So I'm offically insane. Like, certifiable.

I'm taking 15 units in the spring. I'm doing group leadership which is a total of 6 units, two GE classes and my last capstone class. And then, I'm done. DONE DONE DONE. My schedule also will suck, so I'm just starting to warm up to the idea of having a long-distance relationship with my hubby.

Food wise I haven't been good. Nor have I started going back to meetings. I'm a bad, bad weight watcherer.

I'm not one of those people who has enough to say on a daily basis to update this blog everyday. Or maybe I am and I just totally space/get so busy/forget to. If you check this thing on a regular basis, my humblest apologies. I'm a spaz and I don't deserve you (or your mouse clicks).

But I must tell you, I met Jillypi!!! And she was lovely and fabulous and talks like a sailor and I just love her to bits. This is us on 10/27/05 backstage at the show.

So I am busy doing homework (on a Friday night...god how lame!!), but I wanted to say hi and thanks to Jill (and Jimmy for not killing Lisa!), I had a blast and I can't wait to get together again. MWAH!

Current Mood: Sad, that I'm doing homework on a Friday.
Current Musica: A lil' GNR for the evening. :)

I got my haircut. Just a trim, since I'm trying to grow it out. :) Thought I'd update you.

This weekend was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo busy. Here's the recap:

Thursday: Had an HSSA board meeting at 9pm at the Denny's. I wasn't hungry so I had 3 cups of coffee. Got like zero sleep.

Friday: Woke up, feeling like I had a hangover when no, really it was just my body's way of punishing me for the coffee. Worked and then went with Josh and Melissa to the Dar Williams show. It was so great to be at a Dar show and not get so drunk I passed out (the last time I had seen Dar, it was about 4 months after I started WW. I was down 25 pounds and hadn't been drinking at all. I figured I'd save my points for the alcohol I knew I'd be having that night. Yeah, bad idea. Three drinks later and I'm passed out on the floor of the aptly-named Belly Up club in San Diego. Dar even stopped singing to make sure I was okay).

Saturday: Went to school at 7am to decorate the booth for HSSA for Fall Preview Day at school. We ended up getting second place. Stupid judges! Had our HSSA meeting and then went to Ben & Jerry's with some of the board members for our fundraiser. Saturday night we went to a fundraiser being thrown by Aaron's best chick-friend, Carrie, for the juvenile diabeties research foundation. We won a lot of prizes from the raffle and it was nice to see some of our money go toward a good cause.

Sunday: Spent the morning with my mom and sisters. We don't know what's going on with my mom because she got up and left her doctors appointment last week because she waited over 2 hours to see a doctor and they never even came to check in on her. They are trying to rule out bladder cancer. I'm not freaking out just yet, but I'm mad that she'd leave without even speaking to a doctor, you know? Then I had this thing at school last night because I'm now a member of the Golden Key International Honor Society and last night was the induction ceremony. Yawn...

Alright. It's almost time to go home. Dinner is turkey chili. It's cold and rainy here in So Cal, so it's finally time for chili. YUM! Can't wait.

Current mood: Not looking forward to traffic on the drive home
Current music: A new band we've discovered called Girlyman. They opened for Dar on Friday night. They RULE! Check them out www.girlyman.com.

I need a haircut. I tried to call the salon, but got the machine. One bonus of having Aaron work with Monica is that he can ask her what time she starts at the salon on Thursdays. And the grand answer is...12:30. Sweet, I can go after my internship, because it's right down the street.

I'm having a bad day today. Mark yelled at me this morning and it's totally put me in this funk that I haven't been able to shake all day. GOD DAMNIT! I know that it's not his fault that I'm in this mood--its my stupid brain allowing the words he said to affect me the way that they do. Damnit...like my mom says, "Nobody has the right to make you feel bad without your consent." I did not consent to let anybody make me feel bad today.

Today has been an alright food day. Nothing major, just a lot of noshing. I think I'm going to weigh in on Friday for the first time since January. Which means that I have to go and find my lifetime card. I have no idea where it is. Maybe it's in my old holder. But apparently I don't have to pay for missed meetings, which is good. So I'm excited about that. And I'll probably go in my PJ pants and then just change into jeans at work or at the meeting place even. We'll see how it goes.

Alright, it's almost time to go. Sorry for the completely mind-numbing post about nothing. Like I said, it's been a bad day. And I have a buttload of stuff to do tonight. Pray for my sanity! lol Peace!!

Current mood: Drained
Current music: Spearhead. Dar Williams concert is this week, woo hoo!

What a weekend. Didn't do much of anything, but I'm still pretty tired. Let's Terintino this back, and find out what happened.

The family came over today for a BBQ, and Erin & Thomas just left (it's 715). It was nice, but we're all worried about my mom, who is getting some test results back tomorrow, and her stress is just adding on to all the stress issues she's got going on. (sigh) We'll know tomorrow at 4 what's going on...until then, we wait.

And the Packers just WIPED the field at Lambeau today. 52-3. Alas, Juan and I are tied (1-4 teams), so that $10 isn't his just yet. Hopefully the Angels, now tied with the Yankees at 2-2 (in the game, not the series) will pull it out and win tonight.

Yesterday was a very laid back day. Cleaned up a little in anticipation of the family coming over. Nicole came over and I made dinner and we watched "Clueless," the "Breakfast Club" of our generation. We had cannolis and then watched "Lost" (finally!). All I can say is this: Who are the others? Why did Jack press the button? Where is Claire and the baby? Donde Charlie? How funny was Hurley when he thought Locke was going to enter the wrong code? God, that show is so good!

Friday I went to my high school's homecoming game. It was pretty blah. Went out for a cocktail afterwards--very not high school. And it was quite scary to see kids with lettermen's jackets with the year "08" on the side. I mean, I graduated in 98! Come on! lol...and they're all sluttier and smaller then I remember my classmates being.

Alright, I have to finish checking email and reading for tomorrow. I'm off.

Current mood: Tired, but I have stuff to do, so I'll be awake for as long as I need to be
Current muzack: Red Hot Chili Peppers (who are so freakin' hot in person!)

Holy hell it was hot today. Something like 103(insert little degree symbol here) in Fullerton. However, Aaron and I played hooky today. It was fun. I did have to go to school for my coaching group this morning and then back this afternoon to get a form signed. I've dropped (or am in the process of dropping) my statistics class. I had an academic advising meeting on Tuesday and we decided that I should drop the class--I'm not applying to UCLA (and if I do, I should take stats at IVC or Saddleback), it could really hurt my GPA, and I can take a much easier upper division requirement to fulfill my graduation requirement. I'm 5 classes away from getting my bachelor's degree. FIVE CLASSES...do you know how many fucking classes I've taken?! lol...I transferred with something along the lines of 110 units-technically only 10 shy of my degree, but only 70 counted. I've been going to CSUF for two semesters now. When I graduate, I'll have 123 units, along with my 40 floating units out there in college wasteland. In the intersession (a.k.a. winter break) I'll be taking gender issues in counseling (my final HUSR elective), and in the spring I'll have my last internship, my last HUSR capstone class and two GE requirements that I have to meet before I can graduate. And one of those classes will be like Intro to Dance. I've got senioritis BAD...and I still have 7 months before I graduate.

Onto more WW related topics...:) (thanks if you've managed to make it this far). I'm still planning on going back to meetings. But now I'm debating if I want to go near work during the week, back to Fountain Valley (the best leaders EVER), or try and see if the Fullerton/Placentia meeting center has different leaders from when I last went (...in January). I think I'd like to check out a meeting near work. I know they have meetings on Friday mornings, which I could go to and then just go straight to work. I don't think my bosses would mind. We'll see. I do know that on Saturday I'm going to go and see if my lifetime card is at the Placentia center and I'll have it with me for next week, when I go back.

