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Joshua's Journey

A site for LGBT youth and our allies.

Joshua's Journey

A site for LGBT youth and our allies.

Human Dignity + Compassion = PEACE

Hello and welcome to my website! This is a place where I write about things such as my life, my interests, my beliefs, my family, and about any and all topics of interest. I am also gay and very proud of it so a majority of my website and its topics will be devoted to this topic. I truly believe that we are all born who we are and that our sexuality is not a choice. I know that I was born gay and that I did not choose to be gay. I also believe that no matter what our sexuality is we are all just being ourselves which is always a wonderful thing to be. ~ Joshua

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Most Recent Postings

                     September 23, 2016

9/23/16 James and I were married on August 19, 2016 which was our five year anniversary date! I want to thank all of you that attended and for all of your love and support for us! 

Because my life has now taken a new direction, and because I am so busy with the house James and I bought, college, work, and everything else; I will no longer be able to update on this site very frequently. However, my new website is now up and I will be making updates there as often as possible. Those of you that are members of this site and those of you that are on my email list already know the new website address and I have just completed transferring your memberships and information over to the new site. The same passwords are effective on that site for the personal content. I also just finished uploading our wedding videos and pictures on the new site. I look forward to seeing all of you at the new site! Thank you again for all of your love and support and have a beautiful weekend! ~ Joshua

                      August 19, 2016

James, Happy Anniversary my love! Today makes five years that we have been together! It was five years ago today that we professed our love and commitment and devotion to one another. You and your unconditional love for me has truly been a blessing and the most beautiful time of my life. I thank you with all my heart for you coming into my life and standing beside me through everything, both good and bad. You have shown me what true unconditional love is and for this I am eternally grateful. I love you James with all my heart, mind, and soul!

                        All my love forever,

                              Your Josh

  1.                        July 21, 2016

  2. "This world would be a whole lot better if we just made an effort to be less horrible to one another."--Ellen Page

                                       June 28, 2016

6/28/16 Hello everyone and welcome! I just wanted to make a quick update to let everyone know that James, Adam, and I are all doing wonderfully and I hope you are too! The Summer Session has begun at college and I love my new classes! Wait?! Going to school in the summer?! I know, I'm a geek :P But as most of you know I do love school and this will help get me that much closer to receiving my degree.

I wanted to thank all of you for the very kind words regarding the videos and picture I uploaded of James, Adam, and I in Mexico! We had a wonderful time there and your kind words of expression were all wonderful! 

Just a quick reminder that my TrevorSpace group will meet tomorrow night at the designated time and I look forward to seeing all of you there! Have a beautiful day everyone and always be proud of who you are! ~ Joshua

  1.                                 June 20, 2016

  2. 6/20/16 "When all Americans are treated as equal, no matter who they are or whom they love, we are all more free."

  3.                                Barack Obama 

                                         June 9, 2016

6/9/16 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope all of you are doing well and for those of you now out of school for the summer, I hope you are enjoying your summer break! I am now on my break until the Summer Session at college begins near the end of this month!

James, Adam, and I are all doing extremely well and we will be going down to Tijuana this weekend! I will make sure to take some pictures and videos for all of you! I also just uploaded a video of us performing "Faithfully" by Journey and I hope you like it! I will be hosting my TrevorSpace group tonight and I look forward to seeing all of you there! Have a beautiful day everyone and I will see you tonight! ~ Joshua

                               May 25, 2016

5/25/16 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope all of you are doing well and having a wonderful time! I finished with my finals last week and James, Adam, and I are now in St. Louis visiting our families and friends during our break! We will be flying back in a week and I will be attending Summer classes when they start. Yes, I know, going to school in the summer? I'm a dork! :P But as most of you know I love school and this will help me get some more classes and credits accomplished!

All of us are doing well and I hope all of you are too! I will still be hosting my TrevorSpace group this Sunday at the designated time so I look forward to seeing all of you there! For those of you that are now out of school, congratulations on your accomplishments this past year! For those of you still in school until your summer break, keep up the great work and always stay focused on your goals!

If you are able to, please consider attending Gay Pride in your area as it is fast approaching in many communities! James, Adam, and I will be attending ours and it is something we always look forward to. It has always been a wonderful and enjoyable experience! Please remember that wonderful quote by John Fugelsang:

    "Being gay is natural. Hating gay is a lifestyle choice."

Have a beautiful day everybody and I will see all of you this Sunday!
~Joshua

On a personal note: Chase, I hope you're doing well and that your studies are progressing nicely. I know they are. I still sometimes think of you and I wish you nothing but happiness and the best!




                                               May 10, 2016

5/10/16 Hello everyone! Just a quick update to let everyone know that I will be hosting my TrevorSpace group tonight at the scheduled time! I look forward to seeing all of you there!

I am sorry my updates have not been as frequent as you have been requesting, but I have just been really busy. My finals are this coming week and I have been with my study group a lot of the time preparing for those. But everything is going extremely well with James, Adam, and myself.

Have a beautiful day everyone and I will see you tonight! ~ Joshua


                              April 27, 2016

4/27/16 Hello everyone and welcome! A lot of you have been emailing me and calling me asking for another update. I am so sorry it has been a little while since my last update, but I have been extremely busy! 

But everything is going extremely well! My classes at college are proceeding wonderfully and I am completely enjoying all of them. Work is still going extremely well too and I absolutely love my place of employment. Working with animals is an amazing and wonderful opportunity for me since all of you know I love animals and I am studying to obtain my DVM.

James is doing wonderfully too! He has become such a great surfer! A lot better than I am! He is also enjoying all of his classes at college. Adam still works at the same location and likes his work very much! He will be starting classes at college this Fall and is very excited about that!

I hope all of you are doing well too and enjoying everything that you have going on in your lives! Always stay strong and positive and eliminate those things in your lives that have no purpose or hold you back from being the person you are! Have a beautiful day everyone and I will update again soon! ~ Joshua

                                                    April 16, 2016

4/16/16 "The world changes in direct proportion to the number of people willing to be honest about their lives." ~ Armistead Maupin

                  April 5, 2016

4/5/16 "It always seemed to me a bit pointless to disapprove of homosexuality. It's like disapproving of rain." -Francis Maude  

                              March 23, 2016

3/23/16 Hello everyone and welcome! I cannot believe how fast the time seems to go by! Tomorrow is the start of the new Quarter at college already! As you know I love school and I am looking forward to it, but it seems like the last Quarter just ended!

James and I will be hosting our TrevorSpace meeting tonight as scheduled and I look forward to seeing all of you there! The topic will be about what truly defines a person. As P. C. Cast stated, " Gender preference does not define you. Your spirit does." This is one of my favorite quotes regarding this subject and James and I have a nice movie presentation planned for tonight regarding this.

Have a beautiful day everyone and I look forward to seeing you tonight! ~ Joshua


                                               March 11, 2016

03/11/16 Hello everyone and welcome! It's Friday and the start of the weekend! Yay! James, Adam, and I had a wonderful time last weekend in Tijuana! I want to thank all of you for your wonderful messages regarding James proposing to me! All of your messages really touched our hearts and they mean a lot to the both of us!

I will be hosting my TrevorSpace group tonight as scheduled and I look forward to seeing all of you there! Have a beautiful day and I will see you tonight! ~ Joshua

                         March 4, 2016

3/4/16 Hello everyone and welcome! I feel oh so pretty in pink today! I won't tell anyone I am wearing pink panties if you don't ;)

James proposed to me last night and I of course said yes! It was so beautiful and romantic! He took me to the beach after school and then to a very elegant and fancy restaurant! We haven't set a wedding date yet but we are discussing this now! We have been together almost 5 years and this is a day I have dreamed of!

James, Adam, and I will be going down to Tijuana this weekend and we are all looking forward to that! 

Have a beautiful day and weekend everyone and I will update again as soon as possible! Remember, dreams do come true! ~ Joshua

                              February 11, 2016

2/11/16 Hello everyone and welcome! I am so glad you could join James, Adam, and I this evening! It is nice to see most of you have your webcams on too for this presentation! Please sit back, get comfortable, and enjoy the movie! After the movie, we can talk about it or anything you want to. 

