This is my online journal. As you probably figured. Every time I post an entry here, I will put date and time of entry. Most of the time I listen to music when I make an entry, more then likely I will post what I'm listening to. You should be able to grasp the general idea.
As it states above, this is my first entry within, I suppose you could call it my online journal. The layout features Mitski (I believe that is how it is spelled) from Full Moon Wo Sagashite, same girl on my profile. I am currently listening to Gravity by A Perfect Circle. With Melissa being gone this long, I'm going crazy. With no one to discuss anime with, I think I might just go massacre someone. Which reminds me...I fianlly purchased (technically my father did, for my good grades) Furuba (Fruits Basket) manga number five! It was laugh-out-loud funny, as it usually is. It introduced the leader of the Yuki Sohma fanclub, quite the annoying bitch she was. All the fans were so jealous of Tohru that they came to the conclusion to "exterminate" her. But first that had to get through Hana-jima. While they were in her house, attempting to find her "weakness" we also met Hana-jima's brother. Like Hana-jima he has powers, only it is the power of curse. The cutest thing I have ever seen in anime (besides Yukina) was Kisa-san (The Tiger in the Chinese Zodiac). The little girl that Hatsuharu-san seems to be quite fond of in a sisterly way. It was quite entertaining (Even if I did want to strangle Yuki). Lately...The boredom engulfing me seems to be making a disgusting film over my eyes. Another wards, lately I have been so unentertained by everything that most things are making me sick. It was almost creepy how once Lissa left on her cruise I got sick...Just plain creepy. In school I won both the LA and the Social Studies award for this quarter. I can't say I like the teacher's choice too much. I never liked it when a single person got the award in two subjects for the same quarter. Not hate for the person or the teachers...just dislike for the whole thing. But for all I knew they deserved it. I truly won't feel I deserved either. I didn't work hard, especially Social Studies. This year has seemed quite easy and overall laid back. All I can say is that I hope this doesn't unravel my nerves for next year when I start high school (I don't wanna really...). I shall be taking leave from my first entry. The time is now 10: 22 PM. Signing off!
LISSA GOT BACK TODAY! I don't think I've ever been in a state of joy! I was speaking to poor depressed Beccah, who was so sad after being dumped by her imaginary boyfriend. As David said: "Too bad! I really liked that guy!". Today in gym I was really terrible. I COULD NOT catch David. Not if my life depended upon it. Everyone kept flying past me, making my tied back hair blow with it. I guess I was just out of the zone and dead from the excitement of the day. Even if the previous period all I had done was sit at the computer desk within the library and listen to the librarian drag on and on about a resource I could have figured out how to use in five minutes flat. I would have rather stayed in the classroom with the kids who forgot their library cards and copy down vocabulary words...I don't mind copying anyway. I find it rather entertaining. If I have to hear them explain how to properly use a mouse I will kill someone...Anyway. This entry was rather short...Signing off of Entry number two!
School...again. Science class...again. I have come to the conclusion to write in classes then post them up on this here page. I changed the layout as well if you had not noticed. It is someone from Sister Princess I am pretty sure. This way I'll write more entries because four months without writing for this is patheitic on my part. We are learning what it is like to breathe with Emphezma, just a bit odd. At last we are viewing Eddy's group, it has been an eternity since we have watched the other class groups perform. It seems like everyone copied Beccah's idea with freeze-frame situations. All well, you never never known they might have already had the idea. After all, nothing new under the sun. Though I highly doubt it. I'm sure me and the rest of the classroom wanted a camera to take a picture a Kenny with the fake tir and Brandon's glasses. We just did the activity for Emphezma, excersizing and breathing through a straw. It was hard but I could have lasted alot longer but you know, just plain did not want to excert my lungs that much this morning as I usually do. I have lovely Math next...blah. Nickel causes cancer? Creepy...just plain disturbing. I'm glad I'm allergic to it! Well, gotta run. See yeah! 8:49 AM, class almost over, Signing off...
This is most likely going to go into second period. I'll admit I was going to read The Gadget for the rest of the period, but I forgot it at home. I need to obtain the Steven King book from my locker so I can actually read during SSR. I'm content with the factor I have been writing everyday. Sometimes twice. A habit I should really get into. Cameron is skimming through his book (The Gadget, everyone has to do it for a book report.) I don't know why but I seem to always observe (or at least liste) to the things around me in class when I am bored. Such as two people turning a page at once behind me, one of them was wiggling it so it would make that vexing noise. Always makes me think of a rubber pencil of some sort. Hah! Imagine that! Trash can lids make a sound match that when they hit the ground and rotate in a disk-like fashion. Rather odd really. Today is Thursday, which means tomorrow is Friday (hehe. I am Navi, hear me roar!) Never can I wait for Fridays. Next day passes and I'm home free for two more days! I have to switch periods. Time is 9:05 AM. Signing off for a few!
Another movie in Science class. For a Monday it truely hasn't been that bad and now that I have ping pong in gym time outta fly and I really won't be doing a thing! Which reminds me...I have a gym project due this Friday...T.T Melissa already informed me that this video is on drug advertisments. Tomorrow I will most likely write in the morning for I have Science first period tomorrow. Tonight is the C. Milton open house. I have to admit I am a bit fearful. I have always been skittish around older kids. Unless of course they are anime geeks liek me and Lissa. Gotta go. 1:18 PM. Signing off!
Cigarette and alchol advertisement anaylsis once again. Going to C. Milton opened my eyes a bit to highschool life. It is a very pretty highschool, but I am still afraid of getting lost...Anyway, this was incredibly short. Signing off! 10:14 AM.
