*~* sarah 2oo6 *~*

I never realli knew u
You were jus another friend
But when i got to kno u
I let my heart unbend
I cudnt help past memories
Tht would onli make me cry
I had to forget my first love
And give it another try
So ive fallen in love with you
And ill never let you go
I love you more than any one
I jus had to let you kno
And if you eva wonder y
I dont kno what ill say
But ill never stop lovin you
Each nd everyday
My feelins for you will never change
Jus kno my feelings r tru
Jus remeber one thign
~*~I love You~*~

So Confused
Not knowin what to do
I love you so much
But i love him too

Most of the time
All we eva do is fight
I realli dun have a clu
On how to make it right

I want to be with you
But hes never off my mind
Im sorry tht im hurtin you
Im sorry im not tht kind

Why do i still love me ex?
I ask myself everyday
I have you now
But i jus wanna hold him nd say:

'I miss u so much
You are the love of my life
I wanna be wif ya forever
I wanna be your wife'

He would never hurt me
Curse at me or lie
So tht is y i have to say
Im sorry and good bye

Me ... not her?

Im not sire if you kno or not
But i realli do love you alot
You hold a special place in my heart
And you did right from the start

But when she came along and tuk your breath away
I was devastated and didnt kno what to say
I spent my nights cryin, time after time,
I spent my days lyin, sayin i was fine

Little did you kno my heart was crushed inside
And on tht day, a little of me died
But wif her u luk so in love
Coz u r an angel from above

I kno i have to teach my heart to move on
For you are nowforever gon
But about one thing i am unsure
Why cant it be me? ... not her?

If you eva need me
Ill be right here
To chase away the sadness
And wipe away a tear
If you eva need me
Ill be two steps behind
To follow in your footsteps
And hear whats on your mind
If you eva need me
Youll never have to fear
That your presence isnt important
And that your love isnt dear
If you eva need me
Ill always be around
To bring back the laughter
Where deep in your heart its found
Youll never have to worry
For ill always be here
To chase away the sadness
And wipe away a tear

If you wait for me then ill cum for you, although ive travelled far i always hold a place for u in my heart if you think of me, if you miss me once in a while, then ill return to you, ill return and fill tht space in ur heart

How do i get from point A to point B?
How do i make you, the girl i love, see?
I try to show u wif my touch
Tht i love you oh so much
You ask me not to let you in
But thts too lates its already began
I kno it scares u so, everytime i let you kno
But this is sumthing u jus cant deny
So u luk into my eyes and let out a gentle sigh
We felt it almost from the start
This special feelin of the heart
And so i lay here tonight slowly driftin to sleep
As dreams of u, into my mind creep
I hear your voice as i go along
It sounds like a beautiful love song
I see your face each and every day
And wish i had the chance to luk at you and say:
'I love you so much, in each nd every way'

You cliam that you love me but how is tht tru if all i do is wonder where u are nd what u do, i kno when u r with her bcoz i can see, but how can u be wif her if your in love wif me? its all jus so confusin nd im too blind to see tht u wud not be wif her, if you REALLY did love me

Darling stop confusin me wif your wishful thinkin nd your hopeful embraces dot you understand i have to go through this i belong here where no one cares and no one loves, no light, no air to live in a place called hate the city of dead ..

Dont say u wont cheat
Dont say u wont care
Dont say u cant trust me
Dont say ull be there
Say tht ull try
Say tht ull be tru
Say tht u wont make me cry...
Baby say 'i love you ...'

Fallin for all the rong guys
How cud she be so blind
Her head so full of lies
The truth she luks to find
How cud she jus stand by
And repeat the same mistakes?
She shud have ended it wif one last good bye ...

Jus when it dawns on me nd the night gets dark, your the thought tht fills my heart its hard to explain jus how i feel but id do ne thing to show u its real, when your in my arms and whisper in my ear, everythign ive eva wanted to hear, every second were apart it hurts more than a broken heart, i long for your touch i ache for the sight of your beautiful eyes, you made me who i was, you complete my life!

To my darling daughter, leah!

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise.
You're the last thing I think of
Each night when I close my eyes.

You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move I make.

I want to prove I love you
But that's the hardest part.
So, I'm giving all I have to give
To you... I give my heart.

Suffering Stranger

She wakes to the sound of a screaming child,
Her parents are arguing the house is wild.
She curls back under her cuddly, white sheets,
And here the imaginary world is complete.

She imagines fluffy, brown bunnies and treats galore,
Happy children peacefully playing and so much more.
The dream comes to an abrupt halt,
Her father starts speaking, was it her fault?

He shouts and bellows whilst looking deep into her eyes,
She solemnly looks down and silently cries.
She feels not a thing, her body is numb,
Her father had changed, what had he become?

Crouching beside the cupboard she silently prays,
That someone will come save her one of these days.
The room Is silent and she feels so alone,
But this is how it’s always been, this is home.

Should she give up and wait to be found,
But by then she could be buried deep underground.
Her heart beats faster as she reaches for the phone,
She hears the sound of the dialling tone.

Her tiny hands tremble as she makes the call,
The police could help and change it all.
A friendly voice tells her there is nothing to fear,
And that her endless world of suffering definitely ends here!

You wake up in a room,
filled with strange colours.
Flashes of light
keep filling your eyes,
you cry.
A teddy bear is given to you,
you smile.
Without realising it
the first year of your life has gone

Your hazel eyes, with a bit of green
Not brown, nor blue, just in between

Your blonde tipped hair that spiked so scruffy and rough,
Your perfect tanned body, those muscles that made you look so tough

A thousand tears I still cry like I did the day I knew
There was no way on earth I’d ever be good enough for you

Your perfect smile, and the way you walk
The way you sat beside me, and the way we used to talk

It's been a year
since you've been here

And as I stand in the exact place where we met,
I wonder why the memory hasn't faded yet

I don't have a photo, but I can still hear you laugh
Oh how I wish to god, that I were good enough

Perfect enough to be your girl, beautiful enough for you to love me
I can still see you walking away as you let go of me, how could it be?

