...r.a.i.n.d.r.o.p.s.

sorry for all the wordy wordy entries you guys had to endure for the past however long u knew my blog. but to those who've been sticking around reading pictureless entries for the past 3 years, im especially apologetic. as we've learnt in pw, visual aids are very very important! HAHA

yupyup. goodbye loyal blog for 3 long years, even though i shifted here and there a couple of times but you're still my wonderful ex-blog and you would be really great if you didnt happen to swallow up an entire year's worth of entries some time ago. goodbye blog that went thru my sec3, sec4, and nearly the whole j1 year which were pretty eventful and thank you for being there for me to vent things out on, angry, happy, sad, emo, every and any kind of entry.

this is like in gp promo, switching loyalties and all that. haha. i am guilty! ):

i realise this supposedly last entry is getting rather long and luosuo when it was supposed to be like a 2-liner or smth. abit she bu de. haha. i'll miss digging for nice layouts that i actually know how to edit and use cause im lazy to do the same for blogspot. i'll miss blogging here alot cause im really used to it even though it gets mafan to update and hard to put up pictures.

oh wells. maybe one day i'll decide that blogspot doesnt work for me or i miss this too much or smth and you'll see me back here. but nah. haha. cause im a lazy person and blogspot works better for lazy pple. oops.

maybe got time will think of smth to do with smelliesox. aha. watch this space! =)

last chinese paper of my life. i hope. haha. dont ask me how it went cause my results for chi fluctuates like mad and this yr i did badly when i thought ct was okay and i did well when i found promo hard. sadly i found this paper okay. wargh. and i know i screwed oral also. sigh oh well. its over! i just hope i dont need to retake.

my laoshi was saying that this exam is the result of the past 11yrs of chinese education. major significance and everything. sometimes im like yeah shit i wish i studied more otherwise it'll be so sad to screw up the last chinese paper of my life, the one thats gonna follow me forever? then on the other hand i just want to get over and done with it and never touch chinese again cause ive been hating the subject for the past 11 years anw. aha.

garr. time to cheong pw! but it will all be over on monday. thats smth to look forward to (:

went trick or treating with chriselle and jamie ystd. =D was super tired aft trip to 6th ave cause walked for damn long the entire day. met 1t30. haha. and went to tangs with audrey! then walked behind cj that nice quiet forested area. it nearly rained.

today's an incredible day. i think its one of the best days of this yr. even though i didnt do anything much i think i sorted out alot of mess and i feel so so happy im alive.

i wanna say sorry to all my friends, and a big thank you for not holding my negligence against me. it means alot that you still stick around even after so long.

shu yi jing er feng bu ting, zi yi xiao er fu bu zai. haha i think ive heard this like 10 thousand times alr.

Abba, Father. thank you for teaching me so much today. im so happy i wanna tell everyone. hahahahahaha. (:

anw today i went shopping. i used to think that people who went shopping alone were boliao and i couldnt figure out why anyone would go walking around alone. but today was fine. it wasnt as bad as i expected la maybe cause i go supermarket and random shops by myself quite often lately. sweelin's becoming independent at last?

btw lisa isnt in my birth cert. its my baptism name i got it last year. and i used to not like it alot. i didnt like people to call me lisa or elizabeth. but this year after coming to jc i realized that its easier to remember lisa than sweelin. so i became lisa. haha. 1t17 knows me by sweelin, but i think everyone else from cj and nj knows me by lisa. not that i mind lisa, but i guess it gets confusing cause i cant use lisa on my homework and for admin stuff. im sweelin! lisa saw swee lin. hahahaha. funny name huh. but. aiya used to it alr la. dunno got suanned how many million times my entire life.

you know.. with all the shit that can happen and that has happened i know i sound really er.. suicidal and zibei? haha but no im not k. im still a happy girl. please dont be fooled by emo entries and msn nicks. im fine but thanks for caring anw. (:

the happiest thing that happened during ocs on wednesday was the rain. that forced us to take refuge in the canteen for 2 hours playing animal game? haha(:

and ystd i didnt go for survivor in the end. went to watch deathnote!=) and went for supper and bridge session after that.

