Saturday, November 22, 2003
Well, I am rather new at this website stuff. I just started this site this very week, but I wanted to add a page where I could get my thoughts down and share them with others if they were interested.
I am almost 3 months into my journey to lose weight.... I weigh in on Saturday's at the local Weight Watchers center. I have lost every week since I joined WW back in August. I was very apprehensive to go to WI today because I just didn't feel like I was losing this week. I stayed OP all week and I even had some Flex Points left. I have been working out like crazy and hadn't been eating my APs, but this week I felt like I should change what I was doing to help boost my metabolism so I ate some of my APs. I don't know if that hindered or helped. Anyway, I got to the scale this morning and, to my relief, I lost .5 pounds. I was so happy. Not just because of the loss, but because I didn't gain. I was preparing myself all week for a gain and honestly I don't know how I would have reacted. I don't think I would have taken it very well since I've lost every week, but I will have to find a way to DEAL!!!! On the other hand I know that it will happen eventually that I will either have a week (or more) of maintanence/gain and I would like to get the first one out of the way so that I can get a handle on my emotions.
Friday, November 28, 2003
Yesterday was the big Thanksgiving holiday. It was a challenge and I feel a little guilty about all that I ate, but I made the decisions so I can't be mad at anybody but myself. I ate some of everything - turkey, dressing, mashed potatoes, corn, rolls, pumpkin pie, apple pie and I had a glass of wine. It was good while it was going down, but I don't feel very well today. I think my body isn't used to all that intake of food and it is causing it to do some funky things.
Oh well, today is another day and first thing on my list of "TO DOs" is the TURKEY BURNER workout at the gym. It's 2 hours long, but I'm not going to do the whole thing. I figure if I get an hour of APs I'll be in good shape and then tomorrow is WI. I'm pretty sure I've lost a couple of pounds this week, but we'll know for sure tomorrow.
I do have to say that I made the pumpkin pie (the recipe is on my website) and it was great. My MIL didn't even know that it was lowfat. When I told her she couldn't believe it!! I also made the mashed potatoes and I made them as 'skinny' as possible too (ff sour cream, Brummel & Brown, skim milk). My downfall was the dressing though -- it was SOOO good and I had quite a bit of it!! Thank goodness for FLEX POINTS. I used the most FPs that I've used since I started on WW and I used the bulk of them yesterday.
Wednesday, December 3, 2003
UGH!!! It's that TOM and I feel yucky!!! The scale isn't moving and I'm sure it's all water weight from being bloated, but I hate when that happens. I am also feeling a little too confident. I'm afraid that with the consistent manner in which I've been losing that I am going to get discouraged when I'm not losing every week like now. I know that as you move closer to goal the harder it gets to have the scale move. I'm trying to be realistic about this as I know I have a huge amount of weight to lose and that it will tend to come off faster now, especially since I have made such a drastic lifestyle change, but in essence I'm afraid that I may be setting myself up for failure. I guess that since I recognize this now I can look back and know what is happening, but it sure will be harder as time passes.
My next goal is to have lost 50 pounds by the end of the year (actually my first meeting after the new year) and I'm only 11.5 pounds away from meeting that goal. I think I have been realistic about setting these goals and I have had to change a couple of dates, but the end result is still what I am focused on and I will do this as long as it takes for me to be at 150 pounds.
Saturday, December 6, 2003
This week has been full of ups and downs, but I do have 2 great stories that I want to share. The first has to do with a dream I've had... I want to be able to walk into a "normal" person clothing store and pick something up off the shelf or off the rack and know that it will fit. Well, I am on my way to making that a reality. I was out on Thursday after work trying to find something for Justine that she needed for school. I went into Old Navy and while I was looking around I thought, "what the heck, let's see what size jeans they have and how far I am from fitting into them." So I walked over the womens section and saw that Old Navy sells up to a size 20. I didn't realize that they sold sizes that large, but I haven't been in a 20 in so long, I can't even say... probably college, if I'm lucky... anyway I picked up 2 different pairs of jeans in a size 20. One was their relaxed fit jean and the other was a lower waisted jean... I tried them both on and they both fit, and they weren't even that snug!!! I was going to go for the 18, but I didn't want to press my luck... we'll see what happens next time I go into the store...
The second story happened last night at Justine's 4th birthday party. I wanted to look nice because some of the kids from her preschool class were coming and I was going to meet their parents for the first time. I had these dress pants that I bought a little bit ago that I really like. They are very slimming (even to a woman my size, LOL) so I decided to wear them with a top that I've had that now I can say fits properly!!! Well, we were setting up in the party room, which is actually the karate room at the gym where Justine takes gymnastics. (Texas Tumblers - they are awesome, but that is another story!!!) Anyway, the karate room is set up kind of like a dance studio would be with a whole wall of mirrors. I was rushing around trying to get everything set up for when the kids arrived and I caught a glimpse of myself in these mirrors... This is going to sound TOTALLY VANE, but DARN, I looked GOOD!!! I was flying high the rest of the night, not to mention the party was a great success!!!
By the way... with all the complaining I did this week about it being my TOM and the scale not moving I lost another 4 pounds today at WI and I had Gary take my picture so I can update the picture page.
Saturday, December 13, 2003
This week was a really rough week in that I had the munchies so bad many days this week. I haven't been like that in quite some time, but I've just wanted to eat everything in sight many times during the week!!! I guess I kind paid for it in that at WI this morning I only lost .5. I suppose that it could have been a gain and I should be happy I had a loss, but I had been losing 4 pounds for the past 2 weeks that I kind of wanted to keep up that pace. Oh well, a loss, is a loss, is a loss.... Now I am only 7 pounds from making the 50 pound mark.
I am also struggling with a situation at my gym. I have been going to this Pilates class on Wednesday evenings for the past several weeks. I really like it and I like how I feel when I get out, but I can't help but feel like "the fat girl"... All the other women are so thin and cute and so is the instructor. Here I am struggling to do the movements. Kendra, the instructor, is really cool and she says that Pilates is a journey and that your flexibility will increase as time goes on, but that you have to keep at it. I realize this and it has gotten easier to do some of the movements since I started taking the class, but I'm having a hard time with how I feel others judge me. I'm sure this is just my insecurity coming out, however it's hard to stay motivated. This past Wednesday I actually contemplated not going to the class and just doing weights and cardio, but my DH said that I should go and I did. I felt better after I went, as usual, but it was hard getting motivated to go.
Tonight I made Christmas cookies with my daughter. This won't be too much of a challenge for me as I'm not a big cookie fan, but just in case I made a Splenda version of cut out sugar cookies and they are pretty good. Even my DH liked them. Look for the recipe on my recipe page.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Today was another WI. I lost 3.5 pounds!!! I am so excited!!!! Only 3.5 away from my 50 pound mark. I had set my goal of getting to that point as 1/3/04 and I think I can really do it since I have 2 weeks to do it!!! I really like going to my WW meetings. I always learn something new and I have gotten to know a couple of really cool people through going. They are all lifetime and, in my opinion, were thin to begin with, but are really fun people. I would never have gotten the chance to meet them had I not decided to join WW.
