Those that know me, know that I have lost friends because of this illness,, BUT I have certainly made friends too.
Good friends,, friends I know that I can rely on, friends i can chat to on line, that I can call at daft oclock, and friends that can call me when ever they feel the need to. Friends that always ask how I am and how my kids are,, friends that actually give a shit about how Im doing, if im well or feeling low.
I still have my low moments,, and yes,, I tell you little white lies at times,, some days i dont feel like getting up,,I just lay there and think why didnt it end last night,, and then I remember why,, because you have all been there for me at some point, and Im not gonna let you down.
Some of my friends have had it much worse than me, though none of my friends that are in the same situation asked for this illness, they still suffer from the stigma still attatched to it. Some havent even told there families, some are sometimes house bound through fear that some one may know, and berate them in the street, others even find it hard to use the phone to call and speak to their doctor. And in some cases they dont even have the confidence to use any local support grouips that would be able to give the much needed help and advice.
So the point of this page,, well, its about how I can repay all those friends, I cant call you all at once,, I cant visit some of you,,, though you know I would if I could,, but i can do what I do best,, I can express myself and how it is by music.
I have become quite good at this, so please listen to the words,, because it is what I would do for every single one of you.
My deepest respect and affection to ALL of my friends, and you do know who you are. I love you all.
Andy. xxxx