today went for breakfast and to an AQUARIUM=D i love looking at the fish and tiny frogs and wormies. hahahaha. got dragged out halfway):

then went to sc with wanyi for ms heng's farewell. sang the loudest school song ever!

then scooted off to schezn's for a short while of pw. haha. i think our video rocks! then went to j8 to eat and had another nice chat. =)

sian i shld start chinesing right. i cant wait for 3rd nov to be over then i dun have to touch zuo ye ever again. woo.

we went to film for pw today! it got quite retarded. haha. then went to taka and mass bought trash. its a miserable feeling to walk ard with limited funds and all the nice food in your face.

actually i just feel plain miserable. i know la very pathetically emo these few times but wth i feel damn super frustrated and helpless. ive been working up over insignificant things. worrying over things that dun deserve to be worried about. and feeling useless because of i dunno what also. so damn irritating! when is this going to stop. im irritating the shit out of myself. ah shuddup la.

today wasnt such a good day. we didnt get back our progress reports as we expected to. and i guess maybe i thought too much about things i shouldnt think about. things i should just forget about. ha. and had a couple of nice chats. and the table was like damn graffitied during meeting!

i feel so drained.. too much emo conflict in 1 day la. haha. yanmin sabrina jamie and i did a frisbee relay before pe ended today!=D and ate yanmin's nice cake.
i like my gummy pacifiers now. maybe i just need a pacifier cause im a big crybaby)=

You Are A: Lamb!

Peaceful and gentle, lambs have been used in religious imagery for millennia. Lambs are baby sheep, an animal tended by shephards since the dawn of history. As a lamb, you tend to stay together in a flock and graze on grassy land. Lambs don't mind being led and tend not to go off on their own.

You were almost a: Duckling or a Bunny
You are least like a: Turtle or a Groundhog What Cute Animal Are You?

ive been feeling super xian. its a very irritating, nagging feeling that wont go away. its like the more you expect, the more it stings when whatever happens doesnt meet up with your stupid expectations. higher you climb harder you fall concept.

haha im so wols. why havent i learnt from my mistakes, especially this. i guess even hoping for miracles is a source of disappointment in itself cause miracles dont fall from sky. even now the rain doesnt wanna fall and clear the haze.

bleh. think ive been rather emo lately. maybe after exams la too free nothing better to do. its just i get so angry with myself for expecting i dunno what. too many times the past couple of weeks. just thinking about it makes me wanna destroy something.

i cant wait for op and chi and open day to be over. even though there'll prob be other things to do after that. i just wanna do nothing and not feel as though i have smth to do. play a game or watch smth nice.

i walked home from sch today. made too many stops so i took like an hour to get home. haha. but it was not bad la=)

promos are finally over. plus today's spa also la. like suddenly i have nothing to do once again. like after os. when u come home and realize that u can guilt-freely chuck your notes into a corner and do absolutely nothing like u so wanted to while u were mugging away.

k not that i mugged alot. i practically didnt. haha. geog revision was started 5hrs before the paper ahahaha. aiya. so actually whatever i said abt being guiltfree isnt too applicable to me cause at times i wish i had really studied for promos. aiya what to do. haha.

ystd after bio yanmin and i went to tierny's and spent like 45min duno walking ard doing what. haha. and i spent like 30over bucks on junk! ARGH.!! i have so much food on my table now. haha.

and then. i walked home from serene centre! k la i know its not changi to jurong but hey its an achievement okay! for me i mean. cause u know. lazy pigs dun walk too much.

and today i duno what i did again. ha. got cute erasers from kino and sat at a carpark stoning.

sometimes i feel scared abt promo results. i know i didnt put in even close to enough effort. i guess i'll be lucky to even pass. haha. oh wells.

im so so so dead!! my chem sucks and my math is still as pathetic as ever. and i havent touched geog. and i cant rmb bio.

and tmr mrs kong is going to scold me for not paying attention the entire term. im so dead. ):

i have a vague recollection of someone telling me about something thats supposed to happen on a sunday. and as of now it's a sunday already. and i have no idea what it is, or who said it, or whether it's today sunday or next week sunday or i duno whenever sunday.