I also wanted to thank all of you for such beautiful and wonderful comments regarding the video I uploaded of my rendition of Don't Stop Believin' by Journey. It took me quite a while to learn to play that on the piano and I am so very happy for all of the wonderful comments I received from you!

I also took a video from my work and uploaded that. I think it will make most of you hopefully laugh when you see what the penguins are doing :D 

Please enjoy the movie and feel free to ask or say anything at any time during the movie. Unlike the theater, I do not have a "silence your phone" policy :P 

                                           January 30, 2016

1/30/16 Hello everyone and welcome! In my Diversity course at college we are studying about the various religions throughout the world. The professor showed a video which was very emotional to me! It made me think of all of the wonderful diversity we all have and how all of you that are members express your diversity. There are members here throughout the world that have such a beautiful and wonderful culture and express their religions in different ways. We have discussed this topic a few times before in our TrevorSpace meetings, but this video my professor showed was very powerful. I found it on YouTube and I have posted it below for all of you to watch.

James, Adam, and I are leaving this morning to go down to Tijuana for the weekend! Whatever your plans are for the weekend, please be safe and enjoy! ~ Joshua

"Promoting Religious Tolerance"

                         January 16, 2016

1/16/16 Hello everyone and welcome! I am sorry my updates have not been as frequent as all of you have requested! I have just been extremely busy with the new Quarter at college, my work, and numerous other things. Hopefully my mass emailings have been adequate enough to keep all of you informed though.

The new Quarter at college is going wonderfully and I really enjoy all of my classes! It is a lot of studying but as most of you know I actually love school! I know, I am a geek :P. 

James, Adam, and I are all doing fantastic! James is really enjoying his classes too and Adam is loving his new job! James and I just recorded our version of "Happy" by Pharrell Williams and I just uploaded it. I am really "happy" :) with how it came out and I hope all of you enjoy it too! 

My TrevorSpace meeting will take place tonight at the designated time. It is movie night and James, Adam, and I will have our webcams on and I invite all of you to turn yours on too. Please remember to bring your snacks and beverages and I will see all of you tonight!
~ Joshua

Happy New Year!!!

                                                        January 1, 2016

1/1/16 Happy New year everyone! James, Adam, and I arrived back to San Diego safely today from visiting our families and friends in St. Louis. My heart, thoughts, and prayers are with everyone in St. Louis and all the communities affected by the record flooding there! James, Adam, and I were delayed in getting back home until today because of our flight being cancelled due to the flood. It is a horrible and terrible tragedy that St. Louis and many surrounding communities have faced and are going through.  I have never witnessed such an event and it is very devastating with major highways closed and completely covered by the flood water. Many highways are now open and the emergency response teams in St. Louis and all communities fighting this disaster are to be commended for their tireless efforts and helping things to get back to normal as quickly as they possibly can!

James, Adam, and I had a wonderful Christmas and Holiday Season otherwise and I hope all of you did too! We saw Trans Siberian Orchestra which is one of my favorite groups of all time! They limited the recording there this year as opposed to when I had the opportunity to see them two years ago, but I was able to take a couple of quick videos which I have uploaded. 

It was wonderful being in St. Louis visiting family and friends, but it is wonderful to be back home in San Diego too! James, Adam, and I have a lot to do before the college quarter begins on Monday. I will try to update again as soon as possible and I will continue to send out  my email updates to all of you too! Have a beautiful, safe, prosperous, and Happy New Year! Please pray for and keep in your thoughts all of those affected by the historic flooding! ~ Joshua

             Merry Christmas Everyone!

12/21/15 I just wanted to let everyone know that James, Adam, and I arrived back to St. Louis safely to spend the Christmas Holiday with our families and friends! Please have the most joyous and beautiful Christmas ever! ~ Joshua

From our home to yours,
Merry Christmas!

December 19, 2015

Happy Anniversary My Love!

Today makes four years and four months since my beloved James and I have been together. He truly is my everything and means the world to me.  He is the most loving, caring, intelligent, and wonderful guy ever and I am proud to be his!

My most beautiful James! Thank you for your unconditional love and always standing beside me and with me. You are my everything and the most important person in the world to me. You mean the world to me and I am honored and privileged to be yours. I love you with all my heart, mind, soul, and entire being my beloved! ♥ ~ Joshua

                             December 16, 2015

12/16/15 Hello everyone! Star Wars! Tomorrow night a lot of us will be going to see Star Wars in a special preview showing and I am very excited about it! James, Adam, and I managed to get tickets in advance immediately when they were made available to see the showing tomorrow night. We managed to purchase a total of 15 tickets so there will be a lot of our friends and classmates meeting us at the theater to watch it with us. We are going to make an evening of it with everyone meeting for dinner, then seeing the movie, and then seeing a Christmas light display. It should be wonderful and exciting!

I hope all of you are having a wonderful Holiday Season so far! James, Adam, and I have been having a wonderful Holiday Season! So far we have seen three significant light displays, been to a Christmas concert at a church, went to Tijuana for a weekend, saw and participated in an old-world style Christmas, and played at our church Christmas concert. I just uploaded a video of some of the Christmas concert from our church that was recorded by a friend in the audience and I hope you enjoy my performance on the viola.

James, Adam, and I will be flying back to St. Louis on Friday to spend Christmas with our families. We have tickets to see Trans Siberian Orchestra and I am very excited to see them again! It was an amazing and wonderful experience when we were fortunate enough to see them two years ago!

Please have the most wonderful and blessed Christmas and Holiday Season ever! I will update again as soon as possible! Have a beautiful day and a wonderful Holiday Season! ~ Joshua

                        December 8, 2015

12/8/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I am truly sorry that I haven't been able to update my site as frequently as all of you have been requesting! I have just been extremely busy with college, work, and the Holiday Season! I hope my mass emailing has been adequate enough to keep all of you informed though.

James, Adam, a couple of our friends, and I went to a Christmas light display this past Saturday. I just uploaded a couple of videos of it to share with you and I hope you enjoy them. We will be seeing another Christmas light display this Thursday and I will take some videos there too.

I also uploaded a video of James and I and our rendition of "Silent Night." I hope you enjoy it as much as we enjoyed performing it. Have a beautiful day everyone and I will update again as soon as possible! ~ Joshua

                                             November 29, 2015

11/29/15 Hello everyone and welcome! James, Adam, and I arrived back from St. Louis last night and we all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and time! I hope all of you had a beautiful and Happy Thanksgiving too!

Today we are going to the mall and do some Christmas shopping. I wonder what is left after "Black Friday?" If any of you took part in Black Friday, please let me know what your experience was like. 

My TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time and I look forward to seeing all of you there! Until then, have a beautiful day! ~ Joshua

                                       November 25, 2015

11/25/15 Hello everyone and Happy Thanksgiving! James, Adam, and I are flying back to St. Louis today to spend Thanksgiving with our families. Whatever your plans are for Thanksgiving, have a wonderful, beautiful, and enjoyable Holiday! ~ Joshua

                                                           11/18/2015

"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." ~Harvey Fierstein

                             November 14, 2015

       11/14/15 "It's great to be out and proud." ~ Greg Louganis

Hello everyone and welcome! I hope all of you are having a wonderful weekend so far! James, Adam, and I are heading up to Los Angeles this morning to spend the weekend with one of our friends. We plan on going to the LA zoo today. Whatver your plans are for the weekend, please be safe and have an enjoyable time!

I will still be hosting my TrevorSpace group tonight at the designated time so I hope to see all of you there! Tonight's theme is "LGBT Youth and Being Out and Proud." I will be showing a short documentary on this subject featuring many well-known actors, actresses, and sports figures. It is a wonderful documentary that is very inspiring and I am sure you will love.

Please have a beautiful day and weekend and I will see all of you tonight! ~ Joshua

                                   November 8, 2015

11/8/15 "There's nothing I need from anyone except love and respect, and anyone who can't give me those two things has no place in my life." ~ Harvey Fierstein

The above quote is actually so very true to me the more I contemplate it and think about it. Without being shown love and respect, a person has no place in my life. I wish I would have kept this quote in mind the day Steven Clark came into my life. He *never* really loved me or respected me at all. It was just empty words from a man that never meant a word he ever said. I am just so glad to have him out of my life and now i can put this chapter behind me and move on. I have completely broken off all forms of communication with him and I am now happy and at peace. I just should have listened to dad, James, and everyone from the beginning and as soon as I found out Steven Clark is married, ran away from him as far and as fast as I could. 

