I have been doing a lot of thinking, soul searching if you will, I don't like what I am seeing. I love my family and I love my friends but I just want to get away go some where else BE some one else. I don't know what it is or why I feel this way. Hell who knows maybe I truly am like my mother and am not ment to be tied down to any one or any thing. Or maybe I am just human and need some thing to spice up my life. At night I dream, let my mind wonder, of what I could have done if I had chosen to go to Vet school instead of staying with my husband or if I had chosen to wait until I was 30 to start having my kids. Where would I have gone? What would I have done? Would my husband and I still be together? So many questions but no way to answer them. My choices in life have been made and I must move on, but the what if's keep right on playing. Life has a funny way of kicking you when your down making it hard to get out from the rut you are in. As I write this a song by Reba keeps playing in my mind "Is there Life out there?" part of it goes like this:Is there life out there? So much she hasn't done. Is there life beyond her family and her home? She's done what she should should she do what she dares? She doesn't want to leave she's just wondering is there life out there
