For all this time,You guys had bright up my life,through various studies,which i could use as in the future,Million thanks aint enough,but that's all i can say,I will pray for you,For your happiness and prosperity.I couldnt imagine,You guys are different from the high school's,I could feel,How much love that you gave to your students,In order them to succeed,In order them to accomplish.My grandmother once said,teachers are great,and priceless commodity,Now i realise why.Once again,thank you teachers.Miss Shalini,Miss Tham,Miss Sarah,Miss Marina .
Probably this is my last poem.So,i dedicate this for someone special.Maybe its u.i was forgotten in your new love's memories,All of our laughter and sadness together,i can't bear to see them erased.That someday you somehow would coming back to me,that i pray..That we will both come back to start,that i hope..i will wait for you but remember,you cannot return to me too late,Don't go any further,but come closer.....Please...You know that i can't say everything each time i saw you,cause im a coward person who can't even talk to you on the spot,i would rather sms you ,but i still know the chance to be replied is low,This may be the last words from me,so listen well,Pursuit what you wanted all this time,Get the best for yourself,Don't bother what's everyone saying bout u,im sorry i cant be as good as others or yourself,i really hope i'll get the chance someday to prove something unique within myself just for you,i dont know,i never couple before and never look to any girl just as i look at you,you might think im crazy but this is the fact,i hardly knew my own self due to this love matters,maybe you're feeling the same,that's why you dont bother to love anyone or maybe you dislike me at the first sight,i shame on myself,i had a bad result,i lost the chance towards you,my life is miserable,i even hardly to pass my BMA . How would these matters will encourage me to look at you,to see you,to talk to you,i feel so low,bad.sad and depressed.Perhaps i should leave you alone.Im just an annoying person.Finally....That you wont forget and will return,that i pray..The pain that i'll suffer if we both apart,think of that..at least.Please..
Why ?BMA Test.1.i forgot what i've learnt ( some of it ).2.i forgot to give the final answer for some specific questions.3.i couldn't bear the toughness of the question.or maybe im not good enough.4.can't think properly.Economics.1.im confused about what the question wants.eg: did they ask for graph ? or aid of graph ? language problem maybe.for me..yerh..2.i read the question wrongly.they did ask for CHARACTERISTICS of the example.yet,i only give the example.3.i had insufficient knowledge,still.4.blurring the whole hour of exam.English.1.so far so good,but not that good,2.i cant believe im confused about past and present tense.this is madness.3.im not confident with my language in sudden.4.mind blocked for 30 min.jeez,i still remember it.Accounting.1.new type of question for me.2.so little time for such thing.im too slow maybe.3.cant even check back the answer.im not a smart guy who can give a one shot hit.4.seriously,toughest question currently.ConClusion.Dear mom and dad,lecturer and friends,and Fahmi,im totally screwed this time.This is not my first time.i dont know whats happening to me lately.Everything seems to be unstable.Im seeking for something that cant be achieved from studies.I dont know what it is.And i hope i can get it someday,perhaps.I feel bad when im making friends with BIG DREAMS,EXTREME GOALS and etc,since myself,cant make any progressive.I feel bad for myself in the first place though.But what can i do now ? I should HAVE prepare more,just like Ms Esh said,there's no point for regret something in the past when you know u should have done this and that before.Like malay said,''nasi sudah menjadi bubur''.My only hope this time is on assignments and final exams.I only target for PASS since my marks on test are gone by now.In the meantime,i wish i could find the happiness that i've been looking for.Probably,i could regain my spirit to graduate with flying colours.My dad always remind me,we're not from a genius or smart family.In these case,we should always push ahead and be rational with our thinking and lifestyle so we wouldnt neglect anything which important to us.It is true we had to gain knowledge as much as we can,but not everyone are willing to do so,and in fact,some of the people who didnt went to school could achieve more than people who went.He always encourage me to seek anything that i want while he provides me with full of support.I couldnt give my parents even a simple thing,SUCCESS.I dont bother to repeat any of the subjects above.I hope that i could manage to survive in this endless of pursuing knowlegde.I guess that's all from me now.Current mood - Special Thanks to Miss Sarah,Miss Tham,Miss Marina,Miss Shalini who always provide me with information.Also i want to thanks to all my private tutor,Chen An,Thiam and Kabeer for giving me support in this whole exam's week.Love you guys.Thanks for reading.