I just want to thank all of you for your expressions of love and support through all of this. All of you have shown me so much love and support and I sincerely appreciate it with all my heart. I want to thank my beloved James for his unconditional love and for staying with me and staying beside me through everything. James is my everything and he has shown me what true love really is. 

Steven Clark and my experiences with him was one of my life's lessons on my journey through life and has only enriched me and made me stronger. It has made me realize that a person like him that has no love or respect for me does not deserve a place in my life. Please always try to see the positive in your life lessons too and grow from them like I have from this life lesson. ~ Joshua

                              November 5, 2015

11/05/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I feel so pretty in pink today! ;) I wanted to thank everyone that attended my TrevorSpace group and the turnout was wonderful! It was nice seeing all of you there and I want to thank all of you for your wonderful participation!

I just uploaded a new video of James, Adam, and I and are version of Uptown Funk! I hope all of you enjoy it as much as we enjoyed performing it. 

James and I want to thank all of you for your love, concern, and support over the recent events that transpired in our lives. I especially want to thank James for his continued love and devotion and his understanding. This has taught me that once you have true and unconditional love to never let anyone interfere with that in any way, shape, or form. Thank you my beloved James for standing by me and with me through all of this.

The events that transpired have only helped me to grow through my journey in life and have made me stronger and more appreciative of what true love is. Some people like Steven will never know true love or understand the concept. Thank you again my beloved James for your love and understanding! ~ Joshua

                        November 3, 2015

11/3/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I just wanted to remind all of you that my TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time. James, Adam, and I will be showing a special movie presentation and will have our webcam on. I invite you to turn your webcams on too and please remember to bring popcorn, snacks, and drinks! ;) Have a beautiful day everyone and I look forward to seeing all of you tonight! ~ Joshua

                                    October 14, 2015

"Everybody's journey is individual. If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in love with a boy. The fact that many Americans consider it a disease says more about them than it does about homosexuality."  -James Baldwin

                                            October 10, 2015

10/10/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I am sincerely sorry that I have not updated in quite some time! I have just been extremely busy and barely have a moment to do all the things I want to do and need to do. I also have some life-changes occurring in my life right now that a lot of my time is devoted to. They are all positive, beautiful, and wonderful life-changes and I am truly blessed! I hope my mass emailings have been enough to keep all of you up-to-date.

I want to remind everyone that no matter what life-changes you face on your journey, to always keep an open-heart and an open-mind and embrace them for what they are. ~ Joshua

                             September 18, 2015

09/18/05 Hello everyone and welcome to my site! Please forgive me that I have not had the opportunity to update as much as I would have liked to lately. I have spent the majority of the past week in Los Angeles with a friend. For those of you that are on the email list I hope my mass emailings have been keeping you up-to-date with the situation to your satisfaction. 

I have just been extremely busy lately with a lot going on in my life. But everything is going wonderfully well even with the current situation I am going through. For those of you that have been sending me messages of support and showing your love and concern for me, I sincerely thank you and appreciate it with all my heart. 

Sometimes on our journey through life we all face some very difficult moments and times. But it is how we face these moments that matter. We must always try to remain positive and realize that these moments only help us to become better people and stronger on our journey through life. This in turn hopefully helps other people in the process too. 

Have a beautiful day everyone and I will update again soon! 
~ Joshua

                                   September 10, 2015

Josh is unable to update at this moment and wanted me to express his sincere apologies to all of you. I will host his group tomorrow for him. I hope to see all of you there. - Adam

September 3, 2015

                            September 2, 2015 

"Every young person — no matter who they are or what they they look like or what gender they identify as — deserves to be valued and loved for who they are." ~ Barack Obama 

                        August 30, 2015

08/30/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I am so sorry that I haven't been able to update for a while, but I have been extremely busy lately. Please for give me and hopefully my mass emailings kept all of you up-to-date adequately. Everything is going wonderfully though although very hectic and an extremely full schedule lately. 

I have uploaded some new videos and pictures that many of you have requested. I hope all of you enjoy them! And please don't laugh at my rendition of Uptown Funk as I am not Mark Ronson or Bruno Mars :P. I just love that song and I can only hope to play it even remotely close to their tremendous abilities one day.

My TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time and the subject will be "Gay Youth and Gay-Straight Alliances." I will also be showing the film that was voted by all of you as being the most popular of the ones listed on the ballot. Please bring your popcorn, snacks, and beverages and turn on your webcams too.

Have a beautiful day everyone and I will see all of you tonight! 
~ Joshua

                                         August 16, 2015






An open message to Steven Clark of Sandy Springs, GA and his wife Myra of Cummings (heh heh have to love that name), GA, James, and everyone:






If you ever have the misfortune of meeting Steven Clark, steer clear! He and I had a love affair for the past year. Please forgive me James and thank you for standing by my side and with me the entire time my love. He was a person that seemed so genuine and sincere in his words. But he left a lot to be desired in his actions. Recently, over the past few months, I was having my suspicions he was cheating on me and lying to me. I confirmed these numerous times, even by his own admission to a certain event and night. but I tolerated it until today. It was very obvious today he was always nothing but a liar to me and cheated on me. 






I therefore ended our relationship completely and for good today. Enough is enough as they say. Even after the emotional and mental abuse he put me through from his actions, lack of actions, cheating on me, and lying to me; I am not as upset as I thought I would be. I was at first, but then I realized he actually helped me in his own roundabout way. He actually has made me stronger. This to me was just one of my life lessons on my journey that has helped me to grow and make me stronger. Please learn from my experience and whatever happens in your life, please grow from it and become stronger.






The following is my final message that I sent to him ending things we once had completely:






 If you were home, you would have gone inside, taken that picture of Gracie, said goodnight, and left kik open like usual. You would not have become defensive. Being defensive shows you were proven to be caught this time for good in your lies and being a cheater. Please never insult my intelligence or play games with me ever again. You obviously never really loved me or wanted us to spend our lives together.

I don't care what you did to me. I knew this moment was coming for quite awhile. You and your lying to me and cheating on me were leading up to this moment.

But what you did to Adam is truly reprehensible. Shame on you. I hope you take better care of your boys Ian and Adrian. 

I should have listened to dad, James, and everyone from the beginning not to get involved with a married man. My own fault for not doing so. But I really thought you loved me. You were so convincing with your words. And love truly is blind. I know even though you lied to me, cheated on me, and just played games with me I will still always have love for you and a special place in my heart for you (foolish me). 

After your lying to me and cheating on me and your behavior yesterday and today, it is time I break up with you and leave you for good. Just please never do this to anyone else, especially when they loved you like I did. Get the professional mental help you need. Stay away from boys and guys my age. Don't play with people's feelings and emotions again.

I will not say that word. I will just say see you in the next life maybe.

                               August 10, 2015

08/10/15 Hello everyone and welcome! Gosh! I am so sorry I haven't been able to update for the past week! My schedule has just been really hectic and busy. I hope my mass emailings kept everyone up-to-date as best as possible though. 

James, Adam, and I had a wonderful time in Mexico! We completely enjoyed the three days we spent there! I just uploaded some pictures and videos of our vacation there and i hope all of you enjoy them.

I have been extremely busy this past week with our vacation in Mexico, work, helping one of my friends with a situation he is going through, and all my other activities. I had to work a 12 hour day yesterday and i have to work again today. But those 12-hour days are okay since I love where I work.

I hope all of you have a beautiful and peaceful day and week and I will update again as soon as possible. You may be wondering why pink today? Let's just say I feel pretty in pink ;). haha just being silly. ~ Joshua

                                        August 1, 2015

08/01/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope all of you are having a wonderful weekend! I just wanted to remind everyone that my TrevorSpace group will meet tomorrow (Sunday) night at the designated time. James, Adam, and I are going down to Tijuana today and spending the weekend, but Devon has graciously agreed to host for me. Please plan on attending as scheduled.