Yesterday at work I did have a HUGE challenge. My boss gave each of us on our team a small stocking full of chocolate and candy. One of the pieces of chocolate was a Santa that was probably about 4-5 inches tall. It was Hershey's Milk Chocolate which is one of my favorites. It was calling my name ALL day!!! I didn't give in though. I figured out the points (it was 5 points) and told myself, "You have to WI tomorrow, is it really worth it???" The answer was NO!!! I didn't eat it!!! I was so proud of myself. Before I would have plowed through that whole stocking of chocolate without even giving it a second thought!!! Quite a change from the old me.
Busy weekend full of Christmas type activities. I think I can earn AP for some of that, can't I??? : )
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
Well, today is Christmas Eve. Another busy day with lots to do to prepare for tomorrow.
Yesterday seemed to crawl by since it seemed like it was everyone's last day before the holiday. I had a lot of challenges in my eating because I was bored. I wanted to eat everything in sight. I didn't do too bad as a whole and only had to get into a few of my FPs for the day. Even though eating was a challenge yesterday I did have a couple of NSVs (non scale victories) that I have to share.
The first one has to do with this woman that I work with. She works on the same floor as me, but in a different department. I just know her because we sometimes ride in the elevator together and pass each other throughout the day, etc, but I don't really know her. I don't even really know her name, but we happened to be leaving work together and just making small talk, but then she says to me, "Can I ask you something that might seem a bit personal? Are you losing weight???" I respond, proudly, "Yes, I've lost 46.5 pounds" She then says, "Wow, you really look great. What are you doing???" Of course I told her that I was on WW and that I had joined a gym and go there 4-5 times a week. I told her that it wasn't personal at all because I wanted everyone to know and that I loved it when people noticed the change in me. She said that she could tell I seemed happier and definitely looked great. She just didn't want to seem intrusive since we really don't know each other. I understood what she meant, but I totally loved the fact that someone that I see every day noticed the loss and told me how great I looked. It's so great to have those moments.
The second NSV are some more results related to my weightloss, but don't have to do with the scale. They are my measurements. I had my measurements done at the gym when I first started back in October. They were PRETTY scary!!! : ) I knew that I had a lot of work to do, but man that was a wakeup call. Now, 2 months later I have seen some definite results..... I have lost 2% of my body fat and lowered by BMI by 4. Also, I have lost 4.5 inches on my waist, 5 inches on my abs, 5 inches on my hips, 4 inches on my thighs, and 4 inches on my upper arms. I absolutely hate my arms so this was really important to me to be able to see a change there.
All these great happenings give me the motivation to go on..... Have a very merry Christmas and I'll check back soon!!!!
Saturday, December 27, 2003
Well, if I was starving for motivation then today was where I found some more to take me further on my journey. I wasn't really needing the motivation, but I got a ton more today... Let me fill you in!!!!
It started this morning at WI. I was pretty excited to go since I was so close (3.5 pounds away) from the 50 pound mark. I thought that I might make it, but if I didn't make it I surely would be very close. So I get on the scale and she starts writing a number.... 2 - 7 - I thought the waiting would kill me... 1 ... Could that be right??? 271???? WOW!!! I nearly fell down.... That meant that I lost 4.5 this week and I made it to 51 pounds lost!!!! I was so thrilled with this result. Now that I had made that goal and I celebrated in my meeting (My regular leader was off visiting family, but everyone else was sooooo supportive) it's time to work toward my next goals. Those are to lose my 2nd 10%,62 pounds, by the end of January... and then the next goal is 75 pounds which I have set a date to do by March 6. We aren't even into January yet so I think that I can lose 24 pounds in 2 1/2 months (approximately).
The other motivating thing was that I went back to Old Navy to buy some pants as most of my pants are hanging on me and don't look very flattering. The last time that I was to Old Navy I had gotten into a 20, but I decided that I would also try an 18 today. I picked out the pants that I wanted and went into the dressing room. I tried on the 20 first and they fit comfortably, but seemed a bit big in the waist. I would've been fine with them, but decided that if the 18 fit I would get them because I would rather they be a bit snug as I don't plan on being this size for very long. I did try on the 18 and they fit!!!! They are a bit snug, but not uncomfortable. I can not remember (and I'm not exaggerating) a time when I have been in a size that didn't have a '2' at the beginning.
How's that for motivation?!?!?! I just can't wait to keep going and have these experiences more and more!!!
Thursday, January 1, 2004 - Happy New Year!!!
This is the year that I become a new person. I am definitely on my way with what I did the last 4 months of 2003, but this year is going to be great.... I just know it!!!
Yesterday was a roller coaster of a day. I decided to go get my hair cut and colored in the morning. I had been looking for a cute cut and I think I really found one. (You'll have to check out my hair cut when I update my pics!!!) Anyway, I also went for a brighter shade of red than what I usually do. It took a little bit for it to grow on me, but I really like it also.
However, while I was out doing that and at the gym my mom called and left a message that my father had been admitted into the hospital. Apparently he was having trouble breathing overnight (he has emphesyma) and wanted my mom to call 911. They went to the hospital and they said he has a touch of pneumonia. I talked to him and he sounded ok, but tired. Mom sounded tired too. I hate that I am so far away and can't help with going to the hospital and stuff as my mom doesn't drive. It really upset me, but I can't really do anything about it. I called both the hospital and my mom several times to check on whether they had heard anything new. As they say, no news is good news, but this is driving me crazy!!!
Wednesday, January 7, 2004
It has been an interesting week thus far. My father is still in the hospital, but probably will be going home tomorrow. I'm sure it has been hard on my mom and I wish so much that I was there to help her. I've called both my mom and my dad several times a day while he has been there just to let them know that I'm thinking about them. My mom said that the extra phone calls have made a big difference to them.
At my WI on Saturday I maintained. I was slightly disappointed, but not too surprised. I think I celebrated making the 50 pound milestone and New Years Eve a little too much which caused me to not have a loss. I know that maintaining is much better than gaining, especially this time of year, but I've been so used to having losses that I was disappointed. This week will be better!!!
I have been to the gym every day since Friday. I even got up at 5:45 to be at the gym when it opened on Friday and Monday. I like going in the morning. I think I am going to make it my routine on Mondays. Then last night I went to a kickboxing class after work and I earned 13 APs according to WW Etools. I only calculated it as 5, but since the online # just pops up when you enter the activity and the time I went with what they told me. Doesn't really matter anyway since I only went 1 point over my target for the day.
Trying to get back to a normal routine after the holidays. Check back soon!!!
Sunday, January 11, 2004
I told you that this week would be better at WI. I lost 3.5 pounds this week. I knew that I would get back on track and I'm sure all the APs I earned this week didn't hurt either.
Saturday seems to be my splurge day after I WI. I guess I realize that I have 6 more days during the week to "be good". My family and I went to this Health Fit Expo that is sponsored by one of the local TV stations. It was pretty cool, lots to do, and FREE!!! We walked around alot, but at a pretty casual pace so I didn't enter it into my APs. On the way home we were pretty hungry so we stopped at KFC. It was good while I was eating it, but I felt kind of sick a little while later. I guess it's my body telling me that it's not used to eating that stuff anymore.
Not much more to share today... I'll check back later in the week. Should be an interesting week since I have to go to jury duty on Thursday.
