Anime!

it's been some time
a real long time
i have a new song
a new tune
all with the same pain
the same feeling

i seem to hurt people
all people
at some point
bad enough to make me pick up
make me pick up and leave
i crush the heart
make it bleed as mine
tell it off
no bandaid for it
no comfort tonight
then i change
move on
do it again
the way my life repeats
happened twice
why, i have no idea
but it seems to be the same
though i'm still here

why?

i never wanted to hurt you
never wanted to get hurt in return
never wanted to have you anger rain on me
nor mine on you
you just changed so much

i cry tonight
like i did before
shaking and sobbing
not knowing what to do
while you complain in another room
another room you think i cannot hear
too bad you were wrong
or too bad for me
hearing you words slice into me
just one more time
new things comming from your mouth
words said outside of the argument
yet hurting all the same

thursday and there is no one on. i decides to occupy my tortured mind with the mindless drabble of my own horrible poetry and gosh awful spelling.

my heart breads uncertain confusion
fights are started with needless words
all around i feel like i am lose'n
my hurt tethered like caged birds
i am so lost
yet also alone
a great cost
one throws out a bone
i have one person who understands
he sees the truth
not all the red bands
surrounding my booth
we will talk
and i will cry
my mind takes a walk
as it tries to fly

i feel so lost
a person i know
just took the cost
what my heart wants to show
is it's someone i know
too  close to my heart
hurt me too deep
someone talk to me
i know he will
for my knight in shinning armor will always save my day

come be my hero
the kind in fairytales
come be my savior
like the romance novel girls have
come and be you
someone i know
someone i trust
someone i count on
to be there for me
a shoulder to cry on
an attitude that cares
arms that feel warm
a heart that knows
words that feel soft
someone that shuts the whole world out
without a second thought
come and be my hero
my savior
just come and be you
because you are all of these
because you love me
and i you

some of these lines are meant for someone special to me.  my boyfriend, if you ever read, thank you.

tell me why it hurts
the pain that huarts so much
the twist and turns that intertwine with my heart
the pain inside me
seems to know little end
for every day i wake up
it seems to wake with me too
little people know
the river that could flow
the bleading heart that never mends
nor the hurt that seems to be
i'd like to yell to the world
for me
it's not okay
i ponder and wonder
why this happens
in the end all i see
is it has to do with me