[Saturday 4 June 2005 11.52pm]
MOOD reflective >>comments?

well i originally just wanted to inform David that sunday's brownie baking is cancelled because we can't go to May's house tomorrow anymore. He ended up giving me a profound talk about..the future. David's so right. I really to reaccess my priorities in life now. zoom out and see the big picture which is my future.

He said that he has experienced jc, work and poly life in 6 months. That's why he thinks he's more optimistic now. I can tell. He's so much more mature and aware about what he wants in life than me. He has that fighting spirit in him.

When will i find mine? sheesh..i feel like i've been jolted back to reality all of a sudden, and i didn't even ask for it. hmph=( But tt's besides the point. I need to realise that i can't afford to avoid my responsibilities anymore. After all, i can't call myself a kid at 16-turning-17 year old and be as carefree as before. bleah..what affected me the most is that david told me to "map out your career path and what you wanna achieve in life". That's like..exactly the same thing my dad told me before. now I can't pretend i didn't hear anything.

How come i don't hear this from the mouths of rj peeps? are they as ignorant as me or is it just that i never had this kinda conversations with them. Then again, you normally don't do reflections when life had been good to you so far. Why would you force yourself out of your comfort zone and think deeper into life when there's always the easy way out(be contented by the fact that you're in a good school and in the top dunno wad percentage of the cohort)? yahlorh. IMO, the percentage thingy is a whole load of crap. People outside are no simpleton. In fact, we're probably the ones who are still blinded by our own inflated egos and fail to see the real world around us.

[Saturday 26 February 2005 11.17pm]
MOOD busy >>comments?

Ok I’ve just been reminded that I have not been blogging conscientiously for 2 weeks and is left with a stagnant blog now. my defence/excuse is that I’ve been busy with college. XD college life is so fun! I enjoyed myself so much everyday that by the time I went home, I’ll either be chionging my homework or just too damn tired to blog. yep. but anw…I’m back, and I have photos of my class ^^

Shuwen: thank you so much for the kakashi drawing! Sumimasen..I didn’t have the chance to thank you properly yet, although grace passed me the drawing like…so many days ago already. I think the drawing’s really very well done! Kakashi looks totally drool-worthy in the picture XD The drawing’s currently in my homework file now, so that it’ll stay with me even when I’m at school. ^^ Yep, so whenever I’m bored to tears during lectures and tutorials, I’ll take it out and swoon over kakashi. Ahh…

class photos =)

zhihao drew me sanzo! he's such a nice person^^ And i didn't expect him to draw so well too! Now i have one more bishie to swoon over. XD Too bad the drawing's bigger than a4 size. Can't fit it in my hw file :(
sanzo-sama by zhihao
kakashi by shu

[Sunday 13 February 2005 00.32pm]
MOOD tired...needs rest... >>comments?

oh no. now everyone thinks that my layout is too pink. tze kwan said it, grace said it, pet and now kelly all said it=( i'm not bimbo la..it's just that i found this nice picture of fuji and cherry blossoms (which so happens to be pink) and since pink/white/purple is the obvious colour combination to match the banner, and i like the opening theme for fruits basket, i decided to make a sweet-looking layout. Guess i went overboard...now there's an overdose of sweetness XDXD I swear that the fact that my pencil case, shakers, water bottle, keychain, vanity case and gp file are all in shades of red or pink is just a coincidence. I like blue...really.

my nian chu 1 and chu 2 were all spent visiting distant relatives and family friends. It's a pity that none of my relatives live in singapore. I have a large extended family on both sides so chinese new year would have been livelier and more fun. My auntie's family came to visit us in chu 1. (lynn jie, u became so pretty! not tt u weren't pretty lah) We also visited the family of this old lady who's supposed to be my paternal grandma's mother's brother's wife. Yep, we're so distant that i really dunno how to address them. In the end, my brother and I just greeted every man "uncle" and every lady "auntie". i spent most of my visiting time stoning and eating new year goodies. it's totally boring and very tiresome, and i find myself smsing non-stop to pass the time, which is very bad, because i don't have the free 700 messages per month that shuwen and grace have =(