Saturday, January 17, 2004
Well, another banner day at WI. I lost another 4 pounds which brings the grand total to 58.5 pounds lost. My next goal that I set is to lose a 2nd 10% which I will have accomplished when I lose another 3.5 pounds. I set the date that I wanted to acheive that by as 1/31/04 which means I have 2 WIs to get there. I think I can do it, but today wasn't a good day towards getting there. My family and I had 2 different gatherings at church for different groups that we are part of. Needless to say they didn't order healthy food for these gatherings. One was Domino's and the other was pot luck snacks and then dinner from Chicken Express. I figure that I used about 10 flex points. That's what they are there for though, isn't it???
Not to much other stuff to say today. It was a good week. I'm a little disappointed that I didn't make it to the gym today, but I definitely will get there tomorrow. I can't go 3 days in a row without getting some good cardio in. I feel like I'm addicted to going to the gym now and I get so distracted at home that I find it difficult to work out at home.
Saturday, January 24, 2004
Today was the day that I hit my next goal of losing a 2nd 10%. I'm actually pretty surprised that I made that goal today as I had a rough week. I didn't feel like the scale was moving and I had the munchies almost all week long.
DH went to a job fair on Wednesday at a new hotel/resort that they have built near where we live. I certainly hope he gets a job there. It's really stressful with him only working part time. I hate being the primary provider for our family, but I'm not going to let that sabotage my weight loss. I will succeed at this no matter what life throws my way because eating is no way to deal with stress.
Other than DH's job situation things are really good. Justine seems to be making progress with her emotional fits and may even be able to move up to the next level at gymnastics within the next few weeks if she can keep herself under control.
Alot of this doesn't have to do directly with my weight loss, but it has to do with life which is all a part of what I'm trying to accomplish here.
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
Hello everyone.... I'm pretty excited again... I had my measurements taken at the gym on Sunday when I went and I've lost another bunch of inches. Here are the results since the last time I had them done which was December 22. Chest: -3, Waist: no change, Abs: -2, Hips: -4, Thighs: no change, Calves: -1, Arms: no change. The arms thing kind of bums me out cause they are sooooooo flabby and I just want that fat to go away. I've been trying to really work on my arms, but it just doesn't seem to be happening. Other than that aren't those results great?!?!?! So since I first joined the gym 3 months ago I have lost a total of 36 inches on my body!!! WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Isn't that great??? I know I've said this before, but I never thought that I would enjoy going to the gym and working out, but I really do. Some days it feels like a chore, but most days I enjoy going.
Nothing really else going on today, but I did want to thank all of you that check in on my website regularly. I appreciate it and I hope that you find what you are looking for while you are here. I have a couple of new recipes that I am going to try out this week and I'll post them if I like them plus my latest picture should be up in a few days as I just have to finish out my roll of film and get it developed. Hopefully by the weekend you can see my latest pic!!!
Sunday, February 8, 2004
Wow!!! I didn't realize it had been so long since I had posted a journal entry!!! I guess I've been busier than I thought I was.
I am taking a new position at my company effective tomorrow so I have 2 weeks of training. It will be different, but I think I will be successful in the move and glad I made the change. I had been doing the same job for 4 years and was ready for a change, but that is also the intimidating part as I was really good at my job and basically knew all the answers about it. I was the "go-to" person for everyone to ask questions to. Oh well, nothing ventured, nothing gained!!!
This week I thought I had done terribly as far as my eating. I wasn't as faithful in journalling as I normally am and there were some days where I forgot what I had eaten and had to "guesstimate". I also had the munchies pretty bad. All in all it wasn't too bad of a week as I lost 1.5 pounds at my WI yesterday. That is a total of 65 pounds gone forever and brings me to within 10 pounds of my next mini-goal. I would totally recommend that people who have alot of weight to loss, like me set mini goals. It has really helped me!!!
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
OMG!!! 
I had such a terrible eating day today!!! I'm pretty disappointed with myself for not having any will power. I was at work and we had a celebration today because we had such great results for 2003 and there were some big wigs in town. It included pizza and ice cream for the entire department. I didn't do too bad with the ice cream. I had a Dole Fruit N Juice bar which was only 2 points, but throughout the day (they ordered pizzas every 2 hours from 11:00am til 5:00pm) I had 6 slices of pizza!!!! Did you hear me?!?! SIX SLICES OF PIZZA!!!! What was I thinking?!?!?!?! I know it's just one day, but I shot the hell out of my FPs and I hardly ever use them anymore!!!!
Tomorrow is another day and WI isn't until Saturday. I'll be stronger tomorrow!!!
Saturday, February 14, 2004 - Happy Valentines Day!!!
After a little drought of not having an entry here for a little while I guess I am making up for it!!!
Today at WI I gained .5!!!! : ( I'm a little sad, but it was bound to happen sooner or later. I've gone 5 1/2 months being on WW without a gain so I guess I can't be too upset, plus it was actually deserved. It'd be different if I knew I was good all week and didn't cheat, but that wasn't the case this week. I ate terribly this week between steak last Sunday, pizza on Tuesday, chocolate & goodies throughout the week at work since I'm in training and onion rings last night. Based on that I'm sure you can see why I gained. I earned lots of APs to offset it all, but it wasn't quite enough... Oh well, next week is another WI and that .5 that I gained this week will be gone plus some more.
On a better note DH got a call from a place where he had submitted his resume, gosh, it must be almost 2 months ago now. They called last evening and he has to go for an assessment and interview on Tuesday. I think it may be a good omen because yesterday was a year to the day that he lost his job. Please keep him and our family in your thoughts. I appreciate it!!! 
Saturday, February 21, 2004
Well, today didn't start out very well!!! : ( DH was out doing his paper route when the phone rings at about 3:20am. You know it can't be good news when the phone rings overnight and I was right. He had a car accident. 
He's okay, physically, but the same can't be said for his car. To make a long story short I just don't know what we will do... We knew that the day was coming where we would have to replace his car because it's got over 100,000 miles on it and was on it's last legs, but I was also hoping that he would have a more stable job in order to help with the payment, but now it will all end up on my shoulders - AGAIN!!! Needless to say, I'm a little stressed out about it!!!
Oh well, I'm sure something will happen soon that will be positive!!! I certainly pray this will be the case!!!
The one good day about today was that at WI I lost the 2 pounds that I had hoped to lose, in fact I lost 2.5 pounds!!! I guess the day can be salvaged somewhat!!!
Tuesday, February 24, 2004 - Happy Mardi Gras!!!
It's 'Fat Tuesday' and I'm definitely feeling fat today!!!! 
It has been such a stressful week with everything that is going on. Not to mention all the stuff at home the new position at work isn't going as smoothly as I had hoped it would. The job itself is fine and I like it, but I don't feel like I fit in with the people. My last group of co-workers I absolutely love and still hang out with most of them. These new people just don't seem open to us 'newbies'. I suppose it will get better with time, at least I hope so!!!
The weight loss seems to be going more slowly these days too. I kind knew that it would come eventually, but I was hoping that it wouldn't. I just feel like the scale will never move out of the 250's. Persistance is going to be the key here!!
Sunday, February 29, 2004 - Happy Leap Day!!!
Well, all the stress of the past week didn't have the negative effect on my weight loss that I thought it might have. Yesterday I had WI and I lost an amazing 4.5 pounds. 
