04-06-08
Dear Jesse
Ever since Thursday night i have been thinking about you these last few days have been the most hard for me blc i wasn't allowed to talk to you or see you my life was boring.... i didn't know what to do with my time i missed hearing your voice... you mean everything to me ... all i want to do is just start over and forget that whole argument. the other night was so horrbb for both of us cuz we couldn't speak or see each other. and it was over a stupid argument! our one month is on Saturday!! I'm excited! I've had so much free time. LOL i have been listening to these three songs that some how remind me of you. one of the songs is everything by life house. it says in the song that !!! your all i want... your all i need . your everything . everything!" and that is how i feel about you! i love you and i don't want to lose you! some people told me that i should think about our relationship and what i should do..... believe me when i say that i thought so much about us and what i should do ... at first i dich't know what to do or say but when your mom told me that you where seared i would break up with you i thought about how much i care for you . and how much i don't want us to break up! this "separation: was hard for me and thought about you so much and honestly i cried because i didn't know what to say to you or what to do. i never want this to happen again!! because i love you and i don't want to fight with you or hurt you. I'm so so so sorry for yelling at you thursday. i shouldn't have yelled at you i was just frustrated and stressed out. i never want you to feel like that again! i was scared after you told me that you overdosed. i didn't know what to say to you. what do you say to someone you love when they say that. all i could do was be mad/sad that because of me. so i was upset at myself for yelling at you. i love you so much and i care about you more than anyone! i talked to your mom everyday you were in there and asked her how you were doing. i have missed you SO much! we need to talk about a lot of stuff and we do need to change some stuff. because i think that we just rushed into this relationship... i think we should take it slowly. my parents know but they just said that they aren't going to judge you by this and they want too talk to you they just want to make sure you are OK nothing bad i hope... LOL. but don't worry i didn't tell anyone except my parents. but Ryan and boo boo overheard me when i was talking to you Thursday night so they know. but i just can't wait for prom with you well if you still want to go... if not that's cool. i really want to go with you though because i know that we would both have a lot of fun!
i love you! i hope you will forgive me for yelling at you. i hope we can get over this and just move on.
love your baby,
Ashley
04/09/08
Hey baby,
Thank you so much for my presents you got me for my birthday! My early birthday present was great too. I love you and miss you! Can't wait til prom so you can meet all my friends! I know they will love you!
Love your baby,
Ashley
