This is just isn't my week or something. I've been trying for 2 days to get a hold of an actual person at that free clinic I found, and now I find out the girl I thought still loved me has a boyfriend. Once again I'm the last to know anything, and again my gets ripped out. I'm not even going to say I thought things would work this time because I knew no one could ever love me. It's just another night crying for me. Nothing big at all, I'm used to this feeling by now. Nothing feels right anymore. I just have to accept the fact that I'm impossible to be loved. Even the most famous transsexual in the world is single, so why should I expect any different? I guess I've got a high price to pay for living instead of getting things over with quickly. I may live the rest of my life content as a woman, but what's life without love? I don't know I'm being a little over dramatic right now I know. But whatever I can't write anymore right now.
Well where to start? Ok I'll give the highlights of the last few months. First of all I made some new friends around here that are fine with me being TG. In fact they have helped me become more open about myself and I even let them dress me up. I don't know what I'd do without them. I've also started on hormones. I joined vampire freaks and joined a TG group on there and made a new friend. She's already gone though what I'm about to. She told me where to order the meds from too. I've been on them since June 27th, and I've already started noticing some changes. In 3 days I plan to tell my family about everything also. So yeah I've made a lot happen over just a few months. Anyway this was just an update, so you'll have to talk to me if you really want details.