I wish all of you a beautiful, wonderful, and safe weekend and I will update again as soon as possible! ~ Joshua

                                 July 29, 2015

07/29/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope all of you are having a wonderful week so far! My week has been wonderful although quite busy with work and my other responsibilities. At least this is "hump day" and I love receiving a good humping ;) haha I'm a dork.

It's so hard to believe this month is almost over already! It seems to have gone by so fast! It seems like time can sometimes slip by so fast and before we know it!

I have been enjoying my summer break tremendously, but I actually look forward to school starting back next month. Yes, I am a geek and a dork all in one :P

On June 26, 2015 marriage equality became the law of the land! Things really do get better! If you already haven't taken the pledge at the "It Gets Better Project website, please do so now. We all deserve respect and to not be bullied or hated and this pledge shows that you will stand up for LGBT. It only takes a moment of your time to take this pledge so please do so now. The link to their website is:

http://www.itgetsbetter.org

Have a beautiful rest of the week and I will update again very soon! ~ Joshua

                                          July 26, 2015

"Silence kills the soul; it diminishes its possibilities to rise and fly and explore. Silence withers what makes you human. The soul shrinks, until it’s nothing." ~ Marlon Riggs

                                      July 23, 2015

07/23/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope all of you are having a beautiful and wonderful week so far! It's almost the weekend! Yay! My week has been very busy with work and other activities, but a very wonderful week!

I just wanted to remind everyone that I will be hosting y TrevorSpace group tomorrow night at the designated time. I hope to see everyone there!

Please always remember to be who you are and to be proud of the person you are. Do not let anyone tell you anything different, ever. Please do not let people tell you who you should be or how you should be. We are all unique individuals and should not let people just tolerate us because we may be "different" in their views. One of my favorite quotes about this is by Jean Cocteau and is as follows:

" I'm not willing to be tolerated. That wounds my love of love and liberty"

Please remember to not just let someone tolerate you. If they love you, care about you, and respect you; they will show this in their words and actions. ~ Joshua

                          July 15, 2015 

07/15/15 Hello everyone and welcome! Today is "hump day" and I love a good humping! lol just being silly ;). I hope all of you are having a beautiful and wonderful week so far! Mine is going wonderfully now! James, Adam, and I have made plans for our trip down to Mexico for this weekend after having to postpone it previously. It is something we are so looking forward to!

I will be hosting my TrevorSpace group tonight after work at the designated time so I hope to see all of you there! I will be showing a short movie with my webcam on, so please turn on your webcams too if you want. And remember to bring snacks and beverages! ;)

"Everybody's journey is individual. If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in love with a boy. The fact that many Americans consider it a disease says more about them than it does about homosexuality" 
~ James Baldwin

Have a beautiful day everyone and I will see you tonight! ~ Joshua

                                 July 07, 2015

07/07/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope all of you are having a wonderful week so far! James, Adam, and I are just enjoying our summer break and having a wonderful time! Today we are going to the San Diego Zoo and spend the day there. All of you know how much I love animals so going to the zoo is something I always look forward to. Whatever your plans are, please be safe and have a beautiful day!

I will be hosting my TrevorSpace group tomorrow night at the designated time. The topic will be "LGBT Youth and Sources of Support." I look forward to seeing all of you tomorrow night! 
~ Joshua

                                                       July 04,2015

                                  Happy Fourth of July everyone!

07/04/15 I hope everyone is having a wonderful and safe Fourth of July weekend so far! James, Adam, and I went to see the fireworks display in San Ysidro last night and it was amazing! We all had a wonderful time and completely enjoyed ourselves.

Tonight we will be seeing the fireworks at SeaWorld after my long workday. I have to work today from 10-10 which sucks, I like sucking things too ;), but at least I love my job. James and Adam will be spending the day at the park and will meet me when my shift is over so we can watch the fireworks together at 10:30.

Whatever your plans are for today and this weekend, please be safe and have a wonderful time! ~ Joshua

                                             June 27, 2015

06/27/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I just wanted to let everyone know that James, Adam, and I arrive safely back in San Diego yesterday. The past week in St. Louis went extremely well and we all had a wonderful time. It was wonderful seeing our parents and friends there and all the activities we did. One of the best was our day spent at Six Flags. That has always been one of my favorite places to go and it was a wonderful day spent there. 

All the reasons for going back to St. Louis went extremely well too and were all taken care of without difficulty. As I said before leaving, it is all how we face our own journeys. Please always remain positive and optimistic about your own personal journeys through life too no matter what they may be. 

I will be hosting my TrevorSpace group tomorrow night at the designated time so please plan on attending. I will be showing a short movie about LGBT youth that I am sure all of you will enjoy, so please bring your popcorn and soda ;). Have a beautiful weekend everyone and I will see all of you tomorrow! ~ Joshua

                                June 20, 2015

06/20/15 Hello everyone and happy weekend! I hope all of you have the most beautiful weekend ever! James, Adam, and I had to fly back to St. Louis late Thursday night/early Friday morning because of a personal situation. I will go into more detail in a mass emailing to all of you. We had to postpone our trip to Mexico that we had planned for this weekend, but we are hoping we will be able to go next weekend or soon thereafter. I will keep you updated. 

It is wonderful being back in St. Louis and seeing my parents and friends, but I just wish the circumstances were different. We all face our own journeys through life and I am facing one of my journeys right now. As I always tell all of you, it is how we face that journey that matters. I will stay strong, positive, and optimistic about the journey I am facing now. Please always be strong, positive, and optimistic about yours too. I will keep you updated as much as possible ~ Joshua

June 19, 2015

Happy Anniversary My Love! 

Today makes 3 years and 10 months that you and I have been together my love! August 19, 2011 will always be the most memorable and beautiful day of my life. It is the day you and I professed our love for each other and began our relationship. Thank you for standing by my side and with me through everything. You and your love, compassion, caring, and understanding are truly gifts to me. I love you with all my heart, soul, mind, and entire being my beautiful James!
~ Joshua


                           June 13, 2015

06/13/15 Hello everyone and welcome! This past week was extremely busy and hectic for me so I am so sorry I didn't update during that period. It was my finals week and last week of this quarter, Yesterday was my last final of the week and I have another quarter behind me!

Today and tomorrow are commencement ceremonies and celebrations so I will be attending some of those this weekend. This quarter went by so fast and it is hard to believe it is summer break already. I will post some videos and pictures of the ceremonies as many of you have specified that you want these.

Have a beautiful weekend everyone and I will update again soon! ~ Joshua

                                        June 05, 2015  

06/05/15 Hello everyone and happy weekend! I hope all of you had a wonderful week and have the most amazing and beautiful weekend ever! James, Adam, and I will be leaving tonight after school for a weekend getaway to Tijuana. We will be back late Sunday night hopefully in time for my TrevorSpace group. If we are not back in time, please still attend as Shane has graciously agreed to host if necessary.

It is so hard to believe this Quarter at college is almost over. Next week is finals week and commencement already! I am looking forward to my Summer break, but I will miss attending my classes as well. I know, I am a geek for liking school :P

Have a beautiful weekend and remember you are unique, special, and loved! ~ Joshua

                              June 01, 2015

06/01/15 Hello everyone and welcome! Gosh, can you believe it is June already! There are only two more weeks left in this Quarter at college and then I will be on my Summer break. May seemed to go by so quickly!

I just wanted to thank everyone for their wonderful compliments regarding my latest video! I was humbled by all of your beautiful words and they really mean a lot to me.

I also want to remind everyone about our TrevorSpace group tonight. It will take place at the designated time and I look forward to seeing all of you there!

Have a beautiful day and I will see you tonight! ~ Joshua

                                              May 26, 2015

05/26/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I am sorry that I haven't been able to update much this week except for the mass emailings. It was just a very busy week and my schedule has been extremely tight. 

James, Adam, and I went to Los Angeles for the Memorial Day weekend to spend it with some of our friends. We had a wonderful time and enjoyed it immensely! We did some swimming, hanging out on the beach, had a barbecue, went to the zoo, and watched the fireworks display. Whatever you did for your Memorial Day weekend, I hope it was wonderful and you had a great time too!

