Mareran's Attic

My name is Marearan Sindare' and I am a Texas equestrian and a wicca. I'm not your usual wicca in any case I'm not in this thing for the spell casting part but for the peace of mind that comes from taking responsability for the things I think and do. I'm starting this site, as a way to gather information on Wicca and to share information on things I have come across in My life. I'll share my theories and you may express yours. So Welcome and Merry Meet     I add to my site what ever information I find useful and hope you can use it too.

I'm not exactly what anyone would call normal.  But then again who is? I couldn't understand what was so wrong with me. I couldn't do as my peers did. I tried it and it made me feel so bad that I never tried it again. I couldn't understand why I couldn't act as the Christians I went to Church and School with. I got beaten up called names and not only at School but in what was supposedly "God's House." The kids made my life miserable, and their parents made me out to be "The Problem."  So there are times I will sound unsympathetic and even offensive at times. The biggest major dates for my personal year are November 12th, and December 12th. This is because of two events I don't need to go into here. ( This cannot be helped.)  I've had experiences that are not the best in any case but I have like everyone had victories and failures, pains and joys.   

I am very creative and have made jewlery, and painted watercolor paintings that to my credit I have been accused of trying to sell paint by number as my own work. I'm a mind traveler, and go where ever I will. Some of my paintings show places I have been in my astral vacations. sometimes I create through verse or story. As my fanfiction shows. Like My Dark Ranger Character, I'm a direct tactless straight line thinker, I'm no diplomat and I don't respect status everyone's the same to me. This serves me well in the equestrian part of my life. I'm a  A hunter over fences rider. and tact is not always required for this. In fact it's just the opposite. The horse I ride is a 16.2 hand red dun quarterhorse, and he has a pushy attitude but is also very loyal to his duty "protect the rider." thought he requires a lot of leg strength to ride I whole hearted  love him, exactly because he isn't easy to ride.    

The barn where I work is called Elm Ridge Stables,  I found this place at a time when I was at a low point in my life. I had not been on a horse in quite a while as I had been moved by my family back into the city. Elm Ridge became a second home. It's not the ritz, of horse facilities. it's a real place with a mixed bag of horses. Thourghbreds, arabians, draft horses, and some breeds you never heard of before have come through the barn where I work.  I have ridden some great horses! and even more bad ones who over time turned good. I love every experience I've had.            I wouldn't trade a second of it for anyone.               

It's a new year and I am hoping for a good show season after being suspended for the 2006 season on an untruth. by a member of my own tean who now has been kicked to the curb by the rest of the team after finding out that they had in 2004 sabotaged several riders. at another horse show in 2006 thinking they got away with getting me suspended for a show season. They got a fellow rider hurt because they didn't  think about the consequences about cutting the reins of another person's bridle. They opened their own barn and took their friends with them. They have become the competition even though we still train together. There is an unnatural tension. in the training arena. So The 2007 season might prove to be a very action packed one. as I have a new reason to start taking titles. And I intend to be taking ribbons and If I can If I can't I have my friends Just as they do. We won't be leaving out tack or horses unguarded. 

Suddenly I'm out, Here's how it came to be.  After the burning of my attic space a place Found out by my no good gang leader brother who found My Mom's will and saw he was written out and that a woman (My Sister) was going to inherit The house, he tried to burn the house down using my attic space to do the deed. What saved it? I went cheap  and used sand in the ceiling and walls His attack thwarted, he caused a lot of friction and problems at My Mom's house, digging into things he shouldn't stealing my magic books burning my old journals and causing the neighbors to believe MHMR, was snooping around. Making sure mom saw the worst of all magick books, one with black spells in it. I had no choice but to leave home. I went to a friend Kim Sheridan for help and we both ended up in a wonderful place! I have built a new life and home pulled a few new tricks out of the bag. and I'm doing something I never thought I'd live do, owning my own home.  A hill country ranch adjoining a state natural area! and riding my own horse! Better yet the untrustworthy relatives who have been such a pain in the ass to me are paying for it all! Kim and I partnered up and bouyght their Mortgages. To protect our homes, Kim and I live in underground houses and have created a lake, for hydro electric power, The hills themselves provided the places to build They had huge places that were perfectly suited to our needs and with plenty of Granite and 21st century technology our homes took shape.  What's really great is people see us and yet don't see us The area we live in is part of what was once a major  tourist ranch then a group of us went out treasure hunted and bought the ranch then built our homes here. each of us pain in full  over time since we were 16 for a share of the 360 acres we now live on there's a little blink and you'll miss it town we revamped for those no one is looking for. then there's the ones liker me who are growing all the food and and supplying power to light the place. I had plans for a simpler life when I was a kid, a horse ranch was just a dream then. I have my dream in many ways because other people relatives especially pissed me off so much. So here I am holding the mortgage notes for their homes! Title deeds and all in my hands Honey that's sweet. And that led me to the idea I put on the exchange page. It works For me.  take a look at this place!

