(11:34 p.m.) Tuesday, March 8, 2005
I have decided against Retro-Glow.net, but Make-Me-Laugh is almost ready. The account is an official account of DotEasy, but the FTP isn't up yet. I think I still have Coffee Cup somewhere in my files. This is almost a last goodbye type thing. I'll leave my rotations and probably forget about this domain completley. I mean come on, it wasn't even a domain! Maybe I'll keep it around for kicks. Who knows? Let's see how MML works out. :)

(12:44 p.m.) Sunday, March 6, 2005
So I'm going to tell you whats in the works for Gammy Force.

One) I'm buying a small domain called Retro-Glow.net that will be my collective. So I'll have to change all my links in the little rotations or whatever. I don't know why I join those really. I guess I just like to see how many clicks my banner gets. Oh...lets see...3.

Two) I'm also buying Make-Me-Laugh.org which my journal will move to. I'm sorry, but you had to know it was coming. I change names and places a LOT. This will probably become a neglected peice of...waste, that just takes up time. Mabye I'll come up with a theme for it. Like my photography or a tutorial site, or an informational site about my gamecube...yeah.

So thats whats happening to the site but to ME is a whole 'nother freaking novel. I feel so out of it. I feel like a friggin ghost or something just hovering around. I don't feel like eating, I don't even feel hungry. I pretend to eat like I did probably a month ago, but its all an act. I told my friend that I had lost 20 lbs since the beginning of the year because of my boxing club. She won't believe me or she's just in awe. Its not that odd. 20 lbs over 5 to 6 months? Is it? Am I killing myself? These are the kind of thoughts I've been having. I feel like some really poetic metaphore but don't want to bother thinking of one right now. I'm going to go breathe some more incense.

(3:36 p.m.) Friday, March 4, 2005
Sorry I haven't been on much lately. I've been feeling kind of funky, like I really zoned. I literally just sit in my room staring at my homework inhaling incense...maybe thats why. I don't know why, but I've been questioning everything. Like peoples behavior, and I'm a lot more self concious. I feel like an effing retard. I'm listening to african folk music a lot more and breathing in way to much incense. It might be because I just found out about my allergy to gulten, which won't let me eat what I normally do. I just have fries for lunch in the cafeteria because I don't know whats going to give me an allergic reaction. Down side, I love pasta and my dad is marrying an Italian woman...damn.

I had this really weird experience today. When I was in study hall, I saw one of my friends walking just outside the window smoking and I was surprised. I had known he smoked and was actually really mad at him for it, but seeing him walk so casually just made me want to slap him or something. Maybe I'm just mad that he gets to destroy his body without realizing it. Here I am, in the middle of the afternoon drinking orange juice and eating some kind of soy thing. Is it because I'm a girl? I don't think so, but who really knows. My consicence is killing me here. I've already made the decision that I'm waiting for another three or so years until drinking and I'm going to try to never smoke or do drugs. Smoking disgusts me, honestly. You think the stupid little tan band of color is there for decoration? No. Its hiding the fact that what your blowing out of your body is that color. Thats disgusting. Its the color of nasty earwax or something. Ewwwwwwwwww......

(12:24 p.m.) Sunday, February 27, 2005
The latest image from gammy-force features...

     

If you're thinking Oh dear god, what is that THING Then I am highly insulted. That happens to be the boy of my dreams...for the moment. In a month or so I'll get a new obsession, but right now its him. And because GOOGLE IS WATCHING US I decided not to show his face. Do you know what the Google computers DO all day? (No, not THAT...) They go to every website and scan it for information for the searches. Not only that, but they MAKE A COPY so they will ALWAYS have your information. This information is stored and kept, and available to ANYONE. Go run under the covers dearies, because they'll find you.

I'm serious. :)

(6:34 p.m.) Saturday, February 26, 2005
So I've taken more pictures, they're all in the photo box (my picture archive). I've also got three new pages, all interesting...to me. I'm sorry I'm not writing much but my MOUTH hurts so MUCH. I've got new brackets at the very back of my lower teeth. Right now they're clawing into the side of my mouth. ow! And the stupid Tylenol gelcaps aren't working. Stop. Think. Get the Advil. :)

(11:46 a.m.) Friday, February 25, 2005
Guess what smart little loser figured out how to use a camera! Thats right, I did! I thought I'd show you my earphones, since they are hilariously broken and taped together.

     
     

ooo. Looks like I should have used flash...

