I'm just a normal kid, following and trying to fit into the society which makes me no different than any other human being.
I like to have a lot of friends to hang out with, have fun, being part of something, getting people's attention and a lot more which I myself do not know. Funny though, I wish I can make a different in this world one day. I have to admit before continue writing, I don't write very well nor describing myself, but who cares!!.......haha......that's me trying to be myself.
I use to be very naive before I go to secondary school. Oh ya......you may say everyone's naive when they are in primary school. Well, you may be right. But for my case, I'm a very curious kid and always want to know.Well, Curiosity killed the cat, so I always got myself into trouble. I remember I once jumped down from the first floor when a friend said:"I'll give you RM5 if you jump down from here". It's not because of the money, but just to prove that I'm brave, I admit I felt kind of cool when I landed. A week later, dad and I went to school to collect my report card.
My form teacher said to my dad:"Mr. Joseph (my dad), did you know that your son jump down from here (we are on the second floor) last week?"Man...... I can't tell you how dead I felt that very minute when my little stunt was exposed to the'court of law', what can I say? I confess all my sins to the 'judge'. All the 'music to my ears' and punishment for the rest of the month is what I deserve but there's something that really leave a print in me, "do you think your life's worth only RM5?". Anyway, the whole point is to say that I have learned to be more mature in thinking and expressing myself to others through unpleasant experience.
I see myself differently in different time and situation. Sometime I feel really proud, but most of the time, disappointed. I want other to let me know of my weakness so I can improve but I do get depress when I hear all my impuissance. I'm scare of success because that will mean you have to do even better in future, but the moment when you really achieve something, the feeling is great and I love it! Ha-ha, at least I learn something from my religion which I think is very true, that is, nobody's perfect. Get use to it!!
Complicated life...... 11/09/2007
Been quit busy with school this few days. All the assignments, quizzes, lab works, tests, and boring lecturers. Sometimes it just makes me think, why am I doing all these. What for?
Practice makes perfect
Guess who's hand that belongs to..
Life seems so rush and my body feels weaker each day to catch up with everything and wanting to give up.But no time for regrets or surrender, just need to pray hard and keep on going. Didn't even had any lunch today because there's only less than 30 minutes break for the whole day, and I'm so dame tired so I went and take a nap at friend's hostel. Anyway, the cafeteria really has very inadequate food standard. Can't believe I have to eat those 'things' every weekday, nothing I can do about it.
Trying to stay as positive as possible, even if the sky is going to fall any minute and pressure keeps on coming, I just need to pull everything together, try my best and have faith in HIM. Everything happens for a reason (good one), keep that in mind.