THings have changed a great deal since that day in May when I had to leave my family behind certain lies have been exposed, and there are some new things that hasve been going on for some time. My family Mom and Mary are beginning to see the fault in themselves a fault which forced the one person who was protecting them from Bill's muderous plots to leave! They can't say that I'm the Problem, any more and have had to face the fact that they blamed things on me that were not my  doing. That since "84, i have been protecting them from bill and his gang. But it still doesn't change the facts that they had been planning harm against me and that I cannot now or ever come back into their lives.  They did all this themselves . There's no way however that I would risk that this setiment is a trap! They also know that I'd never be stupid enough to go back and end up in a van on my way to a nuthatch! Or in the same poor health they let me suffer in for so long.  I do pity them and in many ways a lot of what I do here At Indian springs or at under hill ranch is what I was being prepared to do.  It's what I couldn't do for them, because they wouldn't listen to me. I would suggest they'd blow it off and do nothing.  But I am where I want to be now helping not only people but critters as well. There's no place better for me even though the holidays were tough for me. I don't hate them any more I pity them living as slaves like they do. while I am free. But what can I do for them, when they wouldn't accept my help?! Right now we have placed out everyone who came to us families and all. the horses are grazing in the warm Texas sun even Skip is recovering well and will is looking forward to repaying that shooter's girl friend and her clique for his forced vacation.  The vet said he would be fine and rideable. So i guess My situation isn't half bad right now The bankstard, who tried to steal our Houston community is gone! chased off by the law. Sandy got him good and the lawyers He hired are scrambling to get themselves out of her way. So work is going there .

Magic, doesn't do everything for us sometimes you have to meet the Goddess Half Way. So What have I been doing with My time? I've been finding all the ways that people can live without the banks having their hands in my pockets. Epona Has helped me find the information I need Now I need to find a way to act on that information. I have saved two thousand dollars personally in a mutual fund that is leaking like a boat made of swiss cheese! and I'm seeking to get my money out of there before I lose the whole thing! Remembering how I got Under hill and Indian springs ranches for the community, I began to look at the Tax sales again. This time for a more personal investment. Tax sale lists come from your county tax assessors office, and are held monthly to sell off the tax liens of people who couldn't or wouldn't pay their Justly owed Property taxes! These homes are cheap and paid in full when you buy them. All you owe is the taxes every year.

 There is a waiting period called the redemption period and it varies from one state to another Texas has the shortest amount of Time six Months But you can have to wait up to several years before you can really call it yours! The two ranches and a small town cost me and my fellow runaway wicca/ pagans, over a hundred thousand dollars! But the fair market value for it all has been over a million. WE worked on the place during the six months. No one ever reclaimed it so It' was ours and each of us signed the deed and yes we all own it! Save for Indian Springs, this pl;ace is mine alone. Bought at the same auction I'm Glad to say I stayed a little longer,  bid five thousand and was the proud owner of this place I showed the photo of.  Out of My ten thousand I secretly saved and hid from my folks and siblings, I have two left in My slowly sinking mutual fund. So I'm moving this money, to make for a new start for myself and Skip This polace has changed me for the better.     

I have been dreaming about those things that I don't want to even deal with after everything that's happened. This past year has been dark and hard on my even my health and weight have been adversly affected. Now I'm having these dreams about my past and I am watching with two beings or is it just one I've never seen them I've only heard these two voices  talking about what they are seeing asking me about the incident and I have no answeres for them what so ever the past week has been like this . I have no idea what they are up to nor do I have any thing I can say in defense of those in myt past and all their malicousness that could excise them or defend them for what they did to me this week has left me empty of all the anger I've been carrying around for a good many years and maybe that's the point. But for now I'm just tired and sad. So I went to a web site for a rune reading the runes drawn were Odin, Eiwas, and Berkahnna. all of these became of intrest after my own runes showed the joy, yerra, Horse and Tir runes. Then i discovered a place I have long dreamed of was still available as if waiting for me for over twenty years!  That dream within me has reawakened If there were any pagan charities that would give grants to any who would send in even the selblence of a propper business plan I indeed  would be submitting to them to get this place. Nearly twenty years it has waited for me. And I'm very ready for it. I think Kim too would approve. But I still hasve to wonder just what the Goddess Epona thinks of this place.  

 I'm forever picking up new skills and working on mastering yet another. One of my favorite things is Gems and Minerals And how the jewery I love so much to look at is made. So I joined a Gem and Mineral club and have joined into the jewlers shop there cutting and cabbing my way to greatness. It's not easy but it's sure fun and well worth the investment of finding the gem, making everything work and  Having some beautiful jewelery But when you find too much what could beat opening up a little web shop cutting out the fees of the pay pal and Ebay middle men and dealing with those who like to try to rip me off. With a simple exchanges only policy and being Money orders Thus making it where my customers Don't have interest charges from the credit card companies. Cutting out another double dipping middle man. I think this is fun people Better yet there's By putting up sales tax included I save the consumer from the tax man's wrath. 

And if this sounds like anthony Bordain like speal I't probably because I am right now watching that show "No Reservations" on TV.

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