Speaking of work, we're going to be hiring a new receptionist since Lisa's last day is next Wednesday. If you know anybody in south Orange County who needs a job and is reliable, have them contact me. I want to hire somebody soon--it won't be fair to make Tracy be the only office staff there on Tuesday's and Thursday's when I'm gone, and what if something happens to make her late on those days (like her car accident this morning? And she's fine, it wasn't her fault and her new car is dent/scratch/mark free)...I know that TPTB will drag their feet, so I'm just going to take the bull by the horns and make sure we get somebody in there soon.

Alright kids, I'm outta here. It's 10 and I want to go to bed. G'nite!

Current mood: Content
Current music: Black Eyed Peas. I can no longer watch Pulp Fiction without hearing the lyrics of "Pump it" in my head.

So, I've been a very bad updater. I've been home for a week and this is the first time I've sat down to do my blog! :( I'm sorry I've been not here...just been busy trying to catch up on work, school and the rest of life. New York City was AMAZING!! If you've never been, you must go--you MUST go. Here's what we did, as well as a link to the pictures.

Monday: Lisa and I had a 7am flight, so we were up and at them fairly early. Once we arrived, we took a 45-minute cab ride to the hotel, checked in, changed and went to dinner. We were both fairly tired, so we managed to stay up until 1030 and then crashed.

Tuesday: Went to Columbia University. It was amazing and beautiful and lovely. The buildings were awe-inspiring, the "Columbia squirrel" was darling and the boys were easy on the eyes. After Columbia we went to Time Square, had a martini (Cosmo, to be exact) for lunch and went to get tickets at TKTS for "RENT." I've seen "RENT" 8 times now, and I always said I wanted to see it on Broadway. Well, I got my chance. The guy who played Mark was awesome--second only to Neil Patrick Harris (my first Mark). Nicole was at the hotel by the time the show was over, so we went to the hotel and changed and then went out for pizza.

Wednesday: This was the beginning of our "touristy" day. We went to the Statue of Liberty, which was awesome. I've always wanted to go ever since I was a little girl. We took the ferry over and the day was beyond beautiful. You can only go to the observation level now, so that was a bit disappointing, but it is what it is. After we came back, we went to Ground Zero. Words cannot express the emotion that you feel as you walk up Church Street, amongst the hustle and bustle of lives returned to normal. As you walk down the steps to the subway station, to the right there is an art project on the walls. We felt it would not be right to take pictures...it was an art therapy project done by some of the kids who lost parents and loved ones on 9/11. Just thinking about it makes me teary-eyed. I was surprised by how powerful that spot is.

After we spent our time at Ground Zero, we did what any red-blooded American woman does to make herself feel better--we went shopping. I found myself this GREAT purse that was on clearance (because that's what I do) and then we went back to the hotel. That night we went to Bolo (a Bobby Flay restaurant) and then it was back out to Time Square, where we promptly went back to the Pig 'n Whistle and got drunk thanks to the generosity of some nice guys who bought us our cocktails for the evening.

Thursday: It was a mellow day--we were all pretty tired by then. We made our way down 5th Ave and hit Tiffany & Co., where Lisa bought herself a ring she had been eyeing for the last few years. After that we went to Serendipity, and had their "world famous" frrrrozen hot chocolate. Oh my gosh, they were so good. (And yes, it's the same Serendipity from the John Cusak movie). After that, we headed up to the Bronx and saw the Yankees take on Baltimore. Yankees won, I got a free magnet and we set the alarm clock for 3am because on...

Friday: We woke up at 3am to stand in line at the Today show to see Bon Jovi in Rockerfeller Plaza. They spent 2 hours covering Hurricane Rita (basically Matt Lauer saying the same thing over and over again), we had to stand for like 4 straight hours, Bon Jovi played 3 songs and to top it off ROCKERGURL from the 50+ board was probably standing like 15 feet away and we didn't even know it! After the "show" we went on a quest to find breakfast. We left the plaza around 9am. We walked Greenwhich Village...and walked and walked and walked and walked. We finally settled on this cute little restaurant (only because it was the only one serving breakfast) and then headed back to the hotel because Lisa was leaving that afternoon and still had to pack. We were all tired and cranky at that point--I mean three hours of sleep will do that to a group of people, you know? So after Lisa left, Nicole and I decided to take it easy. We took the train to 5th Ave because we wanted to check out the Plaza--which is now closed and will soon be turned into condos. We went to F.A.O. Schwartz and had an egg cream, and played on the big "Big" piano. It was a blast. After that, we went to the Empire State building, which was really interesting, but I kind of wish we had seen it during the day to see the whole city--but it sure was pretty up there with all the lights. Then we did some souvenir shopping and then went and packed and got ready for Saturday.

Saturday: Took it easy. Got breakfast, hung out, walked around a little. Came home. :(

But now we're back and that's my story. We took the subway the entire time and walked when we weren't on a train-I managed to maintain! I ate my way through the Big Apple and didn't gain a pound. It was awesome. But I've spent the last hour and 45 minutes putting new music onto my iTunes--and I still have to finish a paper and it's nearly midnight. So I bid you farewell with the promises of keeping this thing updated more regularly.

G'night and peace!
Jamie

Current mood: Tired
Current music: The humming of the dryer

Sorry for the lack of updates 'round these parts as of late. I've been muy busy with work and school and internships and all things married. Speaking of married, I wanted to let you know that things are going REALLY great with me and Aaron. I know that for awhile things were bad, but they seemed to have turned around for now, and it's awesome. It's like it used to be, and it feels sooooo good. :)

School is kicking my ass. It's only week 3 but still. Papers and groups and studying and reading...only one more year left, right? NOPE. I graduate in May and then it's off to graduate school. I'm excited and don't mind putting in a hard day's work, but it's tough--I won't lie. However, this year I'm not letting bad food choices run my life. Nope, I'm working hard and making good food choices.

Alright, I'm rambling and not making much sense. And I need to go to the bank and get some caffine. :) Have a good ya'll.

Current mood: Happy. For the first time in a long time.
Current music: Tracy's chatting.

Holy Hell...it's almost September. You know what that means? It's almost time for New York City! Lisa and I leave on the 19th, and I'm so excited. I try not to be lame, but I am. I'm giddy.

This week has been way stressful. School is eating up every waking moment. Luckily it's a three-day weekend, but I'm not sure I'm doing more then poker on Sunday. Aaron's Uncle Owen had open-heart surgery on Monday, so we may go up and see him this weekend. Other then that, I'm reading, writing, cleaning and relaxing. I may go lay out poooooolside on Saturday. Exciting weekend, no?

I talked to my mom last night and she told me that my Uncle Buck (yes, really...and it was long before the movie) and Aunt Nancy were in Gulfport, Miss., this weekend for a wedding. Luckily they listened to my aunt's gut instinct to get the hell out of dodge and missed the hurricane. Most of my mom's side of the family (aunts, uncles and cousins) live in New Orleans. My great-grandmother is buried there. It's all underwater. It's so horrific to see the images on the news--the destruction, the water, little old lady in a boat being evacuated from her nursing home, the looting. There are just somethings about human nature I don't understand, and the looters are one of them. How, in the face of all this destruction, can you not want to do good? How can you only focus on doing something so horrible? I heard on the Today show this morning that an armed looter shot a police officer, who is now in critical condition.

Now, I'm no fan of "the man," but you don't get to shoot police officers. You just don't. Yeah, there are a few cops who are dicks, but let's be honest. Most of these guys would rather be leaving the city too, but they are doing their JOB and are staying behind, trying to rescue your sorry ass. Don't make their work any harder for them then it already is. I hope that the looters who were caught on camera (good job!) are found and prosecuted and instead of doing jail time, have to do community service, cleaning up the wreckage and have to deal with the devistation first hand. If you're going to take advantage, then you deserve everything you get.