Jiayan, kelly, pet, grace and I went bainian-ing today=) We went to Jiayan's house first to bai nian, and all i can say is that her family's so cultured! There were chinese paintings done by jiayan's grandfather framed on the walls, so many chinese ornaments on display, and a guzheng in the living room. Jiayan's dad was a teacher in cat high and then chinese high. No wonder her chinese is so good, so she was born in a chinese family...icic. well, we watched inuyasha, naruto and ate pizza at her house. It was quite enjoyable, although i still didn't understand what inuyasha was all about after the movie. Naruto was much easier to understand and as usual...kakashi looks so cool in his battle with itachi and the shark guy XDXD

Afterwards, we went ms ko's house to bai nian. Her house was so crowded with students. I think she must have been very popular with them because some of the students who visited her were from her sec 1 class in 01 at another school. It's amazing how they still keep in touch with ms ko and visit her after 4 years. I can't even remember who my teachers are in sec 1, i only know that we had a lot of relief teachers then... Anyways, the main point was that we played mahjong at her house! yes! finally i can satisfy my mahjong craving by playing mahjong with real people, not the computer. We played 7 rounds in 2 hours plus i think...and i won 3 of them=) So lucky today ^^ Petrina was my shang jia so i think she deserves some credit for it too. pet wang4 me! haha...and we got grace and kelly addicted to mahjong now, which may not be a bad thing coz jiayan said that mahjong, together with bridge, are intellectual games=) Very good. Now i can play more mahjong and bridge, coz they're supposed to make me cleverer XD

*ms ko majored physics in uni! why didn't she taught us physics in sec 4??? She could have replaced cheng kam! :x

[Tuesday 08 February 2005 6.30pm]
MOOD bouncy >>comments?

Just as i've expected, aj's cny celebration is so...dull. It's the usual lion dance followed by skit performance, dance, band/co performances and then singing of festive songs to end the whole concert. bah. i'm sick of the "gong xi gong xi gong xi ni..." song already. There was a chinese dance performance! i haven't watched one since leaving primary school, so it sort of brought back fond memories of how we joked about the chinese dance performers' costumes. haha...well, it's still too cheena for my liking and i think the performers are dressed a bit too scantily. I don't like their red-sequined halter tops and baggy white pants a bit. =x me and seeman found it quite deploring because the dancers look like they're wearing those undergarments that ancient woman wear, in other words, du4 dou1. Perhaps jinjie enjoyed it more than we do, since he's in maris stella for 10 years and had never seen a chinese dance performance, coz guys don't do chinese dance XD

It was so damn warm and humid in the hall... It's bad enough that they don't have air-con, but their alternative ventilation system suck as well. They have fans with attached atomizers. sigh. i don't like the feeling of water mist being constantly blown on my face. of course, people sitting at the sides of the hall will feel more cooling, while others sitting at the center (for example, me) die from the humidity.

sigh. We didn't go back to rgs in the end because no one seemed to want to go back. The only 402rians we saw were jiayan mummy and hanzhang -__- ahh well, maybe i should crash rj one day to visit the others. After eating breakfast at wisma macs, jiayan me grace qien and kelly went reminiscing around takashimaya =) We went to kino jap section to wow at all the mangas and pictorial books again...^^ Jiayan said that the rj japanese club meet for an hour every wednesday to watch anime and eat sushi! OMG. I WANT!

* i changed the link to the comments page so that it opens in a normal window now. seems like popups can't open in computers with firewall installed.

* grace: maybe you me and jiayan should form a LK (love kakashi) club someday XD Then what we do during club time is to do intense research to find out more about him and search for drool-worthy pics of him. XDXD just suggesting la...

I found one! click here!!!

[Monday 07 February 2005 8.21pm]
MOOD exhilarated comments?

