HOW DID YOU BECOME ANA?

Name = RECOVERED
Email = JENANDRICK30736@AOL.COM

I READ ALL THESE TESTIMONIES...I AM OVERWELMED AT HOW
SATAN WORKS ON THESE SOULS. I WAS BULIMIC FOR 15 YEARS AND ALMOST DIEING,
LOOSING ALL MY TEETH, MY HAIR AND OTHER MEDICAL CONDITIONS. I WANT TO LET YOU
KNOW WE DO HAVE A FRIEND HIS NAME IS JESUS THAT CAN HELP YOU. HE HELPED ME ON
OCT 13, 2000. I WANT YOU TO KNOW WHEN YOU CAN NAIL THIS PROBLEM AND WANT TO GIVE
IT UP YOU CAN W/JESUS IN YOUR HEART. PLEASE ASK HIM NOW TO FORGIVE YOU FROM YOUR
SINS AND SHORTCOMINGS ASK HIM TO HELP YOU THROUGH THIS ADDICTION (READ ROMANS
3:23) HOWEVER THAT CALLS ON THE NAME OF JESUS SHALL BE SAVED.
I AM 5'8 AND WEIGH 135 I WEAR A SIZE 6 AND HAVE A LITTLE GIRL.I EAT 3 MEALS A
DAY. I WENT TO SOME OF THE BEST TREATMENT CENTERS IN THE WORLD BUT UNTIL YOU
WANT TO GIVE IT ALL TO GOD YOU CAN NOT GET BETTER. I AM TELLING YOU GOD WILL
HELP YOU. JUST SURRENDER YOURSELF TO HIM. IF THERE IS ANYTHING I CAN DO PLEASE
EMAIL ME AND LET ME KNOW. GOD BLESS YOU ALL....I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH
CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME...PHIL 4:13

NAME = jess
EMAIL = luvbirds13200@yahoo.com

Well i am now 18 but it started when i was 11 i weight
112 at 4'8 i was fat then i went ana and i lost 67 lbs in 2 monthes and now i am
5'6 and 76lbsand now i am still fat but i will lose more  and more weight  so
good luck girls xoxoxoxo and  i expect that u all lose 8 lbs this week

NAME = Cassandra
EMAIL = http://www.expage.com/shophisticated

I have always been obsessed with how i look...
my hair,myclothes,my nails,my make up
(IT'S ANNOYING I KNOW) People get bored with me... i get bored with myself
because i can't stop thinking about how bad i look! that makes me so insecure...
so for the last year it has only been about weight... i've been exersizing
alot... (didn't help) dieting( didn't help) those things get you to a
"healthy"(FAT)weight.. i want to be skinny not healthy! so i just stopped eating
and i dropped the weigth! i feel much better now i can actually have fun and not
think about hiding fat rolls and stuff
check out my pro ana website
http://expage.com/shophisticated

*i love this idea of posting stories how everyone became ana :)

NAME = Jules

I have been ana for the past 7 years.  When left home and
went to college is really when it hit hard.  I'm on my own and not obiding by
anybody's rules.  So, I keep my calorie intake very low.  But I'm at a point
right now, where I look like I'm losing inches, but The scale numbers aren't
moving much.  I feel like I'm just at a stand still.  Plus I have to be in a
wedding next month and I want to lose at least another 20, how am I going to do
that if I'm at a stand still?  Any idea?  I'll take anything.  Thank you for
your time.  Have best wishes to you all. 

Name = Katie
Email = katie_luvs_shoes@yahoo.com

I hate being fat! According to SlimFast.com I'm average
at 5'6" and 119lbs. Tell that to the mirror. I'm 20 yrs old and I had a baby two
yrs. ago. I gained 50 lbs when I was pregnant. I lost all that but I'm stuck
here at 119, which flucuates. I want to weigh 100 lbs. So, I try to not eat as
much as possible and if I eat too much I throw it up. I hate vomiting, so I just
try to avoid food. I work in an office full of women who are twice my age and
LOVE to eat. It's hard to stick with my goal when they eat all the time and try
to convince me this is Ok and I should, too. I just want to be thin and happy.