I'm getting off my high horse now to do some work. :) Have a good day all!

Current mood: Frustrated
Current music: "Middle of Nowhere"...how ironic.

Well, the first week of school is over. My eyes feel like closing every moment. I'm sooooooo tired. And yet still making good food choices! YEA!!! Last night Aaron and I went to KFC (one, it was too hot too cook. two, I was too GD tired to cook) and I actually planned my meal out and didn't get chicken, but the chicken honey bbq sang-witch (lol...Dane Cook. He is a silly bitch). It was surprisingly good and the mashed potatoes and gravy (3 points!) were awesome. The only thing that I didn't count was my bite of Aaron's drumstick (his CHICKEN, you sicko!) and a bite of biscut. I figured that walking around the courthouse all day probably worked that off for me, so I wasn't too worried. But yeah, yesterday I didn't use ANY FP's, which is good for me. I'm going to the Dave Matthews Band concert tomorrow night and so I am saving all of my flexies for booze. Hey, at least I'm honest.

Alright, it's time for me to go and work and shit. Hope ya'll have a good weekend. Peace out!!

Current mood: Tired
Current music: "Breathe Me" by Sia from the Six Feet Under soundtrack. I'm in love with this song...

What the hell? When did professors start thinking that 12 and 14 page syllabi were a good idea? When did having 14 papers (for ONE class) in a semester become the norm? It's Tuesday. I still have two more classes this week. I'm already feeling overwhelmed.

BUT...I am making really good food choices! This morning I was running late, so rather then running out of the house sans breakfast, I grabbed a 'naner and a handful of reduced-fat Wheat Thins (for a snack) plus my H20. For lunch I had a turkey pita at the courthouse (I started my internship this morning). It was SO good. Pita bread, mustard, turkey, lettuce, cukes and pickles. YUM!! I figured it was about 5 points, since it was only half of a large pita and the turkey that I had to count points for. Dinner was grilled chicken, brown rice and peas (9 points) and now I'm enjoying a refreshing passion tea lemonade while my 12 page syllabus prints for tomorrow's proposal writing class.

Sigh...Rockstar:INXS is almost on, so I'm getting off the computer so I can go and read and listen to the rockers rock. Aaron is hulaing right next to me. It should be an interesting night. Cheers!

Current music: "I kissed a girl" by Jill Sobule
Current mood: Overwhelmed but determined

Good morning kids...sorry for the sporadic updates around these parts. Things have been muy loco around the office so I haven't had much of a chance to get onto the site and update ya'll on the nothing that's been going on in my life lately.

Had a good weekend. Friday night Aaron and I bought "Wayne's World" and watched it. I LOVED that movie when I was a kid, and I realized I still do. Mike Meyers and Dana Carvey are freakin' comedic geniuses. Aaron and I got into kind of a spat. We had gone to the Circuit City and picked up the movie and I saw a Shins CD that I had been wanting to get. I mentioned it to Aaron, but being that I'm broke, I couldn't afford to buy it. We walked over to the Juice It Up and I was standing RIGHT behind Aaron and he didn't even acknowledged my presence--even though I didn't want anything, it would have been nice to have been asked at least, you know? Rather then watching the pretty girl and my husband flirt. So I walked out and sat down at the tables outside the store. When Aaron walked out and asked me what was wrong I told him. And then he said, "I bought you the Shins CD." Great, thanks for making me feel like an asshole, babe. Much appreciated.

Saturday we saw "The 40 year-old Virgin." Quite funny. Then we went and picked up the in-laws from the airport and got stuck in traffic on the 405 from all the people going to the Coldplay concert at Irvine Meadows. Yesterday was a cleaning day. I did laundry all day long, scrubbed my bathroom and got a couple of stains out of the carpet. I don't know how many AP's I earned, because I have to be honest...mild cleaning, no I don't count. But the hard scrubbing that requires elbow grease and makes me break a sweat, I'll count the AP's for it. So then Scott and Kenny came over and we made dinner. I also saw the series finale of "Six Feet Under." It was beautiful and sad and lovely all wrapped into one amazingly written and beautifully acted show.

But it's Monday, so of course that means that I am very, very busy today. And I start school today, so I must be off. Peace!

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Update: 1017pm

Well, my first class was interesting. It's my internship seminar. Apparently there is going to be actual work in this class, unlike my internship classes at Saddleback where we listened to guest speakers and wrote in journals. Now there are BOOKS (two books, which is going to set me back another $60 probably) and assignments and grades...bah! I love going to school. I am going to be one of those freaky people who end up taking a macrame class when I'm 70 so I can experience something new. But right now when money is tight and gas prices are ridiculously insane, I'm not really all that excited about shelling out some much needed and very scarce cash. Last semester I was seriously thinking about donating my eggs (God knows I'm not using them, so maybe a family that wants a child could use one), it pays about $5000, which we could really use...and it would be for an amazing cause. I dunno. I have my annual gyno exam in a few months, maybe I'll talk to him then.

Today was a really good food day. I stayed 100% OP for the first time in ages. Now lets see if I can do that for the rest of the week. I had breakfast, a healthy snack, lunch, another healthy snack, tamale pie (email me if you want the recipe, it's in a book in another room) and then dessert was FF soft serve. YUM! Plus 2.2 liters of water.

But with this extensive update, I'm off. Oh wait, no I'm not just yet. I bought a new CD on Saturday, "I'm wide awake, it's morning" by Bright Eyes. Has the loveliest song on there, it makes me all in love when I hear it, called "First Day of my life." I highly recommend you get yourself this song, if not the whole CD. Lovely.

Current mood: Tired...but I still have stuff to do.
Current music: Um, Bright Eyes, dur.

Well, Aaron isn't moving out. Or hasn't yet. I'm not quite sure where we're going...I do know that we're going to find a new therapist, as the one we were seeing just wasn't doing us any good.

Onto happier things. Vanessa's wedding was this past weekend. It was fabulous and lovely. That's really all I can say about it...I am so happy for her and Tim. They really do seem happy together.

Just wanted to give everybody an update. I'm on the phone with Blue Shield, and about to rip somebody head's off. Ah...what a great start to the day!

Current music: Blue Shield hold music
Current mood: Tired and annoyed.

Aaron is moving out.

Current mood: Devastated

My computer is acting up and it's pissing me off. Just thought I'd vent before I got on with the day's happenings.

Today I was hungry--ALL day long. I ate breakfast (cheerios and FF milk). Then at 10:30 I had lunch (leftover pasta from last night). Then Tracy and I went to the mall and on our way back we hit Del Taco (1 soft taco, half a small fry). Sitting in the office, I had a popsicle and when we came home I had my leftover pasta from Saturday night. Nosh, nosh, nosh. And now Aaron is home with a drink from Starbucks for me (had to kick him out of the house for a few minutes while I got some info for his birthday figured out).

I haven't had a hungry day like this in a long while. It kinda sucks because now I'm way too full and feel really gross. Bloated gross. I was really trying to lose a few pounds before Vanessa and Tim's wedding, but it doesn't really look like that is going to happen. Oh well...as long as I look good in my dress, right?

Alright, I'm sure Aaron is going to want to use the computer. Here's to all of us having a good OP day tomorrow. Peace!

Current music: Ben Taylor Band
Current mood: Bloated. Ugh!