dont you just hate it when you cant remember things that are like half there. i mean. forget then totally forget la. still go and rmb tiny bits and make me so frustrated!

i wanna get a proper blog! then i can add entries as easily as going to the toilet.

im quite dead. cause over the past 2 months or so ive been slacking so much. and recently i started abit abit of revision for bio and math and in the process ive neglected chem and geog. haha. i totally dont get kinetics or organic. im so dead!

and ive been uploading photos the past hour. haha. and sending my eom to ms tsang and sticking post-its to a chem book cause i decided i shld probably get down to doing a little chem before its too late. -gasp-

i hope it never rains in the morning when i have to get up cause its so IRRITATING. i screwed up bio spa today.

see. i have a high probability of flunking promos and possibly As. ):
olvls was so bullshit.

im bored. i wanna finish my book but there're like 300 pages more to go and i DONT HAVE THE BLOODY TIME! ah sigh. not that ive been utilising my time properly anw. my entire day was gone. save for like an hour plus of math? which was rather ex.

i was late for math lecture and ended up skipping the second half of it. haha. yamin and sylvia were dancing their stnics dance and mr tsang saw them. haha.

then we went to coro for lunch. but we got quite xian after that. so we went to 7-11 to get back my bottle cause i left it there stupidly. =x then we saw the WORST WORSTEST icecream ever. it was chilli flavoured. and even though it smelt okay and tasted abit like vanilla, it leaves this damn unbearable peppery aftertaste in your mouth. and makes u just wanna puke it all out. so we didnt want to eat it la. but anw we ended up playing this game and sylvia and i lost so bad i think we ate like 90% of the stupid thing. its so damn gross.

so if u ever see some cheena looking icecream which has a chilli picture on it. just run far away.

havent blogged in ages(: feels like last time. when i still had a year to study for promos. unlike now when i only have 3 weeks to cram in an entire year's worth of work. oh i am so so dead. and the only thing i wanna do is finish my book.

but its a sidney sheldon): ... so torturous to see it lie there and have to flip open bio notes. aspoidhwoiygrehgh.htpnjoperj/

i wanna retreat into a nice fat beanbag and finish my book with my oat milk and pocky. i bought 4 boxes cause they were on offer at 7-11 just now. hahaha.

i forgot how long more till promos. and whywhyWHY doesnt nj have retests. i mean. tell me earlier la!! not that i was counting on retests, but now its like added stress to make sure i clear promos and not have to drop h2s. ahhh.. sucks la.

yanmin and i sold 31 cranes =)! pro right! haha. and my email's screwing up. or maybe its just my comp i cant open inbox or anything la.

and omg my new teacher's seriously SENILE. how can anyone tolerate infidelity! i mean i know some pple can but how can you make it seem like its acceptable? madness.

its so xian to realize that nothing's as easy or simple as it seems. seemed. but its okay i believe things will work themselves out eventually(:

i realize the thing about being in jc is that the work never ends. you may think yay somethings finally over and you'll have more time, but something else will just pop up and the entire scenario repeats for your entire time in school.

3 teachers caught me sleeping or falling asleep yesterday haha. i really hope they dont bring it up during ptd. =x

i hate warcraft, dota, whatever else. cause no1, it zaps up your time, and no2, cause people around me seem to be glued to the dumb game. and this is especially irritating because my sis and bro need to use my computer to play the silly game and they refuse to get off so i can use my desk. and everytime i leave the room to say, get water to drink or smth, they dash in and open the stupid program even if its only for half a minute. so when i return and yell at them to leave, i have to shut the game and it'll make my comp LAG.

im going to flunk cts cause i know im damn not prepared. and i still have maths and chi va. argh! )=C

i wanna buy a new photo album for my new photos! and i dont think i'll be able to last 2 and a half weeks from now till next next tues. ): chinese is such a pain in the ass cause without it exams would end like 4 days earlier. xian.

changed my mind. i dont like pracs at nie so much anymore. probably cause i took 2 HOURS to get home from prac today! i was dozing off in the bus and i would wake up when i felt my phone buzzing away or my flute dropping off my lap. very xian.