It was a nice three-day weekend but back to the normal routine of college classes and everything. I wish all of you a wonderful week and I will update again very soon! Love you all! ~ Joshua

                          May 20, 2015

05/20/15 Hello everyone and happy hump day! I always love to receive a happy humping! ;) I'm also a dork. 

I just wanted to thank everyone that attended my TrevorSpace group. The turnout was wonderful and I appreciate all of your participation. 

Classes are going well as is everything else. I am just extremely busy and my schedule is hectic, so please forgive me that I am unable to update as much as you have been requesting. 

Have a beautiful day everyone and I will update again as soon as possible! Please remember to always be yourself and be the special and unique individual you are meant to be. ~ Joshua

                                     May 16, 2015

05/16/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope all of you are having a wonderful weekend so far! James, Adam, and I saw "Mad max Fury Road" at the movies last night and it was awesome! If you like those types of movies I highly recommend it.

I want to quickly remind everyone that my TrevorSpace group will meet tomorrow night at the designated time. It is open discussion night so we will talk about anything and everything.

I also wanted to thank everyone for their very beautiful and kind words regarding my latest video! I have to admit that was one of the more difficult songs for me to learn to play and it took me numerous times to get it right.

Everything is going wonderfully although very hectic and busy. Classes are going extremely well and so is work. I have to work this weekend but as you know I actually love where I work at. Have a beautiful day everyone and I will update again soon ~ Joshua

                                          May 12, 2015


There will not be a magic day when we wake up and it’s now okay to express ourselves publicly.  We make that day by doing things publicly until it’s simply the way things are.”

                                         -Tammy Baldwin

                                May 10, 2015

05/10/15 Hello everyone and welcome! Why pink today you may ask? It matches part of my outfit I am wearing and I am feeling very pretty in pink today ;).

James, Adam, and I are going to the beach for the day to do some swimming and surfing.. We are meeting a couple of our friends there and we are going to make an all-day event of it and watch the sunset tonight. It is one of our favorite things to do!

I sincerely hope that wherever your journey takes you it is full of love and filled with beautiful moments. Please remember that you are all special and unique individuals no matter how badly some people may treat you. Never let anyone tell you differently or try and hurt you or play with your feelings and emotions. Everyone of us, you and I, are always loved by someone and cared for. I love all of you and care for all of you. Everyone in the LGBT community loves you, cares for you, and supports you too! 

Have a beautiful day everyone and I will update again as soon as possible! ~ Joshua

                                  May 07, 2015

05/07/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I just wanted to make a quick update thanking all of you that attended my TrevorSpace group this past Sunday. The turnout was wonderful and I appreciate all of your great participation! 

I also want to thank all of you for your wonderful messages regarding my latest video! I love that song and playing it on piano was something I really enjoyed. I know I made a couple of mistakes, but I sincerely thank you for such wonderful comments!

The Spring Quarter at college is going extremely well and I am enjoying all of my classes. Between college, work, and everything else I am extremely busy, so please forgive me if I am at times not able to update as often as I would like to. Have a beautiful day and be safe! ~ Joshua

                    May 03, 2015

05/03/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope everyone is having a 
beautiful and wonderful weekend so far! James, Adam, and I spent the majority of yesterday at the beach with a couple of our friends swimming and surfing. We had a wonderful time but poor Adam banged his knee on a rock and got a pretty deep cut. He is alright though and just fine today.

I just wanted to remind everyone that my TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time. It is movie night so bring your popcorn and beverages! ;) I will have my webcam on the entire time and I invite you to turn yours on too.

I also wanted to thank everyone for such wonderful feedback regarding the short story I wrote that everyone received in the mass emailing. To answer your questions, I was asked by 'Youth Resource' to become a contributing writer at their website. I was honored and humbled to do so. That was my first writing for them and I am now in the process of doing more stories for them. They are a wonderful organization for other LGBT youth and the link below is to their site. Please take the time to visit their site when you can.

Have a beautiful day everyone and I will see you tonight! ~ Joshua

                    http://www.youthresource.org/


                                                 May 01, 2015

"I'm a supporter of gay rights.  And not a closet supporter either.  From the time I was a kid, I have never been able to understand attacks upon the gay community.  There are so many qualities that make up a human being... by the time I get through with all the things that I really admire about people, what they do with their private parts is probably so low on the list that it is irrelevant."  ~Paul Newman

                          April 23, 2015

04/23/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope everyone is having a beautiful week so far! My week has been wonderful although extremely busy, so please forgive me for not updating as much as you have been requesting. I am extremely busy with work, and I also started taking an art class at a local art gallery and class. I have always loved to paint, so I thought it would be a wonderful experience during my break from college. I love it so far and it has been very rewarding and enriching.

I am also busy with the usual things such as swimming and surfing so my schedule is usually pretty busy and full. James has really become the accomplished surfer! He is much better at it than I am. I am so proud of him for his surfing ability and for everything! Adam is loving his part-time job and really enjoys the days he is able to go into work. I of course love my job and I look forward to going to it and working with the animals every day.

I want to thank all of you for your patience and understanding about my delays in updating. I will update again as soon as I possibly can. Have a beautiful day and remember you are special and beautiful, because you are you! ~ Joshua

April 18, 2015

"Everybody's journey is individual. If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in love with a boy. The fact that many Americans consider it a disease says more about them than it does about homosexuality."
~James Baldwin

                                   April 15, 2015

04/15/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I just wanted to make a quick update and thank all of you that attended my TrevorSpace group this past Sunday! The turnout was wonderful and your participation was exceptional! I want to thank all of you for your wonderful comments regarding my video presentation and my piano playing!

I am sorry that my updates are not as frequent as all of you have been requesting. Even though I am on break and in-between Quarters at college, I have just been extremely bust lately. I went back to my previous place of employment until the next Quarter at college begins, so I am very busy with that. I will try and update more frequently though as you have been requesting.

James has completely recovered from his illness and I sincerely appreciate all of your best wishes and kind thoughts! Adam has taken a part-time job for the Summer and really loves it! I will keep all of you informed and I hope everyone has a beautiful and wonderful rest of the week! ~ Joshua

                                   April 12, 2015

"The most violent element in society is ignorance." ~ Emma Goldman

04/12/15 Hello everyone! I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend! I just wanted to quickly remind everyone that my TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time. It will be open discussion night so we will talk about anything and everything. James, Adam, and I have prepared a special surprise video presentation which I hope you will all enjoy! I look forward to seeing all of you tonight! ~ Joshua

                            April 08, 2015

04/08/15 Hello everyone and welcome! I hope everyone is having a wonderful week so far! Today is Wednesday already, also known as "hump day." I love receiving a good humping ;). I am a dork and just being silly :P.

I am truly sorry that I haven't been able to update until today and that I haven't been able to reply to all of your messages as of yet. James got really sick the day after we arrived back from Mexico and was in then hospital for three days. I spent every moment I was able to in his room, and when I wasn't allowed in his room I stayed in slept in the waiting area. He is perfectly fine now though and everything is all right, thank God!

Thank you for all of your wonderful messages regarding the pictures and videos I uploaded to the "Members Area.." I still have some more to upload and I will do that as soon as possible. And thank you for the compliments regarding the way I looked in the sombrero :P.

Have a beautiful rest of the week and I will update again soon! 
                                 ~ Joshua

                                     April 02, 2015

04/02/15 Hello everyone! I just wanted to let everyone know that James, Adam, and I arrived back from our vacation in Mexico safely! I just uploaded some videos and pictures from our vacation and I am in the process of uploading more at this moment. Please don't laugh at the way I look in the one video wearing the sombrero :P James bought it for me and wanted me to wear it that day.

I am also in the process of replying to all of your emails and messages. Please be patient until I am able to respond to them all and I thank all of you for such beautiful and wonderful messages!

My TrevorSpace group will meet this Sunday night and I look forward to seeing everyone there! Have a beautiful week and i will update again soon!
~ Joshua

                              March 29, 2015


03/29/15 Hello everyone! I hope all of you are having a wonderful weekend! I am sorry I haven't bed able to update as much this past week, but James, Adam, and I are on vacation and I just haven't had the opportunity to do so until now. We will be flying back tomorrow and I will upload the pictures and videos I took of us and our vacation then. We are having a wonderful time here and are completely enjoying it! 