Name = RAYCHEAL
Email = Nevaurs23@yahoo.com

hey ladies. i need help and fast i have been struggling
with developing an eating pattern that works and helps me lose weight for six
years now. and i have never been this heavy and i feel gross, im considering
drugs but i really just need to lose the weight im 5'9 and 170 pounds and i cant
stand it any longer, email me please what to eat, what not to eat, anything.
throwing up and obsessing what i eat isnt working anymore and i dont want to
result to drugs. Nevaurs23@yahoo.com please anything.

Name = taylor

just keep going strong. dont give up!

Name = Molly
Email = cocaineaddictdahhling@yahoo.com

I have been this way for about a year now.
I am fairly new compared to many of you.
I have been suicidal for 3 years now.
I have (in the past 2 months) gained 30 pounds.
I weigh in at 170 lbs.
Last year, about 6 months before I became ana, i weighed in at about 110 pounds.
I can't believe i let myself go this much
:(

Name = Christina
Email = puppyzoodownhearted@Yahoo.com

I been having belimia  for 6 months now had It two months
straight basically throwing up everyday I hate this. I also have been  starving
myself for a couple of days. I hate myself I feel fat. I am 18 years old. I am
4'9''and weigh 90 pounds.I need advice on fasting It is hard for me I tried It
but I can't suceed anyone have any suggestions?

Name = Dragon
Email = DragonofWhiteFire@yahoo.com

I have had Ana off and on for about 2 years. And I
haven't really changed. It's a cycle: sometimes I see food as my enemy,
sometimes as a friend. I just can't seem to help myself sometimes, I eat, and I
eat because I love food. But I also hate it, oh, I hate it so much, because it
is the one who makes my body the way it is. I can't stand it anymore, I have
decided to go full out Anarexic, because I am tired of being chubby, and having
a big ass. I want to see some bones, have a small waist, and a little ass like
I've always envied. I need some inspiration, so I appreciate it if you would
help me out and send me some thinspiration pictures, tell me your story, or help
me through this, I would be very grateful.
            
         Dragon
           (5'21/2", 118 lbs, C32", W24", H36".
            Goal:86 lbs., C24", W17", H26".)

Name = Natasha
Email = nkasmaii@rogers.com

Im 25 n feel soooo fat all the time...I cant get rid of
this weight fast enough.can you please tell me about your 20 day diet?  I need
to be thin

Name = dev
Email = iloveitd@yahoo.com

im almost 16 yrs old. its been awhile sine ive weighed
myself but im pretty sure im around 150 lbs. and im about 5'5. ive read about
your diets and tips and tricks but no matter what i cant seem to stick to it.
lately though ive just been eating once a day. is that going to help any at all?
i need encouragement and help. anyone have any suggestions that would be
amazing. i really wanna loose all this weight before the new school year starts
since im transferring schools this year.

dev

Name = Piper
Email = pipercheer82@yahoo.com

Please don't cancel this site!  I need it!  I have been
cutting at least three times a week for about six weeks now.  My right thigh
looks like a ladder of contrition.  I am 5'9 and 140 lbs. Down from my all-time
high of 165. I lost ten last week.  I was so proud.  I've plateaued this week
and have stayed the same.  I hate water weight.  You weigh yourself and you
think you lost three but then you weigh again ten minutes later and you've
gained five.  Here's a tip.  Put on a pair of jeans and lay on the bed.  Get a
ruler and measure how high your hipbones hold your jeans off your stomach.  I'm
at three inches right now.  I want to be five.  That's my dream, for now anyway.
I just cut again and am feeling the woozies, you know what I'm talking about.
The mixture of relief, and pain, and blood loss. I am tired. I lost just enough
blood to help me sleep.  I love it when that happens.  Well, I don't love it.
You know what I mean. 

Name = Kari
Email = jczangel2003@yahoo.com

I am 16.  I am 5'3 and weigh 88 pounds.  I have been ana
for at leat a year now.  I have tried Bulimia a few times.  I only make myself
throw up if I feel I hate too much. 
I wish I could eat anything and not gain weight.  If my matabolism was that
high...I would be in heaven.  I wish I could be as skinny as Mary-kate Olsen.
I am currently getting help with my ana problem.  I havent been in rehab for it.
I just talk to a nutitionist and a psychologist once a week.