then again. sometimes i'll have someone to accompany me to and fro. and for breakfast! which makes me want more pracs at nie again. hahaha. well. the king killed his concubines cause our species is supposed to be fickle anyway. not that guys arent. they are too ok.

i never agreed to chicken okay. maybe a bit haha. but i love hamsters. especially that one that looks a teeny weeny bit like a chicken. (:

band's been quite tiring. we spent ages on ffx today. and whoo i love the running notes for armenian dances! its becoming damn fun to play. and yeah i think our concert repertoir's actually good. maybe a bit long and stamina consuming but the pieces are nice la.

i kinda like pracs at nie cause i can take my own sweet time to get home. hahahaha. i know shld spend time mugging or doing smth more productive but, laziness overwhelmes. hahaha.

boredboredbored. was tidying up my desk just now after my dad told me to watch a tsunami thing on natgeo. had to drag down i think 2 thirds my entire height of random useless books that were occupying my desk space to i could continue torturing myself with filing notes and shoving fat subject files into my newly-appointed file shelf.

ystd went to nie once again. mr ho tried out some new pieces. aw i wanted to play spirited away too): keene's right its only abt 200. how to sound nice... i dont like high notes on that thing.

my sis just left this morning to go kedah. yargh like everyone's gg overseas la! ): i miss you and you! ):):):):!

was at mos ystd after prac and craig was talking abt hara and i being non-rvs. go ask him what rv stands for. xiangyin hara and me agreed that he's actually quite gross. esp after what he said abt my mickeymouse): just asking to be suanned man. hohohoho.

i was feeling unusually lethargic during prac today. esp after lunch, maybe cause i tend to feel sleepy after eating.. and no one's going to call me a pig for that today.

yay tmr geog starts at 10 so i can sleep in! i woke up 50 minutes late today. just got home im dead tired. haha. nvm i self proclaim. im a pig.

when i used to run like 4 in one shot it zapped my bandwidth and id get a couple of them frozen for the remaining days of that month until they renewed my bandwidth allowance. sadly now i've got a phobia of using bandwidth-sucking stuff now so once again i cant be bothered to put the photos here. haha. and im also lazy actually.

~~holiday~~ ~~study break~~ june is here! time to fail many attempts to mug for common tests=(

anw there's this great pie shop along 6th ave and this super cool tea shop! pretending their menus didnt burn a big hole in my pocket today i'd proclaim 6th avenue to be my new hangout. oh man i need to be more realistic and realize that im just a random poor student with no money to act rich and patronize these nice rich-people places.

ive been stuffing myself with hello pandas. sadly i get addicted easily to unhealthy stuff. tmr got council invest and sports day i wanted to pon but i guess at the end of the day i just cant dig out the guts to. hahaha. ): thats quite pathetic.

this has been the worse week in my life. im glad its finally over and i shall enjoy whats left of my weekend! C:

phy geog proj ran into some printing problems.. human geog couldnt relocate the relavent book from nl.. bio proj was quite unfinished due to miscommunication.. bio and chem tests were relatively okay as compared to what i had expected, and chem spa was quite confusing cause i couldnt really get the questions i just vomited everything out.

funtasia was so much more than i had expected. like we thought 250 was already too much we didnt expect such a huge crowd and that it'd run out in only 2 hours. so panic and mr tsung had to drive us to giant to buy stuff on fri and today. the stall uncle was very nice(: and i think it was quite good. 2k+ leh. yayyC: way better than expected. i guess all the running around for 2 days paid off! :D sitting at the playground waiting for buns and sharing a tub of icecream ladidaa. it was fun.

its been a shitty week. but i think ive learnt a lot. i guess thats what matters at the end of the day. and i will appreciate what used to be taken for granted so much more now.

im tired. mr yeo was hinting badly today that i should freaking get down to doing my tutorials. 7 chpts lag yargh):<

its quite irritating to think about. sudden influx of tests and vas and spas and funtasia and duno what else. all cram into 3 weeks right. thanks a lot huh.

i dont like tomatos and sugarless barley. my mummy was forcing me. not nice larrr.

