There have been days where I've started entries about personal problems I'm facing. Today, I ripped those all out, because I realized what a dangerous position I would've been putting you in. So, from today on, I promise that I'll never, ever use you as a sounding board for my own trials. No child should ever have to shoulder issues that he can't even understand. You are a child, and will be treated as such. I'll never knowingly take part in the loss of your innocence.
With that said, I'm going to put in an update about the pregnancy. I want to keep an accurate record of what's going on with the pregnancy & with you.
Sleep:
I'm sleeping okay, probably about 8 hours a night. I wake up 1-2x a night to go to the bathroom. I sleep a lot on my right side, which isn't bad, but it isn't the best. I'm supposed to sleep on my life side, so I need to rearrange my nightstand (clock, tissues, barf bucket, crackers & drink) so it's on my left.
Appetite:
Still very poor. I get lunch at work with the kids each day, then usually have a salad & fruit for lunch. I can barely stomach any smells if at all, which puts a lot of guesswork into ordering food. I wish I could eat!
Pain:
I'm generally fine, with bouts of dizziness occasionally at work. At night & sometimes in the mornings, I get very painful lower back pain; thank God Christophre bought me that massage chair. It feels like my inner workings are all messed up--everything is more painful, or atleast more noticeable.
This pregnancy ordeal gets more weird every day...