P.S I love the thinspiration pictures!  They were awesome.  I wish I could be as
skinny as some of those models in the pics.  The food tips were also very
helpful.  Thankyou!  This website is very helpful!

Email = Shadowcat26

I thought i was fat since 6th grade, and became ANA in
7th
My friend emily is fat and, i always told myself that i didn't want to end up
like her. 
all of a sudden she wants to be like me , and is tryin to be like me. Seriosly,
shes such a wannabe
And she lecturin me about wats gonna happen to me, and that i sould stop.
to top it off, shes jealous of my relatetionship wit chris and she claims that
shes depressed
When she saw my cuts and realized that i cut myself she was all 'u should stop'
and calls it gay
she calls everything gay and says that shes done cuttin b4 too
Im 4'11" and weigh 80 pounds
Arent i fat?
I need help hiding it from my parents
and their really strict
if you have any tips/tricksfel free to email me

Name = wanting to be........
Email = princess_pennie@hotmail.com

Hi im Robyn and i weigh 120lbs at 5'2 adn i would like to
be around 105lbs for now and i was just wonderin if the diet im followin would
help me lose weight you see... im eating a lil bit of fruit and a huge tea in da
mornin and nothin until bout 3 and i eat sum bean salad and sum yogurt do you
think that will help me lose da weight i need to or should i be taking a
different approach plz e-mailme or sumtin @ princess_pennie@hotmail.com

Name = Miriam
Email = b-miriam@libero.it

It all began with my first love story. First and unic. I
suffered, and suffered too badly. I've been through experiences that an eighteen
wouldn't have to know.I fallen into a deep deep depression.
Then began my eating disorders. At first I resized my lunch, then I began to eat
only a fruit for lunch, then I began to have no lunch.
After a few months I began to intentional vomiting everything. then I stoppped
to eat.
My normal weight were 50 kilos for 1.58, I reached 42kg. I lost 8 kilos in 3
months.
I tried to suicide myself, a mad thing I'll never do again. I was simply lost
I slowly recovered, oh well... I slowly began bulimic, eating almost everything
and I couldn't vomit anything; an horrible thing. I've been bulimic till now;
now that fixation of food is coming back. When I eat something I feel angry with
myself, I WANT to reach an ideal perfect form. I hate myself as I am now. THIN
is the keyword.
Now I'm almost 20 yrs old, I've just lost 3 kilos in three week.
Don't know where all this will lead to, but.. well that's life. It's not that I
don't care f what culd happen. It's that I can't stop losing weight and begin to
eat, I can't. At least 4 now.

Name = ash
Email = ashbabe_2006@yahoo.com

Ana Experiences = I have always hated myself....In school and at home it
got worse tho....everyone teased me...I began by using the binge-purge method
and then finally ana came into my life....i felt so good about myself....then i
quit cuz ppl started finding out...how do I keep all of this from everyone else
and be anorexic at the same time...btw, what is a good method to use for
cravings????

Name = Rachael
Email = rachl369258147@yahoo.com

I have been ana for about 2 years off and on. I am 5'5
97lbs and i just recently gain about 6lb and its making me crazy and i have been
dieting but i cant seem to lose it :-(

Name = shinead
Email = winniethepoohlover@hotmail.com

hey. i'm 14 and i weigh 190 lbs. i've been HUGE all my
life. i need to stop being so freaking obese. i heard that if i try to be an ana
right now, it wouldnt help at all cuz i'm already to fat. i throw up after every
meal i eat and i drink so much water its not even funny. i've only been doing
this for about a week tho. it's summer and i wanna be slimmer when i go to HIGH
SCHOOL! what can i do???????????????? i think you are so brave, so beautiful.
you are my hero!!!!!! love always and forever, me*

Name = tracey renee

sometimes when i feel the urge to eat i  just cry
instead!

