Going Down in Flames -- Is the Only Way to Die

Why does Nyria do the things she does? Why is her personality so extreme and contradictory?
To understand this, one needs to see her past.

Nyria Lupin was born into an esteemed family, if one of poverty. Like all young children, she showed a fairly stubborn streak, constantly trying to reassure her independence. Her parents, her mother especially, sought to squash this by forcing her to learn the things she wanted her to learn. She forced her ideals on the young child, who (startlingly) rejected them. Her mother had been late in supressing her daughters curiousity, waiting until she was well past four, and smart enough to realize that her mothers domineering personality was not normal.

This resulted in many fights with her parents, who began referring to her as a disgrace, to get back at her. It worked. Throughout Nyria's childhood, they were forever punishing her for her insolence, growing to dislike her even more.
On her fifth birthday-she recieved a broomstick from a distant cousin, who sympathized for the young girl, but was too afraid of Romulus and Anire to do much else. This broomstick became her escape from her parents, and her life consuming passion. But it was no surprise when her parents took this away from her. They punished her for daring to slack off on her protocol lessons and her studies of the family history, to race on a broomstick.

So they sent her to her Uncle Eofor, hoping that he would teach her to mind her elders and become the perfect daughter. Uncle Eofor had no intention of doing this to his favourite niece.

For the first time, Nyria truly felt what it was like to be loved by someone as a daughter, and realized she needed this in her own life. So Eofor became her father, teaching her to fight back against her parents, installing courage and honour into her mind. He was everything she wanted to be-intelligent, capable, strong willed. She sought to imitate that, and when she returned on her seventh birthday, she showed no fear in rebelling against her parents.

She was never allowed to see Uncle Eofor again. Her parents of course, never knew that she snuck out to races with him, and that he was teaching her how to fly behind their backs.

For four more years, they continued to degrade their eldest daughter, convincing a good part of her that she was a worthless burden. But a part of her mind retained rational thought, and kept her from flinging herself off of a tall building. But even this part scolded her, constantly reminding her that she wasn't good enough-that she should try harder. And so, she allowed her own ideals to be forsaken, and she devoted herself to trying to appease her parents. By this time, however, they had grown fanatical about their deepest dislike for her, and despite her cries for attention, began to ignore her.

This intensified after she went to Hogwarts, and was sorted into Gryffindor. For a family of Slytherins, this was most horrendous, and she was soon completely alienated, in everything but physical contact. They fed her, they clothed her, but they pretended she did not exist. Still, she fought to make them proud, failing miserably. The dreamer that had been awoken by her Uncle simply longed to be accepted by these spiteful fools, who she could not bring herself to hate. Like every child, she yearned to be loved, and did everything short of burning her broomstick and switching houses.

However, Hogwarts opened her eyes to the good in the world, inspired her to commit herself to making the people she loved happy. She met Khas Mazakhi, who puzzled her with muggle-like behaviour-the likes of which she had never seen. Jamie Oates devotion to music wore off on her, and he gave her the bass guitar he had inherited from his cousin, and began teaching her how to play. Dane Thomas became her pillar of strength, and his twin was her connection to the life of her older brother Zachariah. Eli Cell, who pushed her to do better. But then there was Rowen, the lycan who had grown beyond caring. Somehow, she befriended the werewolf, and viewed the girl as a sister. Rowen was untouchable, intelligent, independent, and everything she wanted to be. She sought strength in the first friends she had ever had, and changed. She began wearing a mask of the together girl she desired to be, and did the most bizarre things she could think of-to entertain them.

Their approval meant everything to her, and as the years passed, they all believed she was the mask.
The girl who could make anyone smile or cry, the girl who could pull a prank and lie her way out of it without a sweat. The girl with the eternal smile, the short temper, the passion for mischief and rebelling. Not even Rowen knew of the eternal loneliness she endured. But Nyria kept everyone from knowing-unable to bear the thought of the people she cared about worrying over her.

However, those she did not find worthy of her friendship, often suffered her wrath. They saw the ugly aspects of her personality-her hypocrisy. They saw past the mask, but no one could believe that ever chipper, ever sweet, ever perfect Nyria Lupin could do such a thing.
In her sixth year, Nyria tried out for the Quidditch team as a beater. After years of racing and playing Quodpot, she picked up the bat and soon began to play. She lost herself in Quidditch, and used it to be more like her brothers, whom she admired greatly. Gryffindor won the championship that year, and life couldn't be better. She was passing with straight O's, and if she kept up her performance on the pitch-she would have quidditch teams begging for her to join.

But the summer went terribly wrong.
She returned home to find her parents talking to her again. A pure blooded family, they were intent that she follow her brothers into the ranks of Death Eaters, and take the Dark Mark. Despite her weakness to try and make her parents proud-killing innocent people just didn't click with her. After an arguement and a brief physical confrontation, she simply packed up her posessions and left.

This of course, left her worse off then before. The two people who's approval she most desired were beyond her now, and she was forced to use the last of her money to rent a room in the Leaky Cauldron. In the last week of summer, she met D Riff, who thoroughly irked her.

Due to being born into poverty, Miss Lupin is extremely touchy about issues involving money. Due to her emotionally unstable state, she was easily annoyed, and for the first time, completely shed her mask. She was nasty, sarcastic, and every bit as weak minded as her parents had described her to be. This is why she sought his forgiveness.
After a week into term, the aminosity between the two grew wider. And for the first time at Hogwarts-someone genuinely hated her.

Installing yet another stake of self doubt, she redoubled her efforts to become the perfect daughter, student, quidditch player, musician-anything she did became a complete obsession.

However, around Christmas, she and D became rather good friends, even snogging every once in a while. As she matured throughout the year, she realized that though she wanted to pursue Quidditch, that she had talent in Defense Against the Dark Arts. Studying more then ever, she applied for Auror Training, was accepted, and focused on her NEWTS like none other. Graduating as the top of her house, she entered the Auror Training Program a month after leaving Hogwarts, and within four years, had become a full fledged Auror. She rose through the ranks and has captured several Death Eaters. In the department she’s known as Lady Luck, as she always manages to get out of sticky situations, just in the nick of time.

However, she and her supervisor have a ‘history’ with each other. They shagged in school and he expressed interest in starting a relationship. She said no and he grew bitter, assigning her to tasks which she knew were below her. Including her current assignment.
Acting as a body-guard for an actor.

She’s become an insecure person-sure of her abilities, but unsure of her emotions. She holds people at an arms length, and though it’s lonely, she’s just not one to really get to know people. On the outside, she’s brash, loud, confident, hilarious, and light hearted. On the inside, she’s simply afraid. She doesn’t know how to cope with romance or tragedy, and she remembers everything, carries it to the grave.

However, she is an honourable person. After growing up with Death Eaters, she has sworn her life to fighting against the Dark Lord. She gave up her dreams of Quidditch, so that she could help secure a future where people wouldn’t be afraid to pursuer their hearts desire. She gave up what she wanted most to fight the good fight, risk her life for people who would never even know her.

Audacious, a heavy drinker, and just a strange sort of character, she gets a kick out of pushing buttons and pulling pranks. She’s not a very serious person, but is a force to be reckoned with in dangerous situations.