Poetry reflecting life's journey
Recovery of depression, reflected within inspiring and uplifting verse
Rock bottom
It was in 1997 that my life turned on it's head. I was desperately depressed, I was on the verge of losing my job, which had knock on affects of us no longer being able to afford our present house or run two cars, we had to move to a smaller place and I internalised it as being all my fault.
One day I was washing up, I pulled a vegeatable knife out of the soapy water, as I did I believed I saw blood upon the blade, I looked from the blade to my wrist, and in utter panic I saw there was blood there too. I looked back at the knife and the blood had disappeared and looking at my wrist it had there too. To say I was terrified was an understatement, I instinctively knew I could not carry on as I was as I believed I would commit sucide before long.
Someone I knew used to visit and talk to me about Jesus, and how being "saved" had changed her life for the better. I used to listen, being polite, but I truthfully thought it was rubbish. Until, that day. I rang her in absolute hysteria, asking if I could attend her church. I went with her and was still sceptical, but I felt tremondous love there, and began to read the Bible. I read about Jesus, for the first time, I knew very little, and much of what I read was new to me. I read the New Testament over and over, and it gave me great comfort. Gradually, over the years I have developed a faith, I would never have considered possible for me.
Please Lord
Hurt, pain, despair.
Agony, fear ,worry
shackles, tying down,
binding minds, capturing futures
success snared, dragging victims
into cesspit's of shame.
Guilt gnaws at innards,
boils erupt, teeth gnarled
tobacco encrusted receded gums.
shunned by all
Release us, set us free, heal us,
motivate us, challenge us,
help us, to know you, Lord, today.
