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My Take On Love

dictionary's definituon of 'love':

Love- v. 1. to hold dear. 2. to feel a lover's passion, devotion, or tenderness for.

My take on 'love'....

I have all this raw passion
That has no where to go.
It's bottled up inside me.
Set it free, it will not hold...

I cannot bring myself to say,
Or even write
What it is
I feel inside.
This is the closest I can come
To professing what I try to hide.....

Sleepless nights
With tear-filled eyes.
Thoughts of you
Make me cry.
There's no place more
I'd rather be,
Than in your arms
Holding me.

You're gentle touch.
You're warm embrace.
I long to see
Your loving face.
I wish you here
Right beside me.
In this bed.
Lying next to me.

I want of feel you breathe.
Want to feel you heart beat.
I want to fall asleep with you.
I need you here beside me.

Gray are the days
When we are apart.
Before I awake,
The grieving starts.

Thoughs of you
Keep me from sleep.
But those same thoughts
Drive me to weep.

With out you,
My dreams are dull.
Restless hours
Prone to bawl.

My tears are empty.
I cry in vain.
No one else
To share this pain.
No one knows
The hurt I feel.
Safely hidden,
Well concealed.

Issues of mine
Are mine alone.
The depression I have
Goes unshown.

Your sympathy is useless.
Your sorrow; just for show.
You say
You hate
To see me sad.
Though I know
You really don't.

So why burden others
With my problems?
They are mine.
I shall solve them.
If no solution,
I will burry them.
Down below,
In the deepest chasm.

Few keys open
That contraption.
Ones that do
Bear mixed reactions.

Locked an barred
Are the gates to my heart.
But you broke in,
And slew the guards.

And now I feel
More vulnerable
That I ever have before.
Is this love
I have tasted?
For I hunger for some more.

The words upon you lips,
I've never heard before.
You promise that you mean them...
And though I do believe them,
My timid nature, I abhor.

You tell me that you love me,
I am a virgin to these words.
You are the first to say them.
You've seen though this wretched curse.

Your words echo in my head.
And yet,
I hold back
Ever hesitant.
For what, I do not know.
The incentive is unknown.
My intuition tells me
I deserve to be alone.

And thought I beg to differ,
Though I long to be with you,
My instincts say its not to be.
And there's nothing I can do.

I've trained myself to withhold tears.
Thus, tears are rarely shed.
But my eyes strive to find
Even the smallest excuse
To bid myself to cry.

Though the motive
For my weeping
Isn't spoken.
There are so many reasons
Why this emotion
Has awoken.

All I want is
Someone to cry with.
Someone to lay next to.
Someone to fall asleep with.
Thus far, I've done with out him...
But now I ache for his soft kisses.

All this, I fear to say.
As I'm dreading the reaction.
And I am far too fucking cautious
To fuck up this attraction.

I'm afraid that if I say
What it is I am thinking,
I will scare him away...
And that's the last thing I am wishing.

When I'm with you,
My words to fade.
My charisma is depleted.
My emotions, poorly conveyed.

But when I am with out you,
My thoughts cannot be tamed.
Your name running swiftly through my mind
Until my mind is sharply maimed.

It has become clear
That I have changed.
No longer concerned
With other people's names.
It just me and you.
The whole world can fuck off.
I don't need their pointless shit.
I need you.
I lvoe you.

^{Wow...It only took me

146 lines, 624 words

to express how i feel...

I wrote this for.......... you know who you are.}