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This site is my place to publish my poems. Not much else. Just poems. Written by me. The top links are the links to my poems.. i think there's about 8 right now.. undoubtably more to come..heh >never seems to run out of inspiration... just will to write<
and yeah, i know it's virtually pointless, but i like posting them cause.. it's not like anyone reads them anyway. hell, i dont even read them. Seriously.. i forget what i wrote and I'll go back later and be like "damn, that was a good line.. i dont remember writing that" haha.
Har. The oldest on here were written over a year ago. The newest one was written about 6 months ago, and I haven't written anything decent since. I wish i'd written dates on them, so I knew exactly when I wrote each, but I didn't think of it at the time, so hardly any of them have real dates.
I Know How It Feels
Did you ever feel like crying,
But couldn't find the tears
Did you ever feel like cutting flesh,
Just to see the blood appear
Did you ever feel like punching something,
Just to see it break apart
Did you ever stop and wonder why
You are the way you are
Did you ever get the feeling
That you aren't worth anything
Inadequate and worthless,
That you'll amount to nothing
Did you ever fail at something
You thought you never would
Did you ever succeed at something
You thought you never should
Did you ever get discouraged
By the tings you see on TV...
Even though, I'm sure you know,
It's not reality
Did you ever think
That if you died,
No one would miss you
Did you ever plan a suicide,
And then attempt it too
Did you ever feel
Like everyone
Was ignoring you
That no body is listening,
Or even trying to
Did this feeling get so dark
That you got lost inside?
And you couldn't find a corner
Permitting you to hide
Did you ever play the same song
Over and over again,
Just because you could related
To the message being given
Ever you talk to yourself,
When no one is around
Do you do this just to hear
Your own thoughts put to sound
Ever try to write down your thoughts,
But the words just wouldn't come
Have you ever felt this helpless,
As you feel yourself go numb
Did you ever feel nothing,
When you know you should feel sad
When someone dies,
It's normal to cry.
But instead you just sit back.
You watch them all go by
And pay respects,
One last time.
People crying all around,
You feel nothing,
You just frown.
And you pretend to be sad,
But on the inside
You feel nothing.
And not one tear is shed.
For this numbness is forthcoming.
And all at once you realize
That death can come too soon.
And you know just how the corpse is feeling,
Because inside you're dead too.
No emotions can be read.
And the voices in your head,
Think this numbness will not pass.
They suggest a stronger med.
But the meds have all stopped working;
It seems you've become immune.
So you sit here feeling nothing,
Gazing at the knife and spoon.
No will to live.
No reason to eat,
To nourish the disease
That lives deep down beneath.
There is nothing that can help you.
To this demon you're exposed.
There is nothing left to live for.
You regret the life you chose.
But what youve done
Is permanent.
It cannot be removed.
and as you start
to slip away
you realize what
you were meant to do.
But now there is no turning back.
You cannot change the past.
And you realize this is true,
As it all fades to black.
About:
hrm.. this is the second oldest one. and my most abstract poem, i think.. aaron and i were discussing how hard it is to describe how it feels to feel that way.. i didn't exactly get it right, but i got close. :shrug: that's what it feels like to me anyway..
