updated.january 19th 2005.
NEW SITE. hey hunnies. new site. worked hard. to tell you the truth - i was tired of my old bag of shit site. so i made this one. i didnt make the layout. but i wont tell you who DID. arent i mean? no. its a question of opinion.
COLOR MY WORLD. it can mean many things. make me HAPPY. make me CONTENT. make me JOYFUL. and no its not this secret message to a someone. im over that shit. you know - this world is shit and youre just a part of it. hahaha. no. think what you want. by saying this - im not trying to act better than YOU are. im simply stating the facts.
DO I LOVE? yes i do. its a question of who? i love my mom - my dad - my bro - my family - my friends - my life. boyfriend wise ? ive learned after many years of being a hopeless romantic - that things dont always turn out the way you think they will. theres always that one girl. she may not be the nicest or prettiest but she has everyone wrapped under her arm. they may only like her for her looks. i mean thats stupid - but so unfair. i came to realise that this world has many problems. and that is one. this world - and mind is so GULLIBLE. what can i do. nothing. im not saying i wouldnt attach myself. but when that choice comes to mind - ill see then and there.
WHAT I LEARNED. I learned many things in the past few days. I learned that you cannot make anyone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.Its a sad reality but its life.
I HAVE AMBITIONS IN LIFE. i try to keep them realistic. i want to become a lawyer. i want to go to havard. sounds stupid and so unrealistic? not to my world. things happen in life - and it may just turn out the way i want it. my goals are high-standard thus meaning that i must be a good girl. am i? its for you to decide. i think i am. i dont smoke nor do drugs. its a perfect A for me.
IS THIS THE REAL ME ? yes it is. you may think and i quote: "shit what the hell was she thinking when she wrote this?" and my answer is simple - everyday life. ive learned to enjoy simple things. its made me happy. ive realised that shit happens. and you know what? i cant help it from happening. so i truly dont care anymore.
this is the end. come again if you wish.
alie <3