"It's not that some people have willpower and some don't.  It's that some people are ready to change and others are not." -James Gordon, M.D.                                                                                                                  

Hello!  Here I am my feet firmly back on the Road. And with that I am being honest and starting a new weight loss chart.   I plan on leaving my old one up and posted at the bottom of the page because that is my past, and I am proud of the great success I once had.  Success that I am journeying back to, and with working on a new chart I once again have a renewed determination  to be able to come post my new losses each week.

I had hit a platue in my weight loss last year, and got very discouraged.  Then life happened, had some stressful times, and I just let go on weekends (ate what I wanted, stopped exercising on weekends), which being OP all week then acting like a mad woman on weekends will not keep the weight off and definately won't help you lose anymore. I had even been keeping up with my WW meetings for the most part (I never have abandoned WW or the program, I had just lost that fire/determination to follow it as strictly as I had in the beginning) So the weight started creeping back on. 

Thank God I have not gained all my weight back, I've caught myself before I could get that far.  I've spent many a month now just wallowing in a feeling of failure, but the wallowing is over.  Wallowing  accomplishes nothing. As my WW leader pounds in my head each week, there is no failure just feedback.  I've learned a mulitude of things NOT to do, and what I need to do. I've thrown off the feeling of failure and took up a new feeling...Challenged. And I am up for the challenge.

The Road Goes ever on...I pursue it with eagar feet.

Week	Date	Weight	+/-	Total Lost	Comments
1	2/14/07	251	0	-54.4	restart
2	2/21/07	250.2	-0.8	-55.2
3	2/28/07	250.2	0	-55.2	it's going to be slow to re-lose I see.  But I'm going to do it!
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week	date	weight	+/-	comments
1	6/4/03	305.4
2	6/11/03	300.4	-5	Bookmark & *
3	6/18/03	297.6	-2.8
4	6/25/03	293.6	-4	*
5	7/3/03	292.8	-0.8
6	7/9/03	289	-3.8	*
7	7/16/03	286.2	-2.8
8	7/23/03	284	-2.2	*
9	7/30/03	280.8	-3.2
10	8/6/03	277.6	-3.2	25lb magnet & *
11	8/13/03	276.2	-1.4
12	8/20/03	273.2	-3	10% keychain & *
13	8/27/03	271.6	-1.6
14	9/4/03	271.6	-0
15	9/9/03	269.4	-2.2	*
16	9/17/03	266.4	-3
17	9/24/03	264.2	-2.2	*
18	10/1/03	263	-1.2
19	10/8/03	262.8	-0.2
20	10/15/03	258.8	-4
21	10/23/03	258.6	-0.2	*
22	10/29/03	256.4	-2.2
23	11/5/03	253.2	-3.2	50lb magnet & *
24	11/12/03	252.2	-1
25	11/19/03	249.4	-2.8	*

26	11/26/03	249.2	-0.2	Thanksgiving tomorrow, watch out!
27	12/3/03	247.2	-2
28	12/10/03	245	-2.2	*
29	12/17/03	245.4	+0.4	1st gain...family dinner got me
30	12/23/03	243.8	-1.6
31	12/30/03	243	-0.8
32	1/7/04	239.2	-3.8	*
33	1/14/04	235.6	-3.6
34	1/21/04	235	-0.6	*
35	1/28/04	233.2	-1.8
36	2/3/04	231.2	-2
37	2/11/04	231	-0.2
38	2/18/04	230.2	-0.8	75lb magnet & *  Certificate
39	2/25/04	227.6	-2.6
40	3/3/04	226.6	-1
41	3/17/04	223.8	-2.8	*   (missed last wk, so this is a 2 wk loss)
42	3/24/04	224.6	+0.8	Shocked...within pts, exercise.  So don't know why the gain?
43	3/31/04	223.4	-1.2	relieved.  Hated last week! no purpose for it.
44	4/7/04	220.4	-3	*
45	4/14/04	221.4	+1
46	4/21/04	221.4	0	Growl!!
47	4/28/04	218.6	-2.8	now that's what I like to see.
48	5/5/04	217.4	-1.2
49	5/12/04	217.6	+0.2
50	5/26/04	218	+0.4	took a trip, too much candy.

