2nd April 2007
SPIRITUAL DREAM: “KEEP OR DELETE IT: THE CHOICE IS YOURS”
For judgment must begin at the house of God; for the saints shall judge the world.
I Corinthians 11:31,32 (NKJV) “For if we would judge ourselves, we would not be judged. But when we are judged, we are chastened by the Lord, that we may not be condemned with the world.
I Corinthians 11:31-32 (AMP) “For if we searchingly examined ourselves [detecting our shortcomings and recognizing our own condition], we should not be judged and penalty decreed [by the divine judgment]. But when we [fall short and] are judged by the Lord, we are disciplined and chastened, so that we may not [finally] be condemned [to eternal punishment along] with the world.
In this dream, I saw myself sitting and staring at my computer. I was just sitting there meditating on how many times I have heard it prophesied over the last couple of years, “Whatsoever is not of God shall not be able to stand in the days ahead”. I was also meditating on how this word might be related to another word that has also been prophesied many times over the last couple of years, “My people are not ready for my coming”. I was also considering how some have said that the Lord has told them that there is nothing they can do to ready themselves for the coming of the Lord; and I was thinking how that might be in complete contradiction to that which Jesus said in Matthew 24:44 “Therefore be you also ready: for in such an hour as you do not think the Son of man comes”.
Jesus also warned us in the parable of the ten virgins, saying that when He would come, He would find five of them foolish because they had not prepared themselves for his appearance, according to that which is written in Matthew 25:10 “And while they (the foolish who were not ready) went to buy, the bridegroom came; and they that were ready went in with him to the marriage: and the door was shut”. I was wondering why Jesus would instruct and exhort us to be ready for His coming, but then turn around and send forth words to some that said the contrary, that there is nothing that you can do to be ready. Would He actually do that?
While I was considering these things, the Spirit of the Lord reminded me of Ephesians 5:25-27 “Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it; that he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word, so that he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish”.
I realized the truth, that there was nothing that I could do “of myself” to ready myself for His coming, but that I could present myself as a living sacrifice before Jesus, my High Priest, and ask for Him to prepare me for His appearing; for He alone sanctifies and makes us holy. I was still meditating on these things when the Lord told me that it was time for me to go through all of the documents/files on my computer so that I might them clean them up and delete all that were old, useless, and unnecessary. I perceived that the Lord was using these documents/files on my computer as an example of what He desired to do in my heart and mind.
I was still sitting at my computer when a document appeared on the screen before me that was entitled, “My judgments of others”. I had done nothing to bring this file up of myself. It just appeared before me. I thought it was very strange that such a document should appear before me, seeing that I could not even remember having any such file or document in my computer. I opened it up and was astounded at what I saw. This file was as if it were my own little personal black book on everyone that I had ever known, or had heard of, or read of, or had seen in my entire life.
I was surprised to see that this document contained my judgments of all who had come and gone in my life. This document could be used to remember each one’s faults, or weaknesses, or offensive words, or mistakes, or sins, as well as all the things that were said or done that I had not personally agreed with. Also in this document was found all the good works and good words that had been spoken or done; especially those works and words that had somehow personally profited me.
To say the least, I was shocked to see that I had kept such an extensive record on everyone who had come into my life; almost as though each one was going to be judged by me. I also saw in this document that I had recorded next to the names, all of the words and deeds that I had never personally witnessed them do, but what I had heard spoken of them by others.
Even though I was shocked to see all of the information that I had gathered in this document, I was truly shocked to see what I saw next—that I had even kept a file on the Lord Himself; that I had recorded all of the things in my life that had not gone according to my will, and that I had blamed God and thought evil of Him for doing such things. I recorded my displeasure against God concerning all of the things that I had prayed to Him for, and that He never answered or that He had never done.
My body quivered all over as I realized the depth of the information that I had recorded in this file, for I had no idea that I had ever done such a thing. But as I went down the list of the names, including the name of the Lord, that were written in this document, along with all of their works and words that they had done, I realized that every time I saw one of these people or just heard one of their names mentioned, I would immediately associate them with the deeds and the words that I had recorded in my little black book. It was my book of remembrance, as though it was right for me to judge them accordingly. Of course, all those who had offended me, or had spoken evil of me, or had hurt me, or had accused me, or had not seen eye to eye with me, were highlighted so as to stand out in my book.
As I sat there, considering all that I had seen in this document, the Spirit of the Lord quickened that which Jesus said in Matthew 7:1 “Judge not so that you be not judged. For with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you. And why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, “Let me remove the speck from your eye’; and look, a beam is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the beam from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.”
It was then that the Lord quickened to me that the beam in my own eyes was my own judgment of others. And then the Lord also reminded me of that which is written in Romans 13:8 “Owe no man anything except to love one another: for he that loves another has fulfilled the law”.
I sat there wondering how I could remove such a great beam as this from out of my eyes when suddenly a new screen came up on my computer. It was a screen that had two square boxes that were side by side. Above the boxes was written this instruction: Choose either Box A or Box B. I saw that box A, which was on my left, had these words written within, “Keep and hold on to this file.” Box B, which was on my right side, had these words written, “All that is written in this file is that which Jesus Christ died for on the cross so that you might not have to live unto it anymore. Do you choose to allow the *Lord to delete this file from your thinking?”
I observed that just under Box A was written: Romans 2:1 “Therefore you are inexcusable, O man, whoever you are that judges: for wherein you judge another, you condemn yourself; for you who judge do the same things. But we are sure that the judgment of God is according to truth against them which commit such things. And do you think this, O man who judges them who do such things, and you do the same, that you shall escape the judgment of God?”
I saw that underneath Box B was written, Zephaniah 3:15 “The Lord has taken away
your judgments, he has cast out your enemy: the king of
I was just about to press box B when I saw the * that had been inserted just before the words, “Lord, delete it”; and it read, * “Do not press box B if you doubt that the Lord will do this for you or if you do not believe that the Lord has the power and the love to perform his words for you.” Seeing that the Lord has brought me through many trials, and that His love for me had never failed me, I pressed Box B while at the same time praying, “Lord, would you take away my all of judgments so that I will not condemn myself on that day and so that I might also now receive your love towards all men. Fill me with your love so that I might be found in Christ Jesus; for there is no condemnation to those who are in Christ because Jesus did not judge any man.”
As soon as I had pressed Box B, another
document appeared on my computer screen that was entitled, “My will.” When I opened it, I found that it contained all things
which pertained to my life. I read a little bit of this before I understood
that my will was formed when my pride, my righteousness, and my desires came
together in unity and agreement. I also saw that my will never agreed with my heavenly
Father’s will. When I did my will I never saw that I needed any help from my
heavenly Father do so. It is only through the power of the Holy Spirit that one
is enabled to do the will of God. This helped me to understand clearly that the
will of man can never, ever perform the will of God. It truly takes the
The Lord reminded me of the warfare that the apostle Paul was engaged in when he said in Romans 7:15-20 “For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not do; but that which I hate, that I do. If then I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. But now, it is no longer I who does it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) dwells no good thing; for to will is present with me, but how to perform that which is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I do.”
As I read these words, the Lord allowed me to understand that the good that Paul desired to do but could not do were the things that can only be done out of love. For such is the will of God, that all that the Lord does for us: His works, His forgiveness, His gifts, His grace, and His blessings, all come forth from the incredible, unconditional love of God. There is no will of God without the love of God because God is love. All that He speaks and all that He does are done out of love.
As I continued to read what was in this document, my eyes were opened to see that the difference between the will of God and the will of man is love. Then I understood why the Lord says that there is not one man who is good, and neither is there a man who is righteous in His sight; no, not one, because there is no man that has the love of God dwelling in him. The Lord then allowed me to understand that every deed that a man does he does because he thinks it is good. Every word that a man speaks he speaks because he thinks it is right; This is contrary to the will of our heavenly Father because everything that our heavenly Father does and everything that He speaks comes forth out of the love that is in His heart, and not because He thought it was the good thing to do or the right thing to say. Then Spirit of the Lord reminded me of what Jesus said in John 13:35 “By this shall all men know that you are my disciples, if you have love one to another.”
I now understood who the workers of iniquity were. They were those hypocrites thought they were righteous and good because of the works that they did and the words that they spoke. But there was no love of God in their hearts; and when there is an absence of love, there is an absence of the will of God. I certainly include myself in the number of those who have deceived themselves into believing that they were doing the will of God because they thought that their deeds were the good works to do and the right thing to say.
Then the same screen came up on my computer as before; the one that said: “Choose either box A or Box B.” Box A said, “Keep and hold on to this file.”
Box B said, “That which is in this file is that which Jesus Christ died for on the cross so that you might not have to live unto it. *Lord, I choose that you delete my will from my thinking.” I then observed that under Box A was Matthew 7:21 where Jesus said, “Not everyone who says unto me, “Lord, Lord” shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, “Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in your name? And in thy name we have cast out devils? And in your name we have done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, you that work iniquity.”
Under Box B was written Matt.26:39; 6:10, “Father, not my will be done but Your will be done.” Without any doubt, I chose Box B, saying, “Father, not my will be done but your will be done. Let your love fill my heart so that your will may be written in my heart and my mind. I choose to allow you to delete my will so that your kingdom may come, that your will be done in this earthly vessel as it is done in heaven.”
As soon as I pushed the delete button, just as expected, another document came up on my computer screen; and it was entitled “My knowledge, my understanding, and my wisdom.” Before I opened the document, the Spirit of the Lord reminded me of Ephesians 4:17-18 “This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that you henceforth no longer walk as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind, having their understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart.”
The Spirit of the Lord also reminded me of all the things that the Lord has taught me:that the darkness that separates us from the life of God dwells in all of the thoughts that come forth from the carnal mind. The carnal mind is the habitation of the wisdom of this world, natural understanding, and carnal knowledge. No matter how intelligent a man may seem in his own knowledge, his own wisdom, and his own understanding, his intelligence only consists of his opinions about God and all things which pertain to God. For man’s ignorance of God is that which the darkness consists of that alienates us all from fellowship and communion with God. The darkness is simply man’s complete ignorance of God. That ignorance is clearly seen in his unbelief in God; his lack of loyalty towards God; his lack of friendship with God; his lack of love for God; his lack of respect for God; his absence of trust in God; his lack of understanding God’s words; his blindness to see any need for God; and his lack of faith in God. For this is the darkness—the darkness that keeps the “old man” alienated and separated from the life of God that God created man to be partakers with him.
It is as it is written, that this world,
by the wisdom of this world, is completely ignorant of God. This world’s wisdom
is that which darkens the understanding and knowledge of man’s thoughts so that
he cannot comprehend any of the thoughts and ways of God. Even so, man is able
to mask his ignorance of God by reason of the reasonings he uses and the
opinions that he forms to define his own interpretation of God. Every man’s
natural wisdom, understanding, and knowledge is his idolatry; for every man
believes and does those things which his own
Isaiah 55:8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.”
I Corinthians 8:1 “Now as touching things offered unto idols, we know that we all have knowledge. Knowledge puffs up, but love edifies. And if any man thinks that he knows anything, he knows nothing yet as he ought to know. But if any man loves God, the same is known of him.”
John 1:10-11 “He was in the world, and the world was made by him, and the world knew him not. He came unto his own, and his own received him not.”
I Corinthians 1:21 “For after that in the wisdom of God the world by wisdom knew not God…..2:7,8 “But we speak the wisdom of God in a mystery, even the hidden wisdom, which God ordained before the world unto our glory; which none of the princes of this world knew: for had they known it, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory.”
Jeremiah 4:22 “For my people are foolish, they have not known me; they are sottish children, and they have no understanding: they are wise to do evil, but to do good they have no knowledge.”
