Recovery

With every breath
Another moment has past
One more moment of life
Underneath her wings
Every breath a challenge
Each bite a war zone in her mind
Time has past
But the war still wages on
She is fighting harder than people realize
The confusion and pain feel sometimes unbearable
Life has become a fight
To hold on means failure in some light
To stop fighting
And succumb to the death that awaits
Is failure in a whole different light
She is unsure
Unsure of whether time really heals all wounds
Unsure of the life that is waiting
And silently missing the life that she has left behind
The fear is paralyzing
She cannot move forward
Yet knows in her soul
That moving backwards is no longer an option
Standing still
Holding on and counting each breath
Another moment has past
One more moment of life
Underneath her wings

"Exhausted" by Erin

Wasting away in the back her mind
disgusted, defeated- inadvertently blind.
She stays where she is- unwilling to move
afraid of herself with nothing to prove.
Worthless & hopeless, she hangs her head low
disguising the pain she's too scared to show.
Feigning perfection, she hides in a mask
overwhelmed by the rules- too exhausting a task.
The numbers, the measurements
the rules and the lies-
Nobody notices the tears in her eyes.
No one could understand her irrational fear
of what she sees starring back in the mirror.
Rejecting all help, nobody cares anymore
her pain, so intense, to deep to ignore.
A despicable failure- negative thoughts flow
But this thing she clings on to...
will not let her go

"Hope" by Erin

Hope, hanging itself like a drip from a faucet
Challenging me, taunting me
Daring me to let it fall
But if it falls, all is lost and I’m alone,
Alone with myself, my deepest fear
With no confidence of ever being well
Today is hard
And I need that hope to sustain me
So I sit on edge with eyes wide open
Staring
Clinging to the unsteady drip of hope
That may drop at any second
But for now
It’s all I have
And I need all I can get

"No One Understands" by Shellchick91

No one see's what we go through,
No one thinks what we think,
No one walks in our shoes,
No one can image what we have to deal with without our self's aproval.

Our parents can't say "we were once teenagers" things change, they wont understand,
They don't go to our school,
They can't go to school with us,
They can't watch us every minuite,
They won't understand.

Some peers will being doing what we go through,
Some peers will say they can help,
That they can work with us to get better, they can't.
No one will understand.

No one will understand,
What I see,
What I think,
Where I walk,
What I image,
What I do,
No one will understand.

"A Poem to Live By" by Outof10

Look to the future, but remember the past
Live for today, live like it’s your last
Chase all your dreams and follow your heart
If all else fails you can always hit‘re-start’

Learn from disappointments, love your own laugh
Listen to your head, walk your hearts true path
Care about others but think for yourself
Spread all your joy and don’t be greedy with wealth

Spend time on your own; make time for your friends
Notice the detail; See life through your lens
Don’t accept insults but listen to those who advise
Keep hold of your memories, grow old and be wise

"Wipe My Tears" by Rainygirl

Wipe my tears that do not show.
Help me so that I may know;
The pain that I do not see,
Is not part of me.
I seem to forget what you say,
But still please wipe my tears away.
I know they are only inside,
I know these tears I should not hide.
But Father you know they are there,
Please wrap me in your care.
Inside it hurts so bad,
I feel so very sad.
The tears are like a deep cut.
I cannot seem to pull out of this rut.
My heart bleeds from the pain,
I feel like I will go insane.
Hold me dear Father today,
I do not know what to say.
So if only you can quite my mind,
It is in you my peace I will find.
I do not know what to do with all inside,
I just want to run and hide.
I know you’re here to show me the way,
It’s in your arms I want to stay.
So please wipe my tears I do not know.
Please help me to let the pain go!

"Escape My Fear" by Rainygirl

I find myself only wishing,
Wishing I only knew how to escape.
Escape from myself,
My own worst fear.
Turning to God in this struggle,
Only to see the wall I have built.
I cry out, I scream out.
Pounding hard as I can,
Weakening I lean against the wall.
Only searching to gain control.
As I gasp for breath,
Once again I cry out.
Words to say I do not know,
I am listening so hard.
I hear you but the words I don’t hold.
I am so weak,
So broken, so battered.
By my own sin.
Please help me escape,
Escape from myself.
My own worst fear.

"Wrap Me in Your Care" by Rainygirl

I only wish I could express the things I’ve bottled in.
I only wish I could control the anger that causes sin.
Lives decisions wait before me,
Father you set me free.

The pain that’s resting on my shoulder;
Burdened down and growing older.
Hold my hand and take me somewhere;
Wrap me in your care.

The tears I hold back from you Father,
Of pain caused by sister and brother.
Hold me close, yes hold me near;
Protect me from myself my fear.

The pain that’s resting on my shoulder;
Burdened down and growing older.
Hold my hand and take me somewhere;
Wrap me in your care.

As I’m looking in the mirror,
I want to see things so much clearer.
Lying sleepless in my bed,
Confusion running through my head.

The pain that’s resting on my shoulder;
Burdened down and growing older.
Hold my hand and take me somewhere;
Wrap me in your care.