I guess I didn't really have a reason to be whining about the scale not moving... it certainly moved today!!! I had to ask the girl who weighed me if she was sure she wrote it down right. Now I'm getting really close to that 75 pound mark. Only 3.5 pounds to go. If I really stay OP all this week I think I can do it, but last night my MIL took us out to dinner and I indulged in carrot cake!!! Oh, my it is such a weakness for me... I calculated it as 16 points and dipped into my FPs a huge amount. That part doesn't bother me that much, but I'm scared of what the scale will say tomorrow morning!!! At least I have a whole week to work it off and stay OP the rest of the week.
Wednesday, March 3, 2004
It has been a rough week eating wise. TOM is right around the corner and I have wanted to eat everything in sight!!! I definitely know I won't meet the 75 pounds lost goal this week at WI. At this point I will be happy with maintaining. As of my scale at home I have about 2 pounds to lose between today and Saturday in order to do that. It's my own fault though... I've eaten all but 2 of my FPs when most weeks I barely eat 10 of them, if that. I'll have to get to the gym and workout an extra amount in the next few days, but I think I can do it. Maybe if I work out extra I'll give a boost to my metabolism and get these extra couple of pounds off.
Gary seems to think that this job that he interviewed for last week is all but his. He went yesterday for their pre employment drug screening and should hear by the end of the week if he got the job or not. I certainly hope he gets it. It would be a huge relief to me and our family.
Saturday, March 6, 2004
Ok, so here's the deal. Gary didn't get the stupid job. 
I can't figure out what happened. They seemed to eager to get all the background info and the drug test done I just don't know why things cooled off so quickly. I had a meltdown yesterday when he got the news, but today things are much clearer again. It doesn't make it any easier that there still isn't a job offer around the corner, but I redid some of our budget stuff and we do have enough coming in to cover our living expenses, but I'm tired of "just getting by". I will continue to have faith and know that whatever is to happen will happen in God's time.
I went to WI this morning and lost another 2 pounds. Basically after Gary got the news about the job I wasn't in any mood to eat so I think it was because of my not eating much yesterday that caused me to lose. At least it was a loss... Next week should be the week where I hit 75 pounds lost. Can't wait!! 
A friend of mine from work took Justine for the day to spend with her girls so Gary and I got the opportunity to spend the day as a couple. It was nice. We went to a new casino that is just across the OK border. It's not a "real" casino because it just has slot machines, but we're not big gamblers anyway. It was just nice to do something as a couple and have fun together. We haven't had the opportunity to do that in a long time and hey, we even came home up $21. Like I said we're not big gamblers so we only played $10 each. I lost all mine, but Gary won a total of $41.85.
Saturday, March 13, 2004
Well, I just got home from my WI and I'm a little disappointed. I only had to lose 1.5 to make it to the 75 pound mark. I had set today as the date to make that goal. Unfortunately I only lost 1 pound, so I missed my goal by 1/2 pound. I made adjustments to my goals accordingly and I will certainly make the 75 pound goal next week.
It was a good week despite this disappointment. I think I'm going to go out and buy some shorts because I had the chance to go through my summer clothes this week and I only have 1 pair of shorts that I could keep. Everything else was way too big, I guess that's a good problem to have.
Not too much other stuff going on, although the stress of Gary still looking for a job and his mom is having major surgery in a couple of weeks is ongoing, but I'm managing to work through it all.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004 - Happy St. Patrick's Day
I certainly hope that DH has the luck of the Irish today because he has another job interview. I know I've said it before, but something's gotta give soon or I'm gonna lose it!!!
Check out my newest recipe on my recipe page. I made these yummy 2 point muffins this morning and they were so good!!! Even my DD liked them so they must taste good to a picky eater as well...
Not too much going on today, but I have to get out and get my corned beef to make the traditional corned beef and cabbage dinner. I'm just going to make it in the crockpot all day.
I'll check in over the weekend...
Monday, March 22, 2004
Sorry I didn't make it to check in over the weekend. It sure was busy!!!! I had spring cleaning fever which kept me very busy, but not too busy to go to my WW meeting and to find out that I had met my goal!!! I DID IT!!! I've lost 75 pounds!!!! Can you believe it?!?!?!? I was pretty excited, although I just made it... I needed to lose 1/2 pound and that is all I lost, but that's still 2 sticks of butter that are no longer on my body!!! I get a free meeting next week for making this goal. Also, to celebrate I went and treated myself to a pedicure. I never had one before and it sure was a wonderful feeling. I think I may even be addicted, if that's possible!!!
Even though things are going well for me as an individual, things for me as a part of my family are not so good. Gary still hasn't been able to find a job. He really is trying, but no one seems to want to give him an opportunity which is so frustrating to me. 
I just wish someone could see the potential in him and give him a chance. He has 2 interviews tomorrow so we'll see what happens. He was supposed to hear something today from the place he interviewed with on Wednesday and no call, which means no offer. I just want this phase of my life to be over. Life is so cyclical and I'm ready to be out of this cycle... I know that it would just create new and different problems, but I'm prepared for that!!!
Sunday, March 28, 2004
Well, I had WI yesterday and I lost another 4 pounds!!!! I was so excited!!! I've kind of started to see a pattern develop where I'll have a couple of weeks where the scale hardly moves and then I'll have a week where I have a big loss. I'm okay with that pattern though... I just have to remember that the scale may not always do what I want it to do, but as long as it goes down we are just fine.
My website is getting a lot more hits recently. Thank you to all of you who have taken the time to check in on my progress. I've also received several emails from people who have looked at the website and they have said that I am an inspiration. That is very humbling for me. I don't consider myself an inspiration because I am doing this for myself and my family. However, if others can get something out of what I have posted here in my little piece of cyberspace that is incredibly wonderful. Thanks to all of you because you make this journey worth every step.
I also added a page to the website yesterday. It is my measurements page. It shows the measurements that I have had taken at my gym since the end of October. I've lost a total of 37.5 inches... also very incredible to me!!!
Saturday, April 3, 2004
WOW!!! Just got home from my weekly WI and I lost another pound. That makes a total of 80 pounds gone forever. When I think of where I was 6 months ago I can hardly believe it, but I am so proud of myself!!!
We have another busy weekend planned with lots of stuff that needs to get done. With all the weight that I have lost I've noticed that we do alot more on weekends and other days because I have more energy. The bad part is that I always feel like I am running around and never have an opportunity to sit down and relax. I guess it's not such a bad problem to have though!!!
I also updated my measurements page with my most recent measurements that I had taken at the gym yesterday. Such an amazing change, basically I have lost 3 1/2 FEET of me!!! PHEW!!!!! I wonder how I carried all of that extra 'stuff' with me everyday.. no wonder why I didn't have any energy.
Wednesday, April 7, 2004
Got in several APs today as we went as a family to Dallas Blooms at the Dallas Arboretum. It was beautiful and the flowers were so fragrant. Truly a nice thing to do as a family and I got alot of great pictures. Since we did all that walking around the gardens I think I'll take a day off from the gym.
Tomorrow DH and I, plus MIL are going to go to the casino in Oklahoma. It's only about an hour's drive and we went one other time. We aren't big gamblers (MIL is pretty serious about it though!!!), but the other time we went it was pretty fun. We don't spend alot and probably won't win, but it will be fun none the less.
I also have to get to WI a different day this week because DD has an Easter Egg Hunt at church on Saturday morning when I usually go to WI so I want to go either tonight or tomorrow... Friday is also a possibility.
