Dragoon of the North

 What if God never created man; the human race? What if it was the devil? If you think about it, humans are all evil in their own ways. They make war, kill nature, have killed off races, and killed off other species. Then there is the whole Jesus thing, which was a test, not from God but from the Devil. He put a man on earth that claimed to be the Son of God who showed them the power of God, showed man how much of a good person he was. And what did they do? They killed him in the worst way known to man in that time. And even the good people where over powered by the hatred of the people whom wanted him dead. So this just proved to the devil that his creation was evil enough. For what I don’t know, maybe so demons or the devil himself could take control of the world and do what they wish.

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im a kitty walking down that road, im a kitty trying to make it home. im a kitty oh why wont u pet me oh why did u left me oh why did u leave me in that open road. im a kitty trying to make it home

my blade is calling me...im getting worst....not even talking is helping....nothing is helping me....for what i think would be a stupid idea....but i guess im weak that way....only use to last one day....now has lasted about 2 weeks....i hate this....i hate you(me)....the shine is calling me....what should i do....thoughts of darkness is over coming me....tired....tired....sleepy....restlessness.....i just want to rest.....sleep is good...but even as i sleep...they still get me....thoughts of the darkness is ever where....the shine is getting brighter....i want to lose myself in it....doesnt matter if the shine helps me for just a min....doesnt matter anymore.....i need its help....just let me please....let me go...let me go into the darkness....i am here to just take up time and be a number to even out the world...what else to do....i have a sickness....its my mind.....but to others the thoughts are a gift.....to me its a curse....let me shine make me better....let my sickness disappear....my blade is calling me....but what can i do but resist...

i trusted u with my hearts content

i love u as ont of my bestest friends

i know u didnt mean to do it.

but i will say

how can i trust u again

knowing that u stole my life

u stoled the friends i only had

but how can i go with u by myside

how can i go on with out you hearing my crys

already as of this day i miss so......much

I have lived this world, a thousand times never resting, never knowing what rest is.

This life confuses me I have no memory's of my childhood but am I sure that my childhood

was a good one, or was my darkness hidden from everyone but me. I have let myself love

my heart breaks, and I turn into a cold hearted bastard. it happened again and again, but

I just say its exp. so my heart can be hard as a rock. But little did I know that all that

did was make my heart weak. Always beaten it has never recovered, waiting for healing to begin.

but it wasn't going to happen cuzI fell with my "love" o how happy was i, how cheerful.

Thinking to myself this is it my one has come, finally I am joyed and full, but I knew all was not well. I tryed to fix the broken picture that has shown us together with bliss but my hands were tied and is if that wasn't my only hardship, lost everything around me freind. future family, everything.

Every one left me alone with my hands tied just staring at me andfading away, then finally she left

me with my heart to ache, to burn, to suffer, to bleed, once more, to ache and I hate for the betrayel. I have also seen from my family and freinds and loved ones  showing me that i am alone in my happiness that in their eyes for my happiness, i must fulfill theirs. This can not be true why must i heed the calls of others just to fulfill my own happiness. Ah this life plagues me well. My heart my poor heart beatin, abused , heal little one heal for I will never find love in this life, maybe the next. Heal little one, I will once again become the coldness u so deserve no one shall hurt you again. But what do i know, I have always said that and the little one gets hurt. My weakness is him, my heart, a good noble man. Sigh I see the same thing happening again but I will stop it. Maybe not. Just think the pain is liked by me, I seek it out, Why? For pleasure, to tell u I have misfortunes. But what sickness is this is it true. Then it is my sickness, and cuz of me knowing all of my flaws I shall never fix them, for my other half loves my misfortunes. Who will win this life, be it my last? And will I finally rest, or am I doomed to relive life. Untill I live it well, perhaps I am a cursed one that God has punished, punished by making my life cycle never end. Perhaps i am confused in every which way and my mind is truely insane, unhealthy or sick. Sigh. Am I doom to this sickness or am i just what i am, a human.

*holds you in my arms* my wounded heart wanting your love, my wounded heart healing with your emotions. my heart acking with feelings bursting with love, my heart wanting to be next to yours. my hearts only desire...

 

 

never meant to leave alone for this long, didnt mean to get ur hopes up, but theres nothing in my heart for you, nothing in my heart for anyone. never meant to waste your time, i was just a confused child, thinking you where for me. but now that i have seen it, my heart isnt for you, its for no one

 

 

cats meow dogs bark theres no end to the sense less noises coming out our mouths, why dont we just look into each others eyes and keep out lips tight, let me say how i feel about you with my stare, let me tell you how much you mean to me with a blink of a eye. but it will never happen. because dogs bark and cats meow

Items of the mind has changed me. For items of the world are no longer a use to me. My body a shell of my former self, a self with desires and wants. Unneeded now, my life is complete. My wants and desires gone. I am eternal, I am one, I am whole.