Welcome Young One

Hey peeps. I'm kinda annoying if you don't get to know me first. I have little quirks like calling women "woman" when I get angry with her. Which almost none of my friends mind that because I'm gay and they know that I'm not saying to belittle them but I just wanted to let you all know that.

On the other hand I can also be a total sweetheart and know when you are hurting and what not. I will almost always try to help out in anyway that I can so sorry if that gets on your nerves. I know a lot of do-it yourselfers.

I know alot of people aren't going to believe what I'm about to say but I have alternate personalities. See my religion page, for the explanation of what they are and why they're here, but this page is so you can get to know them a little better so when I say their names they will take over my body and they will type.

• Michael - Hello all you people out there in internet land, in most of our past lifes Shaun and I were lovers, this time I didn't want to forget him, so I made a deal with the Goddess that if she let me be reborn into his body this time and didn't make me forget what we had been through last life, that I would teach him the old ways. This is important because Shaun plays a role in the end. Anyway, I'm a nice person unless you get on my bad side. If you know Shaun your probably thinking that I sound a lot like him, but then dismiss it that it's just because we've known it each other for almost 8000 years, but that's not it. I ususally take over for Shaun at school, because he's not good at dealing with people. Well I don't want to take anymore I'll turn it over to Shadi.
  Note: This is Shaun, Michael has left to be reborn, he left because I loved someone else, and if he had stayed I wouldn't be able to find my mate for this life. Anyway just wanted to let everyone know Michael is gone.
  
• Shadi - Hello, I am Shaun's guardian. I've been with Shaun as long as Michael has, and by Tiamat he was a difficult little teenager always getting in to trouble. Of course I would give anything to go back to that time so that I could protect him from everything like I used to. Now I'm forced to only protect of astral attacks. Don't get me wrong, I keep busy if not fighting off attacks then training the new guardians, Lilo, Isis, and Shinron. I'm a father of about 300 dragons, but I'm in my prime and now with my mate here I predict I will be father to many more. I'll turn it over to Saphira now.
• Saphira - I am Shadi's mate as he said. I'm about 400 years older than Shadi, Michael and Shaun, but I do love them all. I treat them as my own litter, even though ones my mate and the other two are a different species. I like it when humans cause chaos, because it's just fun to watch. I use magic, as well as the natural ablities of dragons. Different Dragons use different innate abilities, like Green, or Brown dragons control the earth element on the astral plain. Blue dragons like myself and Shadi control water. But I'm sure your more interested in fire breathing, well sorry to disappoint you but Shadi and I don't breathe fire, we breathe ice, just like the white dragons. I don't really feel like giving a list of all the colors and the corresponding powers, nor do I feel like giving over control so bye now.
• Shinron - Hello, I am Shaun's most powerful guardian, I will obey any command he may give me, and I will fight to the death for him. While I do not approve of him having friends my master insists that he needs them, so I do nothing to intervene, but some of them I would like to rip into and have their blood drip over my claws. The way they hang all over him, he's had to send me away just about everytime they hug him because I just want to bite off their heads and taste their vile blood. Useless slobs. My master wishes to take control again so I must depart. Farewell.
• Lilo - Hi everybody, I'm a female purple dragon, I'm very playful, and according to Shadi and Shinron I need to take my job more seriously, but I'm like come on when he has two other devoted powerful dragons, an in body lover, a wind mage, a spirit fox, a necromancer, a devoted dragons mate, plus he's got his own power and barriers, I don't think he really needs me. Hell the only reason he even has, Isis, Shinron, and myself is to train us so we can be ready when he dies to get our own charges. Maybe I just don't like taking my work seriously because I know he doesn't need me but you know when he does I'm right there for him, because he has been nothing but nice to me since I got here. Well it's time for you to hear from Isis.
• Isis - I'm a white dragon, I don't like sharing so I will keep this breif. I'm happy here, because Shaun is nice, and won't let anyone be too rough on us(Lilo and me). We all get enough to eat and we all have our own perches to rest at when we are tired. He even is going to give me a physical manifestation soon.
• Trinity, Toomin, Illishar - We are psychic vampire. We have, the ability, to feed, off the, energy of, the creatures, we inhabit, as well, as the, ones he, comes in, contact with. Shaun has, forbid us, to feed, off his, friends so, we are, forced, to feed, off of, him. We feel, bad about, that. Because he, is very, kind he, let's us, live here, and provides, housing for, us and, everyone else. We must, leave now.
• Silus - Hey everyone, I'm a necromance, I raise and control the dead. I'm a pretty nice person despite my constant contact with the dead and undead. Especially since while I'm here I can't use anything that has to do with necromancy. Which sucks yes but you know it doesn't really matter because I get to mess with his friends heads. Time is meaningless to me because I haven't aged in over 3000 years. I like long walks on the beach at night under a full moon, with a slight breeze, and those are the only conditions in which I am willing to walk on the beach. Since having my powers bound I've discovered I have a flare for art, which I think is fun, but Shaun and Shadi are both like errr. They have no appreciation for art. Oh and now they are trying to say that contorting innocent people is not art. Psh what do they know. Well I actually have to give up my spot to that idiot dragon Shinron. Oh well. Late
• Inpachi - I'm a griffion, I fight to protect this vessel, and I will destroy any who try to destroy him. His honor is my prime concern, he found me on the astral plain and gave me a home and helped me to regain my health. Before Shaun, I had a fight with my matriarch and I was pretty badly injured. Both of my wings were broken, and my claws were stuck in my matriarch's hind side. I will do anything for Shaun, so I wouldn't advise hurting him. I must go now and watch over Shaun, he has had a vision and it caused him pain.
• Akiri - Iliana, Artemis and myself are all elves. We all live in the woods inside Shaun's head. I think Shaun's kind of a pain in the ass. He's always swithing with me when he's talking to his friends. Then he scolds me when I speak my mind to them, but I mean what does he expect. The only reason I'm here is that Tiamat wanted extra protection for him, and I can't go back to my people because once we leave that's it. I give control to my dear friend Iliana now.
• Iliana - Akiri and I grew up together, but because I began to show signs of having a child they threw me out, not because I was going to have a baby, but that Artemis' father is not an elf. The people in our home village don't like half-breeds. Especially when the child is half elf half dragon. See dragons, can take on a huminoid form if they learn the right spells. Well Artemis' father knew the right spells and no the father is not in this body. My babe's father was a silver dragon, smaller than Shadi but larger, than Shinron. I do love him so but after I was with child he knew that it would be better for us if we didn't see each other again. But neither of us forsaw the other elfs finding out until after Artemis was born. Well they did and so I found Akiri and here I am.
• Artemis - My mommy told me not to say to much. I like it here, the forest is always green and the sky changes colors all the time. Shaun is nice, I don't care what Auntie says I like him. Shadi let's me ride on his back when him and the others are training. It's fun. Mommy say I have to go bye bye.
• Solembum - I'm a werecat, I don't feel like sharing so here is Areos.
• Areos - I'm a spiritfox that's all, no more.
• Kazejin - Hi it's me Shaun, Kazejin can't share right now because he is working on making it rain. Don't worry though I will get him to talk eventually.