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Sorry it's been so long since I've posted. The week of Easter was so busy and it hasn't really stopped, but I did want to post at least a little bit of an update...
Today I had WI... Lost 3.5 pounds which brings me to the half way point exactly!!! Only 83.5 pounds to go... That sounds like so much, but I know that if I've come this far there is no turning back --- I will get to the finish line because I like the new me and I like the new foods that I eat and all the better choices that I am making for me AND my family!!!
We have a picnic to go to at some friends' house this evening... I'm making a WW appetizer from the WW website called Reuben Bites. I've always liked reuben sandwiches so I'm thinking they will be pretty good. I'll be sure to post a critique -- hopefully everyone else will like them too!!!
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Hello there, quick update!!! I made those Reuben Bites for the party on Saturday night... They were really good!!! I highly recommend them. I will post the recipe on my recipe section in the next couple of days, but you can find it by doing a recipe search on WeightWatchers.com. Another WW recipe on board for my coworkers tomorrow. We are having a potluck and I found this really easy recipe for what is called "Blueberry Squares".... basically all it is an Angelfood Cake mix and a can of light blueberry pie filling... I'll also be sure to let you know how they are in my next update!!!
I've been kind of bad in earning APs the last couple of weeks. Haven't been going to the gym as much, but DD did get a trampoline for Easter and I am taking my turns on that which really gets my heartrate up.
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Hi all... kind of been in a bad way lately. Not in WW aspects, but in all other aspects of my life. DH still hasn't found a job which totally sucks. My move at my job was a good decision, but since I'm going to be seeing more money because of it I feel like it makes DH rest on his laurels even more than he was already. I also feel like we are sinking fast and furiously when it comes to finances. It's been almost 15 months that DH lost his full time job and I've done a really good job keeping our family afloat, but I'm starting to worry more and more about it. I just don't know what we are going to do if he doesn't find full time employment soon!!!
Despite all that stress I will not let it get me off track with WW. I will continue to do what I have learned is good for me and my body!!!
Saturday, May 1, 2004 - Happy May Day
Hi all... Doing better today. DH came home from his paper route on Thursday morning and said that his boss had given him some added responsibility as someone else was quitting. It's not a huge amount, but it does mean some additional money for us. That will at least help.
Had WI this morning and I lost another 1.5 pounds. That brought me to my 3rd 10% lost. 
It's hard to believe that when I first started on this journey losing 10% of my body weight seemed so far away and now I've done that 3 times over, looking forward to the 4th time.
Tomorrow we are having DD's godparents over for dinner. DH is going to be making ribs on the grill. Should be good. I'm making all side dishes including WW friendly baked beans, asparagus & tomato salad, and frozen strawberry pie for dessert. YUMMY!!! 
Wednesday, May 5, 2004 - Happy Cinco de Mayo
Hello!! I mentioned in my previous post that we were having DD's godparents over for BBQ ribs... well, we did and those ribs were so good!!! I ate way too much. It was so good though!!! I'm going to try and get to the gym 2 times today in order to get those APs and try and make up for my indulgences. I have to get back on track!!! The last 3 weeks I have had good loses, but I haven't been doing what I know works. I haven't been to the gym as much and I have been eating nearly all of my FPs. When my week starts over on Saturday I'm going to try and have a week where I don't use any FPs. It may be hard, but I think that I need to do this in order to get where I want to be. It shouldn't be bad because I never used to use many FPs anyway, only like 5-10 per week, but the past 3 weeks I've eaten between 30-35 of them.
I CAN DO THIS!!!
Also, thanks to all of you that check in periodically to check out my website/journal. I took new pictures over the weekend and hope to get them developed and on my picture page this week. Your emails also mean alot to me. Ya'll are so sweet!!! Thanks again, it means alot to me!!! 
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
I hope that all the mother's out there had a wonderful Mother's Day. I had a nice relaxing day and then we went out to eat at Outback Steakhouse. I did indulge with part of a Bloomin' Onion and I had a small piece of steak, but it was worth it. I am worth it!!!
In my previous post I had mentioned that I wanted to challenge myself to stay away from the FPs. Well, with the Bloomin' Onion on Sunday that kind of fell by the wayside, but I'm doing much better than I had been doing. I have a bunch of FPs left this week. Next week I am going to do my challenge to myself --- NO FlexPoints!!!
I have to share about 2 wonderful emails that I have received lately from 2 very dear friends from college. They are both wonderful people, not to mention beautiful and athletic. I love them both, but always felt like I didn't fit in. Needless to say I'm past those feelings of inadequacy that I used to have, but anyway..... It was wonderful to hear from both of them!!! I love you, Missy & Lorri!!! Thank for all your support!!! I wish that geography wasn't in the way of us being able to see each other more!!!
I have a couple of new recipes that I have to add to my recipe page that I think you might enjoy. Tonight I made Chicken Alfredo. It was yummy and the secret ingredient is.... TOFU!! I think it needs a little more spice to be to my liking, but not bad for a first try!!!
Still working on the pictures... I hope to take the roll to 1-hour developing tomorrow.
Saturday, May 22, 2004
Did ya'll think I dropped off the planet??? 
It's just been crazy busy around my house and at work. By the time I get home in the evening I just want to spend time with my family. I barely even log on to check my email, but I did want to at least get a quick post here tonight.
Went to WI today and I was down another 3 pounds. That makes 91.5 and I found out today that when I reach 100 pounds I get some type of celebration at the center and a certificate from International headquarters in NY. Sounds like a great time... I can't wait to get there!!! Only 8.5 pounds to go!!!!
I did get the new picture up on the picture page so if you haven't checked them out yet, please stop by!!!
I'll check in again soon!!!
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Hello friends!!! It's been a good few days... DH, DD and I went to the Fort Worth Zoo on Sunday. It was the first time we had been to the zoo in Texas. A few years ago we visited the Buffalo Zoo, but DD was so young I don't think she really remembers it. I think she had a really great time and her dad & I did too.
Today I played hooky from work for a couple of hours. I wanted to get to the gym because I hadn't been there in a few days, although walking the zoo on Sunday I earned about 7 APs. I also got my measurements done while I was at the gym today... I've lost another 4.75 inches since we last did my measurements. It had been about a month and a half, but I'm still making lots of progress. Please check out my measurements page for the updated info if you are interested.
I also saw an ad in the paper today for a walk that they are having in many different cities on September 18. It's called the Walk From Obesity. Although it's sponsored by and for the ASBS (American Society for Bariatric Surgeons) I thought I would look into it. I did look into Gastric Bypass, but decided it wasn't for me... that's not to say that it isn't a solution for some people. We'll see... maybe this is a walk I would be interested in doing.
Thursday, June 3, 2004
Today will be the last time that I'll be checking in for a while as we leave for vacation to Colorado tomorrow. I CAN'T WAIT!!!! Because of us being out of town over the next couple of weekends I went to WI today. I maintained! Seems as though whenever I go WI a couple of days early I maintain. Believe me, I'm not complaining!!! I'm a little apprehensive though because I won't WI now for over 2 weeks. Makes me a little nervous, but I know I can do this!!!
I hope ya'll stay safe!!! I'll check in when we get back!!!