Since the fall of Adam and Eve, all men who have continued to eat the fruit that comes forth from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil continue to walk in darkness. They are alienated and separated from the love, the peace of mind, the joy, the patience, the goodness, the belief, the holiness, and the life that comes forth from the fruits of the Spirit of the Lord. Only through his Spirit shall fellowship and communion be restored between us and God; and Jesus Christ is that Spirit that sets us free from the darkness. The fruits of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil are nothing but lies that keep men desiring their independence from God. The fruits of these lies are clearly seen in the lives of those who eat from this tree in that each man believes that his way for living is the right way life should be lived All who eat of this tree come under the spell of Satan’s lies; the spell whereby each man comes under the illusion that his way is the right way that he should live his life, even though he has no fellowship or communion with his Creator God.
I remembered that the wisdom, the knowledge, and the
understanding of man is the source of all corruption, all evil, and all
wickedness; for the wisdom, the knowledge, and the understanding of man only
knows the death that inhabits the thinking of all who are carnally minded: the
anxiety, the hatred, the fears, the pride, the bitterness, the arrogance, the
malice, the confusion, the desires for vain glory, the lies, the unforgiveness,
the depression, the unbelief, the worries, the love of self, the doubts, the
loneliness, the hypocrisy, the slander, and many other such like thoughts that
fallen man is familiar with in his thinking. No man who desires change can see
any transformation until his wisdom, his knowledge, and his understanding
changes first. It is the thinking that comes forth from the Spirit of the Lord
that is full of the good fruits of Life, and the Lord himself is that Spirit.
There is no wisdom and knowledge that is natural to man that is able to
understand or comprehend the spiritual thoughts of God, for
I sat back in my chair meditating on these things when I was surprised by that same screen that suddenly popped up again on my computer. It was the one that said, “Choose either Box A or Box B.” Box A said, “Keep and hold on to this file.”
Box B said, “That which is in this file is that which Jesus Christ died for on the cross so that you might not have to live unto it” *Lord, I choose for you to delete my wisdom, my knowledge, and my understanding from my thinking so that I may know you.”
Under Box A was II Peter 2:12 “But these, as natural brute beasts, made to be taken and destroyed, speak evil of the things that they do not understand; and they shall utterly perish in their own corruption”. I noticed there was another word underneath that word, and it was Hosea 4:6; I Cor.2:9-14, “My people are destroyed for a lack of knowledge; for they did not seek nor ask to know the things of God.”
I observed that under Box B was, Proverbs 2:6/John 17:3 “For the Lord gives wisdom and out of his mouth comes knowledge and understanding; for everlasting life belongs to those who know God.” Again, I quickly pressed button B saying, “Lord, I gladly ask for you to delete all death from my thinking and the darkness of my ignorance that alienates and separates me from fellowship and communion with you”.
Again, as I pressed button B, I was looking to see what document might pop up next on my screen next; and sure enough, the document came up entitled, “My sins”. When I saw the title to this document, I remembered how I would have been so terribly afraid to hear anything about sin before the Lord taught me what Jesus said in John 16:8-9 “And when the comforter is come, he will reprove the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment: Of sin, because they believe not on me.”
I remember just staring at this verse thinking to myself, “My sin is unbelief? This is the purpose the Lord gave His Holy Spirit to me, to correct me of my unbelief? How so, Lord?” That was when the Spirit of the Lord taught me that when we were all called, we were each given the belief that Jesus is the Son of God; that Jesus died for our sins; and that He was crucified and arose from the dead, But what we did not get was the belief that all things are possible with God. It is for this unbelief of God’s Word that the Holy Spirit, the Comforter, was given to correct us, lest we continue to abide in unbelief, in disobedience and sin.
I recalled a particular time in my walk where I had grown very self-righteous, and even though I was doing a lot of righteous works and good deeds, I found myself in a dead place. It was a place where there was no joy, or love, or peace in my mind; a place where I felt like the Lord was an eternity away from me. I remember how I began to pray, asking the Lord to show me my error, and the way back into His heart; and He led me to James 2:19-20 “You believe that there is one God; you do well; but the demons also believe, and they tremble. But will you know, O vain man, that faith without works is dead?” When the Lord first led me to this verse of scripture, I almost felt like the Lord was insulting me because I felt as though I was doing all the works Jesus had asked us to do. I didn’t know that my own understanding of this verse was blinding me so that could not see nor hear the truth of what the Lord was trying to teach me. I continued in prayer for almost 30 days concerning this word until the Lord finally spoke to me one morning, “Mitt, if “I” am not working in your heart, then your faith is dead”. The Lord has spoken and taught me now for 27 years, and nothing else the Lord has spoken to me has impacted my walk with Him as much as the word that He spoke to me that day. Why? Because I had never once considered that the works spoken in James 2:20 had anything to do with the works of God’s hands because I had thought that my works were to accompany my faith.
Shortly after the Lord spoke these words to me, my heart was filled with great fear and trembling because I came to the realization that I had never asked the Lord to do any kind of work in my heart. I had been too busy trying to be the best Christian that I could make myself to be. The Lord spoke to me, “Mitt, do not be afraid; for I am really good at raising the dead.”
For 27 years God has continually spoken to me and taught me, but nothing to this day has come close to having the impact on my walk that this word did simply because there is a major difference between the works of man and the works of God. I knew that this was what I was about to experience; and the Lord confirmed this for me when He said, “Mitt, I am not going to make you great in My sight, but I am going to become great in your sight.” I cannot tell you of the joy that swept through me when the Lord spoke these words to me because I knew that it would be impossible for the Lord to truly become great in my sight unless He actually did great things for me.
Of course, it was not surprising to me to see how the Lord led me to Matthew 13:58 “And Jesus did not many mighty works there because of their unbelief.” I am still amazed to this day how blind I was to see that the only thing that was separating me from seeing the mighty works of God was my unbelief. I truly thought in my heart that I was a believer; but my heart I had deceived me. Romans 10:10 says, “For with the heart a man believeth unto righteousness…” It is also written that Abraham “believed”, and God accounted it unto him to be his righteousness. The Lord said that Abraham was strong in faith because he believed that God was able to perform for him those things that God had promised him. Again, I saw that Abraham’s faith and belief had nothing to do with his own abilities or strength, but with the Lord’s.
With all of this, I asked the Lord exactly what the work was that He desired to perform in my heart. The Spirit of the Lord led me to John 6:29, “Then the disciples asked him, “What shall we do, that we might work the works of God?” Jesus answered and said unto them, “This is the work of God that you believe on Him whom He has sent.” It was strange that as I read this word, my eyes were opened to see these words in a manner that I had never seen them before, in that the disciples asked, “What must we do to do the works of God?”
How foolish it is for a man to even conceive the thought that he is able to do the works of God; for the works of God can only be done by God himself. Every work that Jesus did was done by the word of His mouth; whether it be when He healed the sick, or when He raised the dead, or when He forgave sins, or when He cast out demons. Jesus himself said in John 14:10-11 “Do you not believe that I am in the Father, and the Father in me? The words that I speak to you I do not speak on my own authority; but the Father who dwells in me does the works. Believe me that I am in the Father and the Father in me, or else believe me for the sake of the works themselves.” Who is able to understand this belief that allows for God Himself to dwell in hearts performing miraculous works in us, and in those who are around us also? I did not yet understand or comprehend what this belief was but I surely wanted the Lord to work it in me.
It was about this time that I started to really get excited, knowing that all I had to do to allow the works of God to be done through me was to believe on Him. What I did not know at the time was that I was about to run smack dab into all the powers of darkness; into what I now call the “Big 3” because they are the 3 most powerful weapons in Satan’s arsenal. Yes, the scriptures are filled with all kinds of wonderful works that the Lord desires to do for us, but there can not anyone of His mighty works be done where there is unbelief; and that is weapon number one. It is written in James 1:7 “For let not that man (the man who doubts) think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord.”
Weapon number two is the doubt which causes us to believe that God has lied to us
And then there is the third weapon, and it surely is not the least of the three, and that is fear/pride. I once asked the Lord if He would define for me how He saw pride, seeing that it is written in James 4:6 “…For God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble.” The Lord then spoke to me, “Pride is the love and consciousness of “self”; and there is nothing that makes a man more conscious of “self” than his fears. One of the fears that the Lord has delivered me from is the fear that my “self image” may be damaged in the sight of other men. I fear the Lord may ask for me to do something that would make me appear as a fool in the sight of other men.
If there is any who desire to draw near to God or who desires to seek and ask things of God, Satan will always seek to attack their thinking with fears; with such thoughts as, “What if I ask the Lord to help me, and He doesn’t help me?” I have fought many battles against my own imaginations that were saying to me, “It is better not to ask anything of God lest you be rejected”. It was the fear of rejection that was trying to keep me from drawing near unto my God. Many times Jesus tried to comfort the people when He said, “Be not afraid”.
Fear, pride, doubt, and unbelief all have one thing in common. If we yield to and believe their counsels, they are able to separate us from the love and the life of God. Jesus has received authority from his Father to make all things new in us; that is, He is able to open our eyes to see all things as God sees them. He is able to open our ears to hear the words of the Lord and understand the truth of them. He is able to tame our tongues, increase our faith, and to make us perfect in every good work to do His will and to do what is pleasing in the sight of God. Jesus is able to change the desires and affections of our heart, and to transform the thinking in our minds, and He is well able to bring forth abundant life in each one us. Jesus is able to teach us all mysteries, all secrets, and all parables. He is able to reveal His heavenly Father’s heart unto us as well as to reveal the true motives and intentions of our heart. Jesus is well able to sanctify us so that He may present us unto Himself as His bride that is not spotted with any desires and affections of this world. But Jesus is not able to do any of these wonderful things in those who have yielded their hearts to the lies that bring forth fear, doubt, unbelief and pride.
When I ran into my first battle with these evil imaginations, I did not see these words in my thinking to be as lying counsels from Satan, but rather I saw them as being my own thoughts. I was very afraid, and I wondered how I could overcome these doubtful and unbelieving thoughts that were preventing the Lord from doing His mighty and wonderful works for/in me. When I asked the Lord to help me, the Spirit of the Lord led me to the story in Mark 9:17-27, where a man came to Jesus seeking help for his son who was possessed with many unclean spirits. After this man asked for Jesus to have compassion on his son, he said to him, “If you can believe, all things will be possible.” And the father of that child then fell down before Jesus and said, “Lord, I believe, but help me with my unbelief”.
I was really puzzled by this man’s answer; so I asked, “Lord, how is this possible? How is it possible for a man to say, “I have belief and I have unbelief”? The Lord then answered me, “This man believed that I was the Son of God; and he believed that I had the power and authority to help his son, but what he did not believe was that I would do this just for him. So the only way that I could help this man with his unbelief was to actually perform for him that which he had originally desired for me to do for him. So I helped his unbelief when I healed his son, and he saw with his own eyes that I would do this just for him.”
From the moment that the Lord spoke these words to me, I knew in my heart that there was no fear, pride, doubts, or unbelief that could take me to a place where the Lord could not help me. All that I had to do was reject these lying counsels and ask the Lord to help me with my own unbelief, doubts, fears or pride. It was not as if I thought that I would ever be attacked again by these lies, it was that I now believed that where I was, so also the Lord would be there to help me.
I was still wondering exactly what this belief was that the Lord wanted to work in me when one morning while I was in prayer, the Lord brought again into my mind the word that says, “…this is the work of God, that you believe on him whom he has sent”. But this time, the Lord added another word to it, that which is written in John 3:34 “For he whom God has sent speaks the words of God. ”I understood that he whom God sends always speaks the words of God. It was those words that the Lord needed to work in me to believe on. I also understood that it was not just the scriptures but also any prophetic word sent forth by the Lord that He needed to work in me to believe. The Lord confirmed that it was His words that needed to be believed on. The Spirit led me to John 12:47-50 “And if any man hears my words, and does not believe, I judge him not: for I came not to judge the world, but to save the world. He that rejects me, and receives not my words, has one that judges him: the word that I have spoken, the same shall judge him in the last day.”
It was at this time that I began to wonder what this belief was that actually required the Lord Himself working in me so that I might believe it. I had always assumed that if I read the word and agreed with it, then I must believe it. So I began to ask the Lord to show me how what I believed differed from the work of belief that He desired to perform in me.
