About me

Well what can i say i guess if you have'nt guess i am i guy, i'm 19, i live in maryland. I did get treatment. It did'nt take. How it started was liek this, i was 15, and in love*btw i'm gay* i was in love, not puppy love but in love, he was 25 and he was stright, well i thought so. Well he was on po, but he failed it, so he was going to skip the usa, so on his last weekend he came out, and me and him hook-up. then he was gone. I was heartbroken. Never got over it, still have'nt. Other werid things have happend. But thats the main thing. It started as a normal diet like most anas do, i got to 170(i was fat really fat) and people were like omg C* you look great, etc. I ate that up, so i wanted more after it went away, then my mom got a boyfriend, and then it was like i got pushed to the side, and it hurt. so i started not to eat as much, she always let me do what i wanted so she really did'nt do anything, So like every week i would cut back till it became i egg 70 cals 50 fat cals and 2 sat g about, 1 piece of toast 70 cals 5 fat cals, and a 60 cal yogurt. then i would do 2 miles of walking, then a dance workout, in about 3 months i got to 132, i'm 5'11 now i know what your thinking, thats not that thin well some of its musle, i was eating protin(sorry if things are misspelled i suck at speeling) anywho i loved how i was looking my mom was pulling away and i did'nt know why, one day i was like what the hell is your problem, and she broke down to me and cryed and said she kept having dreams of me dieing, and that was why she kept checking on me in my room, etc. so i agreed to get help WORSE THING I EVER DID. 11 days of hell. i did meet so great people who taught me things. like purging, the trash trick etc. well i got out, for about a week i was ok. Then i Binged! i Filped out. So i started the hole binging purging thing, then stoped purging, for so werid reason. so then i tryed fasting it worked well but made things worse. so now im on low cal +diet pills and slowly its working =]