Sunday, June 13, 2004
Back from Colorado vacation and all I can say is that it went by WAY too fast!!! It was such a wonderful time and although I used all my FPs for the week I did manage to find a WW meeting near where we were staying and went to WI. To my amazement I lost 1.1 pounds. I'm not used to WI with tenths of a pound, but that's ok for me!!! I went to WI on Thursday and I may have gained it all back, but back to reality tomorrow and being strict, strict, strict!!! I want to have great results when I go back to my normal WI and meeting on Saturday.
Don't have a lot to share right now as I still have a lot of unpacking and getting ready for tomorrow and the REAL WORLD, but I did want to check in...
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Just got back from WI. Gosh, I missed those people for the last couple of weeks!!! I can hardly believe this, but I lost 4.4 pounds since my last WI. Can you believe that??? I really did get back on program as soon as we got back home and back into my routine of getting to the gym regularly, but I didn't think I would lose that much!!! That makes only 2 pounds to go until 100 pounds!!!!!!!
I did have a really good week and it wasn't too hard to adjust to being back to reality!!! I would like to have a relaxing weekend, but I know that there are some things that need to get done.... Weeding out the pantry is high on the list!!! I also need to get to the gym and would like to start scrapbooking our vacation sometime tomorrow!!
Have a great weekend!!!
Sunday, June 20, 2004 - Happy Father's Day!
I just wanted to post a quick note about an addition I made to my website this morning. I changed the 'Links' page to include my personal tips for success. Again, it's just my thoughts, but may be some interesting reading for all of us, including myself when I need a wake up call.
I hope that all the fathers out there, including my dad and my DH have a wonderful day. I'm making brisket, baked beans, corn on the cob and fruit salad for a family get together. Needless to say EVERYONE is going to be on WW today because I'm cooking and that is all I cook anymore!!!
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
I had a second interview for a job promotion at the company I work for. The first interview didn't go as smoothly as I had hoped, but today went much better. It was weird though because he only asked me one question. I have been with this company for over 6 years and have had plenty of interviews for different positions within the company, but both of these interviews have been very different from anything that I have previously experienced. I have a really different feeling this time around and I'm not sure if that is good or bad.
I'm also kind of fighting the munchies!!! I sooooooooo want that scale to say 222 on Saturday when I WI (less than that would be great, but I'll settle for 222). I really want to meet this goal this weekend ---- 100 pounds!!!! WOW!!! I am so excited!!! I know it will happen, but it would be soooooooooo exciting for it to happen this week. SKINNY VIBES to me!!
Sunday, June 27, 2004
Well, the weekend is drawing to an end. It was so busy, but that didn't stop me from blowing the door off my FPs!!!!
Yesterday I had WI and I didn't make the 100 pound mark. I lost 1 pound which leaves me at 99. I hope to get there this week, but after the weekend I've had I'm not sure I'll make it. I have to be EXTRA good the rest of the week!!!
I also got to meet some wonderful WW. I met a bunch of women from the Texas thread on the WW website. AWESOME PEOPLE!!! It was so fun strolling Main St. in Grapevine, TX and getting to know these women. A gentleman was kind enough to take a picture for us so I'll post it as soon as I finish the roll. I am hoping to have my 100 pound picture finish off the roll next weekend so it may be a little bit. We had a WONDERFUL lunch at a seafood restaurant, but I think they cooked with a lot of butter/oil so I'm not sure how points friendly it was. It could have been worse if we had chosen a different restaurant though.
Then last night I went to a picnic at a co-worker's house. This was where I was the worst!!! I intended to be good. I made Pumpkin Muffins as a dessert and I even took my own veggie dogs and buns. I really was going to try to be good, but there were soooooooo many good things there... spinach dip, baked beans, potato salad and let's just say they weren't at all points friendly.
Oh well, today was a new day and I stayed OP. I went to the gym and earned 3 APs. I really have no choice to be good the rest of the week due to my FPs bank being nearly empty!!!
Sunday, July 4, 2004 - Happy 4th of July
Well, yesterday was WI and it finally all caught up to me... All the weeks where I thought I would have a gain and didn't and all the FPs that I ate last weekend... I had the dreaded GAIN!! It was only 1 pound, which I am grateful for, but in some ways I can't help, but feel like I let people down. Everyone in my meeting was asking, "Did you make it???" (of course they were talking about the 100 pound mark). Oh well, on the other hand it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be.
I know that the people in my meeting aren't 'disappointed', exactly, but I still feel like I let them down. One thing is for sure though... I am even more determined to get these 2 pounds off than I have been. I want to get to that 100 pound mark and then closer to my goal.
I hope that everyone has a safe and blessed 4th of July!! God Bless America!!!
Wednesday, July 7, 2004
Hello!!! Well, I think it may be time for me to mention the dreaded 'P' word --- PLATEAU!!! Ugg!!! I think I may be reaching one and so close to that 100 pound mark!!! The scale just doesn't seem to be moving!!! I was good, for the most part over the holiday weekend and I've gotten in APs every day since Saturday!!! Yesterday I was so good that I didn't even eat all my points... only had 2 left, but I still didn't eat them all!!! Oh well, 3 days to my official WI and I hope that the scale is good to me!!!
Saturday, July 10, 2004
I DID IT!!! I DID IT!!! I DID IT!!! I finally made 100 pounds gone forever!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I am sooooooooooo excited!!! And in 2 weeks we get to have a little party at my meeting... A breakfast party!!! It's going to be a great day!!!
Saturday, July 17, 2004
Hello friends!!! Well, today was another WI and it was a great one!!! I lost another 4 pounds. I'm really happy that I did because my fear was that I would gain and then be back to having lost less than 100 pounds, but I don't think I'll have to worry about that!!! At least I don't plan on having to worry about that!!
My leader, Elaine, reminded everyone that next week is the '100 pound party'. It should be awesome. I'm really excited for it. I'm going to figure out a way to display my pictures and I'm going to take my jeans & a shirt that I wore when I first started. I'm also thinking about bringing my DD, but I don't want to have to play mommy the whole time. I'd like to be able to enjoy the celebration. Does that sound selfish??? I'm going to take pictures next week at the party and then I will update my picture page.
I'm also going to be adding some new recipes that I have been trying to my recipe page. Please check them out!!!
Saturday, July 24, 2004
I have a lot to say today so I hope you are prepared!!! I didn't have such a great WI today, but other than that my WW meeting was so much fun!!! First I start with the bad news... I gained 1.5 pounds. There could be lots of different reasons for that which I will go into more later, but it's TOM, I've been working out 4-5 times a week again, and it's been pretty stressful at work this past week. More on the job situation later, but lets talk about the party!!! Yes, I said PARTY!!!! Today was my '100 pound party' at WW. It was so fun. My leader gave me flowers and asked me to talk a little bit. I took the pictures that are posted on my website as well as a pair of jeans and a shirt that I wore when I first joined. Everyone was so sweet and wonderful. It was a very special day!!!
I will be updating my picture page this weekend so look for those new pictures some time today or tomorrow.