Name = kim
Email = kim_m99@hotmail.com

Well i am 6'2 and i feel that i am fat. Does laxitives
help loose the weight. If you have and ideas please write me back on what i can
do to losse some extra weight. i am in the military and i run and do sit-ups but
i do not feel any difference in my weight. Please help.

Name = taryn
Email = shell3318@sbcglobal.com

Well i just got a new ana friend thatnx to our site. if
anyone else wants to be too just email me and i will support eachother in losing
wieght! Here some info about me, my name is taryn i live in the east US, im 16
and i was 109lbs in the begging of the school yr(i am a sophmore) and throughout
the year ive gained back all the weight i lost in the summer plus some. i am not
a disgusting 140lbs and im hoping to g back to my weight before all of the good
parties of the summer start. In other words like 3 and a half weeks. I know it
will be hard but w/ my new ana freind im hoping it will be eaiser and i hope
that i do it. Ive never had anybody supporting me w/ this before so if anybody
wants to just chat about stuff or needs support or wants to support me just
email me or instant message me at xnillashake1313x . hope to talk to you soon,
TARYN.

Name = Amy
Email = amyzischke@hotmail.com

i've just started to get into ana! i really want to lose
about 10kgs, which is about 20pounds.  i really could do with some help and
support from you girls out there.  if you're looking for a friend to help you,
contact me, i think we could support and motivate each other!

Name = Phia
Email = shorrox.48075@farnboroughsfc.ac.uk

hi, ive been ana since November last year, at the moment
i weigh 128 i did get down to 114 a few weeks ago but i started binging and i
wasnt purging so i put on loads of weight, i have the binging kinda under
control now and im losingf weight again. my short term goal is 120 and my log
term goal is 100

Name = bridgitte
Email = bridgittepierce@hotmail.com

my pride became bigger than my stomach, my ache for for
perfection was stronger the aches in my body. it was working.... the scale
numbers dropped.... 145,130,120,115 i was changing (controlling) what i could by
(starving) becoming beautiful on the outside and empty inside. i wanted not to
feel.i wanted to be loved. i wanted to punish myself for the series of mistakes
that made up my life.
i really wanted to get away from myself : i got the fat to go away.

Name = Skinny Princess
Email = selinejenna@yahoo.com

Hello,

Well I have had my ed for ten years. The first five years I was ana...and for
the past five years it has been mia. My family knows now which makes it so hard
to do my thing since they watch my every freakin move and weigh me all the time.
My highest was 125, lowest 100, currently 105, my goal is 95. I am 5'4.

I think if I get more tips and encouragement from my fellow mias and anas then I
can reach my goal of 95 and I will be able to learn how to hide if from my
family...I am dying to be in the double digits!

Name = Emina
Email = meenerbabe_13@hotmail.com

hey, ive been wanting to meet someone that is anorexic
email me or if you have instant messanger mina094... ive been ana for 3 and a
half years and im 17, 5'4.5", c.w. 118, s.w. 109, h.w. 128.... i also have pics
if you are interested to meet me

Name = Carrie

Hello to everyone, it makes me feel good to know that
there are so many more out there.  Ana has been in my life for about 6 years now
and life is wonderful.  Sure theres the good days and bad days, but over all
being thin is wonderful, and all the others are jealous of us thats for sure.
This site is a good site, thank you for the tips as well.  Take Care,and KEEP
THIN!!!

Name = diva
Email = lottelotte_89@hotmail.com

I hate being fat. I hate being the fat one among my
friends. I hate not fitting in a size S anymore. I hate looking tv and thinking
'she's thinner than me..' that's why I love ana! she helped me a lot, but I'm
still FAT!

Name = Trisha Fischer
Email = dark_child_69_rules@yahoo.com

eat in ur room so u can take loonger and if u have been
sick eat crackers (low or no cal of corse) and say ur worried about puking.
works like a charm. just say ull eat crackers and ur parents will leave u alone.
i've beeen ana ever since i was in the 5th grade and no im a srnior in high
school about to graduate.just kame sure to only do the cracker thing when ur
sick but only 4 a few days u need to get ur stranght back quickly so htey dont
take u to a docter( evil word)

Name = Karina
Email = depechegirl.kevinspaceyfan@gmail.com

Ana Experiences = I'm a girl who's 17 and I've been struggling with ana
since I was 11. Actually, ana didn't really start until I was about 13, but I
had ana-like symptoms since I was 11.
I'm 4'11 and I currently weigh 78 lbs.
My highest weight ever in my life was 86 lbs, but I felt miserable back then.
My goal is to be 75 lbs or less.
The thinner, the better.