The Lord questioned me, “Do you love your enemies, or do you esteem the lives of your brethren to be more important than your own, or do you love your wife as I love my church?” After just a little moment I answered “No” to all of the Lord’s questions.
Then the Lord said, “The reason that you do not these things is because you do not believe My words. You do believe and agree that these words came from Me, but if you believed these words, then they would be written in your heart and your mind by My Spirit; and when My Spirit is in you, it will be your delight to do that which you believe. When My belief is in you it is because My Spirit, which is My power, is in you doing My words.” Wow! This was surely a life- changing revelation for me because for the first time I truly understood why Jesus said, “Without me, you can do nothing”; because Jesus is that Spirit and that power that delights in doing Father’s will. When I tried to do the Word, it was a work, but when I believe, it is the Lord in me doing it, and I delight in doing it.
Yes, I believe that Jesus is the Son of God; yes, I believe that Jesus shed His blood for my sins; and yes, I believed that Jesus died on the cross and was resurrected from the dead; but what I did not believe was that all things are possible with God. But that was then, and this is now, and the Lord has performed for me many of the works that He desires to do for us. Many, many times I have asked the Lord to help me with my unbelief so that He could write His words in my heart and in my mind; and many times I have seen the Lord do exactly that.
The Lord has truly become great and mighty in my eyes, and I just love watching Him work, doing those things that were once thought impossible to do. Sin is transgression against the law of God. The law of God is His truth; and who transgresses and makes light of His truth are those who do not believe His words; and those who do not believe His words are those who have not asked the Lord to work His belief in them.
O how great is the blindness that blinds the eyes so that no man is able to see that the works that he does are only done because he does not believe to ask the Lord to work in his heart. Who is able to see that all the works that a man does in his attempt to make himself righteous are only a sin? I just sat there, remembering all the wonderful works that the Lord had done for me, and remembering that there was hardly a one that did not start out with my first having to confront the lies of unbelief and doubt. I thought about how, when I was ignorant, my faith was only accompanied with the works of my own hands. How much more wonderful it is to have the faith that is accompanied with the power of God. Then it happened again! A screen popped up that said, “Choose either Box A or Box B. Box A b said, “Keep and hold on to this file.”
Box B, which was on my right side, had these words written within, “All that which is in this file—your sins—are that which Jesus Christ died for on the cross so that you might not have to live unto them. * Lord, I choose You to delete all of the sins of doubt, unbelief, fear and pride from my thinking so that You may finish the works that You started in me.
I saw that just under Box was written, Ecclesiastes 1:14 “I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and behold, all is vanity and troubling of spirit.”
Written under Box B was I John 3:5 “And you know that he was manifested to take away our sins; and in him is no sin. Whosoever abides in him sins not: whosoever sins has not seen him, neither known him.” Under that word was Philippians 1:6 “Be confident of this very thing, that He who has started a good work in you will finish it until the day of Jesus Christ”. Without considering another moment, I pressed Box B, while also praying, “Lord, delete from my heart all of my fears, pride, unbelief and doubt and fill me with Your love; for Your love believes all things. Will You now finish all of the works that You have started in me so that I may believe all of Your words and that all things are possible with You?”
I was not at all surprised when the next document that appeared before me was the one entitled “My righteousness”, for my righteous- ness is the principle fruit that the corrupted wisdom of this world brings forth. My righteousness has also been the primary focus of my heavenly Father’s correction towards me, seeing that my righteousness does nothing but bring division in my relationship with my heavenly Father, as well as with all of my brethren. My righteousness is the strength and power of the darkness; for there is no law that has any greater power than the law that seems right in the sight of man. It is as it is written in Proverbs 16:25 “There is a way that seems right in the sight of man, but the end thereof is the way of death.” I remember the day that the Lord led me to this verse, and said, “Mitt, if you can understand this verse then you will understand all of the power of Satan, for Satan is a liar, and none of his words could have any influence or power except they that appeared as counsels or reasonings that men would desire to believe”.
It is as it is written in Proverbs 21:2 “Every way of a man is right in his own eyes…”; for such is the way
for all who are citizens of this world. How great is the darkness that covers all
of the inhabitants of this world with the illusion whereby each man believes
that he is righteous in his opinions, in his counsels, in his decisions, as
well as in all of the judgments that he forms concerning other men; from his
friends to his enemies.
Yet, in all these things, the Lord says that He sees that there are none, no not one, who is righteous in the sight of God. What greater hiding place can Satan, the father of all lies, find other than behind all those lies that seem right and that appear to be good in the sight of man? Amazing! To this day, I still find it incredible that we all live on this earth with what, 7 billion people, and each one of us is confident in our thinking that what we believes is that which is right!
I recalled how the Lord once asked me if I
knew what was the greatest lust that ruled over the hearts of man. After a
couple of missed answers, I gave up and asked the Lord if He would tell me what
it was. He said, “The lust to be right in
all that you do and in all that you speak”.
I knew that was the Lord because the best answer I could give always left some
people out, but every man, without exception, desires to be right in his own
eyes. All those who desire to be right will hate correction because it is an
admission of their unrighteousness; and all unrighteousness is sin. Daniel said
that righteousness only belonged to God. Jesus cer- tainly confirmed that when
He gave us the instruction in Matthew 6:33 “Seek
you first the
So I set my heart to seek the Lord and ask if He would teach me those things which are right in His sight, One of the first verses that He led me to was Proverbs 12:28 “In the way of righteousness is life; and in the pathway thereof there is no death.” Where there is righteousness there is life? It certainly did not appear to me that life was the result of me trying to keep commandments and laws that were impossible for me to do.
When I considered this word, I suddenly realized that the life that I so desired to have is that which I have tasted of from time to time. I have experienced this “abundant life” only when I was in the presence of the Lord. He allowed me to understand that the wide and easy path, though it is the way that seems right in the sight of men, is also the way that is walked alone; a way where there is no acknowledging, or fellowship, or communion with God. If God is not there, it is dead. To confirm that His presence would always be with me as long as I stayed in the strait and narrow way, the Lord led me to Isaiah 32:17 “And the work of righteousness shall be peace; and the effect of righteousness quietness and assurance for ever.” This effect comes only through the presence of God, and not by any works or efforts of man.
Effect: “that which is produced; a result; that which comes forth.”
When I walked in the way that seemed right in my own eyes, the effect that seemed to accompany my plans and my ways was either anxiety, or strife, or worry, or uncertainty, or arguments, or fears, or fights, or confusion, or the anger and frustration that comes forth when things do not go according to your own will, what I had planned and designed. It sure seems right that righteousness should be that which comes forth when a man has good intentions and makes his best effort to observe laws or to do that which seems right, or to be good. But that way has no power to bring forth the quietness or peace that comes forth when the Lord is believed on to do the work.
One thing is for sure, just as the scriptures bear witness, as the time gets closer to the end, it is getting more and more perilous to live in this present evil world; for as the darkness grows deeper, so does the deceit that blinds men into believing that the way they see things is the right way things should be seen. All who do not agree should be hated and evil thought of. Lawlessness occurs when everyone believes that his own way is right. When that occurs, the more the strife, the hatred, the contention, the fights, the evil suspicions, and the arguments will increase as each one stands to defend his own righteousness against those who do not see eye to eye with him.
The Muslims believe they are right; the Islamics believe they are right; and the Sunnis believe they are more righteous than the Shiities. The Communists believe they are right as well as the Marxists. The liberals are confident that they are right, just as the conservatives do. The skinheads believe they are right as the does the NAACP. Men with short hair believe they are right and men who wear their hair long believe they are right. The Baptists believe they are right as well as the Catholics believe they are right. Those that speak in tongues believe they are right and those who do not speak in tongues believe they are right. The fundamentalists believe they are right as do the charismatics. This man believes that his interpretation of the scriptures is right while the next man thinks that his interpretation is right. Vegetarians believe that their diet is right as well as those who eat fast foods. There are animal rights, children’s rights, fat rights, women rights, gay rights, civil rights, labor rights, and on and on in this fallen world of darkness. It is a world where the desire of man is to have the freedom to make his righteousness to be the law of the land. Just how great is the illusion of self-righteousness? Consider what the Lord says in Romans 3:10 “As it is written, there is none who are righteous; no, not one.”
As the righteousness of men grows darker, so also will the judging of others grow stronger; the judging that brings condemnation upon ones own self. Because we live in a world where each man is blind to see anything other than his own ways to be right, we will also see a world filled with much judgment; a world where each man will judge his neighbor according to his own righteousness; a world where each man daily gathers up wrath for himself on the day when he is judged with the judgment with which he has judged others; for the effect of self-righteousness is clearly seen in those who judge, slander, criticize, accuse, backbite, condemn, blame, gossip, and find fault with all those who do not measure up to the standard of his own righteousness. Is there any act that is more natural for the self-righteous to do than to judge and find fault with others? Who is able to see that self-condemnation is the only reward that awaits those who judge others, seeing that all who judge others without mercy are themselves going to be judged with the same manner of judgment they used to judge.
It is written in John 8:12 “Then Jesus said again unto them, “I am the light of the world: he that follows me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life...15 You judge after the flesh; I judge no man.” I continued to sit before my computer thinking about how the Lord has corrected me of my self-righteousness. My judgment of others diminished greatly through the same correction; for when your own righteousness is brought to nothing, what is there to use to judge others with? There is no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus because He corrects them of their righteousness and their judgment. These are they who have passed from death unto life, and they love and forgive others rather than judging and accusing them.
ZEPHANIAH 3:15 “The
LORD has taken away your judgments, he has cast out your enemy; the king of
I JOHN 3:14 “We know that we have passed from death unto life, because we love the brethren. He that loves not his brother abides in death (carnal mind).”
How much do we deceive ourselves in thinking that we are righteous and good because we show compassion and mercy towards those who are poor, or helpless, or sick, or needy. But let a person oppose and contend with those things that we think and trust to be right, watch to see if your mercy and compassion will continue to flow like a river. It is not so with God, for the righteousness of His unconditional love never forsakes us, even when we oppose and contend with the instruction of His words. Many times I have found myself thinking those very thoughts, and every time I have also found that His mercy and compassion still continue to flow like a river towards me; for even my unrighteousness cannot change the unconditional love that is God.
I remember how I have come to acknowledge the truth concerning my righteousness; and how I now wholeheartedly agree with Isaiah, Paul, and Daniel concerning what the Lord showed unto each one of them about their own righteousness. I agree with Isaiah when he said, in Isaiah 64:4 “We are all as an unclean thing, and all of our righteousness are as filthy rags (menstruous cloths).” Obviously those who judge and accuse others are blind to see how their righteousness is as a menstruous cloth, seeing that they are only attempting to exalt themselves as they judge and measure the deeds of others against their own righteousness. The Lord even asked Job in Job 40:8 “…Will you condemn Me so that you can be righteous?” Though the blind have read these words, they are not able to see the grossness in the wounds, or in the injuries, or the fears, or in the hurts that the sword of their tongue brings into the hearts of those whom they judge, find fault, and measure themselves against. Those who live by the sword shall die by the sword when they are judged by the sword of their own words.
I also remembered how the Lord, in His correction, opened my eyes to see exactly what is written in Isaiah 57:12 “I will show you your righteousness and your works, that they shall not profit you.” What profit is there in that which deceives you, condemns you, and separates you from the life of God? What good is it? Paul summed it up when he compared his own righteousness to nothing more than a pile of dung, for its shame, for its unprofitableness, and for its foolishness. But who is able to see the shame, or the unprofitableness, or the foolish- ness in that which is believed on and trusted in to be right except God Himself opens his eyes to see it? Who will hunger and thirst to receive the righteousness of God except those who have come to know the truth about their own righteousness? Who trusts the Lord enough to believe the words of the Lord, that though there be no righteousness in us, He accounts our belief and our faith to be all of the righteousness that we need, just as Abraham did? Who believes that the Lord loves them so unconditionally that His blood, His grace, and His mercy are well able to cover and to cleanse us from all of our unrighteousness? What man is able to repent of those things which are filthy and unclean if he is only able to see them as being right in his own eyes?