As far as the job news and on the personal news front (here's where the stress comes in). On Wednesday we spent a lot of the day getting DH registered for classes at the local community college. He's decided that he wants to go back to school. I am so excited for him!!! Then on Thursday I went back to work and was just getting settled into the day when my cubemate says to me... "Have you heard the news???" I'm like, what news is that??? She proceeds to tell me that everyone on the 2nd floor is being laid off by the end of the year (about 160 people) and we only have our jobs guaranteed til the end of March, possibly longer, but probably not. So Thursday was panic mode for me and needless to say I was a little stressed out, but I'm better now... still a little stressed out, but better.
Anyway... I told you I had a lot to say... 
I'll check back in a few days!!!
Saturday, July 31, 2004
I've been a little quiet this week... Not to much going on... I hope you've had the chance to check out my new pictures... Pretty amazing, huh???
Today I had a Southern Living at Home party at my house... I had an amazing turn out, about 12 people. I was really excited!!! I also tried out some new WW recipes... One had very good reviews so I'll be sure to post it soon.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Did ya'll think I dropped off the face of the earth??? Probably so!!! It's been a crazy week or so at my house and I just haven't had the time to sit down and write an entry, but today is the day!!!
Last week I lost 1.5 pounds at WI. I have 3.5 pounds to go to meet my next goal. I am hoping that is this weekend, but that quite a bit to lose in 1 week. I've done it lots of times in the past, but I feel my losses are slowing a bit and this could be much more of a challenge. I will say though, that if it's not this week it will be next week!!!
Today I spent part of the day exploring the possibility of going back to school for court reporting. Sounds very interesting to me and I think I would really like it. It probably would be a challenge to finish the program, but I am the type of person that if I believe in something I set my mind to it and see it to the end.... The rest of the day we spent getting my DD ready for her dance lessons. We got her ballet shoes, tap shoes, leotards and tights. Money is a bit of an issue so I spent time trying to find deals on all of this stuff and I think I did ok. She looks really cute in the stuff... I'm going to be such a stage mom!!!
I'll try and check back soon!!!
Saturday, August 21, 2004
It has been a world wind here!!! I just haven't had any time to sit down and do my normal things on the computer, but this morning I am up early and everyone is still in bed so it's quiet and I have some 'Lori time'... Sorry I haven't been checking in as much, I hope ya'll will forgive me!!!
I have WI later this morning and I don't think it's going to be a good one... After having lost 3 pounds last week I hope not to have a gain, but it's TOM and I think that I probably will. Oh well, we'll see is a couple of hours. I did have some awesome NSV's since I last posted. First, I am officially wearing a size 14!!! I actually can shop in the Misses section and I don't have to go the Womans section. That is so exciting to me... I can't believe it, although I sometimes still gravitate to Woman's section... I have to get out that habit. Secondly, I had my measurements done at my gym this week and I lost a bunch of inches... 5.5 to be exact in the past 5 weeks. This is really exciting to me also because last time I didn't lose many inches at all, but I actually lost in practically ever area that they measure. WOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO!!!!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Are you shocked??? I'm actually typing an entry 2 days in a row!!! Well, I'm trying to stay on top of this a little better than I had been, but August is a busy month and with the age my DD is now she is making it even busier. The kid has a better social schedule than either her father or me!!!
So yesterday I had WI and I gained, again.... Only .5, but still a gain. I'm not really too upset with it, but I know that I have to get back to more basics of this program. Beginning today WW is rolling out a new program. I guess it's not a totally new program, just some more options. I'm a believer in WW and if they say that it works then I'm going to give it a try. I'm pretty comfortable with the Flex Points program, but I'll try anything once!!!
Today I also want to go out and possibly buy a bike. I think I may just look for a used one right now and then possibly upgrade, but I really think I would enjoy getting out there and riding a bike around the neighborhood. We'll see what happens!!!
Friday, August 27, 2004
Tonight is not a good night... For the first time since I started WW I can honestly say that I am dreading going to WI tomorrow. The scale is not moving!!! I have worked out so hard all week and have been really good with my points, but I just know that I am going to have a gain tomorrow. I should be really excited because all the new information for CORE will be given out tomorrow, but all I can think about is what the scale is going to do!!!
I did end up buying a bike this week... I love getting out there and riding it!!! I kind of feel like a kid again and I can't wait til DD gets older where we can ride together. Right now she's a bit young and her bike is so small... It is good exercise. Makes me happy!!! At least that is 1 good thing to come out of this week. Maybe I will be pleasantly surprised when I step on the scale tomorrow, but I have serious doubts. I can't and won't let it get me down though. I can do this, I've proven it, and I will continue to succeed, no matter how long it takes me.
Tomorrow will also be a big day for DD. It is her first soccer game. I can't wait and I know she is really excited. I'll try to check back over the weekend to give ya'll a report!
Thursday, September 2, 2004
Hello all.... Well, my last post was pretty much doom & gloom and I guess I had a reason. I went to WI and I had gained 2 pounds. I was pretty upset because I didn't feel like I had eaten badly and I had worked out a bunch. I did get all the information about the new CORE PLAN and I can say that since starting it on Saturday I think it is great. I was a little apprehensive about what I would be able to eat and not counting points, but it has been so easy... I'm still adjusting, but for the most part I am really excited about it.
DD didn't have her soccer game last Saturday either because we had a lot of rain. Now she doesn't have a game until next weekend because of Labor Day this weekend.
I will definitely make a point of checking in after my WI on Saturday. I am excited to hear how everyone did, including myself!!!
Saturday, September 4, 2004
Hello my friends.... W E L L, I had my WI today and..................... I LOST 5 POUNDS!!! That's right folks, 5 pounds!!! I knew I had a great week, but I didn't really expect to lose 5 pounds. It felt great!!! Not only that, but this past week was my 1 year anniversary of joining WW. What a year it has been!!!
I just know that CORE was the answer to the rut that I was finding myself in... It came just in the nick of time!!!
Friday, September 10, 2004
I went to WI early this week because DD has a soccer game early tomorrow morning and I didn't know if I'd be able to make it to a meeting. I was glad I decided to go this morning as it was a really great group. The leader was so sweet and I almost felt like a celebrity. Everyone was very supportive and wanted to hear all about my weight loss journey. Plus, I had another really great WI. I lost another 2.5 pounds, which brings my grand total to 114.5... I can hardly believe it!!!
I really love CORE... It's taught me to eat things that are nutritious and make truly good choices in my eating. I also love that I can eat until I am full. I love to eat in BULK... Now I can, but it's just different things than I would have eaten in bulk portions before WW. The only thing I'm having a hard time with is finding a cold cereal that is on CORE. I went to 2 different super markets yesterday and I couldn't find anything that was on CORE. Granted, I didn't have my food companion with me, but I had tried to remember the few cereals that are CORE. I guess I'll have to do some more seaching today as I would really like to have that additional option for breakfast.
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Gosh, it's been nearly 2 weeks since I last checked in. I'm just so busy right now and a lot of days I don't even get to log on to the computer at home!
I don't really have alot to report except that this weekend I was SUPER bad!!! The best advice I can have is to NOT BUY things that you will binge on!!! In 5 days I basically polished off a 1/2 gallon of Light ice cream. Yes, it was light, but it wasn't on CORE and I binged... I felt terrible, but I know that I will have a loss this week when I WI if it kills me!!!
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Well, I didn't have a loss last week and it didn't kill me.... I so wanted to lose, but I only gained .5 so I consider that a small sacrifice for the type of binge I was on the weekend before last. Between the ice cream that I mentioned in the previous post I also had a pancake breakfast at church, BBQ at a work picnic, pizza, cake... you name it I ate it... I'm actually surprised my gain was only .5.
