Some days look different then others,
Other days look the same,
But today,
I feel like a,
Broken cd!

Cds may look pretty,
Have good music,
On them,
But one thing that'll,
Always be the same is,
Cds can be broken,
In half,
Tiny little pieces,
Or just have little,
Cracks!

Broken like a cd!

There are days that feel,
So much like one,
Not that it matter's,
But we are kind of,
Like one!

We can break,
In different ways!

You may not see it,
But it's there,
Just invisible,
To the naked eye!

Broken like a cd!

My worlds closin’,
In on me!
I don’t know how,
To get out of the hole,
I build around me!
It’s got me trapped,
With no where to run,
Nor hide!
All that’s left,
For me to do is,
Cry in silence,
No one will,
Save me from,
My pain!
My soul is,
Closin’ up!
It’s becomin’ dark!
But where will I hide?
Do I go into a fetal possion?
Or do I cry my eyes?
I’m trapped in this hole of darkness!
It’s got a hold on my soul..
Gloomy maybe the,
Only thing that’ll,
Keep me sane!
I’m trapped in this black,
Hole I build around me!

I forgot about,
That.
For I was to busy cryin’!
I don’t know where,
To turn,
But I’ll for sure find,
Away out!
I can see some light,
But not much,
For this is bringin’,
More tears,
As I try to find,
Away out!
I see how happy,
Everyone else is,
Well they laugh,
Play,
And tell jokes!
But why am I not,
Like that?
Why is there pain,
In my soul?
Why do I close,
Out people?
Even if I let,
Them in,
I make everything,
Seem alright,
For witch really,
Nothin’ is!
I finely have,
My way of lettin’,
My feelings and,
Thoughts be out,
For witch I can breath!
Away out!

I sit here,
Just wishin',
For this pain,
To go!
But it just wont,
Leave me alone!
I want to feel,
Happy,
But for the pain,
It brings me down!
Down so far,
That all I can,
Do is cry in,
Silence!
For now,
I may never know,
What other things,
Feel like,
For witch I have this,
Pain that'll never,
Leave me be,
For witch I want,
To be in peace!

I see an unlikely,
Image not goin’ away,
As I close my eyes tight,
It comes back in a hauntin’,
Way not ever leavin’ me be,
For I was just gettin’ rid,
All that crap that way a pound,
Me now!

I well always have this hangin’,
Over my shoulders as a reminder,
That once you want it to go,
It’ll never let you stay at peace!

For witch it was,
Just a reminder,
To stay!

I never liked to be with you,
But you forced yourself on me,
I pushed you away,
You tighten your hold so I could only,
Cry out in painful agony,
As you force yourself on me!

I stay in one spot to afraid if what,
Might come next,
I want for my loved one,
To awaken to avail,
You stay unconjust,
For yet another night,
For witch this bastard,
Keeps havin’ his ways,
With me till you awaken,
To return to me once again!

My love will you ever,
Return to punch out this,
Bastards’ lights?
I’m gettin’ so fuckin’ tired,
Of washin’ off his shit,
Every night!

I wish this bastard was,
Fuckin’ killed,
For witch you can return,
To me as my love!

Duo Maxwell,
Please wake up,
And rescue me,
From this so called,
Bastard that has fuckin’,
Made me lose all of my,
Once use to be friend?!

I miss you so dearly much!

I hate were,
This is!
For witch I want,
This pain gone!
It’s not a good,
Feeling when,
We have to be,
Kept silence!
This all going,
Down hill,
Day by day!
Each day,
Is another,
Day of regret!
There’s to much,
Sadness,
And anger,
Every day,
We come!
Today we,
Were told,
To keep,
Silence!
Is that going,
To be for,
Every day?
Are we going,
To lose,
Everything,
We have our,
Rights to,
Speak?
This is wrong,
So wrong!
This is like,
Another stab,
In the heart!
And pain,
That is so,
Hard to,
Comprehend!
There’s one,
More thing,
To say,
And it is,
Sadness!