Please if you are here to learn about me then I encourage you to read this next part that I like to call Rants of a Mad man if nothing else I encourage you to read the last paragraph, as it gives you an idea of what I'm doing and why I do some things. If you've stumbled upon my site for any other person then you really don't need to be here but read on I don't mind

Why can't things ever be easy? Why do I crave to be alone, only to find that when I'm alone I crave people? You would think that finally getting sometime to myself I would appreciate that, but it really just makes me realize how lonely I truly am. I mean sure I have freedoms I don't normally do. Like I can walk around however I want to. I can leave the house in drag. I can smoke whenever wherever I want to. I can eat what I want, and I can do things on my time frame. But I guess the part of me that wanted to be a slave for so long, the part of me that wishes that whatever devine being created us, didn't give us freewill. That part needs the structure of other people. I, like everybody else, need a purpose. I unlike other people, need someone to define my purpose for me. If I'm meant to save people from the brink of death, I need someone to say so. If I'm meant to be a homeless prostitute then I need someone to say so. I'm so confused. Because that part and my independent part are at war with one another. I mean if someone told me what my purpose was, I would probably become resentful of them, and be defensive and not even bother to listen to what they have to say. Because despite my need for people, need for someone to give me direction, I'm also pig-headed and defiant.

How can I change this? How I can I choose which part to keep and which part to give up? And after choosing how do I get rid of the part I don't want or need? It seems I need both parts of myself. I need the slave part so that I will continue to search for a purpose or someone who knows my purpose, but I also need the master part, so that I don't accept just any one's idea of what my purpose in life is. I need the slave part, because when the master part decides it doesn't want to listen, my slave side will make it listen, then the two will join to make a decision. But what happens when there are no decisions to be made? When I have time to myself and I'm forced to think about my future. Do I really think that my purpose in life is to work in a goodwill forever? Will I ever be able to open a shop, and have my dream home? Will I ever find someone who will love me because of my faults instead of inspite of them?

Happiness it seems is just a passing thing, from my point of view, no one can be happy all the time. But is that such a bad thing? And is that true? On the one hand you would think that someone who is happy all the time must be insane, or else repressing some rage and will one day kill everyone they know. On the other hand, somoene who is truly happy, could feel the things like anger, and sorrow, and jealousy, etc, but still be happy in their soul. Anger, Sorrow, Jealousy, these are all fleeting emotions. They pass quickly because to keep them with you for quite some time has effects on your body. But if someone is truly happy wouldn't they still be able to feel happy even if it's only a glimmer, during their most violent rages, or their deepest depressions, or their most bitter jealous? Should that be the scale on which I should measure on how happy I am? But then if Anger, Sorrow, and Jealousy are temporary then by the same token shouldn't happiness also be fleeting? It is my view that superficial happiness (such as when you get a good report card, your mother tells you good job, or you dog learned a new trick) is fleeting. But true happiness (such as when you realize you've just found the person you will spend the rest of your life with) is the everlasting brand of happiness, the kind that weathers storms with you but never leaves, and is always there to grab the paint brush and silver paint and give those clouds a silver lining. This is the happiness I seek, this is the happiness I believe everyone seeks, but either don't realize it or haven't found it.