There are some days where memories just completely overtake me...I wonder what's going on with somebody else. I wonder what's happening with them, imagine the love they've discovered, pray for their safety. It's amazing how one song can just throw me back into this time warp (and no, Time Warp is not the song that made me think this...but hahaha). I'm downloading some more CD's onto my iTunes, CD's which I was hesitant to download, but there are some good songs that this somebody made for me, many moons ago. I'm not sure if I make sense to you, hell, I'm not sure if I make sense to me right now. Maybe it's the heat. Maybe the humidity has finally gotten to my brain.

Anywho...enough of that. Yesterday was a good, relaxing, do nothing kinda day. Woke up early, played on the computer a little. Nicole came over and we went to the pool for a couple of hours. I got a little pink on the tops of my thighs and a little on my chest and neck. Then we came in and enjoyed cherry limeades from Sonic and watched "The Upside of Anger." Yeah, I love Joan Allen and Keri Russel, but seriously, don't waste your time. Then Aaron, Nicole and I went to dinner at Anita's. Came back and watched "Six Feet Under." Oh man, how I cried. Well, almost cried. I did get teary-eyed and loved it when Brenda told off Maggie ("What is this a Quaker thing? You fuck somebody's husband to death and then you make them a quiche?" Classic!). Such a great show, I can't believe it's ending.

Today was my last day of peace...Mark's back from Poland and will be back in the office tomorrow. I didn't finish filing (I'm sorry but the man had papers from 2002 that needed to get put away!), but I managed to pretty much run the office for the last month while they were out and about at meetings and on vacation. Hopefully this will be noticed when I ask for my review after Ron gets back from Mexico. I want to sit down with Mark and Alison this week and outline what it is they exactly expect from me now.

Food wise today was an okay day. Didn't eat breakfast, had a 6 point Healthy Choice lunch and then came home and made an interesting pasta dish, which I stole from Tracy but then made my own. I diced up 2 zucchini's and 2 yellow squash, chopped like 10 cloves of garlic and sauteed them for a few minutes. Added chili pepper flakes, onion powder, dried oregano, a pinch of thyme, and freshly chopped basil and parsley. Then, I added that to cooked, drained pasta, added salt and pepper and topped off with some freshly grated parmesan. I must say, it was pretty tasty. I did let the garlic get a little too cooked, which has been my problem lately. I just need to pace myself more I suppose. Get all of my ingredients ready before I add the garlic to a hot pan.

But it's almost 10, the "West Wing" is on and laundry calls. Good night kids. Be good to each other.

Current mood: A little sad, but I'll deal.
Current music: "When" by Shania Twain. Ah, the best concert, EVER!

Vanessa's bridal shower was a hit (pictures after they get developed). For Katie's and my first ever bridal shower, not too shabby if I may say so myself!

But Aaron's mom and Aunt Laurie will be here shortly. Just wanted to say hi and wish everybody a happy weekend.

Jamie

I'm tired...tired...tired. I went to a concert last night with Josh and Melissa at the Coachouse. Good show. Got home at like midnight. Discovered that there is a new Dar Williams CD coming out next month. I'm soooooooooooooo excited. Seriously. It's been a couple of years since "Beauty of the Rain." She's also performing at the El Rey in October. October is going to rock--literally. There is the Dar show (in which I will NOT pass out this year) and then we're going to Vegoose, which is a giant music festival in Vegas featuring the other great loves of my life--Dave Matthews and Michael Franti (of Spearhead). I'd totally let Dave and Franti get to third base (or so we were discussing last night).

It's been a few good food days. Last night at dinner I wasn't too good. We went to my favorite little hole in the wall place, the Gypsy Den. Had some hummus and pita and then I had the wild rice and veggie casserole. Sounds like it would be healthy, until you saw the gobs of ooey gooey cheese on top. So delish. I only ate like half of it, plus some of my gypsy rice salad (basmanti rice, walnuts, celery, onions, cilantro, lettuce, currants...at first I hated it, but now I love it). Only had one cocktail at the show (some of us had to work today).

Alright, well Jamie is muy busy at work today. And tomorrow is Vanessa's bridal shower and then tomorrow night Aaron and I are hanging out with Debe. So updates will be quite sporadic, if at all, over the next few days. Take care of yourselves, kids. Take care of each other. Peace!

Current music: Hot Hot Heat...digging the new CD
Current mood: Tired. Busy. Not a fun combo.

Freewebs has been doing maintenance all day, so I'm going to keep this short, in case it won't let me update.

A few thoughts on the board:
1. Trolls are bad. Actually, they are "Karens." If you don't know what "Karen" refers to, please listen to the Dane Cook "Retaliation" CD. I believe it's on disc 1.
2. I love seeing posts for me. Makes me smile a little
3. I heart my friends on the board. Really I do.

Today has been a good food day. I ate breakfast, had some frozen yogurt, lunch, a snack of anal leakage chips (as Tracy and I call them--the reduced fat cheese ruffles. Addictive). And 2.2 liters of water. I'm not sure what dinner will be tonight, as I need to go and get my eyebrows done and I'll be in Artesia, not home. I'm thinking leftovers, or soup or something Aaron can make. We'll see.

Time to go home. Hopefully this update works.

Current mood: Tired
Current music: Dixie Chicks. They are so good live!

I'm sorry...when did growing up mean that the time would just fly by? I can't believe it's already AUGUST. It's not fair! My summer vacation is almost over (classes start in 3 weeks) and I haven't done much of anything.

So Street Scene was this weekend. We had a good time. Drove down Friday afternoon with Nicole and Lisa. Checked into a hotel that was totally stuck in the 60's (think "Dirty Dancing" and you'll have a fair representation of where we stayed). Luckily, the hotel has a little footbridge that goes over to Fashion Valley Mall--which is nice for two reasons. One, duh, it's close to the mall. Two, the mall has a trolley station, which we were able to quickly access by walking across the aforementioned footbridge.

Aaron took the train down to San Diego. Nicole, Lisa, Nirva and Lance went ahead without us. We missed seeing Hot Hot Heat (I was really looking forward to seeing them). So we waited around to see Black Eyed Peas. They were supposed to go on at 8:30. They were stuck in traffic and then Fergie got held up by security, so they didn't end up going on stage unil 9:15--they were supposed to be done at 9:45. They rocked, as always, and Fergie went on stage without make-up or jewelry. May I just say right now that I hate her just a little--she still looked fabulous. But they ended up doing a freestyle rap apologizing about being so late, which was awesome. Then we all (except for Aaron) went over to the stage with the Killers. Oh how I heart them. They were so good. The only bad part was the fact that the sound guy had his head up his ass, because the sound kept fading in and out. But there was a couple next to us who just kept dancing like crazy--I loved them. Kinda like that dancing couple on the VW commercial.

So Saturday, the girls went to the mall. We shopped a bit and saw "Must Love Dogs." I hate to say this--but I was really disappointed. REALLY. The acting was good (it's John Cusack...I love him!), but the writing was terrible. So then we went to dinner, had a few drinks, some deep dish pizza and then made our way over to Street Scene once again.

Saturday night's lineup was kick-ass. We got there and caught Dashboard Confessional (eh...not my favorite band and their music all sounds the same, but Nirva likes them so we stuck around). Then we saw the Flaming Lips. Let me say this--any band that has the lead singer walk out ONTO the audience in a giant plastic bubble automatically is cool. And any band who has a giant sing-a-long of "Bohemian Rhapsody" is cool. The Flaming Lips did both.

Then the icing on the cake--SNOOP DOGG. He got high on stage (funny stuff...). He sang most of my favorite songs. He was the shit. I love Snoop. Then we all piled back onto the trolley and went back to the hotel.

Sunday was going home day. We went to breakfast and then had to hurry to catch the train (I took the train back with Aaron--my first time on a train since the second grade). Well, our train broke down, so we had to rush to catch the next train. Because of everybody trying to get on board, that train left late. So instead of getting home at 1:30, we got home at 3:30. Came home, unpacked, did laundry, went grocery shopping and then I watched "Six Feet Under."