I also wanted to thank everyone that attended my TrevorSpace group last Sunday! The turnout and your participation was wonderful! A special thank you to Shane for his involvement and the link and information he provided! Love you Shane!

There is a wonderful quote that sums up the discussion we had Sunday night:

There will not be a magic day when we wake up and it’s now okay to express ourselves publicly.  We make that day by doing things publicly until it’s simply the way things are.” ~ Tammy Baldwin


This is a wonderful quote that Shane brought to our attention and something we all need to remember and to practice. We need to make things happen and be proud of who we are, no matter what our sexuality.!


Have a beautiful day everyone and i will update again soon! ~ Joshua



                                            March 22, 2015

03/22/15 Hello everyone! I hope all of you are having a wonderful weekend so far! My weekend is going beautifully and I just wanted to remind everyone that my TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time. The subject will be 'LGBT Youth and Support from Peers' I will be also showing a movie so please bring your snacks and beverages :).

I just finished my finals week at college this past week and I am now looking forward to my break before the next Quarter begins. James, Adam, and I will be taking a little vacation for a week, so please forgive me if I am unable to update as much as I would like to during that period. We are leaving tomorrow and will arrive back the following Monday. I will take and post some pictures and videos for everyone when we arrive back too.

Have a beautiful day and week and I will see all of you tonight! ~ Joshua

                                                March 11, 2015

03/11/15 Hello everyone! I hope all of you are having a wonderful week so far! My week is going extremely well although very busy and hectic. This quarter at college is quickly winding down and Final Exams are next week already, so I have been doing a lot of studying and preparations for those. In the little free time I have available at the moment, James, Adam, and I have been swimming, hanging out at the beach, and the usual things we love to do together and with friends. 

Today is "hump day" and I always love a good humping ;). I'm a dork :). I hope all of you have a wonderful rest of the week and I will update again as soon as possible! ~ Joshua

March 09, 2015

"Openly Gay Celebrities"

We are not alone

                                            March 07, 2015

03/07/15 Hello and happy weekend everyone! I hope all of you had a wonderful week and I hope you have a beautiful and wonderful weekend! My week went extremely well and I was able to accomplish a lot of the things I wanted to do. James, Adam, and I will be spending today and tomorrow at a friend's house in Los Angeles, but I will be back in time tomorrow night to host my TrevorSpace group. We will have an open discussion and just talk about anything you desire. I will also be showing a short movie, so please bring your snacks and beverages ;).

Have a beautiful, wonderful, and safe weekend and I will see all of you tomorrow night! ~ Joshua

 

"Rather than ignore those who choose to publish their opinions without actually talking to me, I am happy to dispel any rumors or misconceptions and am quite proud to say that I am a very content gay man living my life to the fullest and feel most fortunate to be working with wonderful people in the business I love." ~ Neil Patrick Harris

March 05, 2015

"I’m not willing to be tolerated. That wounds my love of love and liberty."

~Jean Cocteau

                                                 February 26, 2015

02/26/15 Hello everyone! I hope everyone is having a wonderful week so far! My week has been beautiful although very hectic. It has been an extremely busy week with college, helping one of my friends and his mom pack for their upcoming move, and everything else I have going on at the moment. I just wanted to make a quick update to thank everyone that attended my TrevorSpace group. The turnout was wonderful and I sincerely appreciate all of your comments and participation! 

I also wanted to thank all of you that sent such wonderful and beautiful messages regarding my latest video I uploaded regarding my rendition of Animals by Maroon 5. I know I made a few mistakes on my playing, but I wanted to upload it uncensored and raw. I sincerely appreciate all of your positive messages and wonderful feedback regarding my version of it. Oh, why pink you may ask? For those of you that saw my video, you already know ;).

Have a beautiful rest of the week everyone and I will update again soon! 
                                                      ~ Joshua

                             February 22, 2015

02/22/15 Hello everyone! I hope everyone is having a beautiful and wonderful weekend! I just wanted to make a quick update to remind everyone that my TrevorSpace will meet tonight at the designated time. I will be showing a short film and the topic is open discussion tonight. We will just enjoy the movie and talk about anything and everything. Have a beautiful day and I will see all of you tonight! ~ Joshua

February 19, 2015

"If God had wanted me otherwise, He would have created me otherwise."
Johann von Goethe

                                                 February 18, 2015

02/18/15 Hello everyone! I just wanted to make a quick update and thank everyone for attending my TrevorSpace meeting this past Monday. It was a wonderful turnout and I thank all of you that attended! I also thank all of you for the Happy Birthday wishes! I had a wonderful birthday and James, Adam, and I had the best time spending the weekend in Los Angeles! I will upload some photos and videos of our weekend there as soon as possible. Have a beautiful day and week everyone and I will update again soon! ~ Joshua

                              February 13, 2015

02/13/15 Happy weekend everyone! No matter what you may have planned this weekend, please have a very safe and fun weekend! James, Adam, and I are going to Los Angeles tomorrow to visit the Los Angeles Zoo. I am really excited because as most of you know I love animals! This is my first opportunity to visit the Los Angeles Zoo and I am really looking forward to it! We will be spending the entire weekend in Los Angeles to celebrate Valentine's Day and my birthday which is on Monday. It was a very special surprise that James and Adam both arranged for me. We will arrive back Monday evening and I will upload any pictures and videos we take while there. At least the acceptable ones ;)

There is no school on Monday because of the holiday, so I also wanted to remind everyone that my TrevorSpace group will meet at the designated time Monday night. A short film about LGBT youth on campus will be shown, so please bring your popcorn and beverages ;). I will have my webcam on during the movie presentation and I invite you to turn yours on too. Have a beautiful weekend everyone and I will see you Monday! ~ Joshua

February 08, 2015

"I do not have to be a woman to believe in women’s rights.  I do not have to be an Asian, an African American, a Latino, or Native-American to believe in civil rights.  I do not have to be gay to believe in gay, lesbian and bisexual rights.  But I do have to be a human being to believe in human rights."
~ activism saying

Just a quick reminder that my TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time. James, Adam, and I are currently at a friend's house in the Los Angeles area but we should be back in time tonight for me to be able to host. If not, Shane has considerately agreed to host for me.
~ Joshua

February 03, 2015

Stephen Colbert - It Gets Better

Message to LGBT youth

                                        February 01. 2015

02/01/15 I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend so far! My weekend has been wonderful so far although very busy. One of my best friend's mom just recently sold her house so James, Adam, and I spent the majority of the day yesterday helping her organize things. We also had a wonderful dinner at her house and then went to my favorite cooffehouse and spent a good part of the evening there.

Today there is a special exhibit on campus examining the roots of injustice and the possible steps we can all take to eliminate such things. It is an exhibit in regards to the Civil Rights Movement and the terrible injustice that so many people still face. 

We are all promised the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. But the promise of liberty and justice does not seem to always fairly apply to all, does it? Together we can all make a difference and make it so everyone is treated with the dignity and respect they deserve and they receive that promise of liberty and justice. 

While this exhibit is about the Civil Rights Movement and African-Americans, the general notions of a fair and just life for all applies to everyone. No matter what your race, sexuality, or ethnicity is: we can all do our part to make it so we all have achieved that promise of liberty and justice. ~ Joshua

                              January 30, 2015

01/30/15 Hello everyone and happy weekend! I hope everyone had a wonderful week and I wish all of you a beautiful and fantastic weekend! Whatever you may have planned this weekend, please be safe and have a wonderful time! ~ Joshua

 

"I wanted to be out so I could relax and be me." ` Melissa Etheridge

                             January 26, 2015

01/26/15 Hello everyone! I am so sorry that I have not updated for quite a few days. I have just been really busy with college and a lot of other things going on in my life at the present time. Everything is going extremely well but I have just had a very hectic and full schedule recently. I just sent out a mass email to everyone for a more detailed and in-depth update.

