The Abomination
"I'm not a slacker; I'm a minimalist."
ABOUT ME
I'll try to tell you everything you need to know about me. Or as much as I want you to know about me, ne? Starting with the basic stats...
17. Asian (Chinese). Christian. Female. Born 9/23. Nerd.
Although it doesn't come across as much online, I'm actually a very quiet, antisocial person in real life. Unless I'm with friends. In which case... I'm still somewhat antisocial, I guess, but less quiet. By antisocial, I don't mean shy or awkward (though I could very well be both, I don't actually know). I mean that I'm not really interested in people. Neither the things they have to say nor the things they do. The majourity of people around me, online and in real life, just strike me as boring, insipid, and totally predictable. On that note, I'm absurdly quick to label others stupid. I can't deal with stupid people. I can deal with assholes, jerks, immaturity, pathological lying, and a host of other shit, but I cannot deal with stupidity. Or, for that matter, people who tend to flip out at the smallest shit. Some of my friends have a really short fuse but generally I don't like the irascible type, because my mother blows up frequently and for no reason. On my good days, we tolerate one another; at the other extreme, I hate her... but that's another story.
Point is, I can even forgive temperamental flaws if you're rational and intelligent. This is probably why I tend to sympathise with villains in movies and books, because nine out of ten, they tend to have a more logical and sensible motive for being evil than the hero has for being good. Online, it's easier. If I find someone boring, I can ignore him, avoid him, pretend I didn't see his banal comment, etc. But in real life, I'm expected to actually make casual conversation - polite conversation, at that. So instead, I remain quiet. Or lie outrageously. I lie frequently. Not so much online; moreso in real life, simply because I can get more visible reactions. I may be arrogant to a minour degree, but really, I just don't like most people. It's not that I look down on them all or anything. I'm sure each person has his own strengths and virtues, but if they're not ones that interest me, chances are, I'm not going to like them. Which doesn't mean I hate them. I don't hate people for the most part... something that others don't seem to understand. I simply prefer to reserve overwhelming enthusiasm or hatred for something/someone that actually deserves it.
Um... I sound like a psychopath, don't I? I'm not. Promise. I do like my friends, and I'd go to great lengths for them, especially the few close ones. I would say that I'd die for them, but that's not saying much, considering that I don't really mind dying. (I wouldn't go out of my way to kill myself because it's too much effort, but I wouldn't particularly be upset if I were to die, as long as it's not excessively painful or something.) Basically, I really like spending time with my friends and I like them to be happy. Outside of them, and half of my family members, I'm disinterested in society. No, I do not care about poverty-stricken people in the third world. Their condition is unfortunate, but I can't actually bring myself to care. I am not a model human being, and it's not news to me.
LIKES
- uniforms and long (trench) coats with shiny buttons
- physics
- Germanic music, language, and literature
- cats
DISLIKES
- phones (particularly when they ring)
- talking on the phone
- personal essays
- talking / writing / thinking about how I feel, why I did something, etc.
- feminists
- history
CURRENT PROJECTS
Endgame, Psychopomp, Deux ex Machina, Callow Lamb
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