(07:59 p.m.) Thursday, February 24, 2005
oooooooo. Look at the pretty new layout. *curtseys* thank you, thank you.
on a more human note: DAMN DELIAS!
So there's a winter sale at one of my favorite(-ish) clothing stores: delias. I love, worship, and need the deer and bunny t-shirt, but they don't have it! aahhhhh! wow. I just realized how materialistic I'm being. Oh well. I want that shirt *sobs*. I am getting a lot of other crap though. I'm getting two pairs of shoes, two t-shirts, and two sweaters. it occured to me that I'm getting two of everything, its like noahs ark! And then the two pairs of Royal Lighting shoes went on the ark, one pink, one light green, as God had specified. Thats cute.
I had another diving lesson today. I actually got to use the board this time. My shins are all bruised from climbing out of the pool without using the ladder. Its a luxury that you don't realize you have until its gone. Its easy enough to climb out of the shallow end, but when you have nothing to push on its hard. I look like an idiot. I'm flailing around, kicking the water, half out already. Its actually quite embarrasing. Whats actually funny though, is that everytime I jumped in and thought I totally screwed up, my teacher was like 'perfect! good, do it again.' I don't think he was being sarcastic either, so I felt like an idiot again. It was pretty embarrasing, not to mention I look like an idiot in a bathing suit ANYWAYS.

(06:48 p.m.) Wednesday, February 23, 2005
I'm so so sorry that I've been gone so long. Its no particular event thats been happening, just a lack of time and/or resources.
I'm spending a lot more time on aim, so if you want to talk to me there (benny the llama) I'd be happy to hear from you.
just please be interesting.
I hate people who just say 'hey' and you don't know them so you have no idea what to talk about. And also, think about this: no one wants to hear that you've been doing nothing. So if someone says 'whats up' don't just say 'n2m' or something. be honest and say anything, like 'oh, i'm downloading some new music. hey, do you like artist a, b, or c?' because THAT will spark conversation.
Out of somewhere, my step sister got the sn of the Steven guy from laguna beach. She had tried talking to him before, but had just said hey, which no one really wants to reply to. When I tried to talk to him, I said 'I want to frost you like a wolf.' (an inside joke with some of my friends). I actually TALKED to this person for a while and found out that we both love the band Eve 6.
So don't be boring! Go on, with your new-found wisdom and make some friends.

(08:37 p.m.) Wednesday, February 2, 2005
Cue the yodeling entourage! I'm back! so anyways, bored as hell, waiting for life to start. The Wiz is going up on the -CENSORED FOR MY PROTECTION- of Februrary (i never can spell that). on the 9, the preformance is at 3:30 and i get to miss the last two periods of the day to go set up! score! i'll miss physics and japanese. i'm only really sad about japanese because everythings going so well in that class. i got a 96% on my mid-year and my teacher/sensi suggested me for Japanese II HONORS next year! that and i was chosen to host one of the visiting japanese students! yay! so i'm excited about that. i'm also making a mix CD for my friend because she is the only person i know (besides my mom) who likes the same music i do. that and she's just a great person. :)

peace out.

(10:43 a.m.) Monday, January 31, 2005
So a lots happened since i left for the weekend. actually, not really. a few things though. i am going to a summer camp to study film-making! its going to be really great, except i have to help pay by giving my parents 0. maybe more. :(

(04:18 p.m.) Wednesday, January 26, 2005
to proclaim my love or not to proclaim my love? i want to shout out his name (or in this case type it in caps), but i'm too shy. what if one of my friends read this and gasp. 'oh my god!' they'll say. 'she likes HIM?!?!' its true that only one person knows, but we always tell each other and i know who she likes. the thing is, both of the people we like are older so any chances we have are slim. its still fun to pretend though. :)

(02:55 p.m.) Tuesday, January 25, 2005
so, a few things have been changed. the default for that area is the calendar, and so the bottom link is still credits, the middle link is now blank, and the top link is back to the calendar. this puts me back in the same predicament of what else to add. oh well. i still have my previous post below in italics.


yay! i found the perfect thing for the middle button! a calendar! try it out! o score!

sorry, i'll try to relax. in case you haven't noticed, the other buttons are for personal info/credits and the button thats higher up is just to clear the space. so if you click on it and nothing loads, thats good. :).

my mom rented 'the son the of the pink panther' so i think i might go watch it. e-mail me if you have any other ideas about what to do with the site.

(02:13 p.m.) Tuesday, January 25, 2005
well. i got the little link blobs working. i still don't know what i want the middle one to be though.
poetry?
just because i write it, doesn't mean you'll want to read it.
graphics for you?
i thought i said i wasn't going to do that?
photography?
with what camera o_O.
playlists?
thats just pointless.
i'm running out of ideas.

ANYWAYS. i actually have school tomorrow, and my midterms. i really want to get them over with now. i checked on my calculator and in order to get a 90 in my english class i'll have to get a 98 on the midterm. whoops. i can hear my grades slipping.

hello world! (05:09 p.m.) Monday, January 24, 2005
today was a snow day! hurrah! it was announced that tomorrow will be too, but i might walk to school anyways. there were supposed to be midterms today, tomorrow, and wednesday. thank you weather man!

oh my goodness, my head is pounding. o look! athena has sprung from my scalp! wait a minute....she's saying something! its...its...ITS..."Go study my child. You will not pass your Physics midterm if you do not." Go away Athena, you suck!

now i suppose i should work on the other pages.
ciao bella!