26 March 2009

4 years on and Mark is still someone I think about every day. I sometimes ponder on what he would be doing now or what music he would like..afterall his taste in music varied from heavy metal to..well the likes of Eamon and them annoying chavs that did 'Babycakes'. It's a strange feeling to know that someone was taken away from you in such a cruel way, too soon.

"People once believed, that when someone dies, a crow carries their soul to the land of the dead. But sometimes, something so bad happens, that a terrible sadness is carried with it and the soul can't rest. Then sometimes, just sometimes the crow could bring that soul back to put the wrong things right."-

I know that people don't really look at this site anymore. It is easy to put things to the back of your mind. But it makes me feel closer to Mark by writing here. Maybe they have the net wherever he is?  I like to imagine that whilst I am typing this, Mark is standing behind me smiling. Knowin that I still miss him.

I still think of you.

I still talk to you when no one is around.

If only you had never come back,

would we still be in the situation we found?

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I'm waiting
For the perfect time to call you back
Cos I remember saying
Don't wanna know the truth
Can't handle that

And I tried to
Just forget you
But I don't know how
If only I knew

It's written all over your face
It's such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now,
Where do we go?
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care?
Maybe I could meet you there


I'm sorry
If I slagged you down
I meant no harm
But when I heard the stories
I said things I didn't mean
Should have stayed calm

But sadly
You got angry
And it breaks my heart
You're so mad at me

It's written all over your face
It's such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now,
Where do we go?

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I seen a rainbow yesterday
But too many storms have come and gone
Leavin' a trace of not one God-given ray
Is it because my life is ten shades of gray
I pray all ten fade away
Seldom praise Him for the sunny days

 I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly


The day you slipped away
Was the day i found
It won't be the same

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me
Cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found
It won't be the same


I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found
It won't be the same


I miss you

You were  here one day
Gone the next,
You taught the people around you to be the best they can.
Thankyou for everything you gave me
and all the lovely things you said,
We all love you so much
and you going away has broke our hearts
I'll cry a tear day and night
and i will remember everything you said
You will never be to far away
and we will all meet again one day.

Dedicated to My Uncle Mark,
I miss you soo much
Love always from
Gemma & Kai

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Seeing is believing, but believing is opening your eyes and realising that nothing is forever.