Name = Annon O'Mis
Email = t3h_cut3_on3@yahoo.com

 I need some help keeping all of this from my family,
they'd freak if they found out.If anyone has any suggestions I would be so
greatful. thanks.

              _Annon

Name = Christina
Email = babiegirl4100@yahoo.com

I met ana, probably last year, when I went to the doctors
office around late october, and I stepped on the scale and it read, a WOPPING
165.5 lbs!  I was so upset! In grade school I was alwayz teased by my weight,
being called fat was really upsetting, but I think nothing of it.  Anywayz, for
the past year I've eliminated food out of my life, and lost a total of 22lbs, so
far.  Im 5'2 and at 143, and it absolutley discusts me!  Im trying so hard to
keep it too a minimum of a meal a day, and of coarse LOW CAL!  I intend on
loosing, untill I reach my goal weight of 110.

Name = Amy
Email = amyhumps@hotmail.com

I used to have severe anorexia & depression.  I was
hospitalised & sectioned for some time over 3 years ago.  I have been on Prozac
since. 
Three years on I would give anything to have Anna in my life again; I’ve gained
so much weight.  Every time I move I can feel parts of my body wobbling.  Now I
have replaced Anna with exercise & Bulimia, but I think I must be doing
something wrong as I am losing no weight.  I try my hardest to fast, but just
end up binging & throwing it all up.  I also frequently use laxatives. 

I hate myself so much.

Name = Wanting it back
Email = kittykat2006@hotmail.com

Hi everyone I've been Ana since I was 5 I'd throw my
plates just so id get sent to bed without dinner it was great. now i'm 17 and my
moms caught on I just recentley had a baby girl and when i got pregnant with her
i wieghed 96lbs and im 5'7" right after i had her i weighed 165 because i wasnt
gonna hurt my baby for myself i knew better now im 130 and i wanna be 110 just
for now it makes me sick to think im 20lbs away from were i neeed to be and
there sending me too rehab in a week When i was 15 everytime i ate more than an
apple or drank more than water I'd take 10 caffine pills and jog for 3-4 miles i
cant do that now im closly watched if i do eat everybody doesnt know i vomitt
they havent yet caught on i dont wanna but its habit its my life i wish i could
get better and just be 110 so when my girl grows up i can tell her about it and
let her make the choice its life not a diease.

Name = minimama

Email = minimama_y2k@yahoo.com

hi,
i am having such a hard time being inspired to fast
anymore. ive been fasting five days a week
(sunday-thrusday)and eating sushi on friday and cesar
salad on saturday. along with diet pills b4 each meal
and during my fasting. i feel like i am still staying
the
same. ok, heres the jist. i am 5'3, and i am 140lbs. i
want to have a short-term weight at 110lbs and a
long-term goal at 95-94lbs. you have achieved what i
want and i need your help to help me achieve my goal
also. please, i need someone to coach me through my
hard temptations.
minimama

Name = k.

I wasn't even aware that anorexia had a "start" date. i
have always accepted it as my lot in life. since as long as i remember. being
not much older than toddler years when my own mother gave me the nickname
"bubble butt". sweet hugh? then on i was skinny as hell and i heard about it
from everyone i came across. some praise. some judgement. i got pregnant at
20yrs old. i gave up ana because i had to. i just left it behind for 2 yrs and
few months, but i'm back into the thick of it again and i don't even know how i
got here.

maybe some people are more aware of the process or the grip as it happens. for
me it snowballed and i didn't realize it i looked up and well, if your here ya
prolly know and hopefully understand.

don't get to worked up over these kids who prolly don't know any better. it's
like a size 1 pair of jeans...they'll try it on and it won't fit them and
they'll give up and go eat mc donalds, ya know?
much love,
k.