Though I have come to agree with those things which Paul and Isaiah have testified about their own righteousness, still the larger part of the Lord’s correction of me has focused more around Daniel 9:7, “Lord, righteousness belongs unto you, and unto us confusion of face.” Confusion: instability; trouble; a mixing together. It is the lust of the carnal mind to be right in all it decisions and judgments; yet, the price that must be paid to obtain this righteousness is confusion; always wrestling with the multitudes of counsels, opinions, and imaginations that appear, all screaming out, “Pick me, pick me, pick me! I am the instruction that you should pick to be right! Pick me!”. And surely this confusion always seems to be accompanied with that wild pack of lies that always bring with them some manner of stress, or anxiety, or worry, or fear, or dread to trouble while you try to make your decision. The more important the decision is that we are confronted with, the greater the confusion and the evil imaginations that also come forth to trouble and torment us in our thinking.
The word of the Lord says in Joel 3:14 “Multitudes, multitudes (of imaginations) in the valley of decision: for the day of the Lord is near in the valley of decision.” Who can count the number of times he has lain awake most of the night because the confusion in his mind will not let him rest? Troubling imaginations that come like relentless waves, one after another, beat against you to confuse and trouble your mind. Is this not the warfare (II Cor.10:3-5) that all who hold to the instruction of God’s words must fight against just to hold on to the instruction of God’s words? Who strives against God except those who have chosen one of their own imaginations to be a more righteous counsel for them to follow than the truth of God’s word? Even though they at first seem to have some manner of peace from the confusion that troubles them, fear, or confusion, or worry, or pride, or stress, or doubt, or anxiety will surely come again to trouble them in the decision that we all face daily. Can any decision that comes forth from confusion be considered right instruction from a sound mind? Thanks be to God who has quieted the winds of my confusion and calmed the waves of my unrest as I have chosen to believe that only the instruction of His words are that counsel which I ought to believe to be right.
As I began to meditate on all of my iniquities—on all the self-righteous works that the Lord has purged me of, again popped on my computer screen: “Choose either Box A or Box B.” Box A said, “Keep and hold on to this file.”
Box B said, “That which is in this file is that which Jesus Christ died for on the cross so that you might not have to live unto it. *Lord, I choose You to delete all of my vain imaginations from my thinking; I choose to believe Your words.”
Under Box A was Romans 1:18 “For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men.” along with that which is written in I John 5:17 “All unrighteousness is sin.”
Under Box B was Psalm 23:1-4 “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not lack. He makes me to lie down in green pastures: he leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul: he leads me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for you are with me; your rod and your staff comfort me”. I could not press Box B fast enough, and I prayed, “Lord your righteousness brings abundant life and oneness with you; Lord, would you delete all of my righteousness from my memory?”
Again, as soon as I pressed that button, another file appeared on my computer screen which was entitled, “My fears.” I do not know of any file that could have appeared before my eyes that could arouse as much joy and delight as this one did; for I have seen that there has been no stronghold that has kept me in great bondage as fear. Fears here and fears there, multitudes of fears, a legion of fears, fears coming forth in many different forms: the fear of men, the fear of what I am ignorant of, the fear of what other men think of me, the fear of heights, the fear of suffering, the fear of getting sick, the fear of making mistakes, the fear of not having enough money, the fear that my self- image may be damaged, the fear of not being in control, the fear about what is going to happen tomorrow, the fear of rejection, the fear of not having health insurance, fears for my children, the fear of failure, the fear of not being right, the fear of false accusations, the fear that the Lord will not forgive me for my sins and weaknesses, the fear that the Lord will not do for me what His Word says that He will do for me, the fear of sin and evil, the fear of being left out, the fear that the Lord will not provide for me, the fear that the Lord will not be there for me in the time of trouble, the fear of appearing as a fool, the fear of being cut off, fears that trouble, fears that torment, and fears that paralyze; fears that come disguised as worry, or as panic, or as confusion, or as anxiety, or as uncertainty, or as stress, or the paranoia that births all manner of evil suspicions. What I could not believe was how much my fears were influencing my decisions, and I was not even aware of this.
As odd as this may sound, and it sure was to me the first time the Lord told me that there is no fear that could dwell in my thoughts unless I had first believed the counsels that they brought forth. I would tell anyone to ask the Lord to open their eyes so that they could clearly see and understand Romans 8:13-15 “For if you live after the flesh, you shall die: but if you through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, you shall live. For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God. For you have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but you have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.” Who among us is able to judge that all of his fears are nothing but unclean spirits that keep men in bondage to the darkness? If your decisions are being influenced by your fears, then whose spirit are you being led by?
Jesus said that it was not possible for a
man to have two masters. How can you call one master if you are in bondage to
do what the other one counsels you to do? I used to think that pride was the
most powerful of all the strongholds of darkness, but now I believe that fear
is greater; not because of what is written in Romans 8:15, but because of that which is revealed in the story of
David and Goliath. There were many proud men in
The Lord opened my eyes to clearly see how
there is no other spirit that has the power to paralyze the heart and mind like
the spirit of fear. How can a man, whose heart is in bondage to fear, do
anything other than bow his heart before the counsels of that unclean spirit,
and do that which his fears direct him to do? If David had not come along, all
In all of my experiences I have come to believe only on the Lord. I have come to believe that the Lord God Himself who is the only power that we have to fight against Satan, against all of his demons, against the rulers of darkness, against powers, against principalities, and against the wicked spirits that dwell in the high places of our minds. He is our defense and our weapon; for Ephesians 6:10-13 says, “Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Put on the whole armor of God so that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principal-lities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armor of God so that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.” There is not one item mentioned in the armor of God that is not Jesus. Jesus is the strength and the power of God that enables us to stand in Him in the evil day; the day when fears, doubts, and unbelief come as a flood into your thinking. The battle-ground is in the imaginations of our minds, against all those thoughts that oppose and contend against the instructions and counsels of God.
II Corinthians 10: 3-5 “For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds and casting down imaginations and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.” Is it possible to have an evil thought or a wicked imagination once God has cast them out? Is not he whom the Lord has freed indeed free from all such thoughts?”
Proverbs 16:3 “Commit your work unto the Lord and your thoughts shall be established.”
Luke 22:31-32 “And the Lord said, “Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you that he may sift (separate) you as wheat, but I have prayed for you that your faith fail not: and when you are converted, strengthen your brethren.” Jesus made it clear in this passage that it was Peter’s faith that Satan was going to attack. Paul confirmed this in II Timothy 4:7 “I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith.” Who was Paul fighting against to keep his faith, seeing that it was certainly not with flesh and blood? Satan attacks our faith because it is as I Peter 1:5 says, “We are kept by the power of God through faith…” Satan has no power against anyone whose faith is in the Lord; for by their faith in His love and His power, they are protected. It is for this reason that the first object of all of Satan’s attacks is to disarm our faith in God.
Fear, pride, doubt, and unbelief are the
three most powerful weapons in Satan’s arsenal. When the weapons of his words
are believed on, our faith and belief in the Lord is then overcome by powers of
darkness. Once our faith and belief are overcome, we are separated from the
power of God’s protection. Once we are
separated, like a weak sheep of the flock, Satan, as a roaring lion is able to
devour us. When Goliath appear- ed, was it Goliath that became great and mighty
in their sight or was it their faith in God? When the storm arose was it the
seas and the winds that became great and mighty in the sight of the disciples
or was it their faith in God? When the children of
What do the counsels of fear arouse other than perceived imaginations against God? “O, I cannot see where there is any way that God can help me now! O, God will not teach me! O, God will not fight for me! O, God has forsaken me! O, God will not save me! O, God will not do this for me! O, God does not love me! O, this is impossible, even for God! O, I know that the Lord cannot forgive me now! O, God will not be there for me!”
When these fears come forth, they bring with them paranoia that seeks to change the image of the helpful, loving, faithful, and caring image of the true and faithful God into an evil image like unto the lying imaginations brought forth by Satan. Why does it seem so easy for men to bow their hearts to believe the lying counsels of these fears rather than to believe the words that God has spoken to us in truth?
Fears, doubts, and unbelief are nothing but counsels that Satan uses to get the focus of our eyes off God and onto the circumstances, the cares, and the situations that tempt us to focus on our own abilities and strengths, as though we could take control in the matter. What power would Goliath, or the storms of the sea, or the Egyptian army, or any situation or circumstance have over our thinking if there were no fears at all in the thinking of our minds—just perfect faith in the one and only faithful and true God? Would it be about as much fear as Goliath had on David?
As I sat there looking at this document, I remembered the day that I read I John 4:18, “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear: because fear has torment. He that fears is not made perfect in love.” As I was reading these words, suddenly “no fear” just seemed to jump off of the page at me. I considered these words for a moment, and then I asked, “Lord, if your love casts out all of my fears, then why do these fears, stress, worries, and anxieties still fill my thoughts?” The Lord answered me, “You still have them because you have not asked Me to deliver you from your fears. You know that it is written: “You have not because you asked not.” I will do nothing unless you believe on Me, and it is when you ask for Me to deliver you from your fears, it signifies to Me that you believe that I will do this for you. Truly, I yearn for you to receive the work of My love, but you must give Me the opportunity to show My love for you. Whatever you ask believing, it shall be done unto you.” That was all that I needed to hear before I began to confess my fears before the Lord, and I just kept right on praying, knowing that this spirit of fear is so strong, that it might be one of those spirits that Jesus was referring to when said, “This kind does not come out except by much fasting and prayer.”
I continued in prayer and it never was like a big clap of thunder or a bolt of lightning, but rather I found that when certain situations or circumstances would arise that used to stir up my fears, there was now no fear, or anxiety, or worry; only the peace of God ruling in my heart. When the Lord first started delivering me from my fears, I would be so surprised to find His peace in my thinking instead of this evil that I would say, “Lord, when did you come and deliver me from these fears?” It was incredible! I have heard so many Christians say that Jesus has made them free, yet I still see that their thoughts are still in bondage to the fears that bring forth worry and anxiety. Romans 8:15 “For you have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.” How many times have I called out, “Father, deliver me from this fear that seeks to take control over my thinking and I become its servant!”
When the Lord delivered me from those first fears that I gave to Him, my belief in His words grew mightily and my faith in His love and power greatly increased. I was so intoxicated with this freedom that the Lord had given me from my fears that all that I wanted was more of the spirit to drink. My faith grew so much that I could not wait to see some lying spirit try to creep into my thinking! I knew that the moment I called on the Lord, He would do the same to these spirits of fear as He did to Goliath and the Egyptian army. When I was an atheist, I thought that one could only experience this state of mind with drugs, and then it would only be temporary. But when Jesus sets you free, you are free indeed. I do not think that I can remember how many unclean spirits of fear that Jesus has delivered me from, but it must surely be in that same number as “legion”. To be honest, I cannot believe how many fears were dwelling in me. Truly it is just as the Lord says that it is, that fear, whether it be terror, stress, anxiety, uncertainty, panic, or worry, only brings torment to the thoughts of man.
I was still meditating on these things, on how great and mighty the Lord has shown Himself on my behalf by casting out these evil spirits when again that same message appeared on my computer screen: “Choose either box A or Box B”; Box A being that which said, “Keep and hold on to this file.”
Box B said, “That which is in this file is that which Jesus Christ died for on the cross so that you might not have to live unto it. *Lord, I choose for you to delete all fears from my thinking.”
Under Box A it said, “Fear has torment.” Written under Box B was Psalm 34:4 “I sought the Lord and heard me and he delivered me from all of my fears.” Without any hesitation, I chose Box B while praying, “Lord, there is no fear that torments that is of you; deliver me Lord from all of these fears and delete them all from the my thinking.