I wish everyone a beautiful week and I will update again as soon as possible. Have a beautiful day and be safe and be well! ~ Joshua

 

"I’m beautiful in my way ’cause God makes no mistakes. I’m on the right track baby, I was born this way" ~ Lady Gaga

'Born This Way' by Lady Gaga'

January 17, 2015

Broadway Sings for the Trevor Project

'It Gets Better'

                                           January 10, 2015

01/10/15 Hello everyone and I hope you are having a great weekend! I am sorry that I have not updated as often as I would have liked this past week, but I have been extremely busy. The Winter Quarter has begun at college, so I have been devoting the majority of my time to classes and studying. In what little free time I have available; James, Adam, and I have been swimming, visiting friends, and the usual activities that we all enjoy.

I just wanted to remind everyone that my TrevorSpace group will meet tomorrow night at the designated time. Please plan on attending and I look forward to seeing all of you there! ~ Joshua

January 07, 2015

"Everybody's journey is individual. If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in love with a boy. The fact that many Americans consider it a disease says more about them than it does about homosexuality."
~ James Baldwin

                                  January 04, 2015

01/04/15 Hello everyone! I just wanted to make a quick update to remind everyone that my TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time. The main topic will be 'LGBT Youth and Sources For Support.' There will be a short movie shown so please remember to bring your snacks and beverages :) ~ Joshua

"All young people, regardless of sexual orientation or identity, deserve a safe and supportive environment in which to achieve their full potential."
                                           ~ Harvey Milk

                                                         January 03, 2015

01/03/15 Hello everyone and I hope you are having a wonderful weekend! There are times when things do not always go as one had hoped for or planned. Thursday is a perfect example for me in this situation. It was a very long and sleepless night for me wondering and worrying about someone. Not knowing what exactly was going on. If they were all right. Why they were not responding to my messages. Why they were putting me through so much pain and worry.

Even though it may have been something they weren't doing on purpose or intentional. But I was so hurt and in so much pain. But life is not always as we would want or hope for. There are times in our lives that cause a lot of stress, pain, and worry. This past Thursday was one of these times for me. Even though I know he didn't mean to hurt me intentionally, I was and still am hurt. It is so true that we sometimes hurt the ones we love, even though we may not have that intention in mind. 

There is a quote about being hurt by a loved one that I feel helps in a situation like this. It helps me to an extent. Hopefully it will help you too if you are ever hurt by a loved one. ~ Joshua

 

“Pain is a pesky part of being human, I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.” ~ C. JoyBell C.



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                                            December 30, 2014

12/30/14 Hello everyone! I hope everyone is having a wonderful and beautiful day! I just wanted to let everyone know that Adam and I arrived back safely from spending Christmas in St. Louis with our families. 

My TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time. I may not be able to host it myself because of other plans for this evening, but Shane has agreed to host if I am unable to. The main topic will be about receiving support at school from a Gay-Straight Alliance. If your school does not have one, we will discuss the ways in which you can start one at your school. ~ Joshua

"There's nothing wrong with you. There's a lot wrong with the world you live in." ~ Chris Colfer

                                 December 27, 2014

12/27/14 Hello everyone! I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and a Happy Holiday Season! Adam and I had such a wonderful and beautiful Christmas with our families! We enjoyed many wonderful activities and had a joyous Christmas. The most beautiful time was being with our families and loved ones. However you celebrated Christmas, I hope each and every one of you had the most beautiful and joyous time ever!

Adam and I are leaving back to San Diego this afternoon and are getting things packed and getting ready to leave to the airport soon, so please forgive me for the short update. I will update again as soon as possible. Have a beautiful weekend everyone and be safe! ~ Joshua

December 25, 2014

Merry Christmas everyone!

12/25/14 "I will live in the Past, the Present, and the Future! The Spirits of all Three shall strive within me. Oh Jacob Marley! Heaven, and the Christmas Time be praised for this. I say it on my knees, old Jacob, on my knees!" ~ Scrooge in 'A Christmas Carol' by Charles Dickens

December 24, 2014

Twas The Night Before Christmas

December 23, 2014

“The pain started years ago, but I'd lived with it for so long at that point that I'd accepted it as an inevitable part of me.”
Ashley D. Wallis, Leaping

                                                         December 23, 2014

12/23/14 I just wanted to make a quick update to let everyone know Adam and I arrived safely in St. Louis to visit our family and friends. Thank you so very much to everyone that sent their best wishes for our safe flight and safe arrival. It is sincerely appreciated to be shown that kind of love and caring.

Adam and I are having a wonderful time so far and enjoying our visit tremendously! I want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday Season! ~ Joshua

December 21, 2014

 "A child is born straight, gay, or bisexual. Not homophobic and racist."

 

12/21/14 I hope everyone is having a wonderful and safe weekend! Just a quick update to let everyone know that Adam and I will be flying back to St. Louis tomorrow to spend Christmas with our families. I will try to update as frequently as possible during this period.

Whatever your plans are for this Holiday Season, please have the most wonderful time and enjoy every moment of it. Wishing all of you a peaceful and joyous Holiday Season! ~ Joshua

                         December 19, 2014

12/19/14 Hello everyone and happy weekend! I had my last final exam of the semester yesterday and I am very confident I will receive A's on everything. It is sort of a surreal feeling when a semester is all of a sudden over like that, but a wonderful feeling too after such hard work. Some of my classmates and I met at a restaurant last night for a celebration and get-together and we all had a wonderful time. 

A lot of my classmates and I will be getting together this evening for a dinner and get-together and to just reminisce and hang out. I'm sure we will have a wonderful time and it will be very enjoyable. I also know that there will probably be some moments of sadness for all of us since it will be the last time some of us will be seeing each other for a long time if at all. 

Whatever your plans are for this weekend, please have a wonderful time and be safe! All of you are in my thoughts and prayers! ~ Joshua


                                                         December 15, 2014

12/14/15 Just a quick update to let everyone know that everything is going extremely well. Even though this is a very busy and hectic time in my life, things have been going better than I could ever hope for. This is finals week and I had my first final today which went extremely well and I am sure I will receive an A on it. I have three more final exams this week and then this semester will be over. The entire semester went extremely well and I have enjoyed all of my classes.

Even though I have a lot going on in my life right now and I am very busy and things are hectic, this is just part of my "journey." We all have our own "journey" in life and we all need to make the best of everything. I know that sometimes things can get stressful and feel overwhelming, but we have to remain positive. I have faced quite a few things on my "journey" this past week that at times have been very stressful. But I try to remain positive at all times, even through the difficult moments. Fortunately I have unconditional love from my beloved to always be there for me, love me, and support me. Just like I will always be there for him, love him, and support him. In everything. At all times. His love for me and the unconditional love we share is a true blessing and gift.

It is with the greatest sincerity that I hope and wish that everyone is positive through their "journey" even during the difficult moments. I also hope and wish that everyone has love and support at all times. Even at the times we may not feel we do, it is there ♥ ~ Joshua

December 14, 2014

“Gender preference does not define you. Your spirit defines you.”

                                    December 12, 2014

12/12/14 Happy Friday everyone! I hope everyone had a wonderful week! My week was beautiful although very busy and hectic. There is a lot going on in my life at the present time and final exams are next week, so please forgive me that I haven't been able to update as frequently this week as I would like. It is so hard to believe that this quarter at college is almost over. After final exams next week I will be one step closer to my future goals. We all have our own "journey" in life and I wish everyone the very best on theirs!

Have a wonderful and beautiful Friday and weekend everyone and I will update again as soon as possible! ~ Joshua

 

"Everybody's journey is individual. If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in love with a boy. The fact that many Americans consider it a disease says more about them than it does about homosexuality." ~ James Baldwin

                           December 07, 2014

12/07/14 I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend! My weekend is going extremely well even though very hectic and busy with work and other things. This upcoming week is my last week of classes before finals week so please forgive me in advance if I do not have the opportunity to update as frequently as I would like to the next couple of weeks. I will still try and make quick updates as often as I possibly can.

I want to thank all of you for your support. love, and positive messages I have been receiving and I am in the process of replying to each and every one of them.. Please be patient until I have the opportunity to reply to yours.

My TrevorSpace group will meet tomorrow night at the designated time. Because of prior commitments and my schedule I may not be able to host. But either Adam, James, or Shane will be able to run the group. The main theme and topic will be "LGBT youth and a positive environment." A short film will also be shown so bring your popcorn, snacks, and beverages :).