do you feel as if time has just passed so quickly this few months? feels like such a short time since the year started, but so much has happened and MY FRIGGIN EXAMS ARE COMING. is it just me, or does it still feel like the beginning, where you still feel hesitant even though you're finally becoming familiar with everything? not saying that im familiar with everything la im not. but.. aiya.

k i need to go fetch joshua from the cc home i cant believe he's finally picking up basketball. cool! :D:D

a stupid silver. they should condemn situps. i feel like retaking but that means i'll have to redo all 5 items and maybe even 2.4. ahhh. nooo. im feeling so lazy but i think i'd find myself very irritating if i dont correct this now. lifelong regret kinda thing? ok thats a bit extreme but its smth like that. bleh.

i have bio trial spa tmr. i dont like spa. its like 2 periods of nonstop stress. and im sorry sir i couldnt hand in the enzymes report cause my results are like totally screwed up for unknown reasons. yanmin agreed that i should just say that the entire experiment gave me anomalous results therefore i dont have to answer the rest of the questions. hahaha. aiya howhowhowwwww. what if i get weird results tmr again im dead la. sigh.

today i met wanyi and sweegeok in sc:D! i went aft pe lesson cause we decided not to go for aristol, and then we sat and talked a bit. then i played the pretty tumoured piccolo and my old emerson for ABRAMS and DAWN. felt weird after not touching them for so long- about 5, 6 months? but it still felt great to play with the sec4s. wheres our alumni larrrr. ):

tmr got napfa! bleh i think im gonna screw it up cause i totally havnt practised and pe has only been conditioning but didnt really work on the 5 items specifically so i may happily fail it tmr and be forced to redo. oh yuck.

haha i suddenly feel emo. prob cause it was syf just a year back and that sc won hollaback but i couldnt make it cause i had piano! X( and that i couldnt meet the 2pe-ers at holland v thursday either! SAD LA. ):):):):):!

i miss sc and scband! in a happy way cause im damn proud of what the sch has achieved, cca or acad or even random outside stuff like hollaback. proness man! :D

im a self proclaimed eunuch. cool huh. (: i know its a bit late, but happy holidays everybody hahahaha. im like damn high now! :D:D think its cause ive been eating too many percy pigs. sugar high haha. maybe? (:

this sucks. ok i promise you all that that part of my life is over. history. anything else before was just temporary. and wishful thinking on my part. i am furious!

i feel so accomplished today cause i went to queenstown! hahahaha that must sound so retarded frog-in-the-wellish. but what to do. some pple are just suaku but im being not so blur anymore ok! there has been improvement. hahaha!

ben said that sleeping during lectures would be a vital tool to surviving jc and i didnt belive him. but now i think i shall go around preaching that, and add that even if you couldnt doze off in class in secondary sch, you'll learn it instantly upon stepping into a jc lt. wah that sucks la.

ive been wanting to change my layout for ages now but im too lazy to get down to actually doing it. my daddy just gave me funny stick-on fluff toy sunflowers that say I LOVE MY DENTIST. hahaha how ego can dentists get.

i was sneezing alot just now sorry if anyone falls sick tmr haha. eh i just remembered that i lost tic tac toe to a 14year old. ):! how can!!

i realize that band's a very good excuse to lag to chinese lessons in the morning:D! and i think smth's wrong with my phone it cant connect to my comp properly. oh i think i'll never learn how to sing my college anthem or school song. i hate my timetable i want more free periods i want to go home earlier. and next week yuxin and i have 2 pe days in a row! ): and i have a feeling my pi sucks after reading benjamin's one. oh yuxin had this cool idea for public toilets thats so much better than huayu cool ok! i cant believe im thinking of ways to promote chi. hur. and sometimes i think my playing sucks cause keane is so pro and after 4 years i'm just like this standard!! argh. after pe ystd yanmin and i sat in the canteen till 720 or so wasting time and eating icecream and drinking random things. yay im gonna watch aristol! aft seeing western dance prac on wednesday ah.. wah they're like so so pro.