As soon as I said this, another file appeared on my computer, and the title of this document was “My desires and pleasures.” Of all the documents that had appeared before me, this is the one that was the freshest in my mind, seeing that the Lord had just recently revealed to me that every man’s pleasures and desires are dictated to him by the wisdom that is in him. If the wisdom of this world is in the consciousness of the “old man”, then he only find pleasure in satisfying the desires of the flesh, the desires of the eyes. The consciousness of the “old man” is pride; and the Lord told me that pride is the love and consciousness of “self”. The wisdom of this world only has a desire to please “self”; and it pleasures itself in such things that bring either self-glory, or self-help, or self-righteousness, or self-esteem, or self-reliance, or self-indulgence, or self-confidence, or self-control, or self-importance, or self-satisfaction, and of course, anything that exalts and magnifies the image that he has of himself.
He who satisfies the pleasures and desires of “self” does so without any communion or friendship with God; for those who walk after the desires and the pleasures that are of the wisdom of this world are those who are friends of this world. It is written, those who are friends of this world make themselves to be enemies with God. Simply put, those who are friends of this world make themselves to be enemies of God because they have no desire for communion with God and neither do they have any pleasure in His fellowship.
I recalled that one of the most awesome revelations that the Lord ever gave me concerned the cross that Jesus asked us all to take up and to follow after Him.. When I was a baby Christian, I thought that for one to take up his cross meant that he had to sell all that he had, and and go to some far away strange land, and preach the gospel. I progressed into thinking that for one to take up his cross meant that he was to try to overcome his own desires and pleasures by his own will-power and self control. I do not think that there is a more miserable life that can be lived than to try to do this.
I was praying one day about my oppression when the Lord spoke to me concerning my interpretation of His Word about the cross. He asked me, “Mitt, where is the life in what you are doing? The cross that I have asked you to take up does not bring forth the fruits of death, but rather the fruits of life. Where is your freedom from darkness in that which you are doing?”
I answered, “Lord, I have no freedom, only misery, trying to be something that I am not.” I realized that I had erred because I had once again leaned to my own understanding for interpretation of the scriptures.
When I asked the Lord to teach me the truth
concerning this cross that Jesus asked us to take up, the Spirit of the Lord
first led me to I Corinthians 1:18,19 “For the message of the cross is foolishness
to those who are perishing, but unto us who are being saved, it is the power of
God; for it is written, “I will destroy the wisdom of the wise and bring to
nothing the understanding of the prudent.” I, just like everyone else who
leans to his own understanding to interpret the scriptures, thought this word was talking about the cross on
It was then the Lord led me to Isaiah 29:13,14 “Wherefore the Lord says, “Foras-much as this people draw near me with their mouth, and with their lips do honor me, but they have removed their heart far from me, and their fear towards me is taught by the precept of men; therefore, behold, I will proceed to do a marvelous work among this people, even a marvelous work and a wonder: for the wisdom of their wise men shall perish, and the understanding of their prudent men shall be hid.” It is amazing how you can read the same verse over and over and it really has no meaning to you; and suddenly He opens your eyes to see the truth that was always before you but you were blind to see it.
There is no other work written from Genesis to Revelation which the Lord describes as “a marvelous work and a wonder” other than that which is written here. I, just like many other Christians, have sought for the way that would allow us to draw closer to God; the way whereby we could go deeper and deeper into our knowledge of God as well as having a deeper communion and fellowship with Him. Anyone who has tasted of “the life” that comes from his presence yearns to know Him deeper; but the question was, “How?” Well, here was the answer staring me straight in the face with these words written in Isaiah!
I now understood that the cross that Jesus asked us to take up was not about bringing us into some kind of miserable bondage like I first thought. It was about the restoration of com- munion, of friendship, of love, and fellowship with our Father in heaven. It was here that the Lord revealed to me that as the Devil is the father of all lies, the wisdom of this world is the mother from which they are all conceived and birthed forth. She is the mother of all uncleanness, all evil, all unbelief and doubts, all wickedness, all fears, all profaneness, all desires and pleasures in sin, as well as every thought that opposes and exalts itself against the counsels and instructions of God. None of us were born into this world with Satan dwelling in us, but we were all born into this world with the wisdom of this world dwelling in our carnal minds. The wisdom of this world is that which the death of the carnal mind consists of, which is the darkness that rules over the thinking of the natural mind: the mind that has no communion, or love, or fellowship with God.
I asked the Lord what it meant to take up my cross to die to this wisdom. The Lord answered me, “Every time you judge a thought or an imagination to be that which comes forth from the wisdom of this world, and you then confess it before Me, you die to that thought the moment that you declare it not to be right in the sight of God. Once you make this declaration, I will come and fight for you and cast this lying thought out of your thinking and destroy the wisdom from which it came. I the Lord have said this, and I the Lord will perform this.”
My heart was ecstatic! All that I had do was judge these thoughts, present them as my gift on the altar of the Lord. Then I would watch the power of God come and do that which is impossible for me to do—to change the desires and pleasure in my heart and the thinking in my mind. It was then that I truly came to understand why Jesus said that we must be born again; for that which is flesh is flesh and that which is spirit is spirit. When we take up our cross, we are dying to that which is flesh so that that which is of His Spirit may be made manifest in our lives. Glory be to God! Truly, I saw my earthly pleasures and desires fade away. Now all my hearts desire is to be in fellowship and communion with God; for there is so much pleasure in His presence.
The wisdom that comes from God is that which delights in the spiritual things of God; This wisdom loves to keep the commandments of God to believe on Him and love Him. This is the very nature of this precious heavenly Spirit. The wisdom of God is to be desired above all one can desire. She loves communion and fellowship with God, and only by her are the two made to be one, having the same desires and pleasures. God created man to have fellowship and communion with Him; and there is nothing natural in fallen man that has any desire or pleasure to have any such fellowship or communion with God because the flesh is contrary to the Spirit.
The flesh loves to be independent from God, so also does the spirit love communion with God. But it was for this reason that our heavenly Father gives the gifts of His Spirit so that we may delight ourselves in the Lord, and not in the love of “self”. Pride loves only “self”, while the love of God does not even think on self. I love the wisdom of God because she brings me closer and closer into that communion and fellowship that I so yearn and desire to have with my heavenly Father, through Jesus Christ.
Then appeared once again on my computer screen, “Choose either Box A or Box B”; Box A said, “Keep and hold on to this file.”
Box B said, “That which is in this file is that which Jesus Christ died for on the cross so that you might not have to live unto it. *Lord, I choose for you to delete it from my thinking.” Under Box A was written Hebrews 11:24-25 “By faith Moses, when he was come to years, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter; choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season.”
That verse was also accompanied with II Timothy 3:1 “In the last days perilous times shall come; for men shall be lovers of their own selves and lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God; from such turn away.”
The verse that was written under Box B is in Galatians 5:24 “Those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with it’s affections and desires.”
That word was followed by Psalm 37:4-6 “Delight yourself ‘in the Lord’ and he shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way unto the LORD; trust also in him and he shall bring it to pass.” I quickly reached to press button B again saying, “Lord, I have no desire to have “any” friendship with this world. Would you delete all of the wisdom in me that seeks to bring forth the worldly desires and pleasures that are contrary to You?”
I do not know how I knew, but I knew that the next file that was going to appear on my computer screen was going to be the last document that needed to be cleansed and/or deleted; and in that next instant that file popped up in front of me. It was entitled, “My life.” When I opened this document I found that it was similar to the rest of the other documents that I had already seen in that it was simply a testimony of my life starting about the time I was 18 years. I suppose that there was nothing that could really be written about my life before I was 18 because my life before then was not really my life but my life that was influenced by the rules and instructions of my parents.
After I got out of college, my first job was with a bank; and at the end of my first year of working there, I was brought in for my “year end review.” I had never heard of such a thing, but during that review, I was told that I had done the best job that anyone had ever done in that position in their first year. When I came into work the next day, I handed in my resignation; which not only surprised them, but it also surprised me. After that review, I had gone home thinking about what had been told me, and I realized that even though I had done such a good job, I had not found any joy or “life” in the duties of my job. It took that review to make me realize this, and that is why I decided to quit. I have often wondered if I had not had that review how long I would have continued working for that bank, not realizing that I had “no life” in that job.
By the time I was 28 years old, I had not only worked at that bank, but I had also worked as a salesman for Colgate-Palmolive. I had worked on Wall Street at the New York Stock Exchange; I had become a real estate broker; I had become a building contractor, in which I also personally designed the houses that I built; and I had also developed and built waterslides when they were first being built throughout United Stated. During one recession in the late 70’s, I also played poker for a living, spending most of those days playing golf, or hunting, or fishing. My life was such that some of my friends said that I was doing what they wanted to do when they retired….but I could find no life in anything that I was doing.
I was driving my wife crazy because every time I started to make some real good money at what I was doing, I would quit. I would quit at that time because the time that it took for me to make good money was also about the same amount of time for me to realize that there was no life or joy in what I was doing. I found that I was giving myself my own “year end reviews.” If I found there was no joy or life in what I was doing, then I would simply quit what I was doing and move on, thinking that the life that I desired could be found in the right “career/job.”
All during this time, I was blind to see how my entire life was being completely influenced by my atheistic belief because I could not find any life in anything that I was doing; no matter how exciting or glamorous it may have appeared to others. It is very hard to find any joy, or satisfaction, or peace, or glory in the things that you do when you are trying to make it last for all of eternity! That is exactly what this atheist was trying to do because I did not believe that there was any kind of life after death. I think that the only hope that I had at that time in my life was that somehow scientists would discover some secrets that would allow man to live for eternity. I was truly numbered among the living dead during this time in my life.
When I was 27, a man whom I considered to be my best friend at that time, came over to eat supper with my wife and I. After we were through eating, we all moved into the den to talk. Immediately, my friend and his wife began to witness to my wife and I about Jesus Christ. I had no idea that this man was a Christian. I felt betrayed, that he would dare come into my own house and speak of a subject that was so detestable to me that I would never even take the time to argue with anyone about. I hated and detested the subject of God, no matter what the religion was. “How dare this man!” I thought, but I said nothing. Then he said something that I had never heard before. He said that if any man would accept Jesus as his Savior, then God would give to that man the gift of the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit was the power of God to change a man’s life. I was at least curious about what he said because I had never heard of any such thing as a Holy Spirit, and if there was a God, then why would He even have a desire to change a man’s life? Though my friend and his wife continued to witness to my wife and I for at least another 30 minutes, I never heard another word they said. I was still thinking about this Holy Spirit and the power of God to change a man’s life. I even wondered how a guy like me could grow up and live for most of my 27 years in the south, in the so-called Bible belt, and never have heard of anything like this before. Though this word interested me, it was not anything that I felt I needed in my life at that time because there was nothing that I saw in me that I thought needed to be changed.
My, my, how fast things can change in a man’s life; for about three years later, my life had turned upside down. My dad, who was by far my best friend and support had just died, leaving a great hole and emptiness in my heart. This was followed by false accusations against me con- cerning my father’s business and his estate. Everyone whose respect I desired to have all seemed to believe the false accusations against me, including my wife and the friend who had witnessed to me about the Lord. I was crushed and it was hard for me to believe what people would say and do such things out of greed. As if this was not enough heaviness and grief in my life, I had moved back to my hometown to help with my dad’s business and estate.
I also began to wonder what I was going to do after my father’s business was sold and his estate settled. I had already pursued every career in which I thought I could find satisfaction, and enjoyment, and contentment, and I had found none. I was grieved about my father’s death. I was greatly angered and full of hatred about the false accusations against me; but I was full fear about what I was going to do with the rest of my life, seeing that I had found no happiness, or satisfaction, or contentment in any of those things that I desired to do. All of my days were filled from morning to night with either heavy grief, or fierce anger, or fear, or worst of all, hopelessness; depending on whether I was thinking about my dad, or about his estate, or about what was I going to do with the rest of my life.
