"Bottom line is even if you see them coming, you're not ready for the big  moment. No one asked for their life to change. But it does. So what are we? Helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are going to come, you can't help that. It's what you do afterwards that counts. That's when you find out who you are. You'll see what I mean."   
-Buffy the Vampire Slayer

   I made lifetime membership on May 20, 2004!!   Now the maintenence begins!  If you are on WW,   don't give up.  You'll make it!  If I can, anyone can!

 June 2003 Size 24                Easter 2004- Size 7 104 lost

                                                                    95 lbs lost!!!!      Size 10 getting too big.

I started Weight Watchers on June 27th, 2003.  This will chronicle my weight loss... because I WILL lose weight!   I've been so inspired by other people's web sites who have lost weight.  I hope I can do the same thing. 

My weight gain has been over 6 years in the making.   I can't believe I used to think that I was fat when I only weighed 140 lbs!   I gained over 100 pounds in very little time after I had my first child.  I was in denial about how I looked.  About how I ate.  There were no full length mirrors in our house.  I ignored the size on my pants, and I avoided cameras.  When I did see a photo of myself, I would freak out-- and then eat a little more. 

I got a kick in the butt in June of 2003.  My gynocologist suggested to me that I have both of my breasts removed to prevent breast cancer-- which my mother died of.  She also told me I should have another baby now before health reasons take away my chances of having another.  She also told me I had gained 10 pounds despite the fact that I had been working out for months. 

There it was, and I couldn't run away from it.  I was unhealthy.   I wanted to always be there for my 2 daughters.  There has been too much in the last 6-7 years that I wouldn't do because of the way I looked. 

So, I got online and started Weight Watchers.  It has been the most uplifting experience of my life.  I can do this!  I can lose weight, and it's easy!  There are no foods that are prohibited.  I love to work out, and drink water! 

I'm losing weight, but I'm also gaining new perspective, new character and brand new outlooks.  I love this program, and I'm beginning to love myself.  

Update:

I reached my goal weight in 2004.   It is now March of 2006.  I found out in January my husband had been having an affair since I reached my goal weight.  

I angry, sad, frustrated, and getting divorced.  However, I'm also proud of myself.   I did not turn to food for comfort.   What a huge victory!