Recent Events~! <3
I hate it when people lie. But lie to you so much that you think that the lie is actually the truth in order to "hide" the reality that's trying to be hidden in the words. When you know someone well enough, you can tell when something is a lie, and when something is said in order to fufill a stupid goal. For example, someone lies to you about something to make you feel bad, so that you could do something else that the person planned for you the whole time. I'm not sure if I'm making sense, but I tried. Its just really dumb when someone attempts to control your life with lies.
From what I know, all of the decisions I've made are for a reason. No matter how bad they've turned out, I know all of them will turn out fine in the end, like other decisions have. I don't regret my past with New York, even though it plagues me so much. I just remember about how much of an adventure that was and how much it taught me. And Florida, I loved it so much, even though it was the quickest decision I had ever made.
About Florida: I spent my time with Joe, Mindie, Tony, Chrys, Cheri (Mom!), Chuck (Sir!), and who could ever forget Buddy and Moesha! (Buddy the white little LOUD but lovingly protective dog, and Moesha the first dog I've ever seen that's afraid of her own poop, but the most prettiestester girl in the world!) <3
To Cheri~! <3 I love the awesome food you made and gave me the opportunity to taste, but mostly I loved it when you taught me to cook a whole lot more~! I admire how much of a strong person you are and never let anything bring you down no matter how bad things get! More importantly, I admire how much of a great mother you are, and I couldn't even have one suggestion on how you could be a better mom, because that's how great you are!
To Chuck~! <3 You are the coolest dad in the world! Not to mention the hilarious jokes you make! I'm very glad you and Joe get along so well; he told me about how you two would fight! (Not fight, 'argue' haha!) By the way, I STILL think your job is like, the coolest of all!
To Mindie~! <3 At first I thought you wouldn't like me, (Dunno, just did. xD) but we ended up having lots of fun, expecially at Craig's party. I love your style, the way you are, and expecially the great way you think. In all honesty, in how your life has been, I greatly admire your strength. I hope you liked your gift! With all the crafts you make with puzzles and other things, I thought you might like it! It was hard. x_x The markers kept dying! SO YOU'D BETTER LIKE IT. Just kidding! Lol!
To Tony~! <3 I had a great time playing video games, watching movies, traveling Florida with ya! I thought the 'Traveling Florida' part was the best! Thank you very much for all of your help and all the stuff you taught me~ But thank you much much more for all the fun and the great opportunity to meet you!
To Chrys~! <3 Your beef stroganoff, Damn. Its so good, my family LOVED it! When I first heard you on the phone, before I went to Florida, I thought you sounded very pretty! But my mistake, you were MUCH prettier in person than I had imagined! Thanks for all of the laughs with your funny stories and thank you for helping me out all those times! I very much appreciated it!
And Joe~! <3 A lot of things cleared up for me when I went to Florida with you... I loved so much being with you and I will never forget all of our fun, and all the comfort you gave me. Everything you did for me, I just loved it so much. I miss hugging you, I miss sleeping next to you, and waking up to the inscence because you remembered about me not liking the smell of breakfast, but making the best french toast in the world for me. Every little thing you noticed about me, and showed me that you remembered. All your nuzzles, and even the groping. (Fuck you. o_o; jk xD) Always remember how much I love you~! <3
AND I WILL GO BACK. (-CoughCheriCough-)
::PICTURES:: Woo. o_o
This is Buddy and Moesha~! =O
Joe and his sister Mindie~! <3
Fucking bad ass Florida Sky, Bitch.
Awe. <3 xD
OH OH. And lookie what I bought myself at Floooorida~! <3
As this might show anyone reading this, I had a very good time at Florida. xD ...What I was saying earlier about people lying. It has nothing to do with Florida, I'm just putting a couple of my thoughts in the same post.
Here's a question, why is pride, always the top priority in guys? (Some guys. I'll give you good guys some credit.) Why is it that because of pride, they are willing to sacrifice their true feelings and push them asside, just to satisfy ...pride? I mean, I understand that without pride, some people can feel like they are nothing in the world. Without pride, you just have no reason of being. But too much pride can really kill you if you let it go too high. I don't agree with letting pride build up as much as it wants. What good is it to lose the people you care about because of it? What good is it to end up alone? Even if you can handle being alone. What's the fun in it? Is being alone, your prize? I doubt it. People need to stop letting their little pride balloons fill up too much, because they will definately pop.
You know... On my high school prom, I had a crush on this one guy while I had been in a 'fight break' with another, and I thought that I could regret it if I didn't ask my crush to the prom. I mean, he was like the hottest track runner in school, man. o_o; But guess what? I said fuck pride, even if I get let down, I'll know that I can't regret it if I DID ask. Guess what? He said yes. x3 ...Too bad I couldn't go cause of the last day of getting the tickets, I got sick and couldn't buy them, Just didn't know it WAS the last day. x__x; Oh well. I had alot more fun at home anyway. xD
Hmm. Its the second time I get in a 'fight' with Kimberly. Could it be that maybe we're hanging out too much? I had asked Kurt about this before, and he did say that since Kimberly and I USED to hang out together all the time, sure she missed me while I was in Florida, but after the two months I was there, how could she not get used to being without me? I guess it was pretty obvious that she did. But it kinda makes me sad. I feel as if all I ever do is annoy her now with things I say, or the way I am. I mean... How could she not get annoyed? She has changed, she is fucking beautiful, even though I always thought she was. She has new styles like, every day. I don't. I would if I could, but I just don't have enough cash to get myself the clothes I want, to be able to do the same. x__x It really makes me sad and kinda jealous that I can't. But I guess I have to deal with it for now. Try to just, swallow our new differences and be the same best friends as we always were. It'd be stupid of me to let the new differences take over. To risk losing our friendship is like risking to lose myself. Its obvious we're half and half of one person put together. We fucking LAUGH the same, NOTICE we laugh the same at the same time, and laugh a NEW way at the SAME time about it, and go nuts for like 10 minutes. Lmao. I'd never give that up. <3
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AHAHHEHEHEHAHA.. o___o;
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~Rayjee.
December 30, 2006