Finally I woke up one morning, and I
turned to my wife and told her that I was moving back to
At that very moment, I remembered those words that my friend had spoken to me: “If any man is willing to accept Jesus as his savior, then God would give unto him the gift of His Holy Spirit, the power of God to change a man’s life”. As soon as my body reached the floor I prayed for the first time in my life saying, “Lord, if this is what this world is all about, then I do not want any part of it. I will do whatever you desire for me to do”. I hardly finished uttering these few words when the Holy Spirit fell upon me; and bam, bam, bam, bam!!!!...my life immediately took on a dramatic change.
I do not want to sound like what had
happened to me was comparable to what happened to Paul on the road to
Another reason that I was trembling and fearful was because shortly after the Holy Spirit came upon me, my life flashed before my eyes. This had happened to once before, when I was in a wreck when I was 19 years old. I was sitting in the back seat of a car that left the road traveling at 119 MPH and the driver was killed. In just the few seconds that it took for that car to go end over end about six or seven times, my life actually flashed before my eyes. It was as if everything was also in slow motion.
This time was completely different from the first time, in that when I was in that wreck, I saw nothing evil at all in my life. But this time, as I stood in my den, everything I saw that flashed before my eyes was completely evil. It made me so afraid that I was terrified to do any of those things ever again. Many years would go by when one morning while I was praying, the Lord brought that day back to my remembrance, and said, “Mitt, I was not trying to terrify you with the evil that you saw, but rather I was trying to show you all of the evil that My love was forgiving you of.” And then the Spirit of the Lord confirmed that this was the voice of the Lord that had spoken to me when He reminded me of I Peter 4:8-9 “And above all things have fervent love for one another, for love will cover a multitude of sins.”
As I stood in my den, still trembling and fearful from the presence of the Lord in me, I suddenly realized that for the first time in almost a year, all of my grief, all of my anger, and all of my hopelessness, along with the fear of death which had daily tormented me, had just disappeared altogether from my thinking. At the end of that first day, I asked the Lord what He wanted me to do. He spoke to me, “Go buy a Bible and out of it I will lead you, I will teach you, and show you all the things that I desire to do in your life.” My heart was won; for in the Lord I had finally found what I had been looking for and could never find of myself: Life!!!! There was so much comfort, security, and love in His voice. Over those first few months I spent every minute and hour that I could seeking to know just who this wonderful God is who had come to rescue me from a life of vanity and death. Seeing that I had no religious doctrine to bind me up, I just had that childlike faith that believed that whatever the Lord said He could do, He would do for me if I just asked.
I began to pray and ask the Lord to change me, and then the fun began! If all that I have to do is to believe and then wait until the Lord comes and watch Him perform that which I have believed and asked, then that is fun. When I was an atheist I could hardly speak one sentence without some manner of offensive, swearing, or profane word coming out of my mouth. Suddenly, all that was gone. Then the Lord showed just how great His power was towards me when He delivered me from smoking cigarettes. I had smoked for 18 years, an average of 2½ packs a day. Only those who have been addicted to smoking would be able to understand just what kind of power it would take to do this. I prayed day and night and waited for about a month, when suddenly one Sunday morning I awoke to the voice of God, and He was saying, “I have delivered you.” Sure enough, the Lord not only took the desire from me to smoke, but he took the thoughts out of my mind that said, “You need a cigarette”. Like any smoker, I had tried numerous times to quit on my own, and was never able; in fact, I thought it was hopeless.
I was now truly amazed at the power of God, and I now knew in my heart that there was nothing too hard for God. I began to pray again, asking for Him to deliver me from my uncontrollable temper. To say the least, it is now a joy to face every day, especially not knowing what the Lord is going to do but having the belief that He is going to do something ….suddenly! When the Lord called me 27 years ago, that was the first resurrection from the dead that the Lord raised me from—from a life where I could find no purpose or life in anything that I did. Little did I know at this time, that the early rain of his Spirit was about to come to an end.
I was having so much fun in my new relationship with the Lord that it never occurred to me that I should go to a church. I was alone when the Lord called me, and I did not see any need to go. But then after a time, I sensed that church was where the Lord wanted me to go. At first I was excited because I thought that the Lord was going to lead me to a church where others were communing and fellowshipping with the Lord as I was. I would say to this day that the biggest disappointment that I have experienced has been the condition of the churches. Yes, I have found many that desire to fellowship and commune with the Lord, but where are the ones that desire the church to be what God wants His church to be? Is it not written, “Unless the Lord builds the house the people labor in vain?” Is this word talking about some brick or wooden building? God dwells not in buildings that are built by the hands of man; and this explained to me why I was going to so many dead congregations. But I did not know this when I first started going to church.
Not only did I not find others with the same zeal for the Lord that I had, but I succumbed to the same dead doctrines that had ensnared them also. I entered into the “dark ages” of my walk, and religion became my doctrine. I got real good at submitting to the commandments of men. For example, I was told that I needed to go and preach the gospel to everyone around me, and so I did. I was told that I needed to tithe, and so I did. I was told that I needed to help the poor and needy, and so I did. I was told to go and visit those in prison, and so I did. I was told to do this, and I did this; and I was told to do that, and I did that. This went on for a few years until one day I realized that though I was doing all of these righteous works, works that I thought would draw me closer to God, the exact opposite had occurred. My heart had actually gotten farther and farther away from the one whose fellowship and communion I desired above all things.
I began to pray, acknowledging before the Lord how much I missed Him and how much I desired to be back in fellowship with Him. I also began to ask Him if I had strayed away from that strait and narrow path that leads to life because I no longer found any presence of His peace and joy in my life. I cried, “Lord, I do not know what I have done to go astray, but please have mercy on me and show me the way back!”
While I was praying one morning, the Lord spoke to me James 2:19,20 “You believe that there is one God, you do well; but do you not know that the demons also believe, and they tremble. Do you not know, O vain man, that faith without works is dead?” At first I felt insulted and greatly confused as to why the Lord would choose to speak this word to me, seeing that what I was desiring was to know the way back into the Lord’s heart. I really did not care to hear about my faith and my works. At that moment I just felt all worked out.
After a couple of weeks of praying, and battling confusion and frustration about this matter, the Lord finally spoke, “Mitt, if I am not working in your heart, then your faith is dead.” To say the least, I was stunned and shocked at this word, seeing that what the Lord had just said was completely contrary to what I thought the word in James meant. I have heard that word preached and taught many times, but not one time have I heard this word taught with the understanding that says that it is the works of God that are to accompany my faith.
It is written in Proverbs 21:16 “The man that wanders out of the way of understanding shall remain in the congregation of the dead.” Boy, was it now plain and clear for me to see that this is exactly what had happened to me. When I had applied my own understanding to James 2:19,20, I was led away from the Lord by my own interpretations. My fellowship and communion with the Lord was getting colder and colder by the day. The Lord opened my eyes to see that when I applied my understanding to His words, it left God completely out of the pic- ture because my focus was only on my own works and efforts. When the truth came, my eyes were opened to see that it is all about God. Up until I had started attending church, I was always being led by the Spirit, and the Spirit was always leading me into those wonderful places where the Lord was always working in my life. When I started to let other men tell me what to do, the works became that which Mitt had to do.
I could clearly see now that the religion of the dead belongs to the congregation who believe that their faith must be accompanied by their own works and efforts. Shortly after the Lord spoke this word in James to me, He also said, “Mitt, you can either make your doctrine to be religion or you can make your doctrine to be life; I am come into this world so that you can have life and have it abundantly. I lay before you this day a choice between life and death, the congregation of the dead or the congregation of the living. The choice is yours. Remember that which is written, ‘God is the God of the living.’” Thanks be to God, for with this word, the Lord began leading me back into the land of the living; the living where God is believed on to be Lord and where He continually shows Himself great and mighty in the works that He performs for those who are led by Hi Spirit.
As I began to walk back into the path of the land of the living, I became overwhelmed with the thought that I had departed from the path that leads to life simply by applying my own understanding to the scripture, and that by my own interpretation I had walked out of communion and fellowship with God. My own understanding had deceived me and I fell prey to the same error and foolishness that all fall to when they make light of the instruction written in Proverbs 3:5, “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.” Now I know that this is that wide and easy way that leads one straight into the congregation of the dead; the congregation whose faith is accompanied by their own works and there is no belief that God will perform any of His promises for them “now.”
I have learned that as long as men try to do the best they can through the work of their own efforts, they shall never be able to experience any fellowship or communion with their heavenly Father; and only in the presence of the Lord shall a man find that life that is greatly desired by all. I will never forget James 2:19,20 and how the Lord corrected me of misinterpretation; a correction that led to my second resurrection from the dead. One of the most wonderful and tender words that the Lord ever spoke to me was during this correction; for when the Lord was correcting me, I was very fearful because of the greatness of my error. The Lord said, “Mitt, do not be afraid, for I am really good at raising the dead.” I have never been led by a man since; only by His Spirit.
The Lord taught me at this time that if I was not looking for Him to do a work in me, then my focus was not on Him; and that I needed to have my focus completely on him. It was at this time that I began to question within myself if I even understood the true meaning of life and death, seeing that I would never have defined the congregation of the dead as those who do not understand, or that did not have God working continually in their lives. Jesus said in John 10:10 “…I have come into this world so that you may have life and have it abundantly.” I know that many Christians think that abundant life will come when they have achieved financial security; but I have already been down that road and found that it is impossible to find life out of that which has men’s images engraved upon it. Dead things cannot bring forth life. They just satisfy fleshy lusts. Jesus spoke clearly about this illusion of lies saying in Luke 12:15 “…for a man’s life consists not in the abundance of the things which he possesses”. I remembered that when I was an atheist, that is exactly the things which I thought would bring life; things like your job, or your hobbies, or your possessions, or in satisfying your pleasures and desires; but I was wrong.
I found that a man’s desires and pleasures are really nothing but a prison; a prison where every day is like déjà vu; that is, no matter how many desires and pleasures you satisfy today, tomorrow you will wake up with the same desires and pleasures that need to be satisfied all over again. There is nothing new for those who walk in the flesh. Every day is the same—always trying to find life out of satisfying the same desires and pleasures over, and over again. That which was once pleasurable becomes an addiction that must be satisfied. The only hope of those who walk in the flesh is that tomorrow is going to be a better day than today; but that tomorrow never comes. I am so thankful that the Lord has delivered me out of this thinking.
When the Lord corrected my interpretation
of James 2:19-20, I was also able to see the error of all those who remain in
the congregation of the dead. They also seek to find life through dead things;
things like their own righteousness, their own works, their own goodness, their
own glory, and their own efforts; the key word being “own/of self”.
I was still desiring to know what this life was when the Lord said, “Mitt, you do not understand what life is? You think that you experience life when you get your will, or when you satisfy your pleasure or desires, or when things go your way. But this is only an illusion; for in this manner you are able to experience life only as long as all things happen the way that you desire them to happen. Once things do not go according to your will or according to the way that you planned for them to go, then where is your life? I am life; I am what life consists of. Life is My nature. The fruits of My Spirit are the nature of My life. I am everlasting joy and peace. I am love, and there is no life without my Spirit; there is no death, only life. I am life regardless of the situations and circum- stances because My nature is life, and the situations and circumstances are powerless to change My nature. I do not change. I am love, and My love is THE LIFE.”
When the Lord finished speaking this word to me, the Spirit of the Lord quickened to me I John 3:14 “We know that we have passed from death unto life, because we love the brethren. He that loves not his brother abides in death.” I now had a definition of life that I had always desired but had never defined as life: the love of God.
The love of God has been so perverted by the hypocrites (play acting); those who pretend to love with their fake greetings and hugs, lifeless smiles, insincere feelings, and deceitful words. I do not know of anything that is more blasphemous than for a man to pretend that the love that is in him is that which is like unto the love of God. To be honest with you, it makes me want to vomit every time I see this; and one thing is for sure, those who walk pretentiously, have no comprehension of the love that is in God; a love that is not bound by length or width or depth, and that has no boundaries or limitations. I knew that I was still abiding in death because I did “not yet” have this beautiful love of God dwelling in me; and if I was going to pass from death to life again, I knew that the Lord was going to have to resurrect me again for the third time.
