b l o g

august 2, 2006

Ok, I saw POTC 2 a few days ago, it was awsome.. expect a POTC layout soon to come Alrighty, been a few days, but I basically forgot about that insident mentioned below, although I'm still entierly aware of the posibility of it being real. I just got some awsome news (I use the word "awsome far too much..) some producer is thinking of putting Libba Bray's amazing books onto the big screen! I can't wait!! Though, no producer could ever do those books justice (read bout it).

aly

july 27, 2006

Ok, so I go on the internet, and in stead of msn.com as my homepage, it's this page that looks somewhat like the "server not found" page or whatever, anyway, it said that I've been visiting all these illegal pages and there is a frwaking investigation going on... orsomething like that... wtf? It better be some joke, because I have not been on any... lets just say... inappropriate sites. It seriously better be a joke because it's actually starting to worry me. Meh, I hope I forget it tomorrow, because I have a really nasty feeling in the pit of my stomach... the infamous "butterflies".

So, my mom is trying to get my grandma to bring my brother and me to see POTC 2. A little late... I think I may be the last person in the world who hasn't see it .

P.S.... this investigation crap is really getting to me.... Why me? I'm fourteen years old for god's sake, what nasty sites would I go to... ok, so I ran across a really nasty (no... funny) smily today... hehe, I would put it up, except it is pretty rude... peace out... meh..

berber, aka aly

july 26, 2006

It's been a while. I've just barely snatched up a few moments at 4:06a.m. to write this. I got the PC game Syberia today, out of sheer boredom. I finished it about on hour ago... it was actually a really awsome game. The running round can get annoying, but the plot is very imaginative and unique, I recommend it.

Nothing much has been happening with me lately. One of my best friend moved yesterday. She lives about two hours away now... I don't think it's sunk in yet. Anyway.. she came to see me yesterday, brought back my belt and gave a a quick hug. She's gone. I got to thinking, as I usually do, I'm worked up about highschool... true, but she has to go to a new highschool with no friends, at least I have my trusty buffers... she's alone.

I'm trying to post pictures, but my digital camera is a peice of shit, so... yeah.

berber

july 19, 2006

Ok, question, it is weird or perhaos ever wrong for a fourteen years old to be thinking fo far ahead? I know what I want to be, any I'm pretty sure thats a good thing, but for some reason I have this odd sense of failure, it's just an empty feeling i the pit of my syomach.. for some reason I just cant beleive I can ever be a journalist. What do I have to feel tht I failed at? I'm a good student, a decent rider, I've managed to stay out of trouble, drugs and being a slut. So why in fucking hell do I insist on pushing myself down. I know why, I think... my self esteem is like, non-existant as is my confidence. It's a shame

berber

july 18, 2006

It's kind of confusing how I feel right now. I'm a kind of person that is pretty happy just sitting at her computer, watching T.V., being outside, riding, talking, pretty much anything to keep me occupied and away from myself.. need me to explain? In a way, I'm the sole reason I get so depressed, it's when I think about all the things that get me stressed, that upset me, that just generally just get me depressed, and once I get those thoughts in my head, I just completely feel like shit. I wonder, do I subconsiously enjoy making myself this way? Probably not, but it's just everytime I'm unoccupied, everytime I sit back from the keyboard to gather muse my mind it atomatically directed to my bad thoughts, I wish I could make it stop... or start to feel better about myself/mylife.... not likely.

On lighter thought, my last riding lesson was awsome, incredibly hot, but awsome. My mom (without talking to me about it) changed it to 11:00 am, niw, you may think, thats not so bad... no, but for someone who has managed to single handedly fuck up their sleeping pattern, it's not fun. I don't care anymore, infact, I'm actually happy. Usually I ride with one other, but I was al alone this time, all focused on me, just the way I like it, hehe... j/k... sort of. Annnyway, I just had this control over Travis, we had that conection this time, he listened (witch isn't always the case) and I did my best to try and just give him the reins and let him go. When you do, he is fast, but he also gets EVERY lead correct and doesn't constently speed around... it's his way of say "ok, you play the no-reins-no-trust game, I'll play the crazy-wild-paint-runs-around-rampant-till-you-give-me-some-slack... But honestly, I really don't have alot of trust in him, his speed scares me, it takes one time losing control and a stirrup on him and I just can't allow him to... "just go" as my instructor so lightly puts it....god, I wish he was mine... :'(

berber

f a c t s

real name: alyson
online names: berber, devaet, nadjika
sports: horsebck riding
pasttimes: riding, reading, personalising, shopping, being with my mom, writing, being generally depressed
favorite show: Inked, Family Guy
celebrity crush: Daniel Radcliffe... I cannot help myself -pulls off face- I NEED HELP!
favorite book(s): A Great and Terrible Beauty, by Libba Bray. Rebel Angels, by Libba Bray. Song of the Lioness Quartet, by Tamora Peirce, Memoirs of a Geisha, by Arthur Golden
favorite movies: Memoirs of a Geisha, Pirates of the Carribean, Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest, Hotel Rwanda, The Benchwarmers, American Pie (all of them), Pride and Prejudice (the new one), Labyrinth, more coming
owns: rabbit; rosie. dog; jack. hamster, honey bear R.I.P.
wants to be: journalist and maybe part time author
is afraid of: the dark, hurricanes, tornadoes
actors: Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom, Joaquin Phoenix, Daniel Raddcliffe (and not just because he is hott, he truly is talented beyong words) (more coming)
actresses: Keira Knightley... yeah, thats all.. i just simply hate other females.. well, technically, I hate female celebrities *lol*

right now

wearing: pajamas; pinks short shorts with white dots (some outlined in orange), white tank top
listning to: Ms. New Booty, Bubba Sparxx ft. Ying Yang Twins (omg...)
watching: nothing
eating: nothing
drinking: nothing
talking to: no one
programs open: the Gimp
muse-o-meter: - 0 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 +
trying to: do a great many thing.. perhaps too many.

very small bio

Yes, it is a very small bio, seeing as nothing interesting has happened to me ever in my life. Basically what I'm saying is, I've never been out of Canada, I've never won a horse show (ok, one, my first walk/trot class... it was also the first show/class I've ever competed in, I'm not really a competitive), and I'm fourteen... the interesting stuff will come in two years or so.

I started riding when I was twelve, yes, a late bloomer. The first stable I rode at was a dump who had me jumping around 2 feet within my first few months. Do I think this was a good choice? No, a little rushed, I think. Anyway, the instructors where incompetent and the horses where all lame. Since then, I've ridden at three other stable, finally I've found my calling, Preston Rosedale Farm. There, I've also found the horse that was simply made for me, and I for him; Travis, a...young paint gelding (I don't know his age, just that he is young and feisty).

I can't remember exactly when it was, but I can remember the site that led to my love of the internet, it was none other than Berbie.com. I used to always see comercials for it, so one day (just as the comercial had said to do) I asked my parents if I could go on the site. If I could do this over, I'd turn off the T.V., the internet has since then prevented me from having a life... then again, it has also allowed me to access the RPing world which I owe better writing skills, a better vocabulary and a love for writing to, I guess the internet has been good for me, or would have been if I signed on in moderation.

I've gone to the same middle school my whole life, though my friends have changed over the years, the best of them have remain steadily at my side. I'm pretty good in school, always was, and never getting in trouble (I later regret this), my grades seldomly fell lower than a B.

Wow, this isn't a bio, it's a list of all my fuck-ups....

I <3...