This season has been mediocre at best. Then last week, Nate has a seizure. Then this week...he dies. I can't believe there are only 3 episodes left. This has been my favorite show (tied with "24") for a long time now. What am I going to do with my Sunday nights now?

Alright, this has been quite the extensive update. I bid you farewell.

Peace!

Current mood: Frustrated
Current music: Spearhead, "Love Invincible"

Only two days left at the office. I can't wait for Street Scene. It's going to be such a good time! The Killers, SNOOP (I love Snoop D-oh-double G), the Black Eyed Peas (great music to workout to, BTW).

Last night Katie and I planned the bridal shower as well as most of the bachelorette party. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm not at all down for a stripper. Maybe I'm getting old. Maybe I really am happily married and don't need to see that, but Vanessa's friends want a stripper, and Katie & I have decided if that's cool with Vanessa, then okay. We're not paying for it (I mean, we'll bring some singles...hahaha), so I suppose it's not all that bad. Just a rant I suppose.

Yesterday was a good food day, although quite the stressful one here at work. Had some P***** stuff to do, some NC stuff to get done, Conexis, checks...and all the while, I managed to get all my water in, reign in my crazy Diet Cherry coke consumption back to one (Monday I had three!) and eat within my points for the day. It's amazing just how ingrained WW is in my life. Diet Cokes, FF milk in my coffee, water. Who is this person I've turned into?

Current mood: Accomplished.
Current music: Donavon Frankenreiter (very Jack Johnson-ish). We discovered him at last year's Street Scene. I wonder who we'll discover this weekend!

Well, here is the visual proof of why I'll never drink again.

That is my bathroom floor. That is my very cute new top from Macy's I got Saturday afternoon. That is my comfy towel that doubled as a pillow. And that was me, the hour after we got back from the bar. And then an after hour that, there were three other girls and me, chatting away about love, virginity (and losing it), life and everything in between.

Sigh...time to go back to work. I just think that picture is way too funny to not post.

Current mood: No longer hungover, so better then yesterday.
Current music: Beth Hart. Angry chick rock to get me through the day.

I'm never drinking again. 2 beers, 3 vodka cranberries, 1 shot of Petron, 1 kamakzie shot. 2 times I threw up. 1 hour spent passed out on my bathroom floor, 1 hour spent on my bathroom floor talking with my friends because I couldn't sit up, much less move into my bedroom and lay on my bed.

But last night was FUN. Poker, drinking, dancing, talking. Not many of my friends see this page, much less know it even exists, but I do love them. I've known Lance, Gregg, Nirva and Jenn since jr. high school. I've know Nicole and Juan since junior year. It's amazing how much fun we always have when we get together. I'm glad there weren't more people there last night (I'm not sure how many more girls would have fit in my bathroom!)...but the 8 of us did have a good time.

And on this hungover note, I'm off. Aaron and I are onto date day. I love date day...and I love my hubby. Oh yeah, and I'm a totally loveable drunk, so if you need somebody to party with who isn't one of those mean, grouchy drunks, call me up. I'm totally your girl. :)

Current mood: Loveing...and still kinda hungover
Current music: #41 by Dave Matthews Band. To quote Heidi, "If somebody played me this song, I'd let them do whatever they wanted me to." Maybe not a direct quote, but a paraphrase for sure.

Oh my God. Another London attack. This is so horrible. So horrible. My boss leaves for Europe on Sunday for two weeks and he and his family will be spending time in London. He didn't seem as rattled this time as he did two weeks ago...(sigh) such a fucked up world we live in sometimes.

I didn't realize it had been so long since my last update until I checked out Jess' page. I've been slammed at work and Aaron's been on the computer at home (and the last thing I want to do after spending 8 hours staring at the computer at work is to go home and stare at the computer there). So let's update you on my week:

Monday: Nothing exciting happened after my post. Went home, had dinner (pizza, Scott came over), killed ants, went to bed.
Tuesday: Worked, counseling appointment (I think we're doing better), came home, made dinner (chicken nachos--such good chicken. I made a marinade of chili powder, cumin, chopped garlic, oregano, veg oil and grilled the chicken before making up the chips. yum!!).
Wednesday: Worked, sat in traffic, talked to my friend Matt who is in town, made plans to get together next week, went to dinner at Anita's (our favorite little mexican food place) where we split dinner. Came home, did laundry, watched "Six Feet Under" (I so hope Nate shapes the fuck up and doesn't loose Brenda, and I really hope she gets over this whole victimization attitude she's got going on this season. And if Momma Fisher doesn't get happy soon, I think I may reach through my TV and punch her. Seriously. So depressing. But I did love how she flushed the potato salad down the toilet. I was waiting for it to overflow...I was a little disappointed when it didn't). Went to bed.

So far today is alright. I haven't eaten anything yet, but to be honest it's soooooooo hot and I'm not that hungry. I'd rather drink my water and my Diet Cherry coke and just wait until 11 for my usual snack or even until noon and just eat lunch. I'm planning on making steak fajitas tonight for dinner (I usually do chicken, so we'll see how the steak works out). And even though it's a thousand degrees outside, I've been craving chili for some odd reason. Chili is best in October on a chilly night. Chilli is not good on a sweltering hot July evening. So we'll see if I give into my craving sometime soon.

Time to work. Have a good OP day kids! :)

Current mood: Harried.
Current music: Something on the radio, I'm not really paying attention.

The longest day in the world. I am so freakin' tired. I had a really long weekend, what with dress shopping, hair cutting and partying. I am still reeling over my conversation last night with August and her asking me if I was going to steal her husband away from her if Aaron and I break up. (sigh) Good lord...what a way to end my weekend last night.

Today has been a good food day. I ate breakfast (Honey Nut Cheerios--2pts), lunch was frozen pizza (4pts), fries (7pts). 13 points for the day, but I'm totally full. I had one of those new South Beach Diet frozen pizzas--210 cal., 10 grams of fat and 14 grams of fiber. And it's gooood. I highly recommend them, but they're $4/each so if you find them on sale, stock up. If not, they're good for a pizza fix. I could probably get away with a light dinner tonight, but I'm planning on doing the FIRM tonight. Vanessa's wedding is in 4 weeks. We got our dresses yesterday. I've got my mind on the prize (fantastic arms). Nothing can stop me now!

And I'm an offical college senior! I registered for classes today. Here is my schedule (kill me now...):

M: HUSR 495 7p-950
T: HUSR 300 4p-645
W: HUSR 385 7p-950
R: Coaching 830a-10
     Soci 303 4p-645

Ron is back, so I'm out. Time to work for the first time today. :) PEACE!

Current mood: Busy
Current music: "Burning down the house" I want to do leg lifts like RIGHT now. hehe

Today was a good day. I got my hair cut, got my eyebrows done, got a REALLY cute makeover at the Stilla counter at the Nordstrom's today, spent the day with great friends, hung out at the beach and overall it was just a really good way to spend a Saturday. I will post pictures of the new hair and makeover soon. But it's 11:16 and I'm sitting here in a robe with my hair in a towel. Note to self: bring socks to Huntington Beach next time, since the sand is so GD disgusting.

Just wanted to say hello quickly. And to tell you that if you need to laugh, go see "Wedding Crashers." Aaron and I saw it last night and haven't laughed that hard at a movie in awhile. Funny ass movie. You'll enjoy yourself, I promise.

Current mood: Tired. Today started early and so does tomorrow.
Current music: "Just A Girl"...and today I totally was and it was so much fun!

Tracy, that one's for you. 