Have a beautiful day everyone and I will update again as soon as possible!
~ Joshua

" All young people, regardless of sexual orientation or identity, deserve a safe and supportive environment in which to achieve their full potential" 
~ Harvey Milk

December 05, 2014

“This is not a goodbye, my darling, this is a thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go." ~ Nicholas Sparks, Message in a Bottle

                              December 03, 2014

12/03/14 Hello everyone and welcome to December! Wait! Did I just say...December?! It is so hard to believe it is December already. This is one of my favorite times of year and it is sometimes difficult to imagine that it is this time of year already. Time does seem to go by so quickly at times. 

I am sorry that I have not been able to update as frequently as some of you have been requesting. This is just a very hectic and busy period in my life with a lot going on. College, work, preparing for the Holiday, and a lot of other personal situations that some of you are aware of. 

During this time of year most of us are extremely busy like myself. There can be a lot of activities that require our time and attention and that can possibly be stressful at times. Please remember to take things easy when necessary and not to let the stress overwhelm you. One of my favorite quotes regarding the issue of stress is by Hans Selye:

"Adopting the right attitude can convert a negative stress into a positive one"

                                   November 30, 2014

11/30/14 Hello everyone! I hope everyone that celebrates Thanksgiving had a wonderful day of giving thanks and enjoyed the day tremendously! I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. My parents flew in and visited me and it was so wonderful having them here. I prepared the Thanksgiving dinner for them (with help from Adam and mom, as well as buying some of it prepared ahead of time from the store) and this is the first time I have made Thanksgiving dinner. It turned out wonderfully and everyone gave great reviews. 

We also took part in the 'black Friday' shopping extravaganza which was tremendous fun although very exhausting by the time we were done. This is the first year that I really took part in that and it was great fun being with mom and dad for it. 

It was difficult at times, especially on Thanksgiving day for reasons that some of you are aware of, but otherwise a very wonderful Thanksgiving. I thank my beloved Steve for being there for me and for his love and comfort. His love for me and him being there for me are true treasures and blessings that I will always be thankful for.
~ Joshua

                                                      November 23, 2014

11/23/14 I hope everyone is having a beautiful and safe weekend so far! Even though I am working this weekend, I am having a wonderful weekend because I actually love where I work at. 

I was talking to someone that I met at work yesterday that started a conversation with me. We both readily were able to talk with each other as if we already knew each other. We were just immediately at ease with with each other. He openly admitted to me that he was gay after we talked for only a few minutes. I am not sure if he sensed I was or just felt comfortable enough to tell me. 

After telling me he was gay, he said that only three people know his sexuality with me being one of them. This made me feel quite humbled as well as proud that he trusted me enough to tell me. He told me that he just wants to be himself but is very scared to come out to the people in his life and everyone. This is very understandable as coming out can be such a difficult process for a lot of us. 

I told him that there is no rush for him to come out until he is ready to do so. I told him about the wonderful organizations available for support and told him I would always be there for him and to support him. He had tears swell up in his eyes which was a very humbling and touching moment for me. 

I just firmly believe that we are all here for a purpose and that one of mine is to help people as much as I possibly can and make a positive difference in this world. Growing up gay can be very difficult at times with many challenges. But I see it as a blessing for me because I have been given the chance to make a positive difference for which I am truly thankful. 

Being who we are is such a beautiful thing. It is always wonderful when we can truly be ourselves. Please always just be the person you are and be proud of it. For those that do not accept you as you, it is their problem and not yours. One of my favorite quotes regarding being who you are and just being yourself is by Tegan Quin:

 

“You are not a bad person because you are gay. You are you because you are you and you were meant to be you so be you proudly.”

                                               November 22, 2014

11/22/14 I remember when Graeme Taylor first appeared on the 'Ellen Degeneres Show' and how inspiring and motivating it was. Even though these videos and his appearance are more than one year ago, they are still very inspirational. It shows what just one person can do in order to stand up for what they believe in and to help put an end to homophobia in society. ~ Joshua

                                  November 21, 2014

11/21/14 Hello everyone! I am sorry I haven't updated for a few days but I have been extremely busy with my college schedule as well as other things I have going on in my life at this moment. I just wanted to make a quick reminder that my TrevorSpace group will meet at the designated time this coming Sunday. I look forward to seeing everyone there! ~ Joshua

 

"The Bible contains six admonishments to homosexuals and 362 admonishments to heterosexuals.  That doesn't mean that God doesn't love heterosexuals.  It's just that they need more supervision." ~ Lynn Lavner

November 16, 2014



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                            November 14, 2014

11/14/14 Happy weekend everyone! Whatever your plans are for this weekend, please have a wonderful and safe time! My TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time. I look forward to seeing everyone there! ~ Joshua

 

The important thing is not the object of love, but the emotion itself. 
~ Gore Vidal

                                              November 12, 2014

11/12/14 Happy hump day everyone! I like to receive a good humping ;). I am just being silly and being a dork :P.

A lot of people have been sending me messages requesting information about LGBT life and being openly gay at school. I am very fortunate that the majority of my peers accept my sexuality and accept me just as I am. It is a true blessing to be able to be open and just be myself, and still have that kind of acceptance, love, and support. 

But it can be very difficult being openly gay on campus for a lot of LGBT and I have had more than my fair share of negative moments and experiences. The vast majority of high schools and colleges have wonderful LGBT support groups including the college I attend. I have found the LGBT Resource Center at my college to be a wonderful place of support and I have made wonderful friends there too. 

If you feel you need or want support at your high school or on your college campus, please check to see if yours has an LGBT support group. They are wonderful sources to be utilized for support, help, and acceptance. ~ Joshua

                                              November 09, 2014

11/09/14 A close personal friend of mine relayed to me yesterday that he is having some difficulty being gay and still being in the closet. It can be such a difficult time and someone still in the closet can sometimes be overcome with overwhelming feelings. The pressures on gay teens can be very troublesome at times. Keeping secrets, telling lies, and denying things sometimes to those closest to you. Please just remember that everyone is special and worth being loved and cared for just as they are. There is no rush in coming out of the closet. This is something that each individual needs to carefully decide as to when to do this. But for those of you still in the closet, just know that you are loved and cared about and should be accepted just as you are. For the person that you are. Never let anyone convince you otherwise. 
~ Joshua

November 06, 2014

"There's this illusion that homosexuals have sex and heterosexuals fall in love. That's completely untrue. Everybody wants to be loved."
~ Boy George

                                               November 02, 2014

11/02/14 Hello everyone! I hope you are having a wonderful weekend! I just wanted to make a quick update thanking everyone that attended my TrevorSpace group last night. I sincerely apologize for not being able to attend myself, but the dinner/party/get-together at work went much longer than I expected. Adam said the turnout was wonderful though and everyone had a wonderful time.

Growing up gay can be extremely difficult and we can and more than likely will face numerous trials and tribulations along the way. But please always remember that you are very special just being the person that you are. One of my favorite quotes regarding this is by Alex Sanchez:

 

"The pressures on gay teens can be overwhelming-to keep secrets, tell lies, deny who you are, and try to be who you're not. Remember: you are special and worth being cared about, loved, and accepted just as you are. Never, ever let anyone convince you otherwise."

                              November 01, 2014

11/01/14 Happy November and happy weekend everyone! Wait! Did I just say November?! It is so hard to believe it is November already! Time seems to go by so quickly. I hope everyone had a wonderful week and I want to wish everyone a wonderful weekend! I work this weekend but I actually love where I work at so I am looking forward to it. 

I just wanted to let everyone know my TrevorSpace group will meet tonight at the designated time and I look forward to seeing everyone there! Tonight's main topic will be "Growing Up LGBT" with a special movie presentation. 

Have a beautiful day and weekend everyone and please remember to always be yourself. Never let anyone or anything tell you differently or try to change who you are. You are beautiful just as you are. ~ Joshua

October 31, 2014

Happy Halloween!

"If human beings had genuine courage, they'd wear their costumes every day of the year, not just on Halloween"
~ Douglas Coupland