October 2004
Sneaky me
Tuesday, Oct. 12, 2004 - 9:57 am
I'm at school right now so I shouldn't be writing this (I shouldn't be on this site at all, lol) but there's no teacher in here and I was getting bored and this computer hasn't got MSN (and I'm not going to download it) so I thought let's blog a little... Cause I'm not sure wether I'll have time tonight and I want to blog everyday.
We're on the internet for this stupid project History-Dutch,too much to explain, but the point is I can't find anything on the internet about what I'm looking for so what's the use? Anyway.
Remember I said my mum would let me buy that jacket? Well we were going to buy it last night but of course the shop was closed, just my luck. And tonight she probably won't have time. And tomorrow I haven't got time. Hopefully we'll both have time Thursday.
I'm so looking forward to the weekend, it's going to be a very busy (but cool) one. Friday evening we're watching a film (in the KSJ you know the youthmovement I'm in) and after that we're having a sleep over in the *how do you call it*. Saturday afternoon three "friends" (only one of them is a kind of friend) are coming to my place to work on another project for Dutch. I hope it won't be too boring but it could be fun too. We'll see. After that I'm going to the KSJ again, watching the camp pictures. I'll get them on a cd-rom so maybe I'll post a few.
Gotta go now, the bell rang :D
xXx LR
Not easy being Greet
Thursday, Oct. 14, 2004 - 9:55 pm
I got the jacket!! lol :D We went to the shop yesterday and they thought they had run out of Mediums at first, but then they found one somewhere so I got it!! Yay :) I went to school with it and I must say, it's very warm, I don't even need a scarf! And my friends liked it :)
It's going to be a cool weekend, I can't wait. But tomorrow we have a French test. I didn't study much but anywayz. It's only French.
I have to go because I've got loads of stuff to do: I promised to edit a picture for Mel and I should study a bit more on my French and there's something else I should do but I forgot :D
So bye!
xXx LR
And she will be loved... one big lie
Sunday, Oct. 17, 2004 - 10:02 pm
I feel so upside down, kind of hurt, sad, confused, all at once, I can't even write about it.
Maybe I'll explain later.
When I'm over it.
Which I don't think I will ever be.
I know I should stop crying but I can't...
More
Tuesday, Oct. 19, 2004 - 9:41 pm
I'm fine, thanks, but I've certainly been better...
I'm better than sunday anyway. I'm not gonna explain anything, sorry. If you don't know me there's no reason why you should know and if you do know me, then there are two possibilities (spelling? :S) 1. I told you already or 2. You aren't supposed to know.
I hope this won't go on forever, meaning the horrible feeling I have everytime when a sudden thought comes up in my mind...
Always yours
No place to go... broken inside
Thursday, Oct. 21, 2004 - 9:13 pm
... it almost felt like before. I wish it was before.
If the way you're happy
is not with me
then that's the way
it's gonna be...
On my own
Saturday, Oct. 23, 2004 - 8:11 pm
I'm not sure how I feel right now. But I do know I'm very tired, because we went away with the KSJ last night and it got late, but I had to get up at 9 because of the stupid music academy. It sucked. We're playing a disco medley featuring Staying Alive, YMCA and another song I can't remember. It really sucks and it's not what I thought it would be.
My dad's going to put a kind of downloading block on the computer, I'm not sure what it is or how much it allows, but I hope I won't be having any trouble from it.
You know that's pretty ironic, because this computer is new (well pretty new anyway), quick and everything you want a computer to be, and the one he buyed second hand for us is old, very slow and stuffed with viruses, popups and what not. What he should do is leave this computer alone and format the other one but no, he does it the other way around. That's my dad.
I'm not in a studying mood but I'll have to study, I've got two tests next week (German & Sciences). But after next week we finally have a week off, and this friday it's schoolparty, and the workshop I'll be doing is hip-hop. I don't think it'll be fun but I couldn't tell you why, it's just a feeling I have, and plus, I've had four schoolparties so far and none of them were really fun, except for the time where we could do what we wanted, which is just be with friends and have fun. Anyway.
My sister used the computer all afternoon, from lunch until now, I was getting really frustrated you know. I've been dying to get all of my thoughts out of my system.
These aren't all of my thoughts and certainly not the most important ones, but I feel I can't write about them because someone's reading this. I sometimes wish I hadn't given him the link but on the other hand, no I know for sure that he knows how I feel. I don't want to tell him because I feel like that would be annoying to him.
Enough about me now, if you want to comment feel free to do so with the brandnew commenting system, lol!
I'll never get there.
Wednesday, Oct. 27, 2004 - 9:03 pm
"There" being the point where my piano teacher would finally say "yes, that's it, you're good enough now!"
I'm never good enough.
I'm not good enough and I never will be.
Says my piano teacher. Well not exactly but that's what he means. He thinks I don't practice enough, well, he should have my life then, with all the school work to do and the time that goes to the KSJ and my other hobbies.
That's why I wanted to change, to another piano teacher, Veerle, who has been teaching me BP (additional subject when you take piano lessons) for a few years and who is great, really. She organizes a piano camp every year and this year was the third time I went and it was so cool.
Anyway, she told me she would be glad to teach me but she couldn't scedual me anywhere (see how good she is, she's got too many pupils) and besides, I shouldn't be changing now because I've only got two more years to go and I need to have a good musical bagage and blah blah blah, but anyway, she said she might have a little room for me next year so I'm definitely changing then.
Hehe nothing to do for school. That's a long time ago. We don't have any homeworks, no tests tomorrow and the school party will be on friday, and then the holidays start, so that's why we've got nothing to do. And I finally managed to keep my dad, my brother, my sister and my mum off the computer so I could get on. Okay okay I exagerated a little bit (my sister's in Leuven, "studying") but it is really hard to get on the computer in this house. Especially since the other one has totally broken down.
I'm working on a new layout for About Life, I hope it'll be up soon and when it is I'm gonna stop the hiatus, as I'll have time to keep it running in the holidays, if you know what I mean. After that I'll see how much time I have.
I'm out of inspiration (which doesn't happen often) so bye!
I got Photoshop!
Friday, Oct. 29, 2004 - 7:30 pm
I finally have Adobe Photoshop! I have Elements 2.0 and I hope it's a good one because it's the only version I could get (a friend lent me his cd-rom). It's really difficult to work with, I hope I'll get better at it because as you can see here I'm not, lol
Well I gotta go now because I have to go to the KSJ. See ya!