I feel my love,
Runnin' away from me,
But I don't know why,
It feels so sad,
As sit here lookin',
Sad!
I don't feel like lookin,
In the mirror,
For it will bring me,
Back to the pain,
Of what's lost!
I draw lines on my arm,
As I see blood just,
Runnin' out,
I feel a grin a pond,
My face form!
I don't know what,
Will come of this,
But I'll for sure,
Never come back,
For witch I have,
Felt crimson tears,
Fall down!!

I see roses dancing,
All around us!
With there peddles,
A gloom!
Will it stay?
Or will it wilt away?
Will it last for ever?
Or will it leave for,
Another to return,
In it’s place?

What has come of me?
Why do I feel trapped in this cold dark room?
Will I leave with my loved one?
Or will never return to once known place?
In side the warmth of my lovers embrace?
Warmth...
Hmmm....
I wanna feel that again....
I feel crimson tears leakin’ out of blacken eyes...
My once blackness returnin’ as I fall down....
I feel someone’s arm fall a pond me as I am pulled into there warm embrace...
I smile into the person’s chest...
And I whisper, “Thank you...”
It goes unheard for another minute...
I felt a kiss a pond my forehead tellin’ me everything is all alright...
And that I’ll never have to be afraid for life...
I feel a warm wash cloth washin’ way what was once all I knew...
It felt so real...
I felt a thumb a pond my lips as he leans down to kiss all me pain away...
I whisper, “I love you...”
For it was my loved one...
All the crimson tears that were pourin’ out were all just a dream...
I never had a blacken eye...
That to be just a dream....
I smile...
I crawl into the warmth never wantin’ it to leave me...

I see your face lookin’,
So dime with just one,
Light that has just about,
Had its last time spent,
To brighten our eyes!

I soon see darkness as,
I feel my way around the,
Darkened room that I have,
Yet grown fond of!

I feel for the light switch,
To turn on yet another,
Light to my eyes I still,
See darkness as yet I,
Feel a frown playin’,
At the slightest of moments,
For it is not welcome,
To spread across the delicacy,
Of times that has yet,
To show a pond these days!

I feel tears comin’ to my,
Face to leave black marks,
Runnin’ down my face laughin’,
So meekly at me for not seein’,
What was in front of me!

I hear whispers all around,
Me but really can’t understand,
What they are sayin’!

I now know what they are,
Sayin’ for witch I see why,
I can’t see light!

I have gone blind for that,
Is why I was havin’ to feel,
For a light switch!

There was light but I was,
Just losin’ my sight each,
Time minutes just ticked,
There way away from me,
To never see light again,
And for me to only see,
Darkness for my eyes,
Will never show me is all,
Around me!

It is now time to a mite,
I can never see anything,
Ever again!

I see how much pain Mom is in,
That I feel tears wantin’ to form,
But I try to be the strong one as,
I see Mom wantin’ some help!

It hurt so much I feel like,
Throwin’ myself in bed wantin’ to cry,
For her as she so dearly tries,
Not to show how much it hurts,
But eyes don’t lie,
They tell all!

They tell everything,
EVERYTHING!

I don’t like it that she has,
To have so much joint pain,
To loose most of her independence,
Just because of her joints hurtin’,
Her so bad!

I feel like cryin’ for her,
To get better!

I feel pain,
That I can never,
Get rid of,
But today I found,
Out why the chest pains!

I'm goin' to have,
Heart surgery!

I have something wrong,
With my heart for witch,
I now see why!

I'm glade to be gettin',
Rid of my chest pain,
But I'm not to happy that I'm,
Havin' heart surgery,
But look on the bright side,
I'll be gettin' relief from,
All that damn pain!

The pain that would have,
My mom worried,
And now we don't have to,
Have that hangin' on our,
Shoulders no more!

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