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Kuai Jurnal Today |
I missed Ana alot today but then again I always miss her. I have had many a girlfriend and all have hurt me. Ana has gone longer and not only has she not hurt me but she is so much better then anyone els. I love her very much. Its great being with her. I loved talking with her today. I studyed my wicca some and I printed my BOS. I did a little job searching and looked into an online school. I talked to Ana some. I chated with mom. it was a fairly good day I guess. I have had much worse. I miss her rite now. I miss Ana. Anyway I will post tomorrow. Mabe tomorrow moring. |
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Kuai Jurnal 2 of two |
I talked to Ana threw e-mail today. I need to hurry this up so she can call. I love her very much. Sigh I am such an alcoholic it scares me. I am drinking alot rite now. Ana will know sigh. I hope it goes ok!!! |
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Kuai Jurnal Entry 1 of 2 today |
Yes you herd the title rite I guess I will make two entrys today. Alot happend when I finished my last entry sigh. Me and Ana argued again. I love her very much but I was realy hurt this time. All she seamed to want to do is talk about her pain and how much me being hurt hurt her and leave. It hurt even more that she kept leaving. I know she didnt mean to call late and I know it was an accedent but it still happend you know and she didn tcall either she logged on to the computer sigh. I know she made a mistake but it still happend. Regardless of weither it was her fault or not she still got here almosed an hour late and regardless of the fact its an hour latter then we planned to talk I still needed to talk to her very much but I just felt that even when she did finaly get here that all she cared about was leaving again. I wish she would have just talked to me. All I got was "bye" and "I'm leaving now" and "I hate you". I finaly had ot settle fir a "I promiss we will talk about this tomorrow and I wont leave". I know she has school and she knows full well that I care alot about her schooling sigh. I care alot about everything in her life but somtimes it would be nice if she cared about how I felt and things in my life to. I wish she would see that I dont keep her up til 1 am for my health I do it for a good reason. Sigh we would have been done alot faster if she had just talked to me. I waited so long to talk to her and flet like I wanted to die the hole time just so her almosed first words to me when we do talk can be "I have to go now". I feel realy apritiated now. I feel she is holding back back wont admit it. We will probably just argue about that. Seriosly I spent over half an hour typing and I was giving her all my feelings and all she can say is one or two lines sigh. She has to have more to say then that. I wish she would just say somthing sigh. I love her very much and GOD DAMB SORRY ASS MOM AND HER LOUD AS DISRESPECTUFF FRIENDS TALKING SO LOUND I CANT THINK WORTH A DAMB sigh. I wish they would shut up so I can finish what I was saying!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love Ana very much and I care about her more then I think she realises most of the time sigh. I wish she would just see that. I knwo she cares about me at leave more then anyone els ever did its just alot of the time I feel that I dont matter enough. Like if anyone els came along or even a little thing happend to her that has to come first sigh. I miss her alot rite now. I wish she was here so we could talk about this. What do you all think? |