I have finally decided to start an online journal to go along with the site. I promise, I will try to update the site more often. In the meantime, keep coming back to check up on things. Thanks.

- Rick

Well, this is the first journal entry. Last night I was up until 5 AM watching Kiddy Grade (of course). I swear, every time I watch Episode 11 I get goosebumps. I love Kiddy Grade. ^^ On a different note, I have been unusually happy as of late. The reason for this is a very dear friend of mine whom I love with all of my heart. She knows who she is. As for those of you who don't know her, well, I like to refer to her as Eclair (among other things). She is the most wonderful, sweet, loving, beautiful girl I have ever known. I never get tired of talking to her... speaking of which, I can't wait til 9 PM tonight so I can call her again. ^^ I just sent her Valentine's Day card today. Yes, I know, it's a full ten days late, but I had to finish the artwork on the envelope. I sketched a picture of Aeris (from FFVII) on the front... Aeris is one of my pet names for her. Speaking of which, there's a new Final Fantasy VII movie that's supposed to come out later this year... it's called FFVII: Advent Children. It's done entirely in CG, and I am dying to see it. The only downside is, I've heard that it might only be playable on the PSP, which sucks because I'd sure as hell like for it to be playable on ordinary DVD players as well. Oh well. I have several trailers for the movie, but unfortunately I'm at the library at the moment so I'll have to link them to the site later. Look for them within a week or so, as my home computer is down temporarily. I hate Windows. Well, I'm off to update the rest of the site some more. Ja ne!

- Rick

Well, here it is, about a week after my last entry, and this site hasn't changed all that much. I really should try to update it more often. I've been so busy chatting with my contacts as of late, though... it's hard to pull myself away to edit this site. I know, that's no excuse... and yet know ing what I should do doesn't make it any easier. A lot has happened in the past week. I picked back up on my smoking, for one... I had gone for roughly two and a half weeks without a single cigarette, and it was really making things stressful for me. In addition, my relationship with Leigh Anne doesn't seem to be doing all that well. I love her so much... I wish she could see that. But then, I'm not nearly as good a friend to her as I should be. I'm far too weak. Today has been especially hard for me. I know I'm overreacting, but every time she mentions Brandon (her ex-boyfriend) I feel like it's another step backwards. She had told me that they were through, but I get the feeling that she still wants to make things work with him. It's hard... I don't know whether to keep hoping for the best, or just to wish her luck with him. I've never been an overly aggressive person, and it doesn't help in situations like this. I really, really want the bond between us to grow and strengthen... I just don't know if it will. I don't think I stand much of a chance against Brandon. *sigh* But that's life, I guess. It's never easy. Well, enough focusing on such depressing thoughts... I need to go to work on this website. Ja ne.

- Rick

Well, here it is, Wednesday morning, and I'm listening to my favorite morning talk show... the Morning Vice on 97.3 FM. I enjoy this show very much. I am also chatting with my good friend Kim at the moment. Sadly, she is not much help when it comes to love advice, but she is an excellent friend nonetheless. Speaking of love advice, I could use some concerning my last entry. If those of you who are reading this could kindly leave a word or two of advice in the guestbook, I would greatly appreciate it. I am uncertain as to what my next course of action should be... the condition of my relationship with Leigh Anne is distressingly poor, while my relationship with my good friend Lucy looks more promising than ever. I really don't know what to do. I've pretty much fallen back on my old standby fantasy for now... Eclair (lol). At any rate, please leave me some advice. Ja ne.

- Rick

Well, here it is, several months since I've last updated, and I'm finally back. My computer is down for good, so I'll be forced to use library computers until I can afford to purchase a new home computer. This, of course, means less fancy stuff for me to add. I've updated the site music with real .MP3s and .WAVs of actual music I recorded from a couple of Kiddy Grade DVDs. The clip on the home page and this page, "Future" by the Little Vikings, skips once in the middle due to bad timing on my part. Blah. At least it's high quality, actual music from the series though. Speaking of which, I'm going to have to buy most of the DVDs again because I made the mistake of loaning them to someone, and that someone not only scratched the hell out of them, he actually cracked a couple of the disks. That's the last time anyone borrows any of my anime DVDs.

On a different note... my relationship with Leigh Anne dissolved several months ago, not long after my last entry. *Sigh* It was hard, and it took quite some time for me to move on. I'm doing fairly well now, thanks largely in part to my friend Shay. She's the best. We went through some rough times, each of us, but it seems that we've both managed well enough anyways. I am currently in a relationship with a girl named Amy. Amy, if you're reading this, I love you. <3 She's the best thing that's ever happened to me. Sure, I still get confused and depressed, but I'm not going to let it get the better of me. I've learned to be stronger and more aggressive. All in all, most people seem to think I'm doing a lot better. At any rate, I'm coping, and that's good enough for me.

Wow, this is my longest entry yet. Maybe I should just skip a few months between entries. ... Nah, I'll try to put up something new fairly often. Well, I'm off to see if I can whip this site into shape again. Until next time... ja ne!

 - Rick