51  6/2/04  215.2  -2.8  *  Wohoo, moving again!   52  6/10/04  211.8  -3.4   So happy with the changes I've made!!!  53  6/16/04  211.6  -0.2    54  6/23/04  211.6  -0    55 6/30/04   211.2  -0.4    56  7/7/04  209.6  -1.6  95lb *  56  7/14/04  209.6  0   58   7/21/04  207.2  -2.4    59  7/28/04  208.6  +1.4    60  8/4/04  207  -1.6    61  8/11/04  207  0    62  8/18/04  204.6  -2.4  100lbs magnet & * Plus WW leader gave me a charm bracelet w/charm!!! Certificate.  63  8/25/04  205.4  +0.8    64  8/31/04  204.4  -1    65  9/8/04  204.4  0    66  9/14/04  204.2  -0.2    67  9/22/04  203.8  -0.4    68  9/29/04  203.2 -0.6     69  10/6/04  205.4  +2.2    70  10/13/04  204.6  -0.8    71  10/20/04  203.2  -1.4    72  10/27/04  202.8  -0.4    73  11/3/04  202.8  0    74  11/10/04  203  +0.2    75  11/17/04  202.2  -0.8    76 11/24/04  202.6  +0.4  and the plataue continues!  77 11/30/04  208.6  +6  Happy Thanksgiving!  78 12/8/04  203.6  -5    79 12/15/04  205  +1.4   80  12/21/04  205  0   81 12/28/04  209.2  +4.2  Happy Holidays! 82 1/4/05  206  -3.2   83 1/12/05  206.4  +0.4   84  1/19/05  210  +3.6  no idea what's going on here.  Been perfectly OP. 85  1/26/05  207.2  -2.8   85  2/2/05  205.4  -1.8   86 2/9/05  205.4  0   87  2/16/05  204  -1.4   88 2/23/05 204.2  +0.2   89 3/2/05 202.4 -1.8    90 3/9/05  203.4 +1    91  3/15/05 201.6 -1.8   92  3/23/05  201.2 -0.4   93  3/29/05 201.6  +0.4   94  4/5/05 200.8 -0.8   95  4/12/05  200.4  -0.4  105lb* 96 4/19/05  202.4 +2    97  4/26/05 200.4  -2    98 5/3/05 199.4  -1   Made Onederland today! 99  5/10/05 200.2  +0.8   100  5/17/05 200.8   +0.6   101  5/24/05  198.8 -2   102  6/7/05  203.2  +4.4  went on vacation and ate EVERYTHING in site!   103  6/14/05  201.8 -1.4   104  6/21/05  201.4 -0.4    105   6/28/05  201 -0.4   106  7/19/05  200.8 -0.2   107   7/26/05  200.4  -0.4   108  8/9/05  200.2  -0.2    109   9/27/05  204.2  +4  DH's been on vacation, and I went way overboard.   Been very unhappy with this platue that I'm on.  Been over a year now swimming around the same weight, up/down.  Been trying different ways to shake loose from this with no luck so far.  I keep doing what I'm suppose to (meetings, journal, water, points), maybe sometime soon I will begin to lose again, about 25lbs more I want to lose, and I intend to get there even if it takes forever.  DH reminds me everyday that I've been a success just by maintaining around my current weight, bless him.  I am proud of the maintaining, but yearn for the weight losses again.  110  10/25/05  207.8 +3.6  going through some stress right now,OP on the weekdays, but eating nonstop on weekends doesn't help the scale.  111  11/8/05  207.2 -0.6     112  12/20/05  213.8 +5.6  Hello Holidays, and still suffering through some stress.   113  1/2/06 215.5 +1.7  Well the result of going wild through Thanksgiving and Christmas.  This weight will come back off.  My Stress has eased considerably.  Now back to the business of losing again.  114  1/18/06 217.2 +1.7    115  2/22/06 224.2  +7  Struggling so much, fighting hunger all the time.  Have been having a lot of stress, and letting the food win.  But I'm still fighting, I will be a success again. 116  3/22/06  222  -2.2  It's taken a month to lose it, but it's a loss.  Any weight gained always takes longer to lose again.  I keep working.