox, but i think in ie, you have to bookmark things before the favicon shows up in the address bar. everyone should use firefox anyway.
bad things: my grandma in the hopsicle for two weeks, my sister-in-law in the hopsicle for meningitis, my friend's sister getting killed by a drunk driver (with her funeral on her birthday), natasha and julie far away, people leaving, money problems, ysi failures, mega-uploads, no fsfs 2005 movie.
good things: lalaspeak, painting, mixed cd's, ohh man eman comic books, post cards from hong kong, delicious snow cones, spending time with brittany and natalie, /leaky/ music, overriding registration and getting a[n invisible] seat in my studio, the fsfs, the fsfs, will, the fsfs.
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07.19.2005_5:43 pm--animal collective_spirit they've vanished
natasha left today for hong kong. julie has been at oxford for a little over a week, natalie is working at american eagle and brittany is working at a dog kennel in arlington. [and will is in minnesota for a month.] it's starting to get lonely!
i bought some acrylic paint with lala's help thankfully and have been painting small things for fun. and it is fun. we had this little tower with water and fish inside, but the fish were colorless, so i busted out the acrylics and attempted to make them look more fish-like:
in other news, summer 1 is over, and i got a B in history of photography probably because i skipped one or two homework assignments /slacker/. now i'm taking psychology of personality (i think i am going to minor in psychology) and things are good so far. except that i'm always tired because it's my first 8 am class ever, but surprisingly, i am making it to class on time better than any other morning class i have ever taken.
the summer has been fun but also somewhat disappointing. i was really really looking forward to making another movie, but lack of time killed that idea. and now that everyone has apartments, who knows how long everyone will be in town next summer. it's kind of sad. but hopefully things will work out. my grandmother spent two weeks in the hospital due to kidney failure and my sister-in-law was also in the hospital this past week for viral meningitis. luckily, they're out now.
i hope everyone has fun no matter what they are doing or where they are this summer!
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06.10.2005_2:41 pm--cocorosie_beautiful boyz
so:
- i got real sick and lost my voice and got it back
- i lost my internet for a week
- i started summer school
- natasha turned 20 and the houston gang came to dallas. pictures here.
- i fell in love with the new cocorosie. even though it's not supposed to be out yet. /sneaky leak/
- i discovered that james and frank lloyd wright have the same birthday!
- i mailed out mixes to the unicorns forum kids on the automated postal center and i hope they get them cause that's the first time i have used it and it was weird.
- i went on a field trip with my history of photography class to the amon carter museum and we looked at cool things. i kind of want to go back cause we didn't stay there long enough to see everything.
- i am going to a wedding tonight.
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05.03.2005_9:17 pm--the blow_the sky opened wide like tide
school is almost over. one more week and i will be finished with pretty much everything.
i don't feel like writing. i just put some cartoons up. someone come visit me.
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03.20.2005_9:14pm--the microphones_i felt your shape
with spring comes a new layout! i had the last one up FOREVER, so it's about time for a change. i even tried not to let my laziness get to me and made multiple pages, so check them out!
so spring break is over and i actually did things instead of sitting on the computer all day. having the fsfs home was awesome but it would have been better if brittany had been able to come, too. there are pictures from when we went to cosmic cafe on the pictures page. the next break isn't until the summer and i can't wait for that. it will be so fun.
i have been working as a dental assistant for my brother-in-law in dallas. i don't get paid anywhere near as much as a hygeinist would, but it is much better than the zero dollars i was making before. i can take x-rays, sterilize instruments, set up rooms, break down rooms, and do almost everything else any normal assistant would. i guess he is impressed with my skills because he told my family all about it. the people are nice and the work is okay even though every day is different. some days are really slow and some days are really busy. the only bad thing is driving an hour there and back. :/
i hope the rest of the semester goes by reeeeeaaal fast.
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03.17.2005_6:30pm--circulatory system_joy
making webpages is so fun. 1024x768 is where it's at.
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02.13.2005_8:53 pm--the fiery furnaces_single again
WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE?
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01.14.2005_11:44 am--the faint_how could i forget
school starts tuesday, but i don't have classes till wednesday. aha. everyone is going back to school! and i'll be here by myself! luckily, evita is sticking around, and i think i'll have a class with andrea. anyway, we had our fsfs macaroni grill outing yesterday and then watched napoleon dynamite. funny movie.
i killed the guestbook. the only one that is alive is mary's anyhow. i probably won't update till school starts. so have fun everyone.
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01.02.2005_3:58 pm--the unicorns_emasculate the masculine
it's a new year. and i think i've sort of killed my livejournal. really, i only make such things because i need excuses to play photoshop.
anyhow. i was in houston for a week around christmas. and then in austin for new year's. it's been fun. but going to houston for so long away from my family and the internet and listening to people talk about things (whether they were really relevant to my situation or not) kind of helped me get over everything that has ever bothered me. including stupid boys and stupid things that boys have done. and kind of everything else that's been on my mind. not really an epiphany, but maybe like an alarm clock going off and waking me up to reality. and now i've been spending less time on the internet and when i do get online, it is because i am bored and have nothing better to do.
so i've lost my job. actually, some people bought out the shop that i work at, so i am now jobless. and i have to start paying my cellphone bill and i am poor. and eid is coming up soon. around january twentieth. and i want to buy presents for people. well, i am buying presents for people. with money that i don't really have. there's that saying that goes: "we buy things we don't want with money we don't have to impress people we don't like." i think it's funny. (though not completely related to me and eid.)
i also have no idea what is going to happen next semester. because i dropped the arch history class last semester, i have to take that again. and i can't be in the second studio unless i am enrolled in the second history already or already have credit for it. so this kills my three classes are twelve hours deal and classes are already filling up and my advisor still hasn't emailed me back! ugh. i am scared. i might be a semester behind if they aren't offered during the summer. boo.
oh yeah. i am sorry if you called me and i did not call you back or if i told you i would get in touch with you, but never did. i kind of forget these things and then it all piles up so i have a million people to see and places to go and things to do, and i forget which order they came in. so i am sorry!
oh yeah. i watched the lego version of radiohead's just video that this girl did. it is the best. thing. ever.
