I thought I would give a little back ground about myself. I have not always struggled with weight. I did always think that everyone always looked better than me when I was a kid. I mentally had a problem with weight. I did not realize this until I was older. I am 5'7 and what they call big boned and I always wanted to look like a 5'2 little fit girl, but that is just not going to happen. So what I am trying to say is that I was not fat as a child or even a teenager I just did not like how I looked. What is funny now is the pictures I see of my self then is what I am trying to get to. You do not realize how good you looked until you have blimped out.
I weighed about 130-135 when I got pregnant with my son. When I delivered him I weighed in at 208. Oh my God!!!! I new I was gaining weight I was just was numb to it and I figured since I was eating for 2 I needed to eat this much. This was the begining of my Love for food. I also would tell myself I will loose it all when the baby gets here. I was 22 so it would be a piece of cake, I thought. Well he was 16 days late and they finally took him by a C-section. My doctor tells me as he is cutting into my muscles I hope you never wanted a six pack. Well I knew then it might not be so easy to get back my shape.
Well I had a 9lb 14oz 22 1/2 in. baby boy he was huge!!! So I lost about 15 lb by the time I had left the hospital and about 11 months later I weight 145 almost there. Then on April Fools Day we found out we were expecting again! Yeah! So when I delivered my other son I weighed in at 205. He was 8lb 14oz 21 1/2 in. Again I thought o.k. in about a year I will loose this weight and all will be good. I had him by C- Section also so again no more 6 pack.
So my weight did not come of so much this time. We had a lot of personal problems. Remember that time my love for food came in well it never left and that really helped with eating out of depression, anger, sad and lonely. I also got my Real Estate license and never took time for a healthy life style. I tried several times but something always got in the way. Well about three years had past and I was staying in the 190's and not coming down. My husband and I split up and maybe for good. We both started searching for something to help us as are last atempt, but we were not living together. I was in our home with our boys and my 2 step children that he has custody of. I love them like they are mine. They were 4 and 6 when we got married. Anyways we both found God! We moved back in together and it has been a struggle but we have made it. We just celebrated our 8th year and counting them all as blessings. The Lord helped and healed my family.
So WW started for me in 2005 for about 3 months then a friend had twins and 6 days later broker her leg. So that was my excuse for not sticking to it. I helped her with the kids. This year I started in October and was not following the plan very well. But one week I gained 3.4lb and that was my wake up. I am done with this! So I decided to start a web page as a motivation for me I am trying to keep a journal and do picture updates to see be a visual motivation. I believe with my determination and prayer I will make it to my goal weight.
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