As I sought to understand more about “the life” that is only in Christ Jesus, the Spirit of the Lord led me to Romans 8:6 “For to be carnally minded is death but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.” It is was such a great delight to remember back to the time that the Lord led me to this word because this is when I began seeing the Lord work in my heart almost on a daily basis. There is nothing in this universe that I can be tempted with that is more desirable than those great and mighty works that my heavenly Father has performed in my heart and in my thinking. He is raising me up from the death of the carnal thoughts and brining me into the living that dwells in the spiritual mind. It was with this verse that the Lord really brought clear definition to me as to what death consisted of, which is the thoughts that rule over the thinking of all those who are carnally minded. These are such thoughts as bitterness, envy, confusion, loneliness, worry, cruelty, pride, contention, covetousness, rebellion, anxiety, hatred, greed, doubt, spitefulness, murder, arguments, self-glory, unbelief, malice, hypocrisy, impatience, strife, depression, revenge, arrogance, self-righteousness, boredom, corruption, hopeless- ness, dread, meanness, stress, disappointment, and self-condemnation. No wonder I could never find the life I desired to have as long as I was in bondage to think on such miserable thoughts.
Then the Lord asked me, “Where is the life in any one of these thoughts?” I said, “None, Lord; there is no life in any of these thoughts.” Then the Lord said, “Carnal thoughts are the death that I warned Adam and Eve of; that which would come upon them if they disobeyed My word. This is the death that rules over the thinking of all those who are carnally minded and the darkness that keeps man alienated and separated from the life that I created you to be partakers of. Now you know why I said that your thoughts are not My thoughts, seeing that not one of these miserable thoughts dwells in my thinking.” O Lord, grant unto your servant a spiritual mind!
I love the Lord! I love how He is always there for those who are seeking to know His heart. I love the Lord for how He saved me when I was dead in my sins because of my atheistic belief. I love the Lord for how He saved me out of the congregation of the dead. I love the Lord for how he has/is saving me from the death that inhabits the thinking in the carnal mind. When the Lord showed me that the death of the carnal mind consisted of thoughts, my mouth just dropped wide open. I was so amazed at how blind and ignorant I was that I could not see this before that time. I knew that my life was about to change, and that it would be in such a way that it would/or could go almost completely unobserved by those around me; for who can see the thinking that is in the thoughts of another?
I sought the Lord asking Him what I must do to free myself from this death that ruled over my thinking. The Lord first led me to I Corinthians 11:31-32 “For if we would judge ourselves, then we should not be judged; for when we are judged, we are chastened of the Lord, that we should not be condemned with the world.” I understood that I must begin to judge the thoughts within me, whether they were of God or of death. The Lord began to teach me about the cross; the cross that Jesus died on as well as the cross that we are to take up daily. We all know that Jesus died for our sins, but it is sins that we are all so ignorant of. For example, sin is the transgression of the law; but what law? Is it the law of Moses? How can that be so if we are no longer under that law? Paul said in Romans 7:21-23 “I find then a law, that when I would do good, evil is present with me. For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: but I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.” Was Paul speaking of the Law of Moses, which is engraved in stone and not a law written that is found in the members of man’s body; a law within that is able to hinder a man from doing good?
The word “law” means ruler; and with that in mind, consider Paul, a Pharisee who was highly learned and skilled in the law of Moses. Here he was now saying that he has found another law ruling within him; not a law that would have him do that which is right and good, but that which would only have him to do those things which are wrong and evil. But then Paul makes this law is a little bit clearer when he says in Romans 8:2 “For the law of the spirit of life has set me free from the law of sin and death.” The law of life and the law of death? I had never heard of such a thing. What man is able to be set free from this law of sin and death except that the law of the spirit of life comes to cast out that old ruler which men are powerless to free themselves of? Then Paul goes on to more clearly define what these laws are when he says in verses 6,7 “For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. For the carnal mind is enmity against God and it is not subject to the law of God, and indeed it cannot be.” What? The carnal mind itself is this law; the ruler that rules over the thinking of natural man!
What has more power, that which is natural for one to do or that which a man is unwilling to do? Is it easier for a man to love his enemies or to think evil of them? In the face of great trouble, is it easier for a natural man to worry about the matter before him or to be content in his trust in the Lord? Is it easier for a man to forgive those who sin against him or is it easier for him to judge and accuse them? If a man does not get his will, is it easier for him to be disappointed or to just quietly accept the circumstance as it is? Is it easier for a man to do that which is right in his own eyes or to seek and ask the Lord to reveal that which is right in His sight? If told you that you have but a couple of months to live because of an incurable disease, is it easier for you to yield to your fears or to rejoice in your heart because you know that you are soon to see your Lord? If your thinking is carnal, then that which is natural has no fellowship with the Lord; and death is your state of mind, that which alienates and separates you from your God. But if your thinking is of the Spirit of the Lord, then that which is impossible for the carnal mind to do becomes that which is easy to do because the Spirit has become the nature of your thinking; and God’s thoughts will become your thoughts.
I just about flipped out when the Lord showed me that His law is the law of life, and that any “thought” that works death is a sin because it transgresses His law of life. Not only do the thoughts of the carnal mind transgress His law, but it is also impossible for the carnal mind to subject itself to the thinking of the law of life. Is it possible for worry and peace to inhabit the same thinking? Is it possible for one to have the forgiveness of God in his thinking as well as a remembrance of those sins that were against you? Is it possible for those who are carnally minded to bless those who curse and persecute them? Is it possible for everlasting joy to inhabit the thinking as well as sadness and disappoint- ment? Is it possible for those who are carnally
minded to believe that the Lord is able to free us from our captivity to the miserable death that has ruled over our thinking?
The Lord led me to Matt 16:24-25 “Then said Jesus unto his disciples, “If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.” Who can see and understand that the cross is about dying to death, seeing that death is the only life the natural mind is familiar with? Who is able to comprehend that the Lord has provided a way for man to escape his captivity through death to the doubts, the anxieties, the fears, the uncertain- ties, the hatred, the loneliness, the envy, the unbelief, the unforgiveness, the worries, the self-condemnation, as well as any of the other dead thoughts that have ruled over the thinking of the carnal mind? But who will judge his thoughts, to dispossess and deny that which puts separation between the living and the dead; between the clean and the unclean? Who will judge his thoughts to put away the thinking that does not agree with the thinking of God; the thinking that alienates and separates him from communion and fellowship with his Creator and Maker?
I can only speak for myself, but when the Lord started to show me what death consisted of, it did not take me but a moment to realize that I was compassed with death. Again, I was also a little afraid to actually have to confess these thoughts before the Lord, but there is nothing that I have ever asked the Lord to deliver me of that He has not done it. So many times I have seen Him change the desires in my heart and the thinking in my mind. I am truly in awe of His great and mighty power. But now that I have even taken the most wicked and unclean thoughts before Him for cleansing and deliverance, I have seen His love and His mercy in much deeper depths than I could have ever imagined. His love has just melted all fear out of my heart, and there is no wickedness or vile thing that I am afraid to bring before Him now. I have witnessed many great and mighty works as He has transformed the death in my thinking into the life of the spiritual mind. I have presented before the Lord many gifts from my life; gifts such as my fears, my bitterness, my loneliness, my doubts, my troubles, my iniquities, my wisdom, my frustrations, my unbelief, my pride, my anxieties, my failures, my lies, my to- morrows, my rebellion, my judgments of others, my unwillingness, and my weaknesses; and with the exception of a couple of thorns in my flesh to remind me that I am still but a man, the Lord has not only received my gifts unto Him but has given to me the gifts of His Spirit in return. This redemption has/is been my third resurrection from the dead; the resurrection whereby I have witnessed the Lord transform my dead thoughts into living thoughts; upon which no man can put a price.
The work has been done. Jesus has died for our sins so that we may have life; and that we may have it abundantly, in the thinking of our minds and the desires of our heart. But who will believe Him? Who will desire His life enough to take up His cross and die (disagree with) to the death that rules over the thinking of the carnal mind? Jesus died so that all those who are willing to judge their thoughts may say, “Lord, you died for this sin so that I might not have to live unto it. Lord, would you come and receive my gift (my sin) and destroy it; and would you grant unto me the gift of your Spirit (which is Jesus) so that I may have abundant life in the thinking of my mind?” Who will present before the Lord the gift of his thinking so that the Lord may redeem him with the gift of His thoughts? I will, and most gladly have
The Lord is that Spirit of life, and only in Him is found “the life.” Who will deny Jesus so that they may hold on to the fears, the bitterness, the miseries, the unforgiveness, the lies, and the hatred that they have trusted in? What is so great in a man’s life that deceives him into thinking that what he has, though it be for just a moment, is greater than the eternal and abundant life that the Lord yearns to give to us? Who can believe the truth; the truth that is written in Psalm 94:11 which says, “The Lord knows the thoughts of man that they are all vanity” It was not until I asked the Lord to open my eyes to His wisdom that I saw, just like Solomon saw, that all of my thoughts and all of my works were nothing but vanity. It was after I saw this truth that, with great pleasure and delight, I took up my cross to die daily to any of those vain, rebellious, and dead carnal thoughts when they made their appearance in my thinking. Glory be to God! I was dead but now I am alive in Christ who has become the wisdom in my thinking. Who then is a man of a sound mind—he that takes up his cross to crucify death unto himself, or he that continues to choose to allow death to rule over his thinking?
When the Lord revealed to me the secrets of taking up my cross, that it was to crucify the dead thoughts that were not of God, I truly thought that I had discovered what my calling was all about. I had learned what the true meaning of life in Christ Jesus was—a spiritual mind full of life and peace. But then the Lord began to show me that there was still more to life; and he opened this door when He asked me one morning, “For what purpose were you created; and if you not walking in it, are you not still dead to the purpose for which you were created?”
It immediately came into my mind that we were all created for fellowship and communion with God, and before I could ask myself if this was that purpose that would answer that question, the Spirit of the Lord quickened unto me what Paul said in Acts 17:26-28 “And God has made of one blood all nations of men for to dwell on all the face of the earth, and has determined the times before appointed, and the bounds of their habitation; that they should seek the Lord, if haply they might feel after him, and find him, though he be not far from every one of us; for in him we live, and move, and have our being; as certain also of your own poets have said, For we are also his offspring.” What did that mean, that we should live, and move, and have our being “in him”?
As I began to seek and ask the Lord what this meant, the Spirit of the Lord quickened I Corinthians 13:1 “Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not love, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but if I have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not love, it profits me nothing. Love suffers long, and is kind; love does not envy; love does not boast nor is it puffed up. Love does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not easily provoked, and it thinks no evil. Love does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things. Love never fails; but where there are prophecies, they shall fail; where there are tongues, they shall cease; where there is knowledge, it shall vanish away. For we know in part, and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away/”
Of course, I know of no passage of scripture that Christians delight more in reading, but I also have seen that there is no passage of scripture that has been more left unfilled than this very same passage. I know that when many of us read this passage of scripture that our focus is on what the words define love to be; but with me, it was a little different. When I was a young Christian, I always marveled at how Paul said that he had the faith that enabled him to move mountains and that he also understood the mysteries, yet without this love, he saw that he was nothing. Nothing?
For years I sought the Lord to teach me His mysteries; and I also asked Him to work in my belief and to increase my faith; and all through those years, as the Lord answered my prayers, teaching me His mysteries and increasing my faith, I still did not truly believe that I could utter the words which Paul said, “…but if I have not love, I am nothing.” How could any man agree in his heart with what Paul had said unless they had somehow tasted of this love of God, the very heart beat and nature of God? Now the Lord has heard my prayers and my request, and he has taught me His mysteries, and He has increased my faith and my belief in him to where I have witnessed him moving many mountains in my heart and in my mind; but still I could not say, “I am nothing”; that is, until one night I was attending a healing service with about 50 people there.