ok thats like quite a random entry with lots of random thoughts. i want to go taka and i want to sleep and i need to do hw.. ): and train for napfa! oh crap la its like so last minute.

we stole the balloons from the atrium during sectionals and inhaled the helium hahaha! it was so so hilarious. had to stuff cake today during lunch again. i think its damn cool the way we have like nearly 5 in a row. (:

ahh i still havent memorised the song tmr how to play!! im joining the stoning club ha so lame.. bleh i realize shane was right about njcians. but im not so lame ok! wah the shuttlecock one was the best man. hoohoo.

people always say that money cant make you happy. yeah i know you cant buy happiness all that rubbish you cant buy anything intangible no matter how much money you have. but after being poor for so long during my sc days, it makes me so happy whenever i can buy some random cd i like a lot or sunglasses or eat without having to beg for treats etc. yeah im still cheapo and not say very rich, but i duno. suddenly you can afford things that you used to have to reject without a second look.

i got 4 nice nice cds in the past 3 months, as compared to 1 in 2005 and probably 2 in 2004, the rest i cant rmb. but everytime i get one i get so hyped up and so happy about it. its like you go home and the first thing you do it turn on the comp and play it. just listening to it gives me this unexplainable sense of achievement. esp since i earned it myself. not with my parents' money, not anyone else's.

so i concluded that money does make you happy to quite a large extent. esp short term happiness. like now cause im damn happy with my spirited away soundtrack even though ive heard it a billion times when corn lent me last yr.

and i reached another conclusion, that in my case, money's the root of all my future aspirations. they were saying that i shouldnt do anything im not passionate about, but then im not passionate about anything so i should just stop studying now, right? ok thats quite dumb. i dont want to be occupationless. not to condemn anyone, but i think id feel damn useless if i didnt have anything constructive to do, and if i couldnt make my own money and make myself happy by getting things i want by my own merit.

if i can get into nus, do my postgrad studies in an ivy league, graduate with first class honours, land a stable job and drive a cool car or volks bug around by the time im 30, i think id be damn happy with myself.

cause today we went to the esplanade and seeing the beautiful tall cbd buildings from the riverside made me think about how much i want to be like those people wearing nice clothes to work and knowing that their lives havent gone to waste.

im feeling kinda psychotic now. like i suddenly feel very impatient with the fact that im going to have to wait 10 years at least for what i want to happen. bleh.

but i saw many people today its like i kept bumping into cjcians. i was very happy! so even with the so-called lousy weather, mcps, my pathetic trip made me happy(:!

why from 17 to 30. haha thats quite a drastic jump. but i'm damn happy for you guys!(:

i got an odd combi class, yuck. and i think only yanmin is in all my classes cept for chinese. it was quite retarded that we couldnt find out the location for chi and ended up crashing a geog tutorial. oh how i hate chi.

im very tired. make up lectures suck to the core. i cant believe im going to have to endure it for a royal 4 weeks. i felt disgusted by myself when i realized i was doing chem during break in the canteen on the first day of school. im NOT a mugger!

my parents are coming home now! i dont know whether to be rejoicing or not haha.

ystd was great i wish i could have stayed longer. tnx yijun for lending us your place and preparing dinner=) and thanks for sending me the photos. mr boomba rules bio lectures!

went with jasmine athena and wanyi to bowl at bukit gombak where i found my very own mountain! and i gave it a name too haha! sadly we walked such a long distance when we could happily have taken a bus all the way. and now my entire arm hurts im forced to play only left hand for hanon.

yes im the greedy pig who stole the entire tub of icecream from the freezer. count it as a reward for my honesty in admitting the theft?

and i just drowned myself with chocolates the last 2 days sigh. so i told myself that i would heed my mothers advice and start leading a healthy lifestyle, 5 minutes ago. yeah. exercise, stop eating crap, and eat more fruits and veggies. but being the procrastinator i am, im delaying it till after im done with my tub of icecream. thats a start, right? =x

overflowing with makeup pracs lectures lessons. we're not lagging behind for the syllabus why are you repeating things! i'm really lazy to stay back till 5 6 plus just about everyday for 4 weeks. that sucks la.