I'm really trying hard to make this week different. After a year of my weight loss going fairly smoothly this last 4-6 weeks has been so difficult... I so want to get under 200 pounds by my birthday. I have to be more focused!!!
I WILL DO THIS!!! I HAVE TO DO THIS!!!!
Saturday, October 2, 2004
I finally had another loss at WI!!!! And it was a pretty big one too --- 3 pounds!!!! I have to admit that even though I love the CORE plan I've become somewhat bored with my food choices. I got a couple new recipes at WW meeting today so I'll have to try them and mix it up a bit!!!
Tomorrow we are having company and we are grilling outside... Making chicken on the grill, having a green salad and some type of potatoes... thinking about oven fried sweet potatoes... we'll see!!! Anyway... I love being able to cook things that are WW friendly and no one really knows or cares because it is good tasting food!!!
I'll post these new recipes after I've tried them out.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
WOW!!! I've been gone a long time from this journal.... I guess I haven't really had alot of motivation 
I feel like I've wasted the last month on my weight loss journey by just being lazy!!! Not necessarily lazy, like couch potato lazy because I've still been going to the gym, but lazy in how I had been following the program. I really enjoyed CORE when it was first introduced, but the last few weeks I have felt bored and not able to eat things that I want and then I have felt out of control by eating too much of the stuff that CORE allows us to eat. Either way it was a recipe for destruction!!
Needless to say I've decided to switch back to FLEX because it gives me a little more freedom to eat things I truly enjoy, but yet it gives me the boundaries that I desperately need. I hope that it works because I'm really starting to get frustrated.
I've got a lot of running around to do today so I should be able to control myself. It is so difficult when I am just at home with nothing to do and I feel the refridgerator calling my name. Even though I've been doing this for over a year I still haven't gotten past my bad habits. Just when I'm least expecting them they tend to show their ugly face.
Oh well, I MUST SUCCEED!!!!
Saturday, November 20, 2004
And I thought I had been gone a long time when I wrote the last entry... It has been a month since I wrote an entry. Life has just gotten crazy with starting a different job in the company I work with and DD doing lots of things in the fall I was just way busier than I had expected to be. I promise to try and check in more regularly!!!
As far as my weight loss... It has gotten much more difficult... Some of that has to do with me and not being as faithful to the program, but I think it also has to do with the fact that I am getting smaller and have less to lose at this point in the game. That makes me happy, but it sure is difficult to deal with the smaller losses or no losses more often.
I am determined to win this fight and I will never go back to where I was. I make that commitment to myself and to my family each and every day. It is difficult at times and I'm sure with Thanksgiving looming it won't be easy this week, but I will succeed!!!
Saturday, January 8, 2005
It is early on this Saturday morning. I could make all kinds of excuses as to why I haven't been journaling or around the WW website boards, but I am not going to. My healthy lifestyle and all those things that keep me in check were not a priority during the month of December and that has been a problem. I ate and ate and ate during the holidays and most of the time I didn't even enjoy it because of all the guilt I felt afterwards.
Today will be the first WI for me of the new year. Although my meetings were closed during the holidays I managed to go check in one time. I know that I should have gone both weeks, but I knew I would be disappointed with the results so I stayed away. This is not a good thing!!! Today I will go face the truth as I have during most of the month of December, but that is ok. I am a human being and despite only holding onto the wagon by the skin of my teeth I will overcome this setback. I look at where I could be had I not begun this journey 16 months ago and it is a scary picture!!!
I have gotten back on track this week and I just hope that maybe, just maybe, I made up for all of the bad that I had done over the holidays. Even if I didn't I will do it this week and the next week and the week after that. Not just because I want to, but because I HAVE TO!!!!
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Well, another WI yesterday and another gain. This is starting to really get me down. I have almost contemplated not going back, but I know that is not the answer. Even when times are tough I must endure. This is a lifetime journey and it is not always going to be easy.
I will stay OP all week and not cheat... I have to get back under 200 pounds!!!
Sunday, January 23, 2005
I finally did it!! I had another loss... It seems like it has been FOREVER!!!! Lost 3.5 at WI yesterday and boy did it feel good!!! I also joined E tools on the WW website again this morning. I haven't been using Etools for quite some time, but they always have free 2 weeks offer around the beginning of the year so I thought I'd try it again, at least for the 2 free weeks. I went in and put in all the weights on the weight tracker since I had last been using Etools and I am not happy... It had been since June I think since I was an Etools member and I have only lost about 20 pounds since that time. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! I really have to get on the stick again. I promise myself that I will be within 50 pounds of my goal by Valentines Day. That gives me about 3 weeks to lose 6 pounds. I know I can do this!!!!
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Yea!!!!! All the weight I gained over the holidays is gone and now I am back in ONEderland!!!! This is the week I get further from the 200 pound mark so I don't have to worry about going back over.
Busy, busy weekend that we have planned and because of it eating was not very good today... I didn't do bad as far as points go, but getting in water, fruits/veggies, milk, and healthy oils were definitely a challenge that I did not meet. It could have been worse, but tomorrow I will definitely do better and I have to get to the grocery store and do our grocery shopping so I can make some better choices.
Sunday, March 6, 2005
Well, here we are again... It's been a while since I have updated my journal page. I just haven't found very much time to log onto the computer these days. I had a bad week last week which I am blaming on TOM, but I also didn't make the best choices, but I am happy to say that after yesterday almost all the gain is gone and I'm ready to start anew..... AGAIN!!!! Isn't that what we always say??!?!?!?
Yesterday at WI I got with my meeting leader and actually set my goal weight. I, of course, set it as high as WW will let me because I would someday like to be a receptionist or even a meeting leader so my goal weight has to be within their guidelines. It's kind of scary, but it's a much more realistic number than I had ever imaged that it would be. I set it at 155 which is just 41 pounds away. 41 pounds... is that all?!?!?!? After how far I've come it seems like such a small number, but in reality I'm sure these 41 pounds will be the most difficult of all.
I, again, will try and stay better updated on my website. I have few people who have emailed me and I haven't responded to them either, but I promise to be better about that also. Thanks to all of you who keep up to date with my progress!!! That's one of the things that has kept me going --- knowing that there are people out there who are 'watching'!!!
Make it a great day!!!
Saturday, June 25, 2005
UPDATE!!!!!
I have gotten some email from some of you wondering why I hadn't updated my weigh in page recently... Well, there is good reason!!! I have had to take a 9 month hiatus from WW... yes, that's right, 9 MONTHS!!!! We are PREGNANT!!!! One of the goals when I started this journey is that my husband and I had always wanted to have a 2nd child, but at the weight I was at and how unhealthy I was it wasn't going to happen. The baby is due on 12/30/2005 and I will be on my way back to WW shortly thereafter... I'm hoping not to gain too much weight during my pregnancy although I have had a terrible craving for onion rings... Guess I should find a WW friendly recipe and make them myself... I would have liked to get closer to my goal weight or to my goal weight before we got pregnant, but God had other plans... We are absolutely thrilled.... I'll try and update my journal periodically throughout my pregnancy, but so far I feel great and am hoping for a smooth 9 months!!!