Aaron had dental work done yesterday. Four freakin' HOURS of dental work done. He had three teeth pulled and a temporary bridge put in. It's strange to see him with a mouth full of teeth (I will explain this in a minute). There was drama surrounding the getting of the teeth though. It's costing an arm and a leg to get this done and to get financing, he asked our BIL to co-sign. Well, Aaron's family being Aaron's family, everybody gets involved. So annoying! During the whole treatment of the pancreatic cancer, his surgeon told him that if he lived long enough, he'd hate his teeth. Well, thanks be to God--he's lived long enough to hate his teeth. I have half a mind to email his mom and remind her of this and tell her to keep her nose out of things that don't involve her, but being the good DIL that I am, I won't. I'll just say it here, for all of you to see! But yeah, my hubby has a mouthful of teeth. The retainer is gone, the missing tooth that fell out during chemotherapy is back...my hubby has his smile back.

Yesterday was a pretty decent food day until dinner rolled around. I took Andy and the kids to the Costco to pick up stuff for the party tomorrow (Tamir's birthday was yesterday, Saturday is her birthday party). After he dropped me off, I had to go and pick up gauze and by the time I left the Target, it was already 9:20. There was no way anything was being made for dinner, so I hit the In-n-Out. I got a cheeseburger, protein style (no bun), no spread (just mustard), and (que the NSV music here, please) a Diet Coke. But then the fries that we were supposed to share somehow got not shared...because I ate them. So my carefully planned 6 point dinner turned into a 15 point dinner. Sigh...it could have been worse, I know. But still, I'm disappointed. 

On a really happy note, I made my first payment for school this morning. I'm an offical college senior, BABY! YEAH! I register for classes on Monday, I am so freakin' excited. I know it seems lame to be excited about registering for classes, but this is such an important milestone in my life. It's taken me almost 8 years to get my 4 year degree. Something I've worked so hard to achieve is right there, just out of reach--but come May 2006, that diploma will be in my hands, and I will be the first in my family to graduate college. I cannot wait.

Have a great OP day, all!

Current mood: Enthusiastic
Current music: Social D, "Take away this ball & chain", on KROQ.

Jesus tap dancing Christ, the board was SO annoying today! Stupid lameass drama that will get people sucked into the stupidest fights over nothing. First there was the poster who told/yelled at her grandma about putting oil on her veggies. Then there was another poster calling another poster about coming back and posting. What the fuck is that about? Last week somebody got a wild hair up her ass about Kathleen's own personal webpage using "foul language." Really? Seriously? You're going to get pissed off over the language somebody uses on the website THEY PAY FOR? It's like when a TV show comes on that you object to--TURN THE CHANNEL OR TURN OFF THE TV!!!!

Things like this enrage me beyond belief. Seriously. There are bigger problems we all face rather then somebody being offended over language, a grandma putting a few teaspoons of oil on green beans or if a poster who said she wasn't happy with the board coming back to post. SERIOUSLY!!!!

This time last year, I remember the Damn Yankee/KellyAlunni1 challenges; I remember the biggest drama being over CARROTS; I remember meeting Heidi & Jen (Beaugab...miss you girl!) for the first time and thinking how cool it was to meet these two amazing women who were struggling the same as me. I remember the relationships that were developed, I remember the help that was given, I remember the laughs that were shared. Sorry newbies, but you've taken over the board and turned it to shit. It sucks to be around there anymore. I'm not saying I'll never post again, but I think I'm cutting back. It sucks, because so often I've turned to the 50+ board for advice, support and ideas--and now I feel like I've lost that. It makes me sad. It makes me angry, actually...but whatever. I figured I'd post this here since not too many people check out this site. If you've got an issue with this post, don't be petty and post it on the boards--I have neither the time nor the will to deal with the drama. Email me and we can talk. Other then that, I say unto you...

PEACE OUT!

Current mood: Sad and annoyed
Current music: "This is such a pity" by Weezer...how appropriate.

Woo hoo! TOM started. No baby anytime soon.

I have a butt-load of work to finish today, so I'm out for now. Just wanted to give you an update.

Peace!

Current mood:Crampy but relieved
Current music: "Dreamgirl" by Dave Matthews Band. Is it August 27th yet?

7/11...that has cracked me up everytime I write it today. I don't know why I'm so easily amused, but I am.

Today has been an okay day, food wise. Except for the french fries from Del Taco which now have me wishing I had just stuck with my ice tea. They smelled good when I walked in, but now, not feeling too good in the tummy. But that's okay, nothing lately has been feeling too good in the ol' tummy. Yesterday I thought I was going to lose it outside of the Lucille's after we had finished lunch (Lucille's is this reallllly good bbq restaurant that Aaron loves. We took his friend Bill and Bill's daughter Raynee there for lunch to celebrate Bill's birthday). Now today it's the fries.

Still no news on the TOM/HPT front. I bought another box of tests on Saturday night. I plan on testing again Wednesday or Thursday if TOM doesn't start. If by then there is still a negative HPT and no TOM, I'll call the doctor. I would just chalk this up to TOM going to back to being all screwy, but with the nausea and tiredness and now swollen breasts...something is just not right, you know? I never used to get this way on the Pill. I mean, I'd get sore boobs, but nothing that feels like they weigh more.

I'm being odd, I'm going to go. The bosses are out of the office today, so I've done about 3 minutes of real work today. I have a project that actually does need my attention. I'm out, I'm out, I'M OUT!

Current mood: Pukey
Current muzack: "Grey" by Ani DiFranco, and "Jesus of Suburbia" by Greenday. Ani's on my computer, Greenday from Tracy's. An interesting mix.

I'm not understanding something. This time last year, I was working on maintenance. I was 14 pounds lighter. I wasn't really watching what I was eating or counting points. This summer, I'm writing things down, watching what I eat, exercising, and I can't seem to get past 157-159. It's not making any sense to me. I'm really starting to get frustrated, but I know I can't quit. Why? Because, I've integrated Weight Watchers into my life. That would like removing my right arm and then trying to act like everything was normal. If I "stopped" Weight Watchers, I'd gain my weight back. But I don't know what to do. Maybe this week, when my week resets on Wednesday, I'll try core.

Sigh...but this all seems so trivial in the face of other things going on in the world, doesn't it? London. My heart aches for that city and it's people, even three days later. People are still trapped in the tube. My boss, Mark, has family in London. I wanted to ask him yesterday if he heard from his sister, but thought that if anything bad had happened, we would have heard. He's planning on meeting up with his wife and kids in a few weeks (the wife and kids are in Poland, visiting her family).

Okay, time to take things on an upbeat turn here. Aaron and I saw "War of the Worlds" last night. Interesting. There was a review I read that had a piece of advice that I would like to pass along to those of you who haven't seen it: "When you see Tom Cruise walking up the street towards the end of the movie, get up and leave the theatre." Please. I wish I had. The movie was reallllllllllly good, up until that part. Classic Spielberg I suppose. Redemption, family, all that crap. Speaking of family, I took two pregnancy tests--both negative. But still no TOM, still pukey and exhausted. I'm wondering if it's one of those "false negatives" you hear about. If anybody has experienced that, please, please, please email me. I need some advice/reassurance here. I'm freaking out. Hard. I'm excited for lunch today--going to the PF Changs with Heidi (Heidimo76) and Hilly (FCSMOMMA). I invited Nicole to go, because she's met Heidi and they got along well...and Nicole is a lifetimer, so she'll know the issues we talk about. It's not like I'm bringing my "skinny best friend." Nope, I'm bringing somebody who has walked the walk. It should be fun.

With that, I'm off to do some research about HPT's, false negatives and late periods. And have a cup of coffee. :) Have a great day, ladieeeeeeeeeeees (and gents too!).