There was a woman in that meeting who had a physical appearance that no one would desire to have. Shortly after the service began, I noticed that the healing minister who was there was focusing on someone in the congregation. As I turned to see who it was, the moment my eyes laid sight on this undesirable woman, the love of God suddenly filled my heart for her. I can only testify of what happened to me, and what happened to me I still cannot describe; for it was as if some alien form had suddenly taken me over with a love that cared for everything about this woman except for one thing, her outward appearance. Now the Lord has blessed me greatly, and He has given to me a love and a care for my wife that had far exceeded anything that I could have ever imagined. But the love and the care that came upon me for this woman greatly exceeded that love; and this was not only a woman who was very unattractive, but a woman whom I had never laid my eyes on.
First of all, one must understand that the love of God is not accompanied with any kind of fleshy desire, but rather a desire that cares. I sat in my seat for about 20 minutes while the healing minister was ministering to her; for at that time, I was submitted to his ministry. I never heard one word that was ministered to this woman nor did I ever hear any of the words that she spoke; for my heart was simply enraptured with love and care for her. For the first time I came to believe that the Lord truly does know every hair on our heads, not because He is that intelligent but because He cares that much for us. There was a care in me for this woman that was so great that if she had come to me and said that she needed a car and had asked for mine, I would have been insulted because she thought that she needed to ask for it. What was mine was hers!
The love that was in me was simply incredible, but the care that was in me for this woman was not all that accompanied the love of God; for His love was also accompanied with “life” like nothing that I have ever experienced before. Many times I have partaken of the Lord’s joy and peace when He was present with me, and I thought that was “the life”. But I was experiencing a life with this love that was so wonderful that I immediately started crying out within, “Lord, please do not take this from me.” Over and over I cried out to the Lord asking for Him to allow His love/care/life to remain with me. I found myself waiting for this healing minister to finish his ministry with this woman and then I was going over to her and allow the Spirit of the Lord that had overflowed in me to overflow to her. But the very moment that this man quit ministering to her, the spirit of the Lord’s love/care/life departed from me. I have never felt so empty in my entire life.
About three days later, the Lord gave me a vision; and in the vision I saw a banqueting table. The table was about six feet wide, and it was so long that it went completely out of sight. The table was filled with the most luscious and perfectly ripe fruits that I have ever seen. I saw every kind of fruit that I have ever seen, and then some that I have never seen. Suddenly the table was cleaned of all these fruits, and they were replaced by many different types of salads; and they all appeared to be at their most perfectly ripe state. The table was cleaned again, and it was then filled with all kinds of appetizers. This went on until a full seven course meal had been served, ending with dessert. No matter what course I observed, every morsel of food appeared to be just perfect.
Then the Lord spoke to me and said, “Mitt, the love and the life that I allowed you to taste, as well as all of the peace and joy that you have experienced since the day that I called you are as if you have only eaten one cranberry from the feast of life that is awaiting you.” If what I tasted was only a cranberry, and that cranberry was completely alien and indescribable, then truly what awaits all those who overcome is unimaginable!
The human nature is so foolish and pre- dictable, for from the moment that I did try to share the cranberry that I had experienced, everyone tried to make it fit into their own box; straining and grunting so as to make my experience to be as something that they have experienced. The most common response that I got was, “O yea, I saw, and I had compassion on her also.” But I tell you that what I experienced has nothing to do with compassion. The Lord said in I Samuel 16:7 that He does not look on men in the manner that men look; for man looks on the outward appearance while God looks on the heart. There was no reason for God to have compassion on this woman because the Lord does not look on appearances; that is man’s blindness and disease. No, no, no, no, for this love that came into my heart was nothing but care and love for this woman; a love and a care that was so great that if this woman had been able to receive it, she would never have cared anything about her own appearance, ever again.
Truly, the love/life of God is without boundaries, walls, and limitations. I thought because I had experienced abundant life when the Lord took death out of my carnal mind, and surely what I have now in the Lord can be called abundant life; but it is this life that is as a cranberry to that which is about to revealed in the bride of Christ. No wonder there is going to be weeping and gnashing of teeth for that part of the church that did not prepare themselves for the feast, but made light of it.
It was then that I finally realized how Paul could say, “I am nothing” without the love of God. Galatians 3:26 “For you are all the children of God by faith in Christ Jesus”; and Paul also said in Galatians 2:20 “I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ lives in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me”
When I had deceived myself by applying my understanding to His words, my faith also was completely corrupted seeing that it was also according to my own understanding; and by that corruption, my faith only brought forth my own works and efforts. But once the Lord corrected me of this error, my faith has been accompanied with the power of God. Sanctification, purging, glorification, communion, transformation, deliver- ance, correction, redemption, prayer, strengthen- ing, justification, cleansing, revelation, decrease and increase have become works that I now expect to see routinely as I die and Jesus is manifested in me. Yet, in all of these works, just as Paul, by faith I have surrendered my heart and my mind unto His love so that He might make me His workmanship. I may not have liked all of the things that I have seen in me, but it has always led me to see the power of God working in me, and it has never been boring. But now I see that all of these things are only the parts that are to be done away with when that which is perfect is come; and that which is coming is the perfect love/life of God.
I clearly see that until this moment, I have truly “lived” by faith, but as far as living, and moving, and having my being “in Him”, that which I experienced in those precious 20 minutes has changed everything. I now see with the eyes of my heart that without the love of God, it is impossible to live, and move, and to have our being unto Him without Him; and He is pure love/life. I realized that the only movement that I have really experienced over the past 26 years is the Lord moving in me; and my being still while I have been waiting for Him to finish the works that He has started in me. As quickly as that spirit of love/life had come upon me in that meeting, so it departed just as quickly; and I knew that I had just tasted something wonderful and exquisite. I have now been spoiled by His love and His life, and 30-fold, and 50-fold of his love is no longer able to satisfy the appetite that is now in me for all seven courses of Him.
As I sat there before my computer just meditating on this experience, I realized for the first time that I could say, in truthful agreement with what Paul said, and without any hesitation, “I AM NOTHING without the love and life of God in my heart and in my mind.”
As soon as this reality came forth in me, up popped that screen that said, “Choose either Box A or Box B.”
Box A said, “Keep and hold on to this file.”
Box B said, “That which is in this file is that which Jesus Christ died for on the cross so that you might not have to live unto the death that rules over the hearts and minds of natural man. *Lord, I choose for you to delete my life.”
Under Box A was James 4:14-15 “For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away,”
When I looked over to Box B, I saw underneath it Psalm 27:13-14 “I would have fainted unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.” I immediately pressed the button saying, “Lord, delete my life for it is nothing; there is no purpose for living without Your love and Your life in me; I choose to wait until You come in me so that I might live, and move, and have all of my being in oneness with you through your Spirit.”
When I pushed button B, I was expecting another file to appear before me, but nothing came up. Then these words appeared on the screen before me: “All of your files and documents have now been purged and cleansed of all things that are not of God.” Then the Lord spoke, “When you professed with your mouth, with agreement in your heart, saying, “I am nothing”, I then knew that you have not sought to save your life, but that you have laid down your life so that I might give unto you My life. I also knew that you have correctly judged all things that were in your heart and in your mind that were of this world; the hidden things of darkness and the counsels of your heart that came forth from the darkness. Now you are able to put a difference between the things that are of this world scene, seeing that they are the things seen which are mortal and corrupt, and the things which are unseen, the things of God which are unseen, and immortal and incorrupt. I am now giving to you the authority to judge the world that is seen, to minister My righteous judgments upon all things which are not of me!
Seeing that I have only judged myself for the past 26 years, I asked Him to show me the things which are to be judged. These are the judgments that He showed to me, which I judge day and night:
The Lord said, “Judge the governments, and ask Me to bring down all government that does not rest upon the shoulders of Jesus Christ, for it is not of God. I will bring them all down and destroy them from off the face of this earth forever and ever”.
Isaiah 9:6 “For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counselor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.” The Lord said, “Judge the laws, the doctrines, and the commandments that have come forth from men that have laid heavy burdens upon the hearts and minds of men; requiring them to do what is contrary to the nature of their heart. They are corrupt, and they are not of Me. Ask Me to bring them down and I will destroy them from off the face of this earth forever and ever.”
Luke 11:46 And Jesus said, “Woe to you also, lawyers (lawgivers)! For you load men with burdens that are hard to bear, and you yourselves do not touch the burdens with one of your fingers.”
Then the Lord said, “Judge all monetary systems, for those who have the engraved images of men on their currency are not of Me. Judge all financial institutions, for all those who have profited off the poor are not of Me. Ask Me to bring them down and I will destroy them from off the face of this earth forever and ever.”
Mark 12:14-17 “When they had come, they said unto Jesus, ‘Master, we know that you are true, and care not for no man: for you do not regard the person of men, but you teach the way of God in truth: Is it lawful to give tribute to Caesar, or not? Shall we give, or shall we not give?’ But Jesus, knowing their hypocrisy, said unto them, ‘Why do you tempt me? Bring me a penny, that I may see it.’ And they brought it. And Jesus said unto them, ‘Whose image and superscription is this?’ And they said unto him, “Caesar’s.” And Jesus answering said to them, “Render to Caesar the things that are Caesar’s, and to God the things that are God’s.”
Then the Lord said, “Judge all educational systems, for those who do not teach the truth about God are not of God. Ask Me to bring these systems down and I will destroy them from off the face of the earth forever and ever”.
II Thessalonians 1:6-8 “…it is a righteous thing with God to repay with tribulation those who trouble you, and to give you who are troubled rest with us when the Lord Jesus is revealed from heaven with His mighty angels, in flaming fire taking vengeance on those who do not know God…”
And the Lord said, “Judge all religions, for all those who do not worship Me in Spirit and in truth are not of Me. Ask of Me, and I will expose them all for the lies that they are; and I will bring them down and destroy them from off the face of this earth forever and ever.
John 4:26 “But the hour comes, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeks such to worship him. God is a Spirit; and they who worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth.”
And then the Lord said, “Judge all of the secret organizations, such as the Masons, the illuminati, the Mafia, street gangs, and the Klu Klux Klan because they come from evil and they are not of Me; Me to bring them down, and I will destroy them from off this earth forever and ever.”
Matthew 5:33-37 Jesus said, “Again, you have heard that it has been said by them of old time, “You shall not forswear yourself, but shall perform unto the Lord your oaths”; but I say unto you, “Swear not at all; neither by heaven; for it is God’s throne: nor by the earth; for it is his footstool: neither by Jerusalem; for it is the city of the great King. Neither shall you swear by your head, because you can not make one hair white or black. But let your communication be, “Yea, yea; Nay, nay”; for whatsoever is more than these comes of evil.”
Then the Lord said, “Judge the wisdom of this world, for she is the mother of all evil, all abominations, all corruption, all wickedness, all foolishness, all uncleanness, all rebellion, all death; and all works of sin and she is the stronghold of all darkness. Ask of Me, and I will bring the queen of this world down from her throne and destroy her forever and ever”.
I Corinthians 3:19 “For the wisdom of this world is foolishness with God.”
James 3:15 “This wisdom descends not from above, but is earthly, sensual, devilish.”
Then the Lord said, “Judge all demons, fallen angels, powers, principalities, wicked spirits, and the rulers that are of this world, for they are all of the darkness and they are not of Me. I will bring them down and destroy them forever”.
I CORINTHIANS 6:2-4 “Do you not know that the saints will judge the world? And if the world will be judged by you, are you unworthy to judge the smallest matters? Do you not know that we shall judge angels? How much more then the things that pertain to this life?”
Then the Lord said, “When I have judged and destroyed all of these things which are of this world, then shall My kingdom come; and it shall come to pass that which is written, “And the kingdoms of this world have become the kingdoms of our God, forever and ever”.
Revelation 11:15 “And the seventh angel sounded; and there were great voices in heaven, saying, The kingdoms of this world are become the kingdoms of our Lord, and of his Christ; and he shall reign for ever and ever.”
This dream was give to Mitt Jeffords
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