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My Journey
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Update 9/13/08: I hit a major roadblock with my stress eating and gained a bunch but I've been back on a week and have lost 6.4!
I started this journey at 368.8 but growing up, I was the thin one with an overweight sister. Fat was a bad word in our house but other than fad diets on occasion, nothing was addressed. I guess I had the bad eating habits always too but I kept thin with bulimia. Once I gave up my excessive laxative abuse in my early 20's, I just gained. I was afraid to diet because I would become obsessive and start in with the laxatives.
By April of 2006, I was a single mom of two kids with special needs and morbidly obese. My sister had successfully had gastric bypass and was thin by now. I was terrified of it. I remembered the goodbye letters she wrote to her girls and couldn't take that risk. There was no one for my own boys. But I was miserable. My heart raced all the time, I was exhausted all the time, impatient and had pain in my back and feet. I decided I had no other options! While researching, I discovered that nobody would accept me unless I had a proven weight loss of six months. I chose Weight Watchers.
After beginning, I knew it was for me! I could channel my obsessions into counting points and being diligent. I didn't need weight loss surgery. I succeeded wildly for the first year with the Holy Spirit leading me. I made my journey about gluttony and it worked. Then my personal life and problems with my child derailed me. I let it derail me. For the last six months, I've struggled mightily. But I keep trying. I will get back to where I was and I will get to goal!
As of today, I've lost 85.6 lbs. I feel better. I can wear relatively normal clothes. I'm not the fattest person in every room I enter. I am not winded walking to my car. I can tie my shoes and cross my legs. And most importantly, I'll be here for my kids and my God!
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