Current music: Duran Duran, "Ordinary World"...as if there is any such thing! ha!
Current mood: anxious/worried/annoyed, all wrapped up into one little hyper bundle that is me.

Are you sitting down while you read this? Have you swallowed that drink of hot coffee? Well hold on to your britches kids, because I have a doozy for you.

I exercised. I did all of the complete body sculpting FIRM DVD. Usually (when I do the workout in the morning) I skip the aerobic parts, but not tonight. I had enough energy and clairty of mind to be able to do the aerobic parts. I'm quite proud of myself. Quite sore, but quite proud. I also ate within my points today. Right now I'm enjoying a refreshing passion tea lemonade from Starbucks (3pts for a venti).

On a more political/socially conscious note...I'm watching clips from Saturday's Live 8 concerts. If you haven't already, please go to www.one.org and sign the petition to pressure the leaders at the G8 Summit this week to do their part to eradicate poverty from Africa and other third world nations. If the nations participating in this weeks G8 increased the amount of money they spend on poverty by 70 cents for every $100 of their GDP, we would be able to eradicate this problem within a generation. Imagine that--children not going to bed hungry, not drinking contaminated drinking water, getting the proper medical care any person deserves, a good education.

For those of you who will say, "but what about the problems here at home?" I completely echo that sentiment. However, there is a time where as a collective body we must stand up and say, "We will not allow this problem to go on any more." There is a time where the teachings of Jesus must be applied literally--"that which you do for the least of my brothers, you do for me." We must do for the least of our brothers. We must act now. We must do something. If you have children, you know how far you will go to make sure they have the things they need--a roof over their heads, clothes on their backs and food in their bellies. Imagine not being able to provide for your children due to circumstances beyond your control. How can you help those mothers who cannot feed their children? How can we help the families that are living on less then a dollar a day?

If you haven't seen the videos, you can check out AOL Music. May I suggest a few videos for your viewing pleasure? GreenDay ("We are the champions"), Paul McCartney (any video, it's Paul McCartney for cryin' out loud! But "The Long and Winding Road" brings tears to my eyes every time I hear it), Stevie Wonder ("Superstition"), Snoop Dogg ("Who I am"...hehehe)...oh hell, who am I kidding. Just watch them all. But above all else, please click on the link that about Bob Geldof introducing Woldu. I swear if you're not crying and outraged and empowered by the time you have finished viewing that link, well then I don't think I want to know you. Watch. Do something. Be empowered. Be active. Above all, be compassionate.

Peace!

Current mood: Inspired
Current music: Stevie Wonder "Superstition"

I love three-day weekends. I absolutely do not love waking up at 7:30 on a Saturday. This weekend was fun. Lots of time spent with friends and loved ones. Good memories were made, many laughs were had. Aaron and I had a fabulous day together on Sunday. Had lunch at the park off State College and it was such a perfect day, I wish we could have spent all day out there, together.

Fourth of July was nice. Had a bar-be-que at Casa de Thomas. Everybody came, including some really great kids. One of them split his head open on our fireplace, but luckily didn't require stitches or anything more serious then some Neosporin and a Capri-Sun. I love those kids, I wish I got to spend more time with them.

I posted this on the board this morning, but I have a new goal. Vanessa and Tim are getting married on August 13th. I've been asked to be Vanessa's maid of honor, so now I have six weeks to get the workout back into high gear and tone up and slim down a bit. If there ever was motivation, it's being asked to be a part of your best friend's wedding.

Today is my 5th anniversary here at Pension & Benefit. Five whole years. Sometimes it doesn't seem like it's possible to say that, but at the same time, it kinda feels like forever. I do like my job here, I love the people I work with and I work for. But I can't wait to be able to quit next summer in order to start grad school. I can't wait to start the next leg of my journey. And on that note, I'm off to do some work. Peace out, kiddies!

Current music: BEP, "Monkey Business." Diggin' the new album
Current mood: Not feeling too hot. 
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Part deux:

Today has been a pretty good food day. I actually ate breakfast today. Shock! Gasp! I never eat breakfast...I don't know why. I know it's all important and crap, but I don't. I remember something Connie (my former {and best} WW leader) said once, that eating breakfast can help your weight loss. I don't remember how, but she had read an article and thought it prudent to share that tasty tidbit of information with a room of starving women (I went to the Saturday 8am meeting...nothing but Connie, laughter and growling stomachs). I had a bowl of Honey Nut Cherrios and FF milk (3 pts), a 100-calorie Oreo pack (2 pts), a Healthy Choice meal (Blackened chicken--6 pts and that includes a dessert!) and a popsicle (1pt). 12 points for the day, that leaves 10 for dinner as well as any AP's I may earn. Which is seeming more and more unlikely as the day goes by. I'm sooooooooo tired. I'm nauseated. I'm grumpy. I'm waiting for TOM (tomorrow it will be 2 days late). Oy vey...I just realized. Holy hell.

Time for a HPT.

It's been a few days. Sorry about that. I can't believe it is aleady July. Holy hell, where as the year gone? How is it already JULY?!

Last night was a good night. Aaron and I finally saw "Anchorman." OMG haven't laughed at a movie like that in a while. "Where'd you get your clothes? The...toilet store?" Oh man. I can't wait for Steve Carell's next movie, "The 40-year old virgin" to open (August something). Oh yeah--"Fuck you, San Diego." 

Aaron and I are doing alright. Had a really tough conversation/fight on Wednesday, which is probably why I haven't updated this blog, just trying to process things, you know? I think it was a good conversation in the long run. Therapy yesterday? Not so fun. But whatever, I know that it's what needs to happen and that not all sessions are going to be in my favor/to my liking. I'll deal.

This weekend should be fun. Today Nicole, Lisa and I are going outlet mall shopping. Tomorrow is "date day." No idea what that entails, I get to pick one thing to do, Aaron gets to pick one thing to do. Then Monday we're having a BBQ here at our place. Should be fun--my friends, his friends. Good times! I'm off...somebody has to clean the house. I doubt I'll be back on before Tuesday, so have a great 4th everybody!

Current mood: Sleepy...haven't had my coffee yet.
Current music: "World Leader Pretend" by REM. Wow...who knew Michael Stipe could perdict the future?

I hate Wednesdays. I hate Pilates more. I worked out with my Windsor Pilates last night and did the ab workout. Everytime I bend over today, I feel like my abs are going to pick up arms and revolt against me. Tracy and I had lunch with the parents today, it was quite nice. Went to Peppinos and had the chicken parm sandwhich, which I think measured in at one metric ton. Or at least that's what my stomach feels like--and that's only after half the sandwhich! So not the best way to start out a new week. I guess that's what flexies are for, right?

So I have a question  for you. If you were to purchase an item--let's say a DVD player (because I am thinking about my workout later and cursing my DVD player...but I digress)--and let's say the salesman was not quite up front about you about the production of your DVD player. Like it doesn't play sappy chick flick movies (I know, gay, but just follow to the end, it may make more sense, but I make no guarantees). Would you be mad at the sales guy for not being up front with you about the DVD players capabilities (or lack there of)? This little scenario, hypethetical if you will, is analogous with something going on in my real life that I don't really feel like exposing. Maybe in the future, but for now, the DVD sales guy will have to do.

As soon as I get to put a guestbook up on this page, please feel free to leave your answers. I have a feeling what most of them will be, but I wait in baited anticipation as to what your response is. So don't disappoint. Damnit!