Name =  FACKA
Email = goodcleanfun98@hate

I have seen some posts here that are actually very stupid
; some girl says that she has been ana for FOUR MONTHS ! , come on you stupid
little piece of shit ! you are not ana you are just trying to fin in your dress
for your promt party.
I have anorexia since 2001, and it sucks. No one should be ana. If you cant
quit(as i cant), join us, but dont choose this as you choose some football team
because ana only will bring you pain, lonelyless, sadness and bones.

xxxfacka.

Name = Nickie
Email = periwinkle54@hotmail.com

I am 19 and have been ana on and off for about 7 years. I
am 5' 7" and at my lowest I was 95 lbs (but i was about 5"5' then) now I am 128,
yuck. I have tried everything you can think of to lose weight. I even joined the
ARMY and went through boot camp, but I only maintained my weight. My goal is to
get down to 110lbs for now. I have also been a self-mutilator of 7 years as
well, I have tons of scars and have had to get stiches. Not a minute has gone by
that I haven't thought about food and my weight and comtemplated every bite of
food I took. Now I take lots of ephedrine in hopes to lose weight. Wish me luck!

Name = anonymous

Hello everybody,

How are you? I am great. I have been ana for eight years(nine in May 2004)
People tell me all the time that all this thinness will eventually kill me. I
hate to burst there bubbles but it hasn't succeeded yet. I tried mia a few
times, but it just wasn't right for me. I only use it for those rare occasions
when sombody wants to see me eat. Though some bits of this road has been total
hell I have to admit that I feel like a stronger person from all this.  I first
became ana in the fifth grade at eleven. I am naturally a thin person, but in
the fifth grade I gained fifteen pounds and my family began to make fun of me.
So I stopped eating breakfast, all snacks, and any junk food. I also started
eating only half of my salad for lunch. Then for dinner I only ate half of my
veggies. This diet stopped a lot of fat from developing on my body. Because I am
naturally thin nobody thought anything of my thinning out party. My mom got
worried about her reputation when a friend asked her why I was so skinny. This
was my junior year of high school. I lucked out and did not have to go to
hospital becasue my mom was too embarrassed by this. So she force fed me and
turned me into a lard ass that weighed in a eighty five pounds. I got control
back my senior year and managed to get down to 65 lbs. I wanted to get back to
55, but I had to cover my tracks. I started college this year and am working on
getting back down to 55. Maybe even 50. (I am very short) I had to bring myself
back up to 75 this summer that is why it is so hard for me to get back to where
I was happy. Good Luck to all of you

Name = eliza

Hi, im Lisa and i've just turned 15. I've been ana for
the past 3 years after finding inspiration from my ana cousion. Unfortunatley
now that i am out of hospital and therapy i've gained so much disgusting weight.
i used to be a really nice 78 pounds and i maintained that for 2 years, but in
the last year i was force fed and not allowed to exercise. I am now 115 pounds
and feel trapped inside this enourmous balloon of fat. i sympathize will all
those who are trying like me to get rid of this grossness, and battle family at
the same time. we can do it..

Name = invisable
Email = lue_u_boo@hotmail.com like

I've been ana/mia for the past two years, it started when
i was 12 and gained alot of weight.  i weighed 168 pounds durning grade 7.  in
grade 8 i started being ana, and found t easy not to eat, by cristmas i weighed
120 pounds.  i'm in grade 9 now and i am both ana and mia, i weigh 105 pounds
and i feel seriously guilty everytime i eat.  i'll be 15 in three months. 

anyone can e-mail me if they have time.