todays chem makeup prac sucked too. cause the lab i was in had not enough apparatus, wth? so i had to migrate to the other lab where the range for acid crystals was so much smaller and i spent how long weighing my crystals.

i dont want to forget. and i hate this dull sense of inevitability.
i know its time to say goodbye and mean it.

i dont know why i cant sleep. i feel like shit. and it's such a replay of last time. and now i'm going to have a headache tmr geez can i not go school.

just now i saw so many new faces in cj. a few sc. and i'm so jealous that they're there and i'm not. sigh.

but, now i have a ticket that will never expire thanks audrey=) and so booyeah be prepared to see vacuum cleaners float ard. haha! .. dont chase me out.

today was alright. guess its not gonna be so bad after all. or so i hope it wont.

i said i'd try to look at it positively, but i really cant bring myself to. not that i didnt try. but i really hate it. i miss cj so much. im in no mood for dumb orientation games.

i'm really going to miss cj. 1t17 i'm going to miss you all so much. cjband i'll pretend i'm a j2 on wednesday haha!

they didnt ask for an mc or letter. thats pretty cool. sweesin's gonna come back from obs tmr and meet the CUTEST RABBIT in her life. the yellow monstarr bunny.

need to sort out a lot of things. and classfund. i realize i've been talking a lot to her these days and we havent argued in many days. thats good right? and so she raises the bar and i shall get what we want. mm.

you have so many issues you can even create one when you run out of things to say. you're never satisfied with me nothing i do is ever enough.

i didnt die for crosscountry! =D but i got cheated out of my run. my energy. thank goodness for coffeebean vanilla. today was fun. and really tiring. waited so ages for 132! and got chem test tmr i left my notes in class. yarghh!

ok i hate that woman. she is so so getting on my precious nerves. so after sch i went to get a book. i'll make her sorry she ever said anything man.

i went shopping today! (:(: for once in so ages. at first was at ps. saw corn and jasmine yohoho. yay i'm happy you both can go schools you like. i dunno whats gonna happen to me. but ok then went to bishan and i got this NICE BAG and its freaking nice!! i've never spent so much in one go on one single thing. felt great haha. and i'm not really feeling guilty about it. wheeeee! thank 'scotts!!;]' hurhur.

went for my socalled last bandprac ystd. i love cjband!=) ellyne talks so much rubbish and nicholas is weird. maybe saturday i'll go. awhile. aiyaa aiya aiyaRRR..!

4 tv shows u love to watch:
simpsons! malcolm in the middle! spongebob and courage the cowardly dog(:

tagging is torturous. benedict chen say thank you and sorry for inflicting torture on me.

in the end it was like 300 plus flowers. woo. i'm sry i couldnt help out in sc. great job guys(:

happy valentines day! thanks for ordering flowers if you did haha. and making me stay up till 130 last night doing them up. freaking tired. gp test today summore. xian. and have to lug this keyboard home tmr): rockafellaskank was alright. ok i coudltn hear anything. alex's guitar so loud! wanted to meet a lot of people after sch but audition was until late so had dinner at thomson plaza or whatever that place's called. we talked so long i was late and my mom was bugging me at home. and cc's mom was telling me about how studying overseas is better. haha. yes how true. she made carrotcake! =9

i registered just now. everyone keeps asking me where i'm intending to go and it got really confusing but in the end. sigh. i dont know if i made the right decision. or if i was just making other people happy. i have no idea but the only difference now is that its in already there's nothing i can change.

next time we either charge so much more and make it more worthwhile, or refuse to deliver anywhere so freaking faraway. i am so so tired now. ms leong wasnt in school. did 3 deliveries which were NEARBY ok! and we need like 100 more stalks desperately, now. why do these stupid orders keep pouring in. its like what time already can you guys have more sense and say no? ok. i'm freaking tired i have this dumb gp test tmr i havent finished buying vday presents and i need to learn this unknown song for tmr's audition. they yelled at me they scolded me like shit. why is everything suddenly my responsibility?

ok i pushed off a bit to tamago sorry. but i cant do it anymore. i dont wanna spend 2 days in a row rushing around and staying up late just to make sure we meet your last minute deadlines.