So, it's only 4:15. I could sneak out of here early if I wanted to, but you know, I think I want to stay until five. Seems like the thing to do. Here's the plan of attack for the rest of the evening:

• Dinner. I don't know what I'm making, but considering how I blew most of my points at lunch today and only have 4 points left for the day, I'm thinking something on the lighter side.
• Workout: The FIRM. Which will earn me 6 AP's and I will eat every last one of them. And enjoy it.
• TV: I'm catching up on the first season of "Lost." If I am awake to watch, I will. Hopefully I will be asleep by 10 because I'm still exhausted.
• Laundry. There is nothing in the world I hate more then laundry. Wait, that's not true. Spiders and ants. I hate them more then laundry.
• These are in no particular order. Probably should have prefaced this lil' list with that, but I didn't want to. Ha ha!

Current Mood: Contemplative
Current Music: Spearhead, the live show we saw in Santa Ana many moons ago. "Yes I will." It contains my most favorite quote, which I will impart on you now:

"I believe that what you sing to the clouds will rain upon you when your sun has gone away.
I believe that what you dream to the moon will manifest before you rest another day...
When you find you're at the end of the road, you lift your head up, spread your wings and fly away!"

Wow, how much am I hating having a scale in my house?

For years and years I always swore that I'd never own a scale. I always did WW meetings and enjoyed the fact that while some of my fellow weight loss compatriots would be slave to their scale, I didn't have to worry about it. And then we moved to Fullerton. I haven't been to a meeting since January. Which could very possibly be the reason why I'm so freakin' over my goal weight. But I hate the meetings at the nearest center and quite frankly Fountain Valley is just too much of a drive (although I'm starting to think it may be worth it). So I bought myself a scale and just about cried the first time I stepped on it and owned up to my real weight, not some, "Oh I've only put on like 5 or 10 pounds." Nope. Sorry bubba, try 15 pounds. That's a clothing size, that's a points range, that's a disappointment.

Clothes are starting to not fit. The numbers are starting to climb. It's been tough getting back on program, but it's even tougher trying to figure out what to wear some days. I've been trying so hard and I just feel like I'm not making any progress. Here is the new plan (I'm starting my week on Wednesdays, just like I did back in the beginning):

• Work out! Get off my lazy ass and work out. I won't promise to work out in the mornings (I cherish sleep too much), but I will get my 30 minutes in every day, some way some how.
• Be on program. Everyday. Even on the weekends. Even over long, three-day weekends. I will count points. I will get in my dairy, f/v, water and oil requirements.
• Journal. 'Nuff said.

Hey wow, would you check that out? That's what the WW program is! Holy cow--maybe cow is a bad word to use today (haha...if you can't crack jokes--especially about yourself--you are sooooooo at the wrong site).

Cheers ladies and gents. And here is to us all--those of you who are just starting out, those of you long on the journey, those of you who have made goal and lifetime. Here is to those of us who struggle with the only necessary vice, here is to those of us who need a little extra encouragement along the way.

Current mood: Optimistic. And hungry, it's dinner time.
Current music: Re-Offender by Travis. Oh how I love this band. Check them out if you have a chance.

Why in the hell do I ask for the gods to smite me? It's like I have this giant sign on my back, "Smite me, oh god! Smite me, oh mighty smiter!" Last night, as I was going to sleep, the lights of the firetruck turning my bedroom a lovely shade of red, orange, red, orange, I asked Aaron, "Do you feel like things are getting better?"

Not so fast there, sister! Don't get your hopes too up. Before the firetrucks could pull away and the flares in the street extinguished, I think that one question I asked just completely and utterly changed the mood of our relationship. Now, I know I bitch (a lot) about my relationship with Aaron. But lets be honest for a moment, shall we? Sometimes it is easier for us to find the things to complain about. Why? I don't know. Personally, I think that I like to keep the great stuff a secret. Makes no sense, I know but I don't want everybody to know all of the wonderful things he does because then people would try and steal him away (oh wait, been there done that). But before I go on and bitch about my morning so far, let me just say that things have been getting better and I do recognize and appreciate all of the little and big things Aaron does for me.

With that out of the way, on to the griping and complaining. Aaron has been sleeping with one of those masks to help with his snoring. It works like a charm--when he wears it. Last night at about 3am, I could hear the air, which meant that he had pulled it off in the middle of the night. I asked him to put it on, and he said no. Here is how the rest of the night/morning went:

345: Aaron is snoring. I roll him on his side. I fall back asleep.
400: I wake up. Aaron is snoring. I roll him on his side. I slightly fall back asleep.
425: I wake up. Aaron is rolling onto his back, takes his elbow and if not for my quick cat-like reflexes, I would currently be sporting a black eye. I roll him on his side and fume about how tired I am.
5: The alarm clock goes off. Any chance for quality shut eye is shot out the window, however I am far too tired to get up and work-out.
515: Aaron. Again. This time, I'm pissed. I contain the urge to simulationsely slug him and smother him. I roll him on his back (for what would be the last time).
535: I can't sleep. I contemplate getting up and doing my WW DVD, but laugh at the idea of sleeping through a round of squats.
540: Aaron starts yelling in his sleep. This does not bother me.
542: Aaron starts snoring. This pisses me off to no end. I lay on my side, away from him, with a pillow over my head to block out the sound. Doesn't work.
555: Aaron snores. Still. Let's one rip. I get up and storm out of the bedroom, slamming the door behind me. This wakes him up and he has the GALL to shout something at me.
625: I wake him up after taking a long, hot shower. My mood has calmed down, I'm feeling fine. He gets up with an attitude like I am the bad guy.
715: We leave the house ON TIME for the first time in a long time. We say nothing in the car on the way to work.

And thus is my day. All because I asked if things were getting better. I will know for next time to keep my big mouth shut and just enjoy the good times.

Current music: Black Eyed Peas. "Hands Up"
Current mood: Muy tired.

Why on earth do people constantly break my "do not call on the weekends before 9:30am" rule? Is it THAT hard to wait half an hour? Is it soooooooo important to tell me what time we're meeting at your house that you couldn't have waited 27 more minutes?

I love my family--all sides of them. But sometimes I want to wring their necks. We have to be at August and Bert's at noon. It's 10. We'll be late, we always are and that sucks.

Last night was a good food night. A little grilled chicken, some grilled veggies and potato salad. For dessert was strawberry shortcake with homemade whipped cream (so easy, takes like 10 minutes, of which one is actually doing anything, the other 9 is the mixer mixing). I'm hoping today will be a good food day. It usually is with August. I'm in charge of bringing a veggie platter. I just hope I can find one that isn't $15 (which is how much the tiny one I bought for Memorial day was). I'm rambling. I need more coffee. I'm off.

Jamie, OUT!

Current mood: Not quite caffinatted enough to deal with my in-laws just yet.
Current music: The Killers. God this band rocks my friggin' socks off. Oh, and now it just switched to (can't believe I'm about to admit this) Kelly Clarkson. "Since You've Been Gone" makes me want to go to my ex-boyfriend's house and break shit.

Not that they'll see this, but happy anniversary (#26!) Mom and Dad. 

I sent an email to my boss yesterday about a promotion of sorts we had discussed last month. I haven't heard anything yet, so I'm hoping we can talk today. There are so many things I'd like to fix around here. I'm already the office manager, but without the authority to do anything--or the pay.

This has been a really bad week food and exercise wise. I haven't worked out at ALL this week and I've eaten kinda crappy to boot. This weekend is going to be pretty busy. Tonight we're supposed to hang out with Scott and Chrystal; tomorrow is family day; Sunday is the baseball game intertwined with family day. Stress much?

It's pretty busy here at the ol' job today, so I'm off. Peace out and have a gooooooooooooood weekend!

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Wow, nothin' but drama on the boards today! Oh man. I can't believe how low some people will stoop in order to be mean to somebody they have never and will never meet. To quote my good amiga Heidi--"it's just a message board." Back off people--and don't insult people who are traveling the same weight loss journey you yourself have recently conquered.