New layout ^^ because you can never have too many of them! and also because shu changed hers, and I got tempted to make another one too. Ahh…making layouts is so fun! It only takes an afternoon to design one and you get immense satisfaction after completing the layout! (haa the sanzo layout only lasted for a month. it's too irritating. i need to squeeze everything into the page so that means i can't put in whatever i want without making the blog look wordy)

ok…so it’s PREDILECTION version 4 now, featuring fuji syusuke. it's all pinkish and stuff to match the cherry blossom, and fuji's leaning against a tree, looking nice and cuddly <3 I know the hanami season’s not until at least 2 months later, and spring hasn’t come yet in Japan…but that doesn’t matter. I think I’ll just stick with this layout until June. Yep=) Oh. And there’s background music too. It’s For Fruits Basket by Okazaki Ritsuko, opening theme for fruits basket, for those of you who’s interested. I’ve also put a link to the comments at the beginning of each entry so it’s more convenient now=) Which means I should get more comments because it’s easier to click on the comments button=)) –hint hint-

I’m getting more excited by the minute now. Finally I’ll be able to meet up with my secondary school friends tmr. :D now I can xiao shun pet and jiayan and be reunited with the rest of the family! The aj cny celebration ends at around 9 plus, then we’ll set off for rgs after that and probably reach at 10 plus or so. I dunno about the rest, but inform me if you guys have any plans for tmr k?

Had our first math common test today. I’m quite happy with it coz it’s like the first math test I’ve taken in a loooonnnnng time which I feel that I can solve most of the questions. It’s not like the rg common tests that only serve to demoralise, and I can only pray to score better-than-pass grades. I was always complaining about how many marks I’ve lost after the test, but now it seems like I’m the one listening to others complain about their lost of marks now. haa…I’m not trying to be smug, it’s just that I haven’t done better than others in tests for quite a while…This feeling that I’m doing well academically is good^^ I hope things stay this way. Or maybe the reason why I find the test do-able is because I’ve been doing my tutorials diligently? I dunno…but one thing’s for sure. My confidence is coming back, and I’m beginning to like math now=)

Can’t wait for tomorrow!

[Thursday 03 February 2005 7.18pm]
MOOD accomplished :D comments?

ahh i just realised how much i've spreaded anime love in aj within a short period of one month. Here's a list of names of those whom i've promoted anime to:

-evelyn from my og / gravitation
-yuhua from my og / fruits basket
-sherline from my class / naruto
-choonyuan. ditto / naruto, fruits basket, he's returning me both tmr and borrowing prince of tennis (XD i'm so proud of my son!)
-zhihao. ditto / lending him naruto ep52< soon (shu hurry burn!)
-evelyn from rg and my class / lending her saiyuki reload tmr

ahhaha...i'm feeling really happy now=)

[Monday 31 January 2005 10.02pm]
MOOD tired>.< comments?

eh why am i tired almost everyday? bleahx. we had cross-country after school at MacRitchie reservoir today. er...it's quite okay, the route was 3.2km long or 8 rounds. surprisingly, it doesn't seem as long or tiring. Maybe it's because the monotony of running 8 rounds on the track makes it look longer... Add in a few steep slopes, pebbled roads, jogging in the jungle and on the espressway and it'll be a lot more fun rite? I ran (or rather walked) with seeman throughout the entire cross country. haha...it's so much more fun to gossip about bitchy people and other stuff while walking ^^ and when we feel like it we'll jog a bit just to overtake other people and minus a few numbers off our position card=D In the end, we finished in the 600++th position...which is not very nice but considering that we walked for 95% of the route, it's acceptable. eh qien was in top 15 i think. Not too sure, but she received a trophy during the prize-giving ceremony. I am impressed. I didn't know that qien is one of those who can run and get into top 15. She's not even in a sports cca.

[Sunday 30 January 2005 11.47pm]
MOOD

comments?

Christina Aguilera - The voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know(be strong)
You'll break it(hold on)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you, you know that I'm talking to you

Young girl don't cry I'll be right here when your world starts to fall