this is lagged, but i'm so, so happy. (: thank you Lord thank you mom, dad, my teachers, gabriel, my classmates EVERYONE.

and i love cj. i love my class i love my seniors. i'm so used to everything. i really love cj.

i need to damage something by smashing it against the wall jumping on it whacking it so hard that dents appear and the whole thing is beyond repair.

i think i've exhausted the part of my brain that makes me worry about olvls last year. somehow i dont really care. maybe cause i love this place i dont wanna leave. i just wanna get my results slip and thats it i'll try not to drag whatever i feel. i hope by tmr 2pm i'll be damn nervous cause adrenaline rushes are really fun. and i'd feel more normal.

went to jasmine's hse with wanyi and athena after band prac! no pt today yayy. ate so much there i was going to explode. met ss at ps to get reeds and play pool=) chingay was super crowded! so we left after a while. and i'm so tired now. and i havent practised or read anything. saturdays burn me out. mr jeow treated us to dinner last night(: crystal jade! mm.

i'm so tired. i was hoping results would come out monday so everything would just be over and done with as quickly as possible.. stop keeping us in suspense!

rotiprata breakfast. arcade parapara. ktv. pool. dance rev marathon. toriq! it was a super fun day(: and today's bio test was so killer. sigh. it was a stoney stoned day. will try not to stone so much tmr. i'm sorry.

batch dinner! wanyi came to cj(: and then we went far east to sit down and talk. then we were like nono lets have smth cheapo for dinner we're poor! so we sat at crystal jade for like 2 hours or so. hope we werent that noisy=( cause we were wearing sc skirts. got diana a box of random things and this cute banana toy.

cny celebration was not bad. but so many people ponned or left after the performance it was quite pathetic. but seriously.. ending at 3 is really damn xian. esp when everyone else releases at 9 or 12 plus and have the rest of the day. but i'm guai. haha(:! i took bus back to sc cause i wanted to have my meepok before geog lect and there was this huge jam where we moved like 20m in 15 minutes. i was practically jumping up and down in the bus. hur. but anw i made it back in time so ellyne owes me prata!

yesterday went for tpscc band prac. it was alright.. they were nice and copied the scores out for us to prac. (: the band's name is freaking long i forgot what already. but anw.

today we had lessons till 5. FIVE ok! and last 2 hours were CHINESE. so vomit-inducing. and the worst part was that she made us do compo which is some random component for ca1. oh man i'm so gonna fail ca. ):

my computer died on me. i lost my entire drive i'm very sad. i cant even log in to msn till my dad fixes some random unknown bug. ):

went for band prac earlier. ran to sji and back and played volleyball for morning exercise gag gag. spartacus is really nice. cept my running notes are crappy. went to taka for lunch, this hidden place behind the building. and i'm really tired so its good we didnt argue too much today.

i was attempting to work the calculator they made us get for maths. woo its so high tech i got scared. and i was too lazy to find my maths notes to figure out how to really use the thing to plot graphs etc so i left it alone to rot on my tabletop.

oh man i really cant wait to dig back all my lost stuff. like how many gigs of it ok! sigh. and i want to talk to people on msn. hurhur. i'm freaking sad. everyone leave me alone. unless you want to buy me lunch.

orientation wasnt as bad as i imagined it would be. the people are alright. blading there is quite scary cause there're too many jammy cars lining the single lane around the back. no space and if i get unlucky i'll ram right into some random vehicle. and since i have no locker i have to lug it around. stupid bike died on me in the rain yesterday i had to wheel it home. hurhur.

i climbed the school gates once again! everyone thinks i'm tall when i'm not. i dont want to tell them that looks are deceiving as i did when i saw yeeying at the bank just now. the teller laughed at me when i said i forgot how much i was banking in. ):

i hate it when you cant find it inside yourself to break bad news to people even though you're fully aware how urgent it is and delaying it will probably only worsen the situation. and yet.

oh i just had to use this cause it's too pretty. but then there're so many pretty layouts i'm torn): but then no one is even aware of this thing's existence so i'll put my nice things up for myself to admire! X) i'm lame