On that cold summer night that you walked away
I swear to you I will never get over that day

That cold day, cold day that I woke and suddenly knew
Out of all the stupid things I'd done, my boy I'd lost you

And forever I will cry
Because I will miss you and love you until the day that I die

I am a poet writing of my pain
I am a person living a life of same
I am your daughter hiding her depression
I am your sister making a good impression
I am your friend acting like I’m fine
I am a wisher wishing this life weren’t mine
I am a girl who thinks of suicide
I am a teenager pushing her tears aside
I am a student who doesn’t have a clue
I am the girl sitting next to you
I am the one asking you to care

Mommy, Johnny brought a gun to school,
He told his friends that it was cool,
And when he pulled the trigger back,
It shot with a great crack.
Mommy, I was a good girl, I did what I was told,
I went to school, I got straight A's,
I even got the gold!
But Mommy, when I went school that day,
I never said good-bye,
I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go,
But Mommy, please don't cry.
When Johnny shot the gun,
He hit me and another,
And all because Johnny,
Got the gun from his older brother.
Mommy, please tell Daddy:
That I love him very much,
And please tell Chris, my boyfriend:
That it wasn't just a crush.
And tell my little sister:
That she is the only one now,
And tell my dear sweet grandmother:
I'll by waiting for her now,
And tell my wonderful friends:
That they always were the best.
Mommy, I'm not the first,
I'm no better than the rest.
Mommy, tell my teachers:
I won't show up for class,
And never to forget this,
And please don't let this pass.
Mommy, why'd it have to be me?
No one deserves this,
Mommy, warn the others,
Mommy, I left without a kiss.
And Mommy, tell the doctors:
I know they really did try,
I think I even saw a doctor,
Trying not to cry.
Mommy, I'm slowly dying,
With a bullet in my chest,
But Mommy, please remember,
I'm in heaven with the rest.
Mommy, I ran as fast as I could,
When I heard that crack,
Mommy, listen to me if you would,
I'm not coming back.
I wanted to go to college,
I wanted to try things that were new,
I guess I'm not going with Daddy,
On that trip to the new zoo.
I wanted to get married,
I wanted to have a kid,
I wanted to be an actress,
Mommy, I wanted to live.
But Mommy I must go now,
The time is getting late,
Mommy, tell my boyfriend:
I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date.
I love you Mommy, I always have,
I know you know it's true,
And Mommy all I wanted to say is,
"Mommy, I love you."

Empty Wishes

I loved you with all my heart
Now you're gone and I'm falling apart
When I think of you, it's hard to breathe
I don't understand why you had to leave
I wish you could see how much I've grown
But you're gone and I'm alone

me no worry
me know care
me go marry a millionaire
if he dies
me no cry
me go marry another guy...

I am a rose, you are my thorns,
clutching to me, protecting me.
I am the sun, you are my rays,
helping me to shine and to be all that I can.
I am a lake, you are my water,
filling me with ideas, dreams, and hopes for the future.
I am a tree, you are my leaves,
sharing who and what I am
and becoming an important part of my life.
I am a heart, you are my beat,
beating rhythmically to my happiness,
my fear, my sadness, my excitement.
I am me and you are with me,
to share all that I am,
to share life, love, and happiness

You don't know who I am,
or what I want to be.
Why can't you love
the person that you see?
You need to understand
that I want other things.
If only you'd except
that I don't have your dreams.
I don't want to be around you
I wish that I knew why.
Maybe it's because
you always make me cry.
If you someday read this
you still won't understand.
Why can't you except me
and take me by the hand?

You can feel alone
in the busiest street,
You can feel depressed
listening to the happiest song,
You can feel like crying
behind the brightest smile,
You can feel unloved
in the most loving family,
You can feel ignored
with the most caring friends

When I first saw you,
I was afraid to meet you.
When I first met you,
I was afraid to like you.
When I first liked you,
I was afraid to kiss you.
When I first kissed you,
I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you,
I'm afraid to lose you.

Your thoughts are all happy, sitting high in your chair,
but when it comes to others, I guess you just don’t care.
I can see an old man walking alone in the street,
with cuts on his hands, and no shoes on his feet.
you've got your family to hug and to hold,
while he has no one to love, all alone in the cold.
you're laying in bed all warm in the night,
while he's laying in a box, full of fear and fright.
one day you meet him and he asks for some change,
of course you deny, just don't feel the shame.
but one day you're sorry, so you go back to see,
but the man you ignored, can no longer be

As I Close My Eyes
I see a picture of his face
As I Close My Eyes
I see him laying beside me
As I Close My Eyes
I see him with his arms around me
As I Close My Eyes
I see him kissing me
As I Close My Eyes
I see him with me
But as I open my eyes I notice it was all dream

When you're cold I'll be your heat,
When you're sad I'll hold your hand,
When you're scared I'll be your light,
to stay with you and shine through the night.

When you're alone I'll be by your side
to help and care and give advice
even if you yell and shout and call my name
I will love you all the same!!!

What does she have that I don't
What will she do that I won't
Why do you choose her over me
I thought you and I were meant to be

Well now she has won
I hope she is the one
I hope she can fulfil your dreams
because I know I would by any means

Well honey just to let you know
I will always love you though sometimes it don't show
Also if she ever hurts you
my love for you will always be true