xoxo~mandy

Name = Amy

I'm from The Netherlands, sorry if my English is a little
bit bad.
I think I became ana really young. I was from my third to my tenth year very
fat. I think when I was ten my weight was 120 ibs. Everyone was always calling
me the fat one, and were bullying me.
It became worser and worser and one day, I was 11 years, I decided that I was
goin'to lose weight OR kill myself.I only ate in the evenings and mornings and
very, very little.
I threw away all of my food at school, and was only drinking water. 
When I was thirteen I was thin, and from that moment everyone was calling me the
skinny one.
I liked that so much I wanted to be even more thinner.
On the age of fifteen I was really beautiful, I was 1.65m long, and 78 ibs.
But then my mom and dad forced me to go to a clinic, because I was still losing
weight. I went to the clinic and been there for three monds, the worst of my
life, I think.
I wanted to be as soon as possible out of the clinic, so I pretend that I
became'normal'again. I ate everything(it was terrible) and I left the clinic
when my weight was 104 ibs.
Now, 6 months later I'm 80 ibs, and nobody is gonna take that away from me. I'll
never go to that hell of a clinic again and I know ana is what I need to stay on
my feet.
Nothing tastes as good as thin feels...

Love & Kisses to other ana's

NAME: Moniulka

My brother always joked about me being chubby until I began to beleive him. Since about three years ago, I broke up with my boyfriend and it got me depressed. This was in the summer-time and I would stop eating as
much. This continued on and off for about a year. Last year, after being with someone new, I made a deal with my boyfriend to lose a few pounds and whoever loses more will get a prize. I won of course, but was left with ana/mia again. Now my boyfriend knows I have this ED and he's trying to control me from it but I have my ways of hiding it and it works. It somehow mobilizes me to lose even more weight. I guess I get my anger out and depression from the past through Ana/Mia.

Name = food_enemy
Email = raybeebaby@hotmail.com

I was mia before I was ana.  When it started out, it had nothing to do with weight.  I made a B in the 7th grade on my report card (and back then that was a low-ish grade for me) and me and my parents starteed yelling.  I went in the bathroom and puked.  I started puking everytime I was upset.  It was relief.  Then I started doing it to control my weight.  I now know that ana is a lot less risky and being mia can burn a hole in your asophagus and mess with your teeth and gums, so I'm ana.  I puke every once in a while, but I'm not hardcore mia anymore.  I love being ana!  (By the way, I'm 14.) 

Here's my xanga pro-ana site, by the way:
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=food_enemy

Name = lost forever

I still can remember the first time I purged... It was in 6th grade, and I was so upset because I'd gained three pounds. It later became bulimia, but the last two years it's been anorexia..... I guess it went from bulimia to anorexia the day my friends commented my weight....... "You are...... bigger than us"....... I felt like.... "I'll show them..... Just wait"

Name = lovingana
Email = jk08152p@pace.edu

Hi! my name is Zee. Im 18 and have been ana/mia since i was 12-13....i was mia long before ana (i lack control) i've really only been ana since right before prom this past year (2003). i first started mia for weight control.  in school i was always picked on.  i was never fat but was always teased about my weight (i look @ pics, i was barely chubby!) cause i live in rich-snotville!  i remember the very 1st time i tryed to puke it was sooooo painful...but it was soooo addictive!  anyway, i never really really got bad till nineth and tenth grade.  i was puking up to 15 times a day!  every single time i would eat anything i'd puke, and it felt so good.  then i went to the hospital (three times) and since then have felt too guilty to purge...so HELLLLLLLLOOOO ana! ps- i love ana/mia buddies so neone can email me @ jk08152p@pace.edu!
-zee

Name = Shadowmia

Email = anamiaslave@yahoo.com

My friends in grade school and I were all very athletic
and VERY competitive.  We started trying to outdo one another in
everything--best at sports, best hair, makeup, skinniest, most popular,
whatever.  I started ana when i was about 14 or so, and it got outta
hand--parents/friends intervened.  I would go in and out of it for a few years,
along with a heroin addiction I picked up for 2 years.  i am now 2 years sober.
I started mia last year, then about 2 months into I realized I was pregnant--so
i stopped--only to save my baby.  I ended up having a miscarriage anyways,
though :(
Anyways, talk about FAT after that!!  I started ana and heavy exercise, but with
school (double major--an ass load of stuff to do) i didn't have time to exercise
and was constantly around people who forced me to eat.  So I am mia again/ana.
It works now--i fast during the days, then at night around family/friends, if I
can't talk my way out of a meal, i binge/purge.