Hopefully Kenny won't get raped when he goes over this tutor's house. It seems I'm not the only one who finds it odd that Kenny is going over the the tutor's house. Josh, Kenny, and I are devolping anti-rape blueprint plans. Hehe. You can most likely guess what class I am attending right now. I bet in highschool I won't be able to get away with writing during class. After school, I'm taking the Honors English literature test with Lissa. I have to go already...again. Pray Kenny isn't molested! Signing off 9:20 AM.
Good news...No rapeing took place in the tutors household. Haha. My internet is down...well, just my explorer. I can get on Everquest (Champions of Norrath) on my playstation at least. God, poor Kenny, always something nasty in his desk. A used tissue, wrappers, and now chapstick...ACK! MY SHOE FLEW OFF! Nothing like being a newb on an internet game, I cannot talk! I would check ot the website, but you the drill. Stupid virus...That should have been plural...gah. Just a few moments ago, mother brought my gym project to me. This is the exact reason why I do not desire children. Little brats (Yes, I have officially dubbed thyself...A BRAT!) Whoo...Gotta do math homework, not to mention I hath not much to write. Damn...a lab (Josh made fun of that line). So much for math homework...*tantrum* Hyper...Whoo...Signing off at 1:17 PM.
I am so pissed off. Most likely this is going to be one of those posts where I am going to be using very colorful language. Maybe if my parents ever took one fucking chance to sit down and recall many moments in the day where they mention that bullshit that is school. Then they would have an idea what the fuck I'm goign through. School overtakes your homelife...Our Spring Vacation is three days! What the fuck is that? I swear, if I hear one more word about my grades I am gonna snap and start waving a danmed kitchen knife. They say I am no longer allowed to do homework on the phone. I should just stop working in school altogether, but of course that would last as long as their new rule. Talk about bullshit. I guess I better get my homeowrk done (see what I mean...?). I HOPE MATH GOES TO HELL AND STAYS THERE! BURN BABY, BURN! Signing off, listening to Brena by A Perfect Circle at 9:38 PM.
I haven’t posted in a while. It is the first snow of the year, which I am happy for. However at the moment I am tired and I have gotten into a very simple dispute with one of my friends so my hair has practically turned to flame from anger that I know I shouldn’t be feeling but I can’t help it. Some traits about people just set me off whether I show it or not. Therefore, I shall share these with you and let my negative…almost murderous energy flow into the keys and on the screen. Then I will feel better and I can reply to Kadence and Jessica. All will be well after that. If you want to know what I really think of life and little traits that absolutely piss me off here is a list with some explanations:
(1) Being overly analytical: When people scrutinize everything they simply end up restating the obvious and missing the entire point of the statement and/or argument. An example of this being if I were to state something fairly simple and that is very literal and then another analyzes the hell out of it trying to see insinuations or messages that are not there. I despise this…very much such. There are times where people are literal and other times where they are not. Not everything means something else. Perhaps yes means no and no means yes. For god’s sake get rid of your boredom and if you want to start interrupting something in such a deep manner look at old philosophy, adages, and poetry. I state my opinions bluntly the majority of times to others so that people can understand clearly and when you analyze the hell out of the thing it ends up simply be a jumble of messages that didn’t exist within the message in the first place. In other words, stop finding a more complex way to put words in my mouth. Analyze that…you should get a variety of wonderful messages >>;
(2) Being overly dismissive: When it comes to my opinions people who absolutely do not analyze do not irritate me as much as those who evaluate every little word. However, if you have this trait you are pretty close to being up on top of the list of annoying traits. At least when it comes to my opinions you can vaguely understand because I try to state it in an outright manner. When I do use an every-day expression or two however and you take it literally it drives me insane. I can’t imagine people like you with poetry or metaphoric pieces and the thought of people with this trait strongly I can’t even begin to envision holding a classic novel…it burns. If you are going to not think about anything then just go somewhere and make yourself useful doing assembly-line work or something repetitive so your undeveloped line can be programmed again. In short, start thinking about things and analyze them a little bit.
NOTE: If you feel that I am telling people with this trait to turn into what the first trait was (and thinking that I am very hypocritical) let me just say this; Being overly analytical is horrible and being dismissive of details is also horrific, both sound be blended together efficiently to design a better thought process on an idea, statement, or even literature work. Equality is the best quality for almost everything and when I said add more analyzing I simply meant to balance out the overly dismissive traits to create a fairly balanced evaluation process.
After relieving the main part of my frustrations I don't believe I can type in such a hating manner any more XD Therefore I shall stop listing the traits and continue it later when my temper is flared again. I just realized just how long it has been since I last posted. My apologies for the delay...not that anyone really reads anything on this site anyway. I simply want to pretend that people notice this sad and lonely little hole in the midst of a million others within the depths of cyberspace. Can you analyze that well enough I wonder or do you overly analytical types only decide to read between the lines so abusively when it is not needed? I am still trying to decide which one I would rather be...overly critical or overly dismissive...most likely analytical because dismissive seems like you are simple minded. Then again I think you are a simpleton if you can't manage to look and both the entire picture and the details so really I guess I still can't answer that question. It is like asking if you would rather be stupid or dumb. [Note: That was not literal]
It is currently 12:44 AM and I am going to leave to post I suppose on Cruel Reality. For all those who think I am one of these traits and is being really pessimistic right now I apologize because I am not always like this. And I know I have my flaws but when I am this angry I tend to save them for a later time. Sorry but my clock runs in odd ways. To be blunt I have this strange urge to say: So fuck you I'm in between. Signing off while listening to Bright Eyes by Jason Maraz but The Willing Well III-The Telling Truth by Coheed and Cambria